Maya P.O.V.

Spencer opens my drawer putting a few shirts inside, "You should come out with us tonight."

I look over at her, "Who is us?"

"Hanna, Em, and me. We are triple dating, thought maybe you'd want to join", she says nonchalantly.

I nod, "Since it's a date thing, can I bring someone?"

Spencer hands me the empty box, "Who would you bring?"

"Her name is Laura", I say smiling.

She starts to open another box, "I'd like to meet her."

The conversation went on from there, catching up on things we've missed in the past year. I didn't question who Emily was bringing on this date, but I'm hoping she is a good person.

Spencer opens the door to leave, "Please tell me you're coming tonight."

"I'll ask Laura, if she is up for it I'm all yours", I say with a grin.

"I'll text you the details", she says, as the door begins to close.

My mom comes down the stairs, "You're going out tonight?"

"If that is okay with you", I question, slightly hoping she'd say no.

"I don't mind, are you taking Laura", she questions, leaning on the railing.

I nod, "If she wants to come."

She smiles patting my arm, "I like her. Tell her to come say hi before you guys leave."

A year ago, my mom would never talk to me about my relationships. Actually, she wouldn't talk to me at all, but now we have a relationship. Maybe it was the move, or the realization that she couldn't change me, but I love the small talk. Things have gotten dramatically better with my father, also. We talk about our days, but he doesn't talk about my relationships. I think he likes to tell himself that Laura is just a good friend, even though he knows it's more.

A knock at my door causes me to jump.

"Hey", Laura says slipping into my room.

I smile, "Hey."

She sits beside me and kisses my cheek, "I don't know what to wear tonight."

"You'll look good in anything", I say, kissing her lightly.

She pouts, "I'm nervous, though."

My mouth opened multiple times to tell her about Emily, but I couldn't. That would only make things awkward, not that it won't be awkward enough.

Emily P.O.V.

"Are you ready to go", Ben questions, annoyance prominent in his voice.

"Yeah", I say, adding my last few touches of makeup.

I walk out of my bedroom, and I'm met with a bright faced Ben.

He kisses my cheek, "You look fantastic."

I nod, hopping that was enough of a 'thank you'. I never meant to get back together with him, but I had to. I constantly feared my mom caught on about Maya and me, and I couldn't have that. I didn't want to lose a fantastic relationship with her.

The conversation in the car lacked. We didn't say much, but I didn't mind.

Spencer opens the car door, "Get out. Let's go, you're late."

I quickly grab my purse, "I'm sorry.

Maya, she is sitting in the corner of the booth next to a girl who looks really familiar. My mouth goes dry, and I hope my face doesn't show what I feel.

"What is she doing her, and who is that girl with her", I whisper to Spencer.

Spencer gives me a side glance, "Laura, her girlfriend, I guess."

For a year, I never once tried to talk to her, and she didn't try to contact me. I was content, pretending like whatever was between us didn't exist. I can't pretend when she is sitting near me, and it takes everything within me not to stare at her. Maya is just as beautiful as I remember. Actually, she might be prettier.

"I'm going to the restroom", Maya says standing up.

"I'll go with you", I say before I could stop myself.

She nods in my direction, but Maya doesn't look at me. Honestly, she hasn't looked at me once since I've been here.

Maya P.O.V.

"You're with Ben", I say as soon as the door closes.

Emily looks at the ground, "Yeah."

I laugh, not a hearty laugh, "Wow."

"It isn't like that", she says.

Desperate to understand what she meant, "What is it like?"

Emily finally looks up at me, "I can't talk about this here, maybe we can get together sometime."

"Seriously", I question, putting my hand over my mouth to keep from laughing again.

She opens the bathroom door, "I don't know why I am even trying to explain myself to you, and it isn't any of your business."

I nod, "You're right."

The walk back to the table felt long, because my mind was lost. I've come to the conclusion that I'm not jealous that she is with someone else, I'm angry. I'm mad that Emily is still hiding who she truly is.

Spencer looks at Laura, "How did you handle that long distance relationship with Maya?"

Laura takes a sip of her water, "I thought it was going to be a lot harder to handle than it actually was. Of course there was a few fights because plans didn't work out, but I enjoy being with her. She ultimately makes me happy, and the distance felt like nothing when I actually could be with her."

"That's so cute", Hanna says with a big smile on her face.

I glance at Emily, "How long have you and Ben been together now?"

The anger was evident in my voice, but I don't think Laura noticed.

Ben glances up from his food, "About 11 months now."

I feel Emily's eyes on me, but I don't look up. Obviously it didn't take her long to move on.

"How long have you and Laura been together", Emily questions nonchalantly.

I smile politely, "Almost 9 months."

The dinner went on for about another hour, polite conversation was made. Side glances from Emily were noticed, but I didn't say much. Laura caught on towards the end of the dinner that I didn't want to be there.

Laura stands grabbing her purse, "We've got to go. Maya's mom wanted us to get back so we could catch up a little."

Everyone at the table nods, and we say our goodbyes. Hanna and Spencer both made it known that we have a lot more catching up to do. I didn't say anything to Emily, and she didn't say anything to me.

The cool air hits my face, and I feel my body begin to relax.

"What was going on in there", Laura questions, wrapping her sweater tighter around herself.

I nod, "I use to date Emily, but she wasn't out. I know I should have told you, but I really wanted you to meet my friends without things being completely awkward."

"I had a feeling that was the problem", Laura says, getting into the passenger side of the car.

"How did you know", I question, starting the engine.

Laura clears her throat, "She was staring at you the entire time."

I don't answer, but my stomach exploded with butterflies. It's been a year, and Emily still has this ridiculous effect on me.

Emily P.O.V.

Spencer sits on my bed, "You don't have any right to be jealous."

"Who said I'm jealous", I question, getting defensive.

"You weren't fooling anyone. I mean, you were looking at her the entire night", Hanna says, laying down.

Spencer lies next to her, "We all were there when things ended, and you were a mess."

A year earlier

Tears flooded my vision, and I was left not being able to see my surroundings. I blinked twice, but as soon as I could see again, the tears came back. This lasted many days and nights, I missed Maya. More than I ever thought I would.

A knock at my door made me whip my eyes till they felt raw.

"How are you holding up", Spencer questioned, she held a pint of ice cream.

I sit up, "I miss her."

"Call her, Em. It won't hurt", she opened the pint and handed me a spoon.

I took it and dug in, "I don't want to be that girl."

"She is probably waiting for your call. You did end things with her", Spencer added.

I nod, and I picked up my phone. I dialed her number many times, but I could never bring myself to actually call.

"I can't come out", I said quietly.

"Em, you can't hid who you are forever", Spencer said, she hugged me.

Present

Those last words Spencer said to me that night hung around to this day. I can't hide who I am forever.

Sorry for such a late update, I am almost into finals week. So, it is tough to keep up with school work and writing. I will continue to try to update as much as possible.