You Don't Know Me West! Chapter 2: Broken, a victorious fanfic

Chapter 2: Broken

I don't own the songs, or Victorious

Jade POV

As I watched Tori drive away from me her last words kept replaying in my head in a loop.

It's over.

How could it be over? It can't be over! I didn't agree to us being over! That settle's it I didn't agree to us being done so therefore we aren't. Tori will come back to me tomorrow and we can talk this over, I'll apologize and tell her I love her and things will go back to how they used to be. With that thought in mind I got into my car and headed home hoping when I wake up tomorrow this will have been a nightmare.

Tori POV

As I drove home I couldn't help but think of Jade as my thoughts often wonder to. How could she say such things to me? The more I thought about her cruel words the more my heart hurt. My thoughts were too loud in the silent car and I didn't want to go home tonight. I decided to head to the Karaoke Dokie to vent my pain into a song to an anonymous crowd.

Once I arrived I saw I wasn't the only one to vent my pain as I saw some boy performing a song by baby face "The Loneliness."

I'm sitting here
Thinkin' 'bout
How I'm gon-na do without
You around
In my life
And how am I, I gon' get by
Ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
If you want the truth
Well girl I'm not alright
Feel out of place
And out of time
I think I'm gonna lose my mind

So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real? (So lonely)
Do you still think of me? (I think of you)
Baby still? (You only)
Do you dream of me at night? (Like I dream you all the time)
So lo-o-o-o-o-one

Oh let me tell you how it feels (It's like every day I die)
Wish I was dreamin' but it's real (When I open up my eyes)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (And don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love agai-i-i-in

I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss, the arguments
That we would have
From time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here
It's clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live
I wanna die
If I can't have you in my life

So tell me how you feel (Oh)
Are you for real? (For real)
Do you still think of me? (I think of you)
Baby still? (You only)
Do you dream of me at night? (It's like I dream you all the time)
So lo-o-o-o-o-one

(Repeat until end)
So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real? (So lonely)
Do you still think of me? (I think of you)
Baby still? (You only)
Do you dream of me at night? (It's like I dream you all the time)
So lo-o-o-o-o-one

Oh let me tell you how it feels (It's like every day I die)
Wish I was dreamin' but its real (When I open up my eyes)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (And I don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love agai-i-i-in (I'll never ever ever love again baby)

By the end of the song I was in tears as I knew that song reflected both how I feel and how I am going to feel trying to be without Jade. As I watched the boy move off the stage toward the exit with what looked like the world on his shoulders he suddenly stopped and turned to me as if he noticed me watching.

His piercing blue eyes caught mine filled with pain and loneliness and my heart ached for him just as it did for my own. I knew soon my eyes would hold the same haunted air as this lonely boy and my heart cried out for his pain and the pain I had yet to feel.

The boy nodded his head in respect for what I perceived to be me seeing and acknowledging his pain when no one else can or if they do they don't understand. I nodded toward him in return wishing him luck in finding and keeping the one his heart and soul cried out for. With one last look he left the club into the night and it was my turn to sing my pain.

As I stepped onto the stage I felt like a siren singing my pain unto the poor unsuspecting crowd, they be my sailors and I their siren luring them to my doom.

After I told the D.J. my song choice I began to sing my heart out.

"Next up we have Tori Vega singing BarlowGirl Song for the Broken!" The D.J Announced as the beat began and I lost myself to the music.

I am the comfortable secure
The definition of this western world
And I have perfected deceit
Even I believe I'm above saving
I'll never let You see
I never let her see how much her words hurt me. I never let her see how much she hurt me whenever she hit me or almost killed me. I have lived behind my always happy Tori Vega mask for so long that I never allowed anyone to see just how broken I am.
I am the broken
I am the bruised
I am the poor ones
I have been used.

Every single word. Every single hit. Every single bruise. Every time I have been used for my talents.

When I am breathing my last breath
"Come and save me" I will cry to You
'Cause pride has not let me say

What pride?

Why does it take so much Bring me to my knees,
Why does it take so much pain for me to see?
If strength is only fond when I am on my knees,
why is it so hard to show that I am weak?

Why did I keep fighting for us when I knew I would end up broken and on my knees in the end.

Why did it take until those hateful words for me to see how much she hurts me.

If it takes this much to knock me down than why is it only now when I can stand up to her and stand strong?

I am the broken
I am the bruised
I am the poor ones
I have been used.

I won't be broken anymore I vowed to myself.

Once I was finished with my song I left the thundering applause to grab my purse and head home where I can plan on how to get back at Jade and keep my vow to myself on not being broken any more.

Jade you won't know what hit you. After all you don't know me West!

Author Note:

That lonely boy will play an important role in this story.

Also this is the turning point for Tori seeing that boy and realizing how much of her pain and herself she has been hiding from others and herself is going to be the beginning of Tori showing Jade and herself that they don't know Tori as much as they think they do.

I tried to write Jade as you can see but I can't write her so until I can I am going to write it from Tori's POV and Third Person.

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