AFTERMATH
CHAPTER ONE:
It feels like weeks since I lost him, I can't even speak his name, I just lay in bed, our bed, all day, holding onto the ring he gave me. My parents and henry come check on me every so often but I can't bring myself to get out of bed. I lost him, the man I love, the man who loves me, I spend all day in bed daydreaming, remembering his touch, his smell, his voice.
It's been a month when my mother comes into my room and demands that I come out and go for dinner with her and henry. "Emma, you need to get out, you've been in here for weeks, it's not healthy" "I don't care, I lost him, I just can't right now" I replied "I know, Emma, it's awful, it's hard, but what would hook want you to do? He said he wanted you to have a future" Mary Margaret said to me as I just felt the anger in my stomach rising. "His name was Killian and he was my future" I sat up and raised my voice back at her, angered that she would talk about him. I guess moving so fast didn't agree with me because as soon as I sat up I felt something coming up from my stomach. I looked at my mother with such fury but was distracted by the feeling coming up again, I ran to the bathroom.
My mother could hear me being sick through the door. "I know, I'm so sorry, baby, if not for him, do it for Henry, he misses you and he needs his mother" She pleaded through the door. She knew that was my weakness, I was never much of a mother to him but I owed it to him to get out and see him. "You're sick Emma, its not healthy just staying here in bed everyday, we've given you time but you need to get out" I debated about even responding. "A month, is all the time you expect me to take to get over my true love? How would you have been if it was David." Mary Margaret took a deep breath "Devastated, that's not what I meant but you have Henry, me, your dad and Neal. You have family and you need to continue and have that future that ho-" My eyes shot directly to her head "Killian, that Killian wanted for you." Mary Margaret replied. I stood up feeling uneasy and walked to the closet door. "I know..." is all I could reply. She came over and hugged me. "I love you, Emma, I'll let you get dressed" She left the room, I opened the closet and could see Killian's shirts on his side of the closet, I started to cry, I took one out and just hugged it, smelled it and laid down with it crying for my lost love.