Hi, Hi, Hi! Sorry for the long delay, but now I got my spring break! I have a ton of time to write, and I'll try to finish this story this week, and I hope to update every day. I know how to finish this bad boy up, so the last 5 chapters won't be that hard to write. If you like my work, I'll try to start my new story pretty soon, and maybe some one-shots are gonna come out this week, so stay tuned for that.

Enough of the intro, since I left you guys on a cliffhanger last time.

An uncomfortable silence settled between them, an owl hooting, almost as if it was mocking this whole situation it was seeing. Shizuo had dropped his head down in shame, not wanting to see Izaya's reaction of this whole mess. And he should be glad, because, it wasn't a pretty one.

Izaya had froze in his place, his face pulled into a horrified grimace. Had he really heard that correctly? Did he really just hear, that a his rival, and the woman, that Shizuo had sworn he didn't love, nor care about, was with child, and it was from him?! Was the blond whore really carrying the child of the man he was madly in love with? The only thing that Izaya couldn't do?

''I'm sorry, I think I didn't catch that. Could you repeat that again?'' He just had to ask. He couldn't believe his ears, nor the man who said the words, so he had to confirm it.

Shizuo didn't want to open his mouth, but he had to. Izaya deserved to know the truth, that was the least the thing he could do for him. There was no way back to the time, where they could be together. There was no hope for them, after all. There wasn't a point to hide it any longer.

''Just like I said. Vorona is pregnant. And the child is mine. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen.''

He still left his head hung down, until a sharp voice barked out an order.

''Look at me, you coward!''

Shizuo instantly rose up his head, looking Izaya straight in the eye's. The precious red orbs were filled with anger and tears.

''You're telling me, that you didn't mean to stick your dick in her vagina and then cum inside her!? You didn't mean to fuck her until you did? That is the shittiest excuse I have ever heard!''

''No, it's not like that! I didn't want to, but-''

''Or are you going to tell me you just slipped and your dick just fell into her, and you just went 'fuck it' and did her anyway!''

''Izaya, you don't understand! I don't even remember even sleeping with her. It just felt like I was dreaming!''

''Oh, wow, so dreams do come true if you wish hard enough. Congratulations, you really did fuck the bitch! Looks like you change your dreams very fast!

''No! Would you listen to me! I don't remember even seeing her in my bed. The only thing I remember was feeling a weight on me. I dreamt I was sleeping with you. She must have drugged me with something! She made me think I was sleeping with you! I know you are smart enough to understand her, Izaya! She is on one hand with my father, she must have done it to make it a guarantee for me to not leave and marry her. I really didn't want to sleep with her! It felt like I was making love with you.''

Izaya's expression turned into a snarl, like an animal, who was about to bite his masters hand for something it didn't like.

''We'll, how did my vagina feel like?! I BET IT WAS FANTASTIC!?''

''Izaya, STOP IT! What's done is done. I can't turn back time, but if i could, I would. It wasn't my fault, she made me want it.''

''And like the beast that you are, you always act on your shit instincts and ravage any hole, that is presented in front of you!

SLAP!

A resounding noise, that oddly enough sounded like a slap to the face, could be heard in the night sky. A fuming Shizuo was breathing heavily, his eye's clouded with rage, as he looked at the raven on the ground, holding the right side of his face, shaking in fear.

After the rage had finally stopped, only then the blond understood what exactly he had done.

''I-Izaya, I-I didn't mean to-''

''Shut up! You monster.. I don't want to see you again. Fuck her all you want, I don't give a shit about it anymore.''

Legs shaking, Izaya stood up, revealing a red spot right under his eye, which would soon result in a black eye.

The raven dusted off his clothes, turning his back on his lover. His now ex-lover. Izaya wanted to cry, He wanted to cry, for happiness was once again torn away from his grasp, when he was so close to acquiring it. His fate was laughing in his face, mocking him for his mistakes. But, he didn't know, what he was doing wrong! He loved everybody, treated everybody equally good, so why was this happening!

Maybe, because his heart was fragile and weak. He always let his emotions mix in his work, he was vulnerable to every person, that had came into his life. He tried to put up walls to protect himself, even from childhood. When he was sad about being bullied in primary school, he always acted like a cunning tough guy, but his mother had always been able to break them down.

The same was with Shizuo. He broke down his insecurity walls, and made him feel beautiful. He made him feel wanted. He made him feel loved. He actually felt, like he was meant for somebody, he felt like their souls belonged to each-other.

How the mighty fall. The pain of falling from a high place is excruciating. It hurts, no matter if it's physical or emotional. Izaya did know the feeling firsthand.

He knew he was weak. He knew he wasn't supposed to open up so easily to people, or he might get hurt again, but he was a fool, and he admitted that.

But now, he wanted to hurt somebody else. If Shizuo did, in fact, love him, like he had swore all those passionate nights before, then it would hurt him too. Izaya knew exactly where to strike, to make him feel miserable, just like he did.

Still standing, his back turned to Shizuo, Izaya started to speak.

''You know, I fell in love with you the first time I had laid my eye's on you. But I didn't act on my instincts, because I knew better. I had been hurt before. Remember the time, when you asked me, why had I left my info broker job?''

He was met with silence. But he continued.

''I left, because the man I was in love with, used me. He was the boss, the big man, just like you, Shizu-chan. He was everything I wanted. He was sweet, he cared for me, he let me work like a normal employee, never making me do something I didn't want to. Ah, and sorry to burst your bubble, Shizu-chan, but he was also my first. But you know what happened next, Shizu-chan?''

''W-What...'' A hoarse whisper tore through the blonds voice box.

''I was thrown away. I was used like a stupid Barbie-doll, pretty, when it was new, but unusable, when it had a crack. He made me feel unwanted, he made me feel miserable. He ordered my subordinates abuse me, because, apperantly, hewas already married. I was just a work fling to him. A little slut to spoil. A little whore to fuck. I was almost raped in an elevator, because my colleagues thought, that if I was his whore, I was everybody's whore. And you know what he did about that? Nothing. He laughed in my face, and made me leave. He threw me out.''

The raven could hear the blond fuming in anger for his sad past, which made Izaya chuckle. He heard Shizuo's breath hitch in confusion.

''Don't be sad. Isn't this situation the same?'' Izaya finally turned to face the hurt and confused man, that he loved.

''I was dragged from hell, and carried to heaven in mare months. And how I fell. Oh, how I fell for you. But, I had to see it would end up like this. Because I don't deserve happiness. I always love everybody, but end up with bitter nothing. And now..''

Izaya made his way closer, took Shizuo's face in his hands and pressed a bittersweet kiss on his lips. As he pulled away, he looked in the foggy, tear-filled caramel eye's.

''Before you get to throw away me, I will be the first of the two of us, who does it.''

As Izaya let him go. Shizuo's eyes clouded over with tears. Izaya turned away, ready to walk away from his life forever. He reached out his hand, grabbing the fur trim of the ravens coat.

''Izaya, please, forgive me...''

Izaya stood frozen in place, before he gently pulled away, making Shizuo's hand fall into the empty air. Before he left, he whispered his last good-bye.

''It's too late. I wish you all the happiness in the world. Even tough it's not with me. Good-bye.''

As the sun slowly rose over the horizon, Shizuo looked at the retreating figure, which was shivering, crossing his arms over his chest to keep himself warm.

As only Izaya's shadow remained in the light, Shizuo finally understood what Izaya had felt. He felt like his heart was ripped out, being carried away with the person, which he could see only the shadow of in the golden sunrise.

He understood he would never hold him in his arms. He would not kiss his lips or touch his porcelain skin ever again. He would never see the red orbs light up in happiness and joy, he would never run his fingers through his soft raven hair.

As the situation finally dawned on him, Shizuo's eye's clouded over with emptiness. He turned away, making his way home to the life, which he had to call his own now. But there wasn't anything his eye's focused on, his body just an empty marionette, for God to control.

For how could he live, when there wasn't a heart beating in his chest...?

Shivering his way home, Izaya didn't feel better. How could he be cold, when he had abandoned his heart on that field behind him? He threw the man he loved away, but it still hurt. As tears sprung to his eye's once more in this dreadful day, he finally understood.

His heart belonged to somebody else now. It had a home.

He never felt this way about Shiki, because his heart wasn't at home, his heart didn't belong to him. It wasn't suppose to.

But now, it did. His heart belonged to the man, he could never have. The man he would never see again. It hurt him to know, no matter how he lived or who dated with or even married, his heart would be million miles away.

Tears slipped down his beautiful, pale face, as he made his way home, the sunrise behind his back.

''I am such a fool. But I am leaving you, Shizu-chan. I'm leaving you behind, for I don't belong in your life. I'm leaving you because I want you to be happy.''

I'm leaving you,

Even though I am still madly in love with you...

So...yeah..

I really am sorry about this. I knew you guy's waited a long time for this chapter, and I throw this piece of shit at you.

Now you feel like shit, I feel like shit.

See you soon,

PrincessEvaOfTheZone