My Voice 8
This is an update on a fanfic that was supposed to be over.
Hi people of fanfic dot net, I hope you're all doing well. If you'd like then please read the mini fic below, thanks
And so it continues...
Dear Diary
Kai's dead. He committed suicide. We couldn't help him. It's unfortunate. Sensei has gone into mourning, Zane is... adjusting in his own way. Jay is almost switched off, I can't tell with him anymore. The team's a total disaster and it's only been a few hours. I can't sleep. But even though Kai's death is bothering me, I can't stop thinking about how long this has been going on. When everyone cleared out of the room, I stayed behind and rolled up his sleeves. There were a few cuts but not many, then I looked at his legs. They were covered in red dried up blood and some wounds were still bleeding, others that were healing looked badly taken care of. I stood in silence for a few minutes, I have no idea what I was thinking, it was just nothing.
Mine looks similar to his, only mine's a bit better taken care of. I should have spoken to him but I guess that I was too blinded by my own demons covering my eyes. I'm feeling a lot worse after that.
But the good news is that I've been clean for a total of two hours, so that's good. I think I'll have to start hiding my scars more, I'd hate for the team to find out, they're under enough stress already. Especially Sensei, I'd rather want him to have a peaceful last few year's alive. Diary, do you want more good news? Because of Kai's failed suicide attempt, I didn't have a chance to act out mine. That's partially good right? Never mind, you can't talk back anyway.
What's funny is that I'm so used to smiling that I can't get it off, not even when I cry.
Good night Diary.
A/N: while I was typing this out then I thought, why not make another one with a different ninja? It will be called; My Thoughts.
Stop reading now if you're not interested in me (the author). Guys I appreciate you wanting to help but I don't think I want to personally talk to anyone anymore, it's kinda hard when I'm afraid to do so and I've got severe abandonment issues, besides, I'm terrible at conversations so you won't be missing anything. I think that this entire time since I've been feeling 'odd' I've only been getting worse. So, I am still deciding what to do right now but what you need to know is that if I don't update anything, at the very latest, in the first week of April then something is wrong. But don't worry yourselves with that because it's not your problem. :)
Enjoy what's left of Easter! Hopefully I'll see you soon, but if not then I love you all!