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WARNING: Yaoi, smut (kinda), sex, cursing.

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Chapter 9: Run

I've been dating Levi Ackerman for almost five whole months. I know! I shouldn't have kept it from them for five months! But I was so worried they would judge. Don't get me wrong I love them to death but...we all know how Mikasa is. I take a deep breath either way I'm finally ready to tell them. I think. Mikasa's going to freak.

"So um I have something big to tell you guys."

"Is it about this mysterious boyfriend of yours?" Armin says in a teasing voice

I nod. "Well yes. Um...the reason I haven't told you his name is because.."

"It's Levi, isn't it?" Mikasa says in an deadpan voice

Armin's eyes go wide and he looks at me. "Le-Levi? Aka Erwin's best friend. Aka the biggest player slash man whore. Aka 'I don't do relationships' Levi?"

I nod my head and bite my lip.

"Well-"

"Eren. He's going to hurt you."

"Mikasa. Maybe he won't. He hasn't been with anybody else. We're together all the time. He even let's me check his phone. He turns down-"

"Eren. I'm telling you. He is not any good."

"How exactly would you know Mikasa. You don't talk to him, you don't know what's he like."

Armin is looking between us and that's when I notice the look on Mikasa's face. Armin notices it to.

"Mikasa, what are you not telling Eren?"

"Ask Erwin he knows too."

"Er-erwin knows?" Armin questions

I look at her. "What does Erwin know...what do you know?"

"If Erwin knows, it's obvious Levi knows. Ask your boyfriend."

"Mikasa.." She gets up before me and Armin could say anything to her. I look at him.

"What the fuck was that about?"

Armin shrugs at me. "I'm going to call Erwin." Armin picks up his phone and calls Erwin.

"Hey babe. Yeah I wanted to talk to you about something. What...no no! Why would I break up with you?..." Armin giggles. "You're so silly...but it is something serious. Mikasa just told me that you know something about Levi. Something she obviously knows. So what exactly is it? Yes I'm with Eren. What? Why can't I...but...Wait!" Before Armin could even ask anymore I'm guessing Erwin hung up.

"Did he tell you?"

Armin just shook his head. "He said the same thing Mikasa said. Ask Levi."

I just look at Armin. I got a bad fucking feeling about this. Like really bad.

"I'm sure it's nothing too bad. Ma-maybe. I don't wanna give you false hope."

"Armin..if Mikasa knows and she's not telling us, when she tells us everything...it's bad"

I had just left the building I had my class in. Levi was sitting on his car waiting for me.

"Hey brat." He smirks at me.

"Hey."

He raises a brow at me. Then catches my wrist pulling me to him. He wraps his arms around my waist. I look at him right into his eyes.

"What's wrong brat?"

"Are you hiding somethings from me?"

He blinks at me, he looks surprised. Oh god. Is he actually hiding something from me. He sighs and pulls away from me.

"Get in the car."

"Levi. Just tell me right now." I feel myself starting to get scared and worried and whatever else the fuck I'm feeling. Is he really lying to me?

He sighs again, and leans on his car in front of me.

"Who told you?"

"Mikasa said there was something that I had to ask you. Erwin said the same thing."

"Fuck." He pulls out a cigarette and lights it, taking a long drag from it. "I didn't want you to know. Or find out ever."

"Ju-just say it." My voice is shakey but I try to control it as much as I can.

"Eren...I'm married."

My heart drops to my fucking stomach. "Wh-what?"

"I.." He looks around then back at me. "I'll explain in the car..just please get in."

I got in the car, looking at him. He started the car and started driving off.

He looks at me and sighs. I can't even describe how I'm feeling right now. Married?! He's fucking married?! How-how did I not know. How could I not..what...what... I'm holding my tears back as much as I can.

After 20 minutes of driving in utter silence."I was 19. I was...in love."

He starts talking and that's when I finally look at him.

"Remember my ex I was telling you about. Well I was speaking about him. We grew up together. We..he was one of my best friends. He was my first. He said when we turn 18 we should get married. I..I he just...he seen past my cold demeanor. He was the only one who ever saw me at my weakest. My growing up wasn't the best and no matter what I did , he was there. I loved him so much. I didn't have a home but he...he became my home. Long story short. We turned 18, we left our hometown, together. We both had jobs. Found a cute little studio big enough for us. He said he wanted to start going to school. Of course he talked me into it. So a year later we applied for this school got in and we requested to be roommates in the dorm. We gave up our cute little place we called home." Levi took a deep breath. I didn't even know we stopped driving. He continued though.

"Everyone here knew about our relationship. I'm cold and distant, he was inviting and kind and popular. All the guys , even girls wanted him. Which he was very feminine. So it shocked me but a year later, we were laying in bed. And he said 'lets get married' I thought he was joking but he wasn't. So we went to Vegas. Of course at the time only a select places were doing gay weddings but we got our marriage certificate and got married. We were happy. Extremely utterly happy. I was happy I was the happiest I've ever been in my fucked up life. 8 months after that I woke up one day to a fucking note. 'I'm leaving. I wont be back. I'll always love you.' He left me. No explanation nothing. He just left me. 5 months later I was walking with Erwin in the mall and there he was...with someone else." He took another deep breath. I can tell he's reliving that pain. I wouldn't know how to take it either.

"He saw me and kissed him right in front of me. I-I never got over him." Levi's voice is cracking at this point, I can tell he's on the verge of tears. "He-he's back at the school. He has a class with Erwin. Mikasa caught him and I talking yesterday. I-we kissed. I-I-I still love him I think but I-I told him I was taken and that I was..finally falling out of love with him but he...he."

My eyes are wide at what he says. He can't even finish his sentence. I just look at him literally like I'm mortified. Everything hurts. 5 months. Endless amounts of how much he needs me and wants me. All the kisses, the making love. And yet he hides this one big thing from me.

"I-I wanna go home Levi." I don't even look at him. I tune him out. I just want to go the fuck home.

I couldn't jump out the fucking car quick enough. I feel like I was gonna be sick. I stop though and turned back to the car.

"It might not have been love at first sight but even though you had app those people you were different with me. Then you told me what you did that night and my heart felt like it was gonna burst. You lied to me.." All I did was turn around and walk away.

Why didn't I listen to anybody? Why didn't I listen to Mikasa? Why didn't I just...I fall for him more and more every fucking day. Ma-maybe I'm overreacting. He did mention me to him.

I ran all the way up to my dorm and when I opened the door Armin and Erwin were there. Armin looked at me. My eyes are probably swollen and red.

"Oh Eren." Armin stands up and rushes over to me hugging me and all I do is break down in his arms.

"Wh-wh-why does he-he do this? W-why di-did he-he do th-this to me?"

Armin runs his fingers through my hair just. Erwin comes over and I feel him rub my back. I gotta admit it's kind of weird but greatly appreciated.

"I'm sorry Eren. I'm so sorry. I can't believe this happened."

"That's the bad part about it Armin. Nothing major happened. Yet. I don't want him to break me. He is going to break me. The part that is killing me is because I'm going to let him. I-I'm falling hard for him Armin and I hate it." I cry so hard for myself and for Levi.

Armin just holds me tighter. Fuck I like Levi so much, but he's in love with someone else. No matter what I do, this whole entire time. Levi has been in love with someone else.