Yay update. I needed Faberry because of the BS from the winter finale last night. Those who saw it will know exactly what I'm talking about. But plus side it is perfect ammunition for my story. I can see it in my head, just gotta get it out. Over the next wat 7 wks I'll try and get this story to that point and do some updates of the other one I started over a year ago. Anyways hope you like this short chapter. And always thank you for reviews and follows.
Quinn just finished belting out "Can Never Say Goodbye." She sang the song for Rachel, and every fiber of her being was telling her to not change girl to boy. But she did because it was for Rachel, because she was the one struggling to say good-bye to her boy.
The room all applauded to Quinn's performance.
"Wow, Quinn," Finn said glancing at Rachel making sure it was ok to compliment her. Rachel gave him eye contact, saying it's ok. "That was incredible."
Mr. Shue walked over to Quinn in front of the room. "Even more incredible is her big news," Mr. Shue says pointing at Finn. He turns to Quinn, "Tell them," as he motioned to the group.
A smile spread on Quinn's face. She closed her eyes. "I got into Yale."
The room again opened up in applauds. Mr. Shuster laughs. Mercedes' mouth drops. There was a lot of cheering. Well, all but Rachel. She clapped with a forced smile then it faded. She knew because of their previous conversation in the girl's bathroom. She just wanted an honest answer about marrying FInn. She ended up getting more than she bargained for. She was now had conflicting feelings. This wasn't the do I or don't I marry Finn conflict. It was now do I love Finn? Could I be gay? Do I have feelings for Quinn? It was all confusing and she was still processing. Rachel knew Quinn was singing that song for her.
"It's just amazing," Mr. Shue continued. "After everything you've been through, you really deserve this, Quinn."
"We are so proud of you Quinn," Mercedes chimed in.
"I want to thank you guys…because without each and every one of you, this would never have happened." Quinn said looking at her friends. "You supported me and loved me through all the drama, and that's why I'm standing here. I wasted so much time hating myself for the stupid mistakes that I made, but the truth is that without all of those, I never would have dreamed this to be my future." Quinn was looking around at everyone as she spoke. Then she locked her eyes on Rachel's as she finished her speech. "I was the only one standing in the way of myself."
Quinn paused giving Rachel a minute to think about what she was saying. Finn noticed that Quinn was staring at his girlfriend, and looked at Rachel. It was like they didn't notice anyone else was in the room. He found it odd but just shrugged it off. He didn't know when but knew they somehow became friends this year.
Quinn continued with her speech. "You can't change your past… but you can let go and start your future."
Everyone started clapping again and walked over to Quinn. Rachel didn't move. She didn't clap she didn't stand she just sat there. Only one standing in the way of myself…You can't change your past… but you can let go… and start your future, Rachel kept thinking in her head. Quinn's words were swimming in her head. What do I want for my future…? Broadway, duh, Rachel told herself. But who is in my future? Quinn is going to Connecticut she's getting out of Lima. I haven't heard anything from NYADA. I won't be going anywhere. I'll just hold her back. And Finn… well Finn he said it himself. He has no future either. Quinn predicted that he'd just take over Burt's tire shop. I can be a mechanic's wife... Tears were starting to sting Rachel's eyes. She was jealous of Quinn. She couldn't even comprehend if she had feeling for the girl, she was mad. Quinn was going to be living the life Rachel wanted… a life that wasn't here.
"Hey Rachel, you ready?" Finn asked grabbing his bag.
She looked around the room and saw that everyone had left. Well, all but her, Finn and Quinn. Quinn was still staring at Rachel. She was watching as she thought about what she said. Saw the pain and anguish on her face, as everyone crowded around Quinn. But Quinn knew that wasn't the cause Rachel's reaction, she could tell by the look in her eyes, she was lost in her mind.
"Uhm you go ahead. I haven't congratulated Quinn yet," Rachel said standing up.
"I'll wait-" Finn started.
"No," Rachel cut him off. "No, I need a little girl time. I'll call you later."
"Uh yea, ok," Finn replied. He leaned down and gave Rachel a light kiss on the cheek. "I'll talk to you later."
He left without another word, more confused than ever.
"You ok Rachel?" Quinn finally asked when they were alone.
"Do you really see me in your future?" Rachel asked.
Quinn looked down at her feet. She clasped her hands together in front, "I'd like to but…" Quinn stalled.
"But what?" Rachel asked standing crossing her arms.
Quinn raised her head looking Rachel in the eyes. "But the question remains. Do you have any feelings for me?"
Rachel uncrossed her arms. "I don't know Quinn. You kinda sprung this on me."
"I know and I'm sorry. I've been trying to find the right time to tell you. But then you told me Finn proposed and I saw my opportunity was slipping away. You were slipping away. If you don't have feelings for me, ok I will find a way to live with that. I'm concerned and afraid that you're settling. You're afraid you won't get into NYADA so your plan B is to marry Finn and never leave Lima."
Rachel shook her head. She couldn't argue because she knew Quinn was right. Everyone's future was starting; they were getting their letters of acceptance. But Rachel was still waiting, and didn't think of a plan B.
"Rachel," Quinn whispered as she placed her hands on Rachel's biceps.
Quinn touch made the tears in Rachel's eyes start to fall. "I have no future Quinn. At least I wouldn't be alone."
Quinn didn't say anything; she just pulled Rachel into a hug.
