Clarke looked up at Lexa with a smirk and Lexa could tell she was pleased with herself. Lexa's hands released she sheets as she came down from her orgasm and then Clarke moved up to place a deep kiss on her lips and Lexa held her from her neck. She tasted herself on Clarke's tongue and knowing that Clarke had enjoyed her taste was incredibly erotic.
Lexa intertwined her fingers in Clarke's hair and she placed her other hand on her back to hold her close. They spent a minute kissing, playing with their tongues, intertwining them and tasting each other. They both took pleasure in the position they were in as they kissed; they could both feel each other's hardened nipples, their bodies in close contact, the moisture of their flesh, the heat their bodies emitted - it was heaven for both of them.
Lexa broke the kiss momentarily and gently pushed back Clarke's hair behind her ears to get a good look of her. She was grateful there was sunlight so she could really appreciate the woman on top of her. "You are so beautiful" Lexa whispered in awe and fascination with Clarke. Clarke didn't seem the slightest bit surprised, she already knew how her lover felt about her. Lexa wanted to say so much more, mainly that she loved her and had loved her from the moment they brought her into her tent but, to avoid a more difficult goodbye, she knew she had to settle for calling her beautiful. But Clarke was more than just that, she was the most stunning woman Lexa had ever seen and not just in beauty. Her kindness and selflessness, her ability to forgive; she had such a huge heart and everything about Clarke ran through Lexa's mind all at once. She wondered how she had even managed to end up here with her, fully nude and practically confessing her love to her (even if just in her head). She never thought it possible that Clarke would feel remotely similar to how she felt about her after all that had happened between them, and yet there she was, above her giving her the widest smile she had ever seen on her and the most penetrating look of desire, and Lexa had never felt as wanted as she did now.
Clarke leaned in to seemingly kiss her, Lexa moved closer with her entire body pressing harder onto Clarke's, but Clarke stopped before their lips touched and instead she licked Lexa's lips with no restraint whatsoever. It made Lexa more ardent and she leaned in further and took Clarke's tongue into her mouth where it clashed with her own yet again. Lexa could feel Clarke's insatiable desire as the woman pressed her body harder against her own and pushed her tongue deeper into her mouth.
Lexa was done resting and she wanted to take the lead now. She began lifting herself to gain momentum and she parted her lips from Clarke's - Clarke made sure to bit Lexa's lower lip in the process- and when she had the momentum, she flipped Clarke over and straddled her. Clarke would have thought Lexa was spent at this point, but she seemed to have regained her stamina in no time, she was the Commander after all and she had surely been in more exhausting situations. Clarke reached her hands to Lexa's ass and squeezed for a moment before she started pulling her upward while at the same time kissing and biting her way down her neck. It took all her willpower to fight the impulse to bite hard and leave hickeys on Lexa's neck, she didn't think it would be appropriate for anyone to see those on the Commander. She pulled her high enough so Lexa's breasts were at eye level and then she took the left one into her mouth without delay and licked and sucked on it like she had been thirsting for it for a long time. They weren't going to see this part of her Clarke thought, so she allowed herself to bite hard on Lexa's nipples like she wanted to and it pleased her to hear Lexa as she went "Ahh...Clarke". Lexa's fingers entwined in Clarke's hair and she had almost forgotten her intention, but she let Clarke have her fill.
After Clarke was satisfied with Lexa's breasts she licked her way back up to Lexa's lips and they returned to kissing. Lexa lowered herself and Clarke opened her legs so that Lexa could settle between them. Lexa made sure to align herself so her clit came into direct contact with Clarke's. The feel of it made Clarke interrupt the kiss for a moment as she inhaled deeply and struggled to control her breathing in anticipation. Lexa smiled at how she took Clarke's breath away for a change and then returned to kissing her.
Clarke's hips began to move against Lexa's as a sign to urge her into action and Lexa wasted no time and began grinding herself against her. Clarke held Lexa's face in her hands to make sure their lips didn't part as they kissed while Lexa had one hand on each side of the bed to hold her weight up and so she could control the pace of her hips moving against Clarke's.
They moaned between kisses into each other's mouths and their breathing quickened simultaneously. Lexa put her weight on her left hand so she could use her right to caress Clarke. She began at her face, holding her gently while their tongues danced in each other's mouths, and began moving her hand lower on her side until she reached her hips, and then she slowly moved her hand towards Clarke's entrance. At the same time, Clarke positioned her hands on Lexa's back and moaned into her mouth in a way that sounded like a request to go further, but Lexa wanted more. She wanted to hear Clarke asking for her, to hear her say that she wanted her so she leaned into her right ear to whisper: "Tell me what you want Wanheda", and she bit Clarke's earlobe in a playful manner. Lexa's breath on her ear and her wording nearly made Clarke come and she dug her nails into Lexa's back as she tried to focus on turning her thoughts into actual phrases.
Clarke thought about teasing her by not saying what she knew Lexa wanted to hear, but she was so in need of her that she was unable to hold back. "I want you. Inside me… please Heda", she answered in a most desirous and coveting tone as she relinquished all control. Lexa smiled at the sound of Clarke's plea as it was exactly what she wanted to hear. Lexa moved her head into a position where she could look directly into Clarke's eyes because she wanted to see her as she entered her this time, and she then took the liberty of slipping her index inside her. Clarke's lips were shaking and she gasped as she felt Lexa's finger enter her, and as much as she wanted to close her eyes from the feel, she made sure to keep them open to see Lexa's response at her own reaction.
Lexa's eyes were mesmerizing, filled with passion and ardor, and the way she looked at her made her feel so desired, needed and other things she had never felt before. Lexa's fingers moved at a perfect pace, thrusting inside just as she moved her own hips forth. Clarke felt herself craving and wanting more of Lexa, she didn't just want Lexa inside her, she wanted to be inside Lexa. She kept her eyes locked on Lexa's, and she began lifting her body. She used her hands to move both of them to a position where they were upright, Lexa kneeling and Clarke straddling her, and she extended her arm downwards to place her fingers at Lexa's entrance. Lexa's lips parted as she felt Clarke's hands on her sex and she froze for a moment, almost unprepared for what was about to come. Without delay, Clarke pushed one finger inside Lexa. Clarke's name came out naturally from Lexa's lips as Lexa automatically closed her eyes, then took a deep breath in and put her forehead against Clarke's while her lips shook.
It didn't take long for Clarke to push two fingers inside Lexa, driving her to do the same and soon enough they were both four fingers deep in each other. Though Clarke's fingers were shorter than Lexa's, she knew exactly what to do with them, how to curl them, to get Lexa to utter her name. They were both soaking wet and it was a turn on for the pair, to feel each other's slickness and thirst for one another. Lexa kept a slow rhythm rubbing against Clarke while pumping her long and slender fingers inside her. Clarke was more eager and she placed one hand on Lexa's firm butt cheek to get a little more control and be able to get Lexa to speed up since the slow movement was driving her mad.
Panting louder and quicker, they moved in sync with each other, thrusting in right when one of them moved their hips forward. Lexa held on to the back of Clarke's head pulling her in for a kiss as she opened her legs further to give Clarke easier access. Clarke arched her hips forward to make sure Lexa's fingers went as deep as possible and reached the rough patch inside her. They were so near climax and their moans were now uncontrollably loud but they didn't care any longer. Clarke felt Lexa's walls clench on her fingers and Lexa let out Clarke's name, nearly screaming as waves of release came over her and she reached her orgasm. Clarke followed a few seconds after, coming harder than she ever had before, uttering Lexa's name as well.
They leaned into each other's shoulders and neither one of them moved for a moment. They were now officially spent, catching their breath. Clarke slowly removed her fingers from inside Lexa after her walls relaxed and Lexa did the same. Then, Clarke reached her hands around Lexa's body and it was a moment before Lexa took in that she was being hugged. It was a strange sensation, she realized she had not been hugged since Costia and even then, their hugs had been short lived because she always felt watched and didn't really give in to them. But she felt safe now, so she reached her arms and wrapped them hard around Clarke and at the same time she came to the realization of what this all meant. It wasn't just that Clarke felt the same way, but that Clarke understood. She understood that Lexa had never stopped thinking of her at any given moment, that anything she had done was never meant to hurt her, that any pain and suffering Lexa had caused her, had also made her ache and suffer because in the end Lexa was being selfless, she was putting her people before her own happiness because that was what a great leader did. Clarke truly understood, and she forgave her for all that she had done because she too knew the cost of putting her people first, the weight they both carried every single moment. Otherwise, she would have left with nothing but the grounder farewell. The truth was that this world they lived didn't allow for much happiness but they had both managed to find it in each other, in the rare moments they had when they were alone, and of course the time they had just spent together when they had finally given in and allowed themselves the freedom to love each other, to put themselves first.
Clarke kissed Lexa's shoulder softly and taking her time, she moved to her neck. She stopped before reaching her lips, and allowed Lexa to lean in to initiate the kiss. It was slow and tender, and they savored it for a few seconds and then they placed their foreheads against one another. They opened their eyes, looked at each other, smiled. So many things and feelings left unsaid, and yet there was nothing more telling of how they felt than the instant of silence they shared as they gazed upon one another.
Clarke leaned back onto the bed and Lexa moved to the right and laid on her left side. Without thought, Clarke moved closer, placed a warm, affectionate kiss on Lexa's cheek and spooned her. Lexa had never been happier in her life than right then and there on her bed, with her soulmate spooning her and she grinned from ear to ear. They remained like this for a few minutes and then Clarke slowly moved back, her eyes fixed on Lexa. She caressed the tattoo on her right arm for a little while, and though she didn't want to think of it, it was almost time for her to leave and she began: "If Octavia and I are gonna get behind the blockade by dawn…". Lexa interrupted her with a soft hush and it made Clarke smile and knowing she still had a while, she decided to enjoy whatever time she had left. She let her eyes wander to the Commander's back which she had not had the opportunity to appreciate sooner, she had only gotten a glimpse of it not too long ago when Lexa had showed up in her room to thank her for supporting her when all the ambassadors stood against her. She recalled their conversation and how she had claimed to have backed Lexa "for her people", a phrase she had hidden behind every time she felt herself descending into a wormhole of feelings that she wanted to escape and deny. She remembered how beautiful Lexa had looked that evening in her nightgown, vulnerable and exposed. That was the first time she had really taken the time to behold a different side of Lexa, and she thought of how difficult it must have been for Lexa to show her gratitude to her and how she had shut her down - something she deeply regretted. In truth, the thought of kissing Lexa had occurred to her then, but she wasn't ready, she still felt betrayed at the time and she had pushed it out of her mind. She let those memories go and return to the moment.
"This is beautiful" Clarke said as she traced the tattoo down Lexa's back. "I got it on my Ascension day. A circle for every Natblida that died when the Commander chose me" Lexa illuminated. "Seven circles. I thought you said there were 9 novitiates at your conclave" Clarke said in a confused tone. "There were" Lexa answered, remembering the day she became Commander. It was not exactly a day filled with joy, she had been chosen so she got to live, but the others did not. Costia did not, but she didn't want to think of that now. "What happened to number 8?" Clarke asked, unaware of how deep a wound she was opening. Lexa laid on her back and looked at Clarke, "Can we talk about something else?" she asked in a gentle tone. Clarke noticed her discomfort and reassured her: "We don't have to talk at all ", she answered and gave her a flirtatious smile as she glanced at Lexa's lips. Lexa's eyes wandered to Clarke's lips as well and she didn't fight the temptation to kiss her. She smiled and leaned in to place light kisses on Clarke's lips and they fell into it in no time. Clarke moved her left hand to Lexa's back as Lexa moved her right behind Clarke's head. Lexa's left hand then trailed to Clarke's right and they intertwined their fingers as they deepened their kisses.
They wanted to stay there forever, but Lexa knew Clarke had to leave. She moved to let Clarke get up, and Clarke slowly got out of bed and sat by the edge. Lexa felt a pit in her stomach and rushed to Clarke and held her by pressing her chest to Clarke's back and putting her arms around her. Lexa placed soft quick kisses on her shoulder and neck and then pressed her lips hard against Clarke's one last time before separating them and letting go of her. Clarke rose from the bed leaving Lexa with the sheets and not bothering covering up as she stood and gathered her clothes. She knew Lexa was watching her intently and she liked that, she smiled and bit her lip as she looked at Lexa who was giving her a gaping look and was clearly taking pleasure in watching her fumble around for her clothes in the nude. Lexa was thankful yet again that the sun was out. Clarke found all her clothes and put them on and the pair never broke eye contact. There was not much to say, so Clarke simply said: "Lexa" to which Lexa responded: "Clarke" as they smiled at each other and so Clarke headed for the door and the Commander watched her leave.