I had sat there, crying for a while. No one cared anymore. How could my own mother hate me? What had I done? I didn't do anything. I just wanted… Even my father, my favourite (secret) person left me! I had stopped crying by now though. Instead I felt something in me, it was growing. It had some emotion. Something I've never felt before. It burned. It burned like fire.

'My mother used to love me… why? What did I do?' … Then another voice came in, the voice of my conscience. 'Actually she never loved you. I mean think about it. How does Mikael feel, how does he treat me? He abuses me, not with beating, he batters at my mind until I break. Like that one time when I was just playing with Elijah. He knocked me on my back! Just because he didn't like me, because I was having fun. What did Esther do? Hm? She did nothing! She just stood there! She stood there and watched it happen. She has never intervened in anything Mikael was doing. I don't expect her to stop the every so often punishment. You have to do some things wrong. Otherwise he'd get suspicious. It was the other times that she did nothing.' I shakily exhaled. It was all coming together, all making sense. She had never loved me. She only gave me love when she wanted to. She used me. Her own child. She used me. She used… me. I heard something growl and then I stood and followed something, I wasn't in control. It dawned on me that I was angry. I was angry at her.

I sniffed around before realizing something. I know where's got to be if she's anywhere. It was close to dawn now. I ran as fast as possible to the place where Mother usually collected herbs near the Akatai clan camp. I hid in the shadows and waited. I waited for Mother- NO. I waited for ESTHER to come over. I had no parents. At least none worth thinking about or even the least bit considering them to be my parents.

And sure enough there she is. I watched her for a minute and she sat there, picking herbs from the area. Mikael would always wake us up by now, which means he was out of the house. He was up and about and my siblings would probably be looking for me. I listened to her. She was crying. Quietly. 'Now would be the perfect time to strike. Do it.' I growled and she looked up, looking around her surroundings. I walked up to her, I was next to her in a second. 'How did I do that? That's cool, it's fast.' I smiled but my lips didn't move.

Mother smiled as she looked at me. I just watched her impassively. She smiled at me and again things happened in a blur. My hand moved into her chest, grabbed something, and then ripped it out. Mother gasped, trying to catch her breath before she fell over dead.

I stood like that for a bit. What happened? Mother? I dropped to my knees and shook her. "Mother, wake up! Mother! Mom? Please, wake up. What happened?" I asked. Then I saw something next to me. I slitted my eyes as I tried to figure out what it was. I picked it up and dropped it the next second. It was a heart. I looked at Mom and saw a hole in her chest. I began to shake, horrified. I killed my mother? I stuffed her heart back in her chest and pressed on her chest. That was how you stopped the bleeding, and bleeding my mother was.

"Mommy please wake up! I didn't mean it! I didn't know what I was doing! You can't be dead. You can't be." I shoved her and she limply followed my shove. I got up and ran off. I would not be caught red handed this time. I didn't even have her blood on my hands.

I sat down in a tree, staying there. Soon my head was no longer spinning. I was just trying to think about what I should tell the others. I had to get them on my side before they got on Mikael's side. I needed to find my siblings. So I jumped down from the tree, I didn't feel my legs almost give out the way they usually did. I went around calling for my siblings

"Elijah! Rebekah! Kol! Finn!" I heard no one answer, so I just walked around, trying to find them. I wasn't willing to call out and get caught by Mikael instead. Then I heard Rebekah call out for me.

"NIKY! NIK! Where are you?!" I ran to her, by instinct. She smiled before throwing herself at me. I caught her and she hugged me tightly. "Never do that again. Nik, I love you. I don't want you to stay out all night ever again. Please?" I nodded. "Good, you promised to never leave me.

"Yes, I promised. I know."

"Mother will be so glad to know we've found you." I shook my head.

"Where's Elijah and Kol? Finn?"

"They are also out looking for you." So we set about looking for them and when we did find them, it was lunch time. We walked home, laughing like we used to do, having fun like we used to do. I miss these times. When we were home, I sat down and waited for lunch.

"Mother's not here. We should go look for her." Finn replied. "She doesn't know we've found you or she would be home. If we don't tell her, she'll keep looking for you and we won't have lunch and we won't have family time together." I smiled at Finn. We left the house and began to look for her.

Eventually I found her… or rather, I went back to her body. Eventually Rebekah came over and gasped at the sight. She ran over and fell by her side, crying for her to wake up. I fell to my knees and cried too. Because I was sad but also… because something told me to do it. Something told me that it was now or never to get them on my side.

"Niklaus, what happened?" She cried when she'd given up on waking her. I had to give her an answer. So I told her of how when I killed someone, I had triggered my werewolf gene and Mikael had been furious. How he killed Mother in front of me, how he said she broke his heart and that in return that he would break hers, how he ripped her heart from her chest as I watched. I broke down even more after that and Rebekah set to comforting me. I felt guilty. I should be comforting her. I hugged her and she and I cried, I stopped first. I had been thinking of how I should tell Elijah and the others.

"I'm sorry I didn't do anything to stop it Rebekah. I was…"

"Shush Nik. We must tell the others before they meet Mikael." So I got up and followed her around, we got Kol and Elijah and Finn. "We must leave. I don't want to live with a man who killed my mother." I nodded at her and the others agreed. Elijah, Finn, and Kol left to get their lunch, which I suppose was blood for lunch. I staid with Rebekah.

I grabbed a shovel and began to dig, I put Esther in the hole and dug her up, giving her a funeral. I knew she wouldn't be okay with burning her like we were supposed to so I did it the way Beky would have liked it to go down.

"I know that you think she hated you Niklaus but she did not. She was just afraid. I'm sorry she turned her back on you, I will never do that."

"And nor will I." I felt my heart stop when I heard Elijah. I didn't know he was here. He stepped out into the open and came up to us. I looked at my siblings, for a sign of a lie or if they were just saying that. They were dead serious. Beky held a hand out to me.

"We stick together as one. Always And Forever." I stared at her, she was waiting for me to take her hand. I looked at her hand and gave her mine. Then she held a hand out for Elijah. Elijah looked at me and I almost smiled, almost. He held a hand out for me, Rebekah looked at me, and I took his hand too. They smiled at me and waited for me to smile, so I did.