CHAPTER FIVE
I stood at the edge of the lake waiting for Gold to bring us to the underworld to save Hook. Regina, Robin, Henry, David and my mother all stood with me waiting for Gold to start the journey. I see Gold cut his hand and drip the blood into the river, in the distance I can see something. We start walking into the water when we can tell it's a boat, and we continued to walk until we reached the boat.
When we arrived to the underworld, it looked just like Storybrooke but it was trashed, everything was broken and torn down. We got off the boat right near the graveyard, and I ran over to Killian's grave, just to touch it, secretly hoping he was somewhere nearby. "Killian?" I shouted without even thinking. "Emma, don't shout, we don't know who else is here, it's the underworld, we don't want to alert anyone we're here" David said coming up behind me, feeling that feeling in my stomach again but if I want to keep my pregnancy a secret until I get back home with Killian I can't be puking every ten minutes or they will figure it out. "Yes, dearie, you might not want to alert Hayes or any of the other evil you have sent here that we've arrived or else you might have another war on your hands" Gold told me standing near me. I watched him carefully around Killian's grave. "So how do we find him?" Henry asks. I perk up hearing his voice, reminding me that he's here. I walk over to him and put my hands on his shoulders "We have to find him, quietly, ourselves, there could be lots of people you may recognize here and it's very important to try and avoid them all." Gold told us as he walked past the grave, "Well, lets start, its why we're here aren't we" Regina replied starting to walk toward the town.
I couldn't even speak, just held onto Henry's hand and starting to walk toward the town. Trying to wait for the feeling of nausea to pass I waited for someone else to start talking. "Where should we start? Emma? He's your man, Where would he go?" Regina asked me. " His ship? Our home? The apartment? Should we stay together or split up?" I ask. " I think splitting up in the underworld right now is too dangerous, we must stay together" Mary Margaret replied. "Lets check your house first and see if he's there" David said, I nodded and we started to walk in that direction.
The house was trashed, windows broken, fires in the yard, spattered with paint. I didn't like seeing the house like this, and I had to fight the urge to tear up seeing my house with Killian like this. I entered the house and walked up the stairs "Killian?" I call out "Stay here and let me know if you see or hear anything" I tell them as they enter the house behind me. I run up the stairs to look around the rooms, I can't find him anywhere, I stop when I reach our bedroom, there's nothing there, just an empty room. I take a moment standing in the room we used to share together, I feel things coming up again, for the first time with my hand shaking I put it to my belly and start to rub it. "Oh, baby" I whisper to myself "Where is your daddy" A tear comes out as this is the first time I say it out loud. I slowly walk to the bathroom, enjoying these few moments alone to acknowledge that there is a little pirate inside me and he needs some attention. When I'm finished emptying my stomach, I take my prenatal vitamin which is hidden in a little black container from my jacket. "Emma?" I hear David calling, "Coming, he's not here" I shout back walking in the hallway, I stare at the spare bedroom at the end of the hallway, imagining what it would look like all set up for the little peanut. I look away and head down the stairs "he's not there" I tell them. "Let's go check the Jolly Roger" I say as I lead the way out of the house and toward the dock.