"I'm sorry. I was just…" I trailed off. I didn't know what I was doing. I couldn't stop myself following Lucy to the bedroom. I couldn't stop myself from standing by the door and watching her undress. She blushed scarlet and tugged down the t shirt as quickly as possible, her hair got all messy and tousled in the process. I swallowed hard. Lucy looked so tempting, stood by my bed in one of my t shirts. My technician. I felt a possessiveness I had no right to.
"No one ever taught you to knock?" She chastised but there was no real annoyance in her voice.
"No I'm used to shooting my way in", I joked. Lucy sighed exasperated and then smiled wryly. I found myself gravitating toward Lucy, not stopping until I was standing over her, she was so small, she looked so vulnerable.
"I didn't mean to creep up on you like that." I said as I knelt down to undo my boots, I took a long look at her legs as I pulled them off. "I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable". I removed the knife at my ankle and placed it on the drawers by my bed, leaning over her as I did so.
"It's ok. It could be worse. At least it's just you. Potentially I could have HYDRA spying on me getting undressed. I mean, I'm not saying you were watching me getting undressed or anything. As if. Oh God! Or that HYDRA would be like, yeah lets just watch this chick with the jiggling thighs trip over her own jeans because that's totally hot because I'm pretty sure they'd just shoot me in the head. Which you know because you were like the guy that did that. Oh God! I'm sorry".
"Lucy, do you think you could stop babbling for maybe a second?" I asked but I wasn't really annoyed at her.
"Oh. Okay", she replied embarrassed. I tucked some of the hair that had escaped its binding behind her ears and let my fingers linger on her cheeks, eventually cradling her face between my palms. Lucy looked up at me expectantly and swallowed. I saw her pause and open her mouth to say something. I acted quickly and dropped my lips to hers, pressing them against her slightly open mouth. Her breath hitched and I pulled away momentarily. Her eyelids fluttered in surprise and then she licked her lips.
"Bucky..." she began with a whisper but I didn't allow her to finish. If she finished, I might not do what I wanted to do. I kissed her again, taking her plump lower lip between mine. Lucy relaxed and leaned into me, her hands pressing against my chest, standing on tip toes. I caught her fleshy lip between my teeth and she sighed, a delicious sound so tempting to my ears.
I pressed myself closer against her. She petite, I was alarmed my own strength, I realised I had so much power over her. I wanted to be so careful with her. My other hand rested on Lucy's hip and my fingers stroked gently at her soft skin.
"Bucky", she breathed against my cheek and kissed the corner of my lips. She held on to my arms, her hands not able to reach all the way around them, both flesh and bionic. Lucy lifted her head up to give me better access. I wanted this. I lazily slid my hand over her hip, cupped her ass and then along her thigh.
"Oh", Lucy yelped in surprise. I couldn't stop the ridiculous proud grin that formed from my lips.
I raised Lucy's leg and encouraged her to wrap it around my waist.
"I'll fall", she protested breathlessly.
I shook my head and pushed Lucy up against the wall and lifted her off the floor altogether, supporting her entirely by the weight of my body. The t shirt had ridden up to her waist but I wanted it gone entirely. I pulled it off her and she giggled as it got caught up around one of her elbows. I hissed frustrated as I gave it another tug to free it from her. Once it was gone I could see the bloom of pink heat that had formed on her chest and I was mesmerized like a teenage boy at the way her breasts rose and fell with each heavy breath she took. I let my eyes linger over her, I couldn't remember ever feeling such longing before. I felt Lucy's hands around my waist, un-tucking my t shirt, the sensation of her deft little fingers ghosting over my skin was electrifying. I helped her remove the offending item and enjoyed the way her hands smoothed over my shoulders and arms. Both of them. It was foolish but I examined her face for any sign of revulsion. But she wasn't repulsed by the metal fused to my flesh, of course she wasn't. There was only acceptance. Trust.
The rush of tender feeling nearly knocked me off my feet.
I kissed her forehead affectionately, then each of her cheeks and then the tip of her nose. My hand held her face and I smoothed my thumb along her lower lip, parting it gently. I kissed her again and again and when I slipped my tongue inside her mouth she arched her back, her hips shifted upwards, pressing herself further against me. The movement had me instantly hard. Lucy moaned into my mouth and I couldn't breathe.
Without even thinking I had pulled us both down on to the bed. Lucy was underneath me, I propped myself up with my metal arm, trying to keep my weight off her. Lucy's arms wrapped around my neck as we kissed each other hungrily. My free hand stroked over the soft curve of her waist and I was enthralled by the feel of the fullness of her breast. Encouraged by the sweet sounds she made into my mouth I let my hand rest there, my thumb slowly circling her peaked nipple through the white lace. Her delightful sighs were all I could hear, driving me crazy so I was almost shocked by my own guttural grunt of pleasure. It had been so long it was unfamiliar. I moved away from her lips, moving my kisses further south, desperate to taste more of her skin. She was warm and sweet. I trailed kisses down her throat, kissed her swollen nipple, still hidden to me and her stomach all the while she wriggled underneath my touch. I worshiped her. I slid my hand between her thighs and parted her legs. I positioned myself between them, stunned at my own confidence. Suddenly the pliant, yielding Lucy became rigid under my touch.
"Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" I rasped, afraid of my own strength and want.
"No", she swallowed. Lucy bit her lip troubled. "It's just, it's been a while since I...you know". She looked embarrassed. I sighed relieved.
"Well...it's been kind of while for me too", I smiled. And she smiled. And then she giggled and I couldn't stop myself from laughing. And then we were kissing again, our foreheads and noses bumping, smiling like two lovesick teenagers. I wanted her more than ever but her hesitance had kick started my own.
"We don't have to do this now", I told her in between kisses.
"Do you want to wait?" She asked.
"I've waited seventy or so years, what's a few weeks more?" I joked and I felt her lips curl up into a smile.
"You might change your mind. Just friends remember?" Lucy reminded me. "Do you want this Bucky? Truly? Because I don't think I could pretend that this didn't happen. It would break my heart". Lucy was serious now. I could see the fear in her eyes that I might do that do her. I kissed her deeply.
"I want you Lucy", I told her honestly. "I've wanted you for a long time. And I'll want you tomorrow".
"I love you", Lucy told me sincerely. My heart grew at those words. My body was saturated with emotions. I couldn't think, I could only feel. "And you don't have to say anything back, I've told you before you don't owe me anything and I..." I cut her off with another kiss. I didn't want her to think either. I only wanted her to feel. She relaxed once more and my hand soothed and stroked down her body to between her soft thighs. With increasing confidence my real hand pressed over her mound. Lucy arched her back off the mattress at the contact and mewled into my mouth. Satisfied with the result I slid my hand inside her underwear and kept it there, slowly stroking up and down.
"You don't have to", Lucy told me, trying to dislodge my hand. The pleasure in her voice, however, betrayed to me that I did.
"Does it feel good?" I asked her, already knowing the answer. She bit her lip and nodded. I watched enthralled as she rode the waves of pleasure that I was bringing on. I was so used to people experiencing pain at my hand, I was fascinated that I could be responsible for so much pleasure too. I kissed her as she came, crying out in to my mouth. I held her until she stopped shaking, I fussed over her until she was still in my arms. What I could do to her, my lovely technician, was incredible.