"Kai-kun I'm sorry..." Why was Aichi apologizing to him? He should be the one on his knees begging for Aichi's forgiveness. "I don't know how I h-hurt you but I'd like to f-fix it." Kai's hand stayed on the handle. He knew Aichi must have heard the door unclick before but he still couldn't bring himself to open the door. If he saw the blue haired boy what would happen? Would he cry? Yell? He also didn't want him to see his bloodshot eyes and worry about him. "B-b-because you're what's keeping…" Kai heard Aichi's breath hitch and he could tell he was about to cry. Great now you hurt the one you love. Good job you piece of shit.
Before Kai could respond to him he already heard the footsteps running down the hall. He sank down to the floor and cried at the thought of upsetting Aichi. Why couldn't he just tell him? He never hated himself more.
When Kai calmed down he decided to finally turn on his phone. It vibrated for about five minutes of missed messages just coming in. There were 16 texts from Aichi that just showed him becoming more and more depressed. The first was a simple 'Kai-kun what's wrong?' and the last was 'I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you hate me… I'll leave you alone now.' That was from an hour ago, right after Aichi left his house. Before he even got to read the ungodly amount of messages from Miwa, a new one popped up on his phone.
Ren: y is my boyfriend crying?
Kai desperately needed to know now. He couldn't handle it anymore.
Kai: Boyfriend?
Ren: yep! he rlly is happy now :)
Kai: Fuck you.
Did Ren really make him happy? He knew if Aichi was happy he should be happy too. He knew it but the whole in his chest said differently. It told him that if he wasn't a failure this wouldn't be a problem.
Aichi sat on Ren's couch staring at Blaster Blade. Ren had tried holding him multiple times but Aichi just wanted to curl in a ball. "Kai-kun…" he mumbled to himself.
"Oh Aichi-kun!" Aichi knew he shouldn't but he shuddered at the voice. Ren sat down and started awkwardly leaning in. Even unexperienced Aichi knew were this was going. He let out a yelp and jumped off the couch.
"I t-told you already no k-k-kissing." He could barely get the word 'kiss' out. He wanted to hide from it. He never even planned on dating Ren. He didn't remember much of that drunken night other than him telling him how lonely he felt when Kai wasn't there. He remembered Ren telling him he would make him happy again and he remembered being so desperate he agreed. The next morning when he woke up to Ren's arm around his small frame he regretted it.
Ren huffed and moved back.
"You love him don't you?" Ren asked the blue haired boy. He only looked back confused. "Kai I mean."
"E-EHHHH?" Aichi couldn't deny it. He couldn't say he didn't but he also didn't want to say yes quite yet. Being with Kai was so important to him he couldn't drive him away or upset him with three simple words.
"It's okay I don't mind," Ren smiled. He deserved better than a boy obsessing over someone who hated him…
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Hey guys! Thank you for all the support on this story! I honestly didn't know there'd be Renai it just… happened? But I promise they won't be end game. I think all of us want the blueberry happy with Kai. I'm going to be updating more often I'm as excited as you are to see where this is going. Thanks for reading!