A/N Hey people
Hello
Well hi to you too, do you know how what I'm feeling right now?!
Uh, no?
I am empty, why? Because my stupid voice disappeared on me.
Hey, it wasn't my fault.
You sure about that?
Yes.
Fine.
So I see you've been talking to someone...
Yeah, what else was I supposed to do.
Keep quiet? Talk you me?
You weren't here remember, and besides, they say you're... Not normal to have. I shouldn't be having a voice inside my head.
You're not normal?
Yeah.
But I am normal. I'm not doing anything wrong am I?
Technically, you are...
I talk. That's all I do.
You're right.
So your not normal, and what else?
She's worried for me, she says that if you tell me to hurt myself or anyone else then she's going to call Sensei in.
Then I assume you never told her about your cuts.
Are you crazy? Of cause not, why would I tell her that? Sensei is going to be so mad when he finds out.
If he finds out.
What do you mean?
Remember what I said? They can't see it if its on your leg.
They can't see if I hide it.
Exactly.
They said I shouldn't listen to you anymore.
Why?
You're bad for me.
When have I ever been bad to you?
The cutting, the sadness, the anger, the faking...
You know, if you're just going to keep complaining about me every time I come back to you then I might as well stay away forever.
That would be better, right?
But I'm not going until you give me what I want.
But I already cut for you?
See, you took my advice and don't you feel better?
Well, yeah but still. Its bad?
No its not.
Its not?
No. They just tell you that because its not what they do. You heard the lady, you're not normal.
Never mind. What do you want.
You know, all you have to do is take it a step further.
No!
Oh please, like you have a choice. It only took me a week to convince you the first time, and without that chatty lady for the holidays, what's stopping me?
You... You can't...
But its what I want.
Its not what I want.
Did it ever matter what you want?
Yes it did! Its my body and my life. I have so much people that love me, I can't hurt them like that.
Don't act like you can't hear them speak about you. You're not as smart as Zane. Not as brave as Cole. Not as likeable as Jay. And admit it, you all live in Lloyd's shadow. People hate you anyway, why not make them happy and be ride of yourself?
...
You'll never have to listen to my insults again.
...
You'll never have to cry at night in the shower again.
...
You'll never be alone, you can join your mom and dad.
Really?
Of cause.
But I'm scared.
Don't be, I'll be here with you all the way.
Promise?
I promise...
A/N Well I guess that voice can get pretty loud. And it can be pretty persuasive. But its bad for you, right?
Now we just have to want and see how the story ends...
Don't you think its kind of sad
How we keep ourselves alive,
For our friends and family,
When they're one of the reasons,
Why we don't want to be alive in the first place.
I think that's sad
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