You guys are awesome. Rizzles has the best fans, I swear. I'm happy to be back, and I'm happy you guys are liking my new story. Thank you again for the reviews and follows. I told you that I was going to work in the episodes into this story. So I'm doing episode rewrites like I am doing with my Faberry. Anyways, so be warned there will be spoilers throughout the entire story starting with this chapter. I had a little in the previous one, but not like this. So you are warned and here is the next chapter, enjoy.
Jane was in the basement hiding from Maura. She was trying to avoid going to the hero's dinner. She didn't feel like a hero and didn't want to celebrate her act of stupidity as her mother had put it when Jane was in the hospital. When Angela Rizzoli found out about the ceremony Jane was forgiven, and she became the supportive proud mother again. Jane thought back to the day her mother called her.
"Hello?" Jane said into the phone confused. It was her mother on the other side.
"Hi Janie, I just found out the great news," Angela's raspy voice said on the other side.
"What news?"
"That you're getting an award for your heroism. That is fantastic."
"So now what I did is fantastic not stupidity," Jane spat into the phone.
"Jane, there is no need for that."
"Sorry Ma, we just haven't spoken in what over a month. Since I told you about Maura."
There was silence on the other side of the line. "Things change."
Jane hung up the phone throwing it on the couch.
Things with her parents continued to be strained since Jane came out. Sunday dinners were no more, and Jane rarely saw both of her parents. Her father stopped talking to Jane too. Which she found very odd. Jane tried not to think about her family, and turned her attention back to the television. It had a random infomercial. She heard the sound of Maura coming down the stairs, and Jane choose to ignore the sounds.
Maura stood at the end of the couch with Jane's uniform draped over her arm. She was looking at her girlfriend in her sweats. She was eating a bowl of cereal.
"You look terrible," Maura said placing her hand on her hip. She laid the uniform onto the back of the couch.
"Thank you," Jane said with her mouth full of food.
"You're making everyone late," Maura pointed out.
"Even you would look bad if a bullet went through you."
"It's a mindset. Keeping the mind busy aids recovery, mind body," Maura countered.
"Mind business," Jane said sarcastically.
"You're my business," Maura said taking the bowl of cereal out of her hands. She placed it on the coffee table and grasped Jane's hands helping her stand. "Come on."
"Owe, no Maura. I'm not going," Jane said feeling pain going through her side.
"Why are you having pain?" Maura asked.
Jane shrugged and sat back down. Maura grasped the uniform, "Put this on," Maura ordered.
Jane turned her attention to the laptop on the couch with her. "No, it makes me look like a man," Jane said in a sad voice.
"We can do this the easy way or the hard way," Maura threatened.
Jane looked up at her girlfriend. "I may like the hard way."
Maura narrowed her eyes, "No you won't."
Jane let out a sigh. "I'm not a hero Maura. Shooting yourself is not heroic."
"The people of Boston think it is," Maura countered.
"Eight people died. I don't want a medal for that," Jane pointed out.
"Five of them were bad guys, Jane."
"Whatever," Jane muttered turning her attention away from Maura.
"This ceremony isn't for you," Maura said replacing the uniform on the back of the couch. She sat down next to Jane. She placed her hand on Jane's calf that she had bent up on the couch. She straighten it onto her lap, placing her hands on Jane's leg in a reassuring manner.
"It's for… your fellow officers… and your parents… and your community. You're a symbol. You are a heroic flesh and blood reminder of the thin blue line," Maura said.
A smile crept across Jane's lips. "That's good."
Maura smiled in response, she was proud she got Jane to go.
Jane turned her attention away from Maura, "You almost had me."
Maura pushed Jane's leg off her lap. The sudden movement caused pain to go through Jane's side, wincing at the pang.
"Ok," Maura said with a sigh, standing. "The hard way."
Maura grasped Jane's sweatshirt, and unzipped the material. And in one swift motion had Jane's shirt off. Before Jane had time to react, Maura had her hands grasped on Jane's sweat pants pulling them down. Maura was pulling Jane off the couch at the same time.
"Maura, woah," Jane said trying to keep herself on the couch as her pants were being removed.
"You chose the hard way," Maura pointed out. She reached for the uniform, taking the shirt off the hanger. She grasped Jane's hands pulling her forward; she quickly placed the shirt around Jane's shoulders before she leaned back.
"I chose not to go," Jane argued grasping Maura's wrists getting her to stop.
"And Korsak, Frost, your parents, Frankie and I all choose to go. And did you forget about Angela and Isabella? You invited them. We're all going to support you. We all know what you did and what you went through. Do it for us."
Jane took a deep breath and let it out her nose. "Fine," Jane groaned. She got up stripping the last two pieces of material and made her way up the stairs to shower.
"Love you," Maura yelled after Jane.
"Yea, yea," Jane groaned as she reached the top step.
Maura picked up Jane's uniform and made her way back up to their bedroom. She laid it on the bed, and waited for Jane to come out of the bathroom. Jane came out in a towel and gave Maura an annoyed look before making her way to the dresser, pulling out a bra and panties and threw them on the bed. She dried off and put on the uniform. Maura watched from her spot on the bed. She crossed her legs, hoping the pressure would relieve the ache forming at her core. Seeing Jane in her uniform was turning her on. She never knew Jane before she was detective. Jane went back into the bathroom and put her hair in a bun and walked back out.
Maura stood up and walked over to Jane placing her arms around Jane's neck. "Your look very sexy," Maura said before connecting their lips in a chaste kiss.
Jane shook her head. "I look like a man."
Maura grasped Jane hand moving it under her dress and led it to her core. She let Jane feel how wet she was, then removed her hand. "You definitely don't look like a man."
"That was mean," Jane pouted.
"Well if you're good. We can have some fun when we get back. Maybe a little role playing." Maura said in a sultry voice.
"Dr. Isles."
"Yes Detective Rizzoli?"
"You are so mean," Jane said giving Maura a quick kiss. "Come on, let's get this over with so I can arrest you later."
Maura smiled following Jane out of their bedroom.
The two arrived, and Jane scanned the room looking for familiar faces. She saw a mix of uniforms. There were the classic navy blue for the Boston Police Department, and the white and black making up the Army uniforms. It wasn't long before the ceremony started. She listened to the story of the other honoree. Hearing how she saved the other men in her unit when they were under fire.
"See, that's a hero," Jane whispered to Maura, as they clapped.
Korsak then went on stage to give his speech for Jane. She checked out, thinking back to the day that got her here at this ceremony. Remembering Bobby having a tight hold on her, with a gun pointed to her head. Hearing him whisper harshly that her brother was probably already dead. The split second she decided to grab the gun and turn it against her body shooting herself and Bobby.
"Jane," Maura whispered when Korsak finished his speech. Jane looked over at Maura confused, clapping with everyone else. Then she looked up at the stage seeing that she was supposed to go up there.
She tried to have the lieutenant just hand it to her and leave. No such luck, he pinned it to her chest and emphasized that she needed to say a speech. She made her way to the podium, took a deep breath and cleared her throat.
"Uh, I didn't really prepare a thing. Uhm, just cause I don't really think of myself as a hero. Uhm, most of you know my little brother Frankie." Jane paused and scanned the room. Seeing Jane's mother smile at her. She was surprise to see the two people sitting next to her mother. It was Angela and her fiancé Isabella. She continued to scan the room seeing her brother at one of the tables in the back. "Frankie stand up, help me out."
Frankie did as his sister asked. He stood and gave a wave. Everyone applauded until he sat back down.
"Uhm Frankie is alive because of Doctor Maura Isles. She normally works on dead people." The room laughed at the little piece of information. Jane continued to look at Maura, "Doctor Isles is a hero because she went above and beyond. He's alive because of her, not because of me." She then looked up to the back looking at her nurse. "My nurse from ICU Angela Scavino is a hero. She saved me when an incompetent nurse almost killed me while I was in the hospital. Then was beaten to near death by that nurse for saving my life. Tim Johnson, the doorman who stopped that nurse from killing Angela and chasing her through the streets of Boston. And was killed for his efforts. To me these people were and are heroes. Me, I was just doing my job. We are trained to not think of ourselves, but to act because ya know life is unfair. And bad things happen and I think we're here, that we're all here, to remind everybody that uh sometimes the good guys still win." Jane could feel the sting of tears in her eyes, "Thank you very much."
Jane quickly walked off stage before she burst into tears in front of her peers. The room exploded in applause and she went back to her seat next to Maura. Frost placed a hand on Jane's shoulder as she sat down. She quickly wiped her eyes as she looked back at her mom. She was smiling with tears in her eyes and blew Jane a kiss. Jane finally noticed someone was missing from that table. Jane felt Maura's hand on her knee giving her a reassuring squeeze.
Jane turned to look at Maura, whispering "Where's my dad?"
Maura looked at the table in the back that Mrs. Rizzoli was occupying. "I haven't heard anything," she whispered in response.
The ceremony was over, and everyone was getting up to mingle. Jane was making her way to the table of food when she heard her name. She turned seeing Angela, her old nurse.
"Angela, thank you for coming," Jane said walking over to Angela giving her a hug.
"Your speech, it was very… humble. And I'm no hero either. I was just doing my job. Keeping you alive."
"But you were nearly killed for keeping me alive," Jane countered.
"Can we not talk about that?" Isabella said walking over to Jane.
"Sorry Isabella. I just feel that your fiancé deserves recognition," Jane said giving Isabella a hug. "And thank you for inviting me and Maura to your wedding."
"Maura and I," Maura corrected walking over to the small group. She gave Isabella and Angela a hug.
"Yea, yea. They know what I mean," Jane countered.
"No excuse for bad English," Maura pointed out.
Jane rolled her eyes. Isabella and Angela laughed watching the two bicker. "Anyways we were just talking about the speech I gave," Jane said changing the subject.
"I liked how she didn't boast about what she did, but what everyone else did, like you, Angela and Tim," Isabella said with tears in her eyes.
"Is there a good Samaritan award or something that we can give to Tim's family? He died because of me. I mean in the military if they die in the line of duty the family at least gets a purple heart." Angela asked with tears stinging her eyes, feeling a pang of guilt.
"I'll look into it," Jane said giving Angela's arm a reassuring squeeze. Jane saw Frankie over Angela's shoulder. "Excuse me, I want to keep talking, I'll be right back."
She made her way over to her brother asking where their dad was. Frankie shrugged when Angela Rizzoli came over with tears in her eyes. "Oh Jane, I'm so proud of you," Jane's mom said wrapping her arms around Jane's neck.
"Thanks ma," Jane said in her mother's ear. "Where's daddy?"
Mrs. Rizzoli tightened her grip around her daughter, as she started crying harder. Jane looked at Frankie with a look of fear. She helped guide her mother to the closest chair. Maura had seen Jane help her mother sit over Angela and Isabella's shoulders. She excused herself and made her way to the Rizzolis. Jane asked her mother what was wrong and didn't get an answer. Her mom made a gesture for writing. Jane turned and saw Maura made her way over.
"I need a pen," Jane said abruptly to her girlfriend.
"What's wrong," Maura whispered.
Jane repeated herself more forcefully. "I need a pen. She gets very emotional and can't talk. So we have her write it down."
Maura nodded and went off to find a pen for Jane's mother. Jane and Frankie tried to calm down their mother until Maura returned with a pen. She came back with a marker and Angela wrote down what was wrong on a napkin. Jane didn't even look at the napkin and gave it to Maura to read as Jane continued to calm her mother. Maura read the napkin, before saying out loud, "Divorce."
"Divorce?" Jane asked in disbelief.
Of course a news reporter and camera had to come at that moment. Jane was in shock and her mother was crying into her shirt. She asked them to come back so she could sooth her mother. She kept reassuring her mom and asked Frankie to take her home. She took the napkin and read it out loud. "We are getting divorced."
"That's terrible. I'm sorry Jane," Maura said wrapping her arm around Jane's waist.
"I can't believe it."
Jane turned and looked at the door Frankie was leading their mother to. She saw they had not left yet and her mother was talking to Angela and Isabella.
"Oh no," Jane said seeing them talking.
"What?" Maura asked confused.
"My mother is talking to Angela and Isabella."
"So? They were sitting together." Maura pointed out.
"Yea but they weren't talking."
"I wouldn't say that. We were late; they could've been talking for a while before we arrived."
"This can't be good. I mean she couldn't accept that Angela was gay, and remember the last Sunday dinner we were at. Oh god, do you think it's my fault?"
"That is a natural response. When parents get divorced the children tend to blame themselves for them separating."
"Not helping," Jane snapped making her way to her mother. Maura followed behind.
"Hey, I thought Frankie was taking you home," Jane said to her mother.
"He is. I just wanted to say bye to Angela and her fiancé," Mrs. Rizzoli replied.
"You know Isabella is her fiancé?" Jane asked.
"Yes, we had quite the discussion before the ceremony."
"You did?"
"It's ok Jane. She might've been a little abrasive at first, but I broke her," Angela joked.
"I wouldn't say she broke me. More opened my eyes. With everything that is going on with your father…" Mrs. Rizzoli trailed off, tears forming again. "I'll need your support. If I can't support you, how can I expect you to support me? I love you Janie."
"I love you too Ma. Come on let Frankie take you home," Jane said guiding her mom to the door.
Jane rolled her eyes when her mom was out the door. She turned her attention to her old nurse. "What did you say?"
"What?" Angela asked.
"She shunned me when I came out. Didn't talk to me for over a month. Only time she called was to congratulate me on getting an award. How did you get her to do a one eighty?" Jane asked.
Angela reached for Isabella's hand. "We told her about my dad. He acted the same way your mother did when I came out. Then he got to meet Isabella, see how she made me happy. And he had a heart to heart with Isabella and immediately fell in love with her. Much like I did," Angela brought Isabella's hand to her lips, lightly kissing it. "She saw how much we loved each other. Then I watched her. She was watching you and Maura. She saw the same love. And combine that with what is going on, she came to acceptance."
Jane opened her arms pulling Angela into a hug. "Thank you."
"I didn't do anything, I was just being me," Angela replied.
"Either way, thank you for everything."
Jane continued to mingle. She was able to meet Abby, the other recipient. She ran into an old High School sweetheart, Kasey. He was taken aback when Jane told him that she was gay, but it wasn't a complete surprise. Shortly after introducing Maura to Kasey Jane felt it was time to call it a night. They made their way out with Kasey behind them to the waiting cars. Jane waved to Abby in the first car and got in the second car with Maura. Kasey closed the door for them when the first car exploded.