Words Hurt Actions Burn

Charlotte's p o v

The tears over whelmed me as I got up fleeing from the room. Those words came back to me in painful jabs I would prove them wrong I would be beautiful and I would be thin.

Locking the door I turned on the water leaning over the toilet I didn't need help I did it so often. I basically willed it thoughts of Lucy's thin strong body filled my mind as I puked over and over,

Kendra: "There you are I was wondering what happened to you"

Kendra's voice was sleepy she was curled up by Lucy in her short cupcake PJ's her milky white skin glowed a rosy red she was beautiful your classic all American cheerleader. Long smooth legs flat stomach great abs a nice 34 B chest blue eyes that sparkled blond hair to her mid back which was a ponytail.

Charlotte: "Yea sorry had to pee so badly fell asleep on the couch didn't know I was soo tired"

Kendra: "Come lay down bitch"

She patted the bed it was only a little lie but it came so easy. I stretched out as I went to lay down by her.

Kendra: "You look wrecked you need sleep babe"

What was the suppose to mean? I looked at her she had no idea what it was like to struggle with self esteem issues or weight she was blessed with perfect skin a brilliant fast metabolism she could eat whatever she wanted and never gained an ounce. I was so jealous it hurt but she was one of my best friends so how could I be mad?

Laying down I turned my head fell on her shoulder she set the alarm for 5 am which would come too early.

Sleep came easy though I felt myself lured into it.

Shooting up my heart was beating so fast I felt sick looking around my eyes burned till I was able to adjust to the darkness. I was sweating where was I? Why was I shaking? Cracking my neck I saw the gleaming numbers flash 3;10 am sighing. I tried to fight it off but I couldn't slipping out of bed I hurried into the bathroom barely making it before I fell to my knees vomiting.

No way could I sleep why bother? It was the same every night I slipped into the room I didn't need a light. I knew Lucy's gigantic room by heart, slipping out of my clothes. I grabbed a pair of Lucy's shorts and t-shirts god they were tight on me geeze how fat was I?

I needed to work out grabbing her ipod I took my key and went out for a jog.

My legs and back burned as I ran and ran up hills it was dark but street lights lite my path.

A gentle breeze kept me cool as the sweat poured out of me mile after mile. I counted how many calories I could burn off how many miles it would take.

Pickles 17.2

Chocolate milk two pints 440

Rice two cups 484

Gravy canned beef with biscuits

80 for the gravy 429 total

Choc chip cookies 13 albs 28,363.1

Moca 190.9

Coco 190.9

Carmel 120

Mint ice cream 440

A whopping total of 2861.00.2 calories if I burn 100-150 calories in a mile I just had to do three more miles to burn 600 calories, just another 28,5500.2 to go..so I would need. The numbers kept crunching inside my head as I ran pushing past the burn past the thirst. I willed myself to fight up the hills tears burned behind my eyelids fighting off the urge to cough. I ignored the pain shooting from my stomach legs and chest all I cared about was burning off those damn calories losing the pounds and getting thin and beautiful.

Like Lucy.

I knew I would have to go back soon but I pushed myself, the morning breeze felt great as I ran through Lucy's private exclusive residential neighborhood which stretched for miles upon miles. Mansion after mansion lined the streets gates separated each mansion. It amazed me how rich some people are and most don't even appreciate what they have.

You see so many people who spend and spend who don't give too charity who just have to have the latest fashion. It doesn't matter what they have to spend cause they have no end to the cash flow.

Whenever something new comes out goodbye old even if they just got it they spend so much time on making sure their beautiful plastic surgery and the best trainers. I would give anything to have that kind of money to get their bodies.

Most kids in my school envied those rich kids who they feel have it all good looks trust funds expensive houses whatever they wanted it was handed to them but I knew what those kids didn't kids like Lucy they didn't get these things without a price. Well at least in her case all her luck didn't come as a free ride.

Lucy's parents were never home she was raised by nannies while her parents traveled she came home to an empty house. No mom to greet her and ask her how her day was no one there to care for her when she was sick except her house keeper who barely spoke English.

No one was there to help her with her homework cuddle her when she was sad or afraid.

Sure she had an endless credit card a new car straight off the manufacturer's site which never even hit the show room it was custom made for her for her sixteenth birthday but she never had a hug from her parents or a happy birthday.

She wasn't happy not in the least no one saw behind that smile and that sneer though not like I did no one else saw her crying in her bed room while her guest partied downstairs on her 16th birthday.

She should have been on top of the world but she was devastated and spent hours crying into my arms.

Sighing I headed up to her huge driveway the burn felt amazing but I was exhausted. Thank god for the A.C which was an instant relief to my over heated body grabbing a cold bottled water I saw it was only 5:30 no one else was up yet so I headed to the gym.

If I was going to be the best I had to work my body past the test.

Bryan's words still burned inside my head as I hit the treadmill but I would drown him out like the rat that he was, no matter how much these actions burned the victory I would have would burn even sweeter.