I completely forgot about Paige when I started writing this, so naming Maya's ex after the actress who plays Paige was a complete accident. I just wanted to apologize for that.

1 year ago

Maya P.O.V.

The first time I kissed Lindsey, it was during a late night game of truth or dare with a few of our friends. This dare was common among my friends, because it was meant to embarrass and humiliate us. My friend, Karen, decided it was my turn to choose dare. I usually was one to stay on the safe side, which is why I always chose truth.

"Come on, Maya, you never try anything new", Karen said pouting.

I started to get red with embarrassment, "Fine, dare."

Karen grins like she won a prize, "Kiss Lindsey."

I'd never kissed a girl before, nor did I want to start. My father would roll his eyes and pretend to gag when he saw a lesbian at the store. He'd explain to me that it just wasn't an acceptable life style.

I made a gagging noise like I saw my father do many times, "Gross, no."

Lindsey looks over at me with a wicked grin, "Come on. It's just a dare."

Reluctantly, I agreed. The kiss was short, but I felt something.

After everyone went to bed, Lindsey tip toed over to my bed.

"Maya", Lindsey said shaking me lightly.

I turned on my side, "I'm not asleep."

"What was that like for you", she questioned curiously.

The sound of my father gagging came back into my mind, "It was just a dare, a kiss that meant nothing."

Lindsey looked down, "Well, it meant something to me."

With that, she went back to bed, and I was left wondering what that kiss meant to me. That was the start of getting my heartbroken.

"I can't tell my dad about us", Lindsey screamed.

I sat down, "I wasn't expecting you to."

She sat down next to me, "I know. I'm sorry."

"But I am going to come out", I said barley above a whisper.

"I'm sorry that I can't", she said grabbing my hand.

I pulled my hand away, "Don't be."

The next day, I came out to my father. He didn't gag, but I wish he had. He didn't say anything, and it hurt.

"Sir, what are you doing here", my father questioned to the man at the door.

The door opened wider, and I saw Lindsey's dad standing there. My heart stopped, and I felt sick. I'm told to go to my room, and I do.

I heard the voices downstairs go from soft to loud, and that happened for the next thirty minutes. The door slammed, and I heard my parents talking. It wasn't for about another twenty minutes before my father called me to come downstairs. The look on their face told me the entire story, whatever happened wasn't good.

My father grimaced at me, "We have to move."

The anger in his voice caused me to shrink, "Why?"

My mom put her hand on his shoulder, "Calm down. Let's take a second, talk to Maya later."

"You were stalking Lindsey? You made her feel uncomfortable, to the point she had to go to her father about you", his voice raised after every accusation.

My heart broke, and I couldn't speak. The look in his eyes, pure hatred, and I couldn't answer him.

I went upstairs, and I began to pack. The tears came fast, and they wouldn't stop. My phone continually went off for hours, phone call after phone call from Lindsey.

Present Day

"Please leave, Lindsey", I say calmly.

She backs away slowly, "We have to talk."

"Why'd it take you so long to come around", I question.

"I came out to my dad", she says looking down, "I came back for you. Just like I always said I would."

Emily P.O.V.

"You kissed her, now what", Hanna questions sitting on my bed.

I think for a second, "I don't know. I'm not sure what to do."

Aria speaks up, "Ask her on a date.

"I've never asked someone on a date before, plus it could have just been a momentary thing for her", I say playing with my hair.

Spencer laughs, "Oh come on. She likes you."

"Okay, fine. Where would I take her", I question.

Hanna stands up, "How about to dinner?"

"I don't think Emily is ready to go that public yet", Aria says casually.

"Why not", Spencer questions, "Maya is great."

I nod, "She is, I just haven't figured myself out."

"What is there to figure out", Hanna questions.

I think for a second, "I've always thought I liked guys, now I have these feelings for a girl. That's not something I can wrap my head around."

"I get that. Maybe figure out who you are before deciding to pursue a relationship with Maya", Aria says.

She is right, I can't expect a relationship to work when I'm too scared to be seen with her. I feel something, but once again I can't figure out what it truly means. Liking her, makes me happy, but it doesn't feel like enough.

I pull out my phone, and I find myself swiping to Maya's number.

Can we talk? –E

I stare at my phone, waiting for a reply. It comes within seconds, and I feel my heart drop immediately.

I'm busy, maybe later. –M

Busy? With what?

Maya P.O.V.

Lindsey looks down as my phone buzzes, "Who is that?"

I send a quick reply to Emily, "Her name is Emily."

She takes a sip of her coffee, "Emily? Looks like you've already moved on."

I grin, "Don't pull that, how'd your dad take in?"

"Shitty, he hasn't spoken to me", she replies nonchalantly.

I nod, "My dad still hasn't talked to me. I just walk in and out of the house, no interaction."

"I wish you still lived on base", Lindsey says staring into her coffee.

I run my fingers through my hair, "It was good to get away."

She breathes hard, "I shouldn't have did what I did, I know that. I was scared. I thought if you came out, and my dad found out he would catch on. We flirted in front of him, he just chose not to see it."

Butterflies crept into my stomach, but I pushed them away. She isn't going to get the best of me, not this time.

"I really like Emily", I say confidently, "I'm not going to screw that up because you decided to come out."

Lindsey looks at me and nods, "I'll continue to wait. I'm not giving up on us."

I get up and put a few bills on the table, "Good for you."

She grabs my arm, "Can you just come back with me to talk to my dad?"

I laugh, "I get it, you want to blame me again. Are you going to say I wouldn't leave you alone again? You're predictable. Find another scapegoat."

"Has she came out", Lindsey says loudly after me.

I stop in my tracks and turn to her, "Does it matter?"

Her eyes bore into me, "Do you really think she is going to come out for you?"

That question is something I've thought about since the kiss, and it was the only thing keeping me from asking Emily on a date. I don't expect her to announce to the world she is with me, but I didn't want to have to sneak around, not again. Sneaking around with Lindsey made me someone I never wanted to be. I was constantly jealous and paranoid. I'm just not so sure it's worth it.

Emily P.O.V.

"Isn't that Maya", Hanna questions pointing towards the coffee shop.

I look, and it is her. She is talking to a girl with blonde hair. The conversation looks heated, like they are arguing.

"Figures", Aria says under her breath.

"What", I question confused.

Aria looks towards Maya, "She said she was busy, figures it is with some other girl."

Jealous, I am jealous. Maya is sitting with a very attractive girl, who she obviously blew me off for.

Hanna grabs my arm, "Don't over analyze."

I nod, but I had already started over analyzing the situation. I am just another girl to Maya, another conquest.