Forgive but can't forget
Summary: _
In which Asami has been avoiding Korra for the last two weeks unable to forget the fact that she masturbated to the image of Korra
Author's Note: I apologize for the ending not in the last chapter. The songs Korra listened to while thinking of Asami where: Running on sunshine and All good things (come to an end)- Nelly Furtado. The songs Asami where listening to while thinking of Korra where: Every time we touch- Cascada, Please don't go- 2ne1(Korean group, English lyrics) and Sweet child o' mine- guns and roses
~Korra~
I couldn't help but groan. Asami has been avoiding me for the last two weeks. I am sure that if she would just hear my apologies then things may go back to normal… well that is if this heavy filling in the pit of my stomach and back of my mind would just fade away already. Regardless today is the day. As Raava as my witness I will make her listen to me even if it means ambushing her in front of the school.
I stared intensely scanning the crowed for the familiar Raven colored hair or signature black leather jacket that emitted her scent of spring. With me standing in front of the school doors like this there will be no way for me to miss her.
"Are you alright there Korra?" my eyes broke its' scan of the crowed at the sound of my name. "you looking for someone?" Kuvira… I can't tell her I'm standing here literally stalking the Spirits out of a girl I only met two weeks ago hoping to get the chance to speak with her. Hell even just seeing her or being engulfed in her scent would be good enough for me.
'yeah right. Like you'd be satisfied with no touching.'
Like hell I'm telling her any of that. "oh, hey Kuv." I said trying to hold in my disappointment of her not being Asami. "I guess you can say that. I thought I'd wait here until Mako and the others show." Smooth by phrasing it that way, it doesn't sound like I'm looking for Asami.
I took a sip of my water not even getting the chance to swallow before it came shooting out of my mouth and dripping down my chin and shirt at the sound of her question. "You like Mako?" Kuvira said with a large devious grin plastered over her face.
"What! Spirits no. What the hell Kuv!" I said as I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. "Mako is definitely NOT the one I have a thing for."
'Spirits'
Did I really just say that?
I turned to Kuvira slowly hoping, no praying, that she didn't catch what I just said. Excitement filled her face and she began to poke me in the side. "OMR Avatar Korra, you sly dog. How dare you have a thing for someone and Not tell your best friend who it is."
"ok first of all shhh! No one is supposed to know about the whole…" I lowered my voice and took a quick look around. "Avatar thing. What would you do if it got out. Are you going to sit through one of Tenzin's speeches about the importance of timing? cuz' I'm certainly not."
She rolled her eyes still smiling. "oh whatever. You still aren't getting out of this without telling me who in the group it is." Her eyes narrowed, her smile never once faltering. "ok so if it isn't Mako then that just leaves Bolin, Opal, Jinora, Azula, Iroh and Asami?"
I fought the urge to blush at the sound of her name. she gasped which made my head shoot up to see if she had figured it out. "it couldn't be me now could it Avatar." she said jokingly pretending to be surprised. "why Korra I'm flattered… but no offence you're not my type." We burst out laughing.
"Oh fuck you. Don't flatter yourself you're not my type either." After out laughter started to die down she continued.
"So who is it? Ok so it can't be Bo or opal because they're obviously dating and it's not Mako as we have established. So that just leaves… Jinora, Azula, Iroh and Asami?" again I fight the urge to not blush… but I'm slowly losing that fight.
"just drop it Kuv. It doesn't matter anyway…" I lowered my gaze remembering all the warnings I received from Tenzin and my father.
"why because of the 'curse' that comes with being the Avatar?" I didn't say anything but then again I didn't really have to for Kuvira to know exactly what was on my mind…. I had promised my parents already that if things ever got to that point I'd go into the Avatar meditation room.
Well if I'm really being honest it's more like an isolation room. From the stories Katara use to tell me it was essentially a place to clear your mind. After all, with all the power that surges through your body as the avatar, control over your emotions isn't the easiest thing to manage. With heightened senses, focus is… difficult at best.
"oh hey, there they are." I reluctantly looked up in as Kuvira began to wave. "'Sami!" I watched her run over to the others, reluctantly following having lost my previous convictions.
I managed a weak smile when her eyes met my own. I swear her head could not turn any faster.
'what happened to all that confidence you had before Korra. Come one move your ass! Things can't start moving unless you're willing to 'Avatar up'… wow that sounded even worse than I thought.
"Guess what Korra Just told me you guys…" no it's not possible… SHE WOULDN'T DARE. "So apparently Korra…" I didn't let her finish. In a matter of seconds, I was practically Air-bending over to her and placing her in a head lock with one hand over her mouth.
"hey-, wha, um Kuv can I see you over here for a minute? 'kay thanks."
"what's up with them" I heard Bolin ask before Mako responded.
"Must be a girl thing bro." this was followed by a thump then a quick 'ow' said in unison.
"What do you think you're doing Kuv. Have you lost your mind." I said with a stern look before looking in the direction of the group. In actuality my eyes fell to Asami. Her hair fell over her shoulders and framed her face complimenting the purple eye shadow and scarlet red lips that brought out those emerald eyes of hers and Pale skin completion. God even from this distance I still smell her as though I was standing right next to her and thank Raava for the gentle wind today.
Kuvira shifted her weight and it was only until my face was buried in the cement with one arm forced behind my back that I realized my mistake in letting my guard down. I let out the small growl that ran up my vocal cords.
'Great way to make a complete ass out of yourself Korra.' The others seemed confused as to what we were doing, but to my surprise there was a hint of concern in Asami's eyes. I could feel my heart stop for just a moment and even though I was embarrassing to have her see me in this state that isn't what caused me to blush so heavily even the tips of my ears where on fire.
"relax Korra." Kuvira said as she helped me onto my feet. "as much fun as it would be outing you like that. Do you really think I'd do that to my bestie?"
Without a hint of hesitation, I narrowed my eyes and said "yes. Yes, I do."
she laughed before punching me in the arm and dragging me back over to the others.
"What was that about." Azula asked with a slight smile of her own.
"nothing just a small disagreement." Kuvira said.
"So what did you want to talk about before?" Opal said as her eyes shifted back and forth between the two of us.
"Korra thought we should skip school today. It's not like we really need to take the special courses anyway." Kuv said waving her hand over the idea of all students having to be placed in the special course whether they had bending abilities or not.
"yeah, well speak for yourself I couldn't get this meatal bending down even if it killed me." Bolin said huffing at the thought of his last screw up.
"chill Bolin you'll get it eventually." Mako replied trying to comfort his brother.
"yeah well you haven't gone you against Azula yet Mako." Iroh said rubbing his back. "I still get this crick in my back when I bend over."
The others laughed. "skip school for the day? Well what would we do." Jinora asked with caution.
I poked her cheek "well first off good little girls should go to class" she pouted at the thought of being called a child.
"Stop treating me like a kid Korra. I'm only two years younger than all of you." She protested.
"two years too young if you ask me. Besides I'll need a cover. If your father finds out about this I'll never here the end of it." I stated.
"it's still not a fair deal if you ask me." She responded with furrowed eyebrows, still pouting.
"How About this you stay and cover for us for today and tomorrow you can come with us to a party later on." Kuvira said looking up from her phone.
"that's fine and all but what exactly are we going to do now." Mako asked.
"well we could go to Asami's place." Bolin said not even considering whether or not it was ok with Asami.
"Bolin sweetie I don't think that's such a good idea." Opal said her eyes shot a concerned look at Asami who lowered her eyes. I wonder if she's ok. She doesn't really look ok but she smiles anyway.
"Why not babe? Asami's place is huge. We can hang out there. There is plenty to do." Bolin continued.
"that's fine." Asami said smiling. Or maybe not. Her smile seems forced. "Bolin is right there is more than enough room and we don't have to worry about being bothered." I don't know why but I get the feeling that she isn't saying all that needs to be said.
With that settled we separated into two groups for two separate cars. Mako, Bolin, Iroh and Opal in one car and Kuvira, Azula and I rode with Asami.
"good but I need to make a quick stop first is that ok 'Sami?" Kuvira asked smiling at the text on her phone.
"um sure. Where to?" Asami asked.
"the Four seasons." Kuvira replied. "there is one more person we got to get."
I looked over at Kuvira. She has friends other than me? Wow. Didn't know anyone other than myself could stand her bossy nature.
"Kuv you have other friends?" I said faking surprised.
"oh fuck you too Korra." She smiled. "and yes of course I do. If I spent all my time around your crazy ass, Spirits I would lose my mind." She and Azula laughed nodding in agreement. I looked over at Asami. She didn't laugh but had a smirk on her face.
'spirits she's just so…'
Before I have the chance to unwillingly tear my eyes from that beautiful expression she caught me staring at her. Her smile widened and I looked away as I blushed.
I cleared my throat before asking "S-so Kuv who is this mystery friend?" she didn't answer right away but shifted in her seat and grinned like an idiot.
"you'll find out soon enough." With a wink she said nothing more.
~later at Asami's House~
"Wow Kuvira I didn't know you were friends with my brother." Opal said. The guy we picked up in front of the Four Seasons is Opal's brother? Wow I kinda want to know how they met. To be honest he doesn't really seem like her type…
"well about that." Kuvira started as she moved to sit next to Baatar Jr. "actually Baatar isn't really just a friend. We're dating?" the words where quick, barely noticeable. It took a few minutes for it to sink in.
"what?" Opal and Bolin said in unison
"really?" Mako said.
"huh… I didn't think that he was your type." Azula stated.
Iroh just shrugged.
I couldn't help but look in Asami's direction. If this hurt or bothered her at all she defiantly didn't let it show. "when…" was the only word I could manage to say. If Asami won't ask the questions I know are screaming in her head, then I will. "when did you guys get together? Where did you meet?... why didn't you say anything to us?"
The others looked at me as if I had lost my mind and I couldn't bring myself to meet any of their gazes. This was for her… for the girl I can't stop thinking about. The girl that makes me want to….
'really now Korra. Makes you want to what?'
Smile
I don't know why but I don't… want her to suffer in silence.
'really you don't know why?'
"Korra you okay?" Kuvira asked as she placed a hand on my shoulder.
I shook the thoughts of what I wanted to do to Asami. This is not the time for that. I looked up and tried to hide my frustration "what? O-of course… I just mean how dare you not tell your best friend that you where dating someone." I said nudging her and smiling.
"well sorry about that. We actually met when we took that trip to Zaofu… so I guess about a month now? Baatar was in the police force and some friends where blasting some music and he showed up at the door. At first I thought he was a stiff but I guess he sort of grew on me." Kuvira said as Baatar slid his hand around her waist and pulled her in for a kiss. I did have to look over at her to know that Asami cringed at the sight.
"congratulations." I can't believe though words came out of Asami's mouth. If anyone I thought, she'd be the one to object. For some reason the fact that she didn't makes my heart hurt… maybe even more than it would have if she had.
~some time later~
"and so I said Air bending training? That'll be a breeze." The only one to laugh at my joke was Bolin who was doubled over on the verge of tears. Other than that I got a round of head shakes, but I did manage to make Asami giggle even if I couldn't tell if it was actually because of my joke.
'probably not'
After six jokes later, three movies and Raava knows how many snacks everyone slowly decided to leave. Azula and Mako where the first. 'Not sure but I think those two might be dating' Opal and Bolin followed not long after that and somewhere in between Iroh was gone as well.
"we should go too Korra." Kuvira said. "you still got your training to do." She's right however I'm a little reluctant to just leave Asami like this. I haven't even gotten the chance to apologies yet.
"I'll walk you guys out." Asami said, pulling me back to reality.
"o-okay, um cool." I managed to say.
~Asami~
As I walked Kuvira and the other two out part way I felt a tight squeeze push me to the verge of tears. It hurt… knowing I missed my chance…. Knowing that my crush… my affection would never in this lifetime be returned made me feel even more alone than I have in the past ten years. I suppose I should be used to it by now.
I looked up to see Korra jogging back over to me. She smiled before yelling over at Kuvira. "just make something up. It's what you're good for why else would I keep you around Kuv." Kuvira rolled her eyes before leaving with Baatar.
"Hey." Korra said with a wide grin on her face. Her ocean blues staring at me with such intensity my heart tightened again but not in the same way it did over Kuvira.
I didn't even manage to get a word in before she leaned over in a formal bow. " I am so sorry for what happened the other day. I never intended to make you uncomfortable. I would really like it if we could be friends cuz' I think you're really an amazing person and hanging out with you seems like a nifty idea and… and."
I couldn't help but laugh. As I did she stood up and looked at me embarrassed at her choice of words.
"Nifty?" I said with a raised eyebrow still smiling. The tension I'd felt all day even more so when I found out about Kuvira, disappeared in a matter of seconds. Just seeing her smile was enough.
"yeah, not my best choice of words. Not really sure where that came from." She smiled as she rubbed the back of her neck. "so can we like…" she tried to think of the phrase she was looking for. "just forget the whole thing happened… and are you ok… with the Whole Kuvira thing. If you want, I can talk to her and…"
I shook my head. My eyes locked with hers. "it's… it's fine Korra. I think I always knew things would turn out like this." I fought back tears.
"Are you sure 'Sami?" I smiled at her choice to use my nickname.
"yes… I don't think I would have told her even if she wasn't dating someone." I lowered my gaze not wanting Korra to see me on the verge of tears. She followed by placing a hand on my shoulder.
"Asami…"
"I'm fine Korra. But thank you." I said.
"what about the thing from before?" she asked. "can we forget everything and start over?" honestly I don't see anything that requires my forgiveness.
"No" I stated. Maybe it was the fact that she was here trying to mend my wounded heart or maybe it was the way my heart seems to always beat rapidly in her presence but I knew saying 'no' and nothing more was the right thing to do.
"o-oh… um ok… I…" with a hurt expression she turned to leave and I grabbed her muscular arm stopping her.
I reached up, placed my free hand on her cheek and pressed my lips to hers with a little force. that pained expression she had quickly turned to shock upon our separation. "I won't forget. Instead consider us even ok."
Her jaw dropped open and I giggled at her dumbfounded expression. My hand slipped from her upper arm to hers. "Stay." I said half asking and half demanding.
Authors Note: Finally, we're getting somewhere but for how long? Lol. Tell me what you think after the next chapter. The next chapter secrets just might be revealed. Idk yet. But I will tell you that the next chapter will be "I miss you" inspired by Adele's song of the same name as well as the song "Remedy" I recommend listening to the lyrics before reading. Stay tuned. ;)