When Regina entered her room she saw a sleek black mini dress on her bed. Just the right length to be sexy, not slutty and did not reveal too much. She didn't expect David to have such an excellent taste, but was happy that he gave her something appropriate for this evening.
After a quick shower she did her hair. She curled it softly and fixed her makeup. When she put on the dress, she was surprised it was a perfect fit and it looked fabulous on her.
She stepped in the corridor and David's eyes met hers. "Wow Regina you look awesome. I hoped you had something with you for tonight, but this is more than I expected." She was confused, so this wasn't David's dress? Emma's door opened and she could see how the young blond winked at her. Emma wore a suit. Regina never expected a woman could wear a suit this hot – but now she saw for herself.
The party wasn't too bad Emma thought. The guests were all old, mostly other politicians and their wife's. Some important towns people like Graham from the police office. She liked Graham when she was younger, but now since she is back he always looked at her like a piece of meat. She tried to avoid him as much as possible.
It was nearly midnight and her eyes roomed all over the place to find Regina and her dad but they were nowhere to be found. She hoped she could celebrate with them so she searched the house to be with them for midnight. Emma reached the upper floor. It wasn't open for their guests but maybe Regina and David left to celebrate in private. She sighs, looks around and walked the direction of her dad's bedroom. The door was open so she looked inside.
Emma was shocked to see her father kissing August. She knew they were close friends for a while but she didn't expect them to be this close. Now some things over the last few weeks made sense. She wondered why Regina slept in a different room, why they only attended events together and didn't spend too much free time together. And why David doesn't care about her looking after Regina. She knew for sure, he knew Emma had the hots for her. First Emma thought he doesn't care because he knew Emma never had a chance. He probably knew that Regina is homosexual – as much as he is – and none of them would out themselves. He probably didn't care if Emma would fool around with Regina as long as nobody found out about it. It was only fair that Regina could have fun as well – and with this thought Emma's stomach felt sick. Maybe Regina has someone else as well, it was not that she had any claims on her, but to think that she had a secret relationship as well made her feel sick. But why would she stay here if she had. Emma told herself to stay focused and realistic. Regina wouldn't live with them for over 4 weeks now when she had a girlfriend someplace else.
Emma was shocked; she tried to leave the room as silently as possible. Both men were too caught up in their own world to notice Emma. She walked down the hall and stopped again. She could see how Regina's glance was in the direction of Zelena's room. Through the mirror on the opposite side of Zelena's opened door Emma could see exactly what Regina was looking at. Right there Zelena was snuggled in Robin's strong arms, they nibbled at each other's lips and probably whispered declarations of love in each other's ears – Emma was too far away to hear them but knowing her sister she knew they were doing exactly that right now. Emma had a feeling that Regina went through the same as she did just a minute ago. Seeing David and August kissing, and being all cute together. Emma felt longing for someone who gave her that kind of affection.
She walked a little closer and while moving the floor creaked under her feet. Regina looked like a deer caught in headlights. When she looked up Emma could see tears on her face. Regina didn't know what to do, she felt caught because looking at a teenage girl making out with her boyfriend – damn Emma really must think she is a creep right now. She did what she does best - she ran. It didn't take long for Emma to follow her and after a quick knock on Regina's door she stepped into the room. Sure she should have waited for a response but who is she kidding – Regina would never have given her a response.
She saw a broken down Regina on the edge of her Queen sized bed. All Regina could do in that moment was sob and try to calm herself down. No matter what she tried, it didn't work. All her life she tried to be strong to not let feelings get to close to her heart. But this New Year's Eve party, in a house that supposed to be her family – it was all too much to see them so happy with their partners. She wished nothing more to have that for herself. Still sobbing she tried to explain "I ...its ...not ...I'm sorry…I didn't mean to spy…i…sorry...i promise I don't spy on you and your sister…i…its just …I just don't know anybody downstairs, so I came up here…and I …"
"Regina its okay calm down - breath - I can imagine what you saw…first David kissing August. Then my sister making out – again - with Robin…its human don't worry" Emma didn't know what else to say. She stepped closer to the bed, sat next to Regina and put her arm around Regina's shoulder. Regina snuggled a little into her crook – still sobbing. "You know about them…about David and August?" Regina asked. "Not until 10 minutes ago – but I had a feeling that something about your relationship was off. I don't get why you're playing along with this charade, but I'm pretty sure you have your own reasons. Regina listen, I'm here for you even if you won't be my future stepmom" with a quick sigh she whispered "… or maybe even more because you won't be".
They looked each other deep in the eyes and with that said Emma slips a little closer – if that is even possible – and puts her lips softly onto Regina's. This was their first kiss and Regina felt fireworks exploding inside of her. It was her first real kiss, her first kiss that meant something to her, the first kiss she really wanted – so she kissed back.
The last month was hard, to see the beautiful blond all the time but have to act as normal as possible. She was so cautious that nobody would find out about her feelings for Emma. It was so hard for her to laugh with Emma and go on a shopping trip, sit together in a Diner and eat but stay so focused that nobody would figure out that she had something else in mind than just a nice day with her step daughter.
Their kisses became more heated and it only took a few minutes before Emma straddled over Regina's lap to kiss her more intense. Emma couldn't believe it. This was all she ever dreamed about and now she kissed the woman she had a crush on for years. She felt more and more in love with her over the last 4 weeks now that she had the chance to get to know her better.
But it only took a few minutes for Regina to grow more and more exited and couldn't hide it any longer. Emma could feel something between her legs that wasn't supposed to be there – but she couldn't care less right now - because she was the happiest girl in the world. Next thing she knew Regina pushed her back, crying and shoved her out of the room. The door banged and she could hear more sobbing, crying and swearing from the other side.
Form outside she could also hear loud banging everywhere and looking through the window she saw the fireworks starting to go off. She always dreamed of the perfect moment kissing her love over the year. But that was not the end she had in her mind. Emma knocked on Regina's door and tried to get her to listen. She could only hear more sobbing and cries from the other side – it was heart breaking. Emma had no idea what was happening and why Regina reacted the way she did, but it didn't take her long to come to a realization. Adding all the facts together, Emma knew pretty sure what Regina's baggage was and why she accepted this fake relationship with David – even if she couldn't understand why- sure if she is right it was nothing common, but also nothing impossible to love.
Still knocking on Regina's door Emma told her it's okay, and they could just talk. She told her that she liked her and that she would love to get to know her better not only as a stepdaughter or friend but maybe even as more, if you would like.
Over 30 Minutes no matter what she tried or did Regina wouldn't open the door.
Regina on the other side was so ashamed. She knew she couldn't have it all. She was happy here, she had a friend - a nice life with the Swan Family over the last month and now she ruined it all with giving in her feelings just for a few minutes. Emma must be shocked. How could she go down that path? She asked herself. Kissing her meant so much for her – it was all she wished for, to find someone who she felt comfortable enough to kiss and maybe even go further. Regina told herself that Emma only did it to calm her down to make her stop crying and ruin their New Years Eve Party. Of course in that moment Regina got aroused and got a hard on with her "step daughter" sitting on her lap. Maybe for Emma all that was a game, she is a teenager after all – okay she is not that much younger than I am Regina thought. It's not fair to make her a stupid teenager in her mind, but she grew up different. Regina knew for most of her class mates and colleagues a kiss and some making out is meaningless, they just do it for fun. For Regina it involved a lot of trust and understanding.
She never felt this embarrassed in all her life. She couldn't concentrate on what the girl was telling her from the other side of the door. All she could think of was to pack her stuff right now and leave first thing in the morning before everyone wakes up.
The knocks from the other side stopped and Regina didn't know if she should be relieved or sad – of course relieved she told herself. She really hoped Emma didn't feel her penis against her jeans – her stupid actions caused enough problems she can't handle a public outing on top. But who was she kidding she knew exactly the size of her penis when it was hard and there was no way that Emma didn't feel it.
Over the last 4 weeks here in Storybrooke she collected a lot of stuff she now tried to pack in the 2 suitcases she had. Looking at some of the clothes she could remember exactly when she bought them. She remembered a shopping trip with Emma who was an excellent advisor for clothes that would look great on her. Regina knew she never felt sexier and more accepted than under Emma's eyes. She tried on a lot of stuff Emma showed her.
Pulling out a lilac Flannel she could remember exactly how Emma talked her into getting this shirt and how hot she would look in it. She showed her how she could drape it around her body and wear it as a dress. The girl knows exactly how to combine things and how to make her look good, it was crazy. She sobbed some more because she now realized she had destroyed one of the closest thing to a friendship she ever had.
Another flashback came to her when she grabbed her bathrobe. The day she thought she was alone in the Mansion because Zelena was with Robin as usual, David worked longer that night and Emma was supposed to meet Ruby – who changed their dinner on short notice and so she ran into Emma with just her thin bathrobe and a funny looking towel turban on her head. Regina was never more relieved that she grabbed that bathrobe before her shower, because usually when nobody else is home she would walk the short way from her bedroom to the bathroom naked – since it's just across her room.
She hated herself for her actions. She opened her laptop to look for a flight from Boston back to Vancouver – not too early since it was still a 2 hour drive and she had no idea if she would get a taxi at New Year's morning. She had no intentions of going back there so soon, since filming starts in two weeks, but where else should she go?