Place To Fall

Lucy's p o v

I screamed out hearing Kendra mutter oh no..she tightened her grip on me. Pleading with me.

Kendra: "Lucy let it go"

Lucy: "Let it go Kendra!"

I screamed everyone stopped to watch me.

Lucy: "You want me to let it go!"

"This creep videoed me having sex"

My anger was literally stiffing me to the point of being frozen. I started to feel sick as I grabbed Kendra's arm she squeezed my hand rubbing my back.

Kendra: "Breathe Lucy just breathe let it go"

"Eddie's not stupid enough to do anything with it right Eddie?"

Kendra challenged him her blue eyes shining bright like icicles my breathing was fast and hard.

Eddie who thinks he's the son of the frigging god father despite his four foot frame shock in his boots. He fumbled with his cell phone.

Eddie: "U-h -oh no.."

He squeaked out stepping back as I stepped towards him.

Malcolm: "Nah he just recorded it for his own personal viewing pleasure

Yea that's what I call a good night's wet dream"

I glared at Malcolm Hammond as Eddie hissed.

Eddie: "Shut-up man"

Malcolm shrugged like what did I say wrong?

Cassie: "Ew gross freaks"

Cassie muttered as I let out an ear piercing scream. Right before I grabbed his cell phone from him he squeaked as I slammed it over his head over and over.

Brett, Kendra, Cassie: "Lucy calm down Lucy!"

Brett, Kendra, Cassie all grabbed me as I ripped the sims card out shoving it into my purse before throwing his phone. Eddie cowered in the same spot quivering his hands over his head.

Brett: "Lucy calm down Eddie's harmless"

I shoved Brett off.

Lucy: "He recorded us why are you defending him?"

Brett: "Baby he didn't.."

Lucy: "Don't baby me Brett I'm your girlfriend

Defend me not your little bitch"

I sneered Brett sighed pushing his hair back.

Brett: "Lucy don't start"

Lucy: "Why Brett why not?"

Brett: "Cause were in public"

Lucy: "So what I'm good enough to screw in public but not good enough to defend?"

Brett: "It's embarrassing Luce"

"Luce don't be such a"

Lucy: "A what Brett?"

Patrice: "Psycho"

I spun hearing Patrice open her mouth.

"Oh no"

Cassie muttered grabbing me hard dragging me.

Cassie: "You just don't know when to shut your mouth do you?"

Molly sneered to her Charlotte laughed.

Charlotte: "Yea the pot calls the kettle black"

Molly: "Oh shut-up Charlotte"

Kendra: "Both of you shut it"

Kendra hissed they obeyed crossing their arms as Cassie and Kendra dragged me off.

Lucy: "Control your mafia wannabe Brett

Before he ends up floating in the river"

I hissed

Patrice: "Take your meds crazy"

I jumped at Patrice who squeaked jumping into a stunned Evan Goldman's arms. Kendra's heals dug into the soft ground as I heard her grunt while her and Cassie tried to hold me back.

Cassie: "Damn your hard to hold

Lay off the chips Luce it's like pulling a sack of potatoes"

That stopped me dead in my tracks did Cassie just call me fat? I felt my face heat up as I felt dizzy.

"Lucy!"

Someone screamed as I spun around everyone was staring at me eyes wide. Stop staring I'm not fat! I wanted to shout but my throat was clogged the fire consumed my body I needed to fix this.

Kendra: "Lucy"

Kendra shouted as I ran shoving past them with only one thing on my mind. My heart was pounding so hard I could barely breathe. I felt the tears welling up my feet pounded against the pavement so hard I felt the heals ripping off; great my Gucci heals that cost me over 2,000, I stumbled but I didn't fall.

My legs burned my chest was on fire.

I could hear them yelling for me as I ran looking around when I was certain I was alone and no one had followed me. I slipped into the bathroom locking the door. I ran to the nearest stall fighting off the tears. I fell on my knee's in front of the porcelain goddess letting the tears flow as the words ran through my head.

Ugly

Fat

Cow

Slut

Screw them all I thought there were people that thought I was amazing.

"Your not fat Luce don't listen to them your beautiful

I got the hottest cutest cheerleader

Lucy always remember your only as good as what you believe.."

But I couldn't shake it off cause what if they were right? What if I was fat?

Trying to breathe didn't help only one thing would closing my eyes. I stuck my finger down my throat. I felt my throat contract as the acid rose from my stomach. Gagging I coughed over and over willing it to come up willing the ugly out so the beauty could shine through. I felt it coming up I focused on relaxing the numbers wouldn't stop though. They invaded my mind.

29 calories in one carrot stick..

The acid rose burning my throat coughing as hard as I could I forced it out gagging as I gripped the seat as gross as it made me feel. I needed to get it out my life depended on it. Taking a deep breath I coughed sticking my finger down till I felt it gag me this time it came easier.

35 calories for the half of the apple Charlotte made me eat this morning the burning increased as the acid poured out of me. Blinding me while my eyes released their own version of hot acid. My stomach ached but I didn't care the burn felt good cause it meant it was getting rid of the grossness.

"I like my women thin and hot!"

Women like Kendra I knew what he meant not fat cows like me. I breathed heavier forcing my finger down my throat while my other hand squeezed the fat on my stomach.

Fat that shouldn't be there, I was suppose to be beautiful come on Luce you can do it. Do it so Brett loves you even though your a horrible girlfriend.

I spit up gagging as I threw up this one was for you Brett cause you deserve a girlfriend you can be proud of.

Closing my eyes as the vomit came up again. My chest was ready to explode. Would I ever be use to this? As long as I have done this I could never get use to that horrible way my throat gags and burns as the feel of the acid rises.

After who knows how long I felt back against the stall breathing so hard and erratic. I felt my stomach rise up without trying. Grabbing the floor I pulled myself up just in time before I puked again.

Sweating and shaking getting the last of it up before I curled up in a ball the tears overflowed coming in giant sobs. My whole body was consumed no matter what I did I would never be thin enough never be beautiful enough the sobs choked me gagging me. What did I do to deserve this? Why did god hate me? Why would he curse me with this ugly body? Why couldn't I just be five pounds lighter? Why did Kendra have no problem staying so thin? It wasn't fair!

Once the spell ended I stood up shaking, flushed the toilet. I checked to make sure no one had gotten in even with the locked door. Relived I slipped out going over to the sink. Looking into the mirror I felt the tears well up all I saw was a huge black mess running down my face.

My fat red cheeks, my eyes looked blood shot my face flushed. I was ugly plain and simple fat and ugly no wonder Brett was ashamed of me. Washing my face rinsing my mouth I gagged at the nasty taste quickly finding a breath spray.

Taking a deep breath I tried to prepare myself to go out there tried to control my racing insides. I felt dizzy still and shaky but I had to maintain.

I had to be in control. Looking around as I stepped outside I had to hold tight to the door my legs shock Could I really leave the safety of my place to fall? Could I go back out there? Taking a deep breath I heard my cell ringing sure enough Kendra was texting me.

Where r u?

Were worried text me Luce