Charlotte
Exhaustion swept through me as I cuddled into Lucy's arms hours after we had gotten in from practice. She had music playing but neither of us were paying attention to it we were both focusing on getting our homework done.
Checking my phone I shock my head amazed at how we were suppose to do it all. We had to though we are the ones who inspire girls in our school. Yet it seemed overwhelming looking at our after school schedule.
Monday
D.Q Cheer Practice 3-4:30
Elite Cheer 5-7
Level 5 Ballet/ Tap 7:15-8:15
Level 5 Jazz 8:30-9:30
Level 5 Lyrical 10:30- 11:00 pm
Elite Competition Senior 9:40- 10:20
Tuesday
Thespian Society 2:35- #:35
Vocal lessons 4-6
Level 5 Hip hop 6:30- 7:30
Level 5 Theater 7:45-8:45
Elite Cheer 9-11pm
Wednesday
DQ cheer 2:40- 3:30
Elite Cheer 4-7
Advance Improve 7: 30-8:00
Elite Competition Senior: 8:10- 9:10
Film acting 9:15-10:15
Master Class: Musical Theater 10:30-11:30
Advanced Vocal Technique 11:30-12:00
Thursday
D.Q Cheer 3-4:30
Elite cheer 5-8
Gymnastics 8-9
Level 5 Contemporary Dance 8:20-9:20
Level 5 Tap 9:30-10:00
Piano 10:10-10:30
Elite Competition Senior 10:45- 11-30
Friday
Key club 2:30-3:30
Class Council 3:30-4:00
Dance Club 4:00- 5:00
Lucy and I had really set ourselves up this year today was only the first day and I was wondering if we took on too much. She didn't look nearly as winded as I felt how did she do it? She had barely eaten in days yet she seemed full of energy. Maybe Kendra was right and we took on too much, I was starting to think I should of gone Cassie's route her and Molly didn't take all the classes Kendra, Lucy and I did. They only joined Elite cheer, Senior Elite Dance and hip-hop plus thespian Society. Otherwise their nights were free when they weren't working at their after school jobs at the diary queen.
Lucy: "You gonna live Char?" You look pretty winded babe"
She placed a kiss on my forehead as she put down her phone I saw Brett's name was lite up on her screen. Uh she was still trying to get a reply.
Charlotte: "Yea I'll live just winded I don't know why still no reply from him?"
Lucy: "Uh no it's driving me crazy how do I get him back?"
Charlotte: "Use what your mom gave you shake your ass"
I knew that would get me a hit but I had to try she grunted hitting me as I threw my hands up laughing but she didn't stop instead she tackled me as I screamed. We were both laughing tears streaming down as we fell back her on top of me.
Lucy: "No seriously Char I am so stuck I know I was out of line Ana took over me how do I make it up to him?"
Charlotte: "Be honest Luce let him know your hurting that your sorry and mean it I know Friday night during halftime use our routine as a way to do it sing to him cheer to him"
Luce: "Will he see it if he's changing?"
Charlotte: "Yea they have those fancy new TV's in the boys locker rooms while we got nothing it will be on every monitor he'll see it hell he will probably hear it"
Lucy squealed as she hugged me laughing I shoved her off as she rolled onto her back sighing.
Charlotte: "Do you really want to keep doing this thou Luce? Are you in love with him or just lusting? I mean they make toys to please yourself if that's all this is"
Lucy's squeals made me laugh even harder her face was so red I couldn't stop myself from laughing and taking a picture which of course got more squeals and death threats.
Lcuy: "I use to think it was just lust hell for awhile he was simply just to stick it to Kendra but honestly it stopped being about lust a long time ago I don't know if it's love Char I mean I am only 16 but I know I spend all my time dreaming about him he's the one I write love songs about, he's the reason I lay awake at night he makes me feel all these tingles, butterflies. I lose my appetite in anticipation of his calls and texts. I know his strengths his weakness I love him because of them"
"He's the only one I want Char I want to spend time with him only him but not just having sex I want to talk to him I want to plan our futures together, get lost in conversations so lost we forget time even exists, I wan to make him happy, I want to be perfect for him."
Charlotte: "Lucy if he truly loved you than he would make you see that you are perfect for him because you love yourself despite the weakness no one is truly perfect but your B.F should make you feel like you walk on water like you are his sun he should make you see that there are some things you can never change but that's okay, you shouldn't have to feel this pressure to be thinner, prettier
Each of us is unique and has specific talents and abilities to offer. We are all here, to contribute a verse"
Lucy: "He's a fifteen year old Charlotte lets face it all he cares about is football, friends, sex and food he isn't that deep but that's okay for now I just want to be held cuddled and to feel loved for now someday I will worry about the other stuff"
Charlotte: "You cannot sit around and wait for approval from others. Work on accepting yourself. You are the only "you" that you have. It is in your best interests to be the best you can be."
Lucy: "Your sweet Char and you are right have you ever tried listening to your own advice because your pretty damn amazing as you are"
Lucy held me as she settled her head down on my shoulder pulling the covers over us no Luce you were wrong I wasn't perfect I wasn't beautiful all I am is a hypocrite. Kissing her forehead I turned off the lights let the music stay it was soothing. She fell asleep quickly but sleep didn't come so easy for me so I put my headphones on clicked play on my video that I had taken earlier Brett's face popped up his words to Patrice and their kiss.
He makes me sick he didn't deserve Lucy. After awhile I threw my phone on the table to charge rolled over and hugged her.
Crashing, hit a wall
Right now I need a miracle
Hurry up now, I need a miracle
Stranded, reaching out
I call your name but you're not around
I say your name but you're not around
Lucy's cell phone rung out waking us both up groaning she reached over thrashing till she grabbed it pushing the speaker button.
Lucy: "H'ello?"
Lucy's mom's voice boomed out from her cell phone.
Lucy's mom: "What the hell is wrong with you? Are you stupid?"
"How could you let this happen?"
"Is it really that hard to keep a teenage boy happy? Jesus Christ Lucy I gave you an endless supply of condoms, use them put out more"
"Your a girl Lucy your not Angelina Jolie by any means but your passable I told you to watch what you eat did you go off the calorie chart again? Don't you dare tell me your thighs are bigger than our house"
Lucy: "Mom I didn't I swear I am watching what I eat it's not my fault he's a dog"
Lucy's mom: "Lucy it's always your fault stop living in denial Brett is perfect for you he is the only boy who will ever love your screwed up ass so get your ass together. Figure out what you did wrong and fix it or I swear to god I will cut you off of everything you ungrateful spoiled fucked up little bitch"
"Your the so called leader of your little dysfunctional cult what will the other girls think if you can't even please your man enough to hold on to him? I don't care how hard it is suck it up your little brat get him back anyway, anyhow! I don't ever want to see a headline like that again you need to honor this family! Or you will no longer be apart of this family got it bitch!"
Lucy's face completely fell as she hung up the phone I reached for her but not in time before she threw her phone screaming bursting into tears. Grabbing her I held her rocking her tightly while her tears poured down.
Charlotte: "Lucy it's not your fault you are one of the smartest girls I know and I use to be part of the math club your not stupid and you shouldn't have to put out to please any man don't listen to her she's crazy she doesn't love you like your friends do. We will always love you our love has nothing to do with who you date. You're one of my best friends. I care about you so much I feel so helpless to make you feel better. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help, do you want to talk?"
She didn't reply right away just cried against my chest as I ran my fingers through her hair how could a mom be this cruel to their own child? My heart broke hearing her heartbreaking cries wrapping my arms around her did little to stop her shaking.
Charlotte: ""I'm so sorry you're going through this. I don't really know what to say to make it better, and I know no words really could. But I want you to know that I'm here for you when you need me."
Lucy: "Charlotte thank you but there's nothing to say I will never measure up in my mom's eyes the only way I can please her is to make sure the family's image is up held, that means making sure Brett and I get back together"
Lucy picked her head up as I wiped away her tears kissing her beautiful face. Charlotte: "I'm always here for you Luce, I'll do whatever you want to help you but I honestly think your better off without him, he doesn't appreciate you, hey maybe he should date your mom their both egotistical self obsessed assholes who don't deserve you"
Lucy's laughter made me smile as she fell back into my arms tears still running down her checks.I had to make her laugh seeing her happy was everything to me.
Charlotte: "Luce if there's one thing I learned is that I will never treat my kids the way your mom does, whenever I have kids I will always make sure she or he knows they are loved and treasured"
Lucy: "Little Charlotte's running around gossiping this could be so adorable you'll be a great mommy Char I know you always make me feel special and loved. Thank you babe."
Lucy kissed my check as she wiped her face turning off the lights she cuddled me as we laid our heads back down.
Lucy: "Maybe we can fix my mom and Brett up she'd love a boy toy to drag around Hollywood this would surely give her those damn headlines she wants"
Both of us cracked up my laughter became even more uncontrollable as she started tickling me I couldn't stop laughing which made her laugh soon we were both crying laughing so hard, I couldn't hold it anymore I barely made it out of bed into her private bathroom before I started to pee.
Lucy: "Damn Charlotte you really do have the bladder of a squirrel"
In between laughter as I tried to pee I yelled for her to shut-up but we were both so busy laughing it had no real lasting impact.