When Callie and Arizona got to the hospital Sarah's parents were sat outside their daughter's room.

"Hey," The brunette greeted them. "Is she still not talking?" She asked as she pulled the mother in for a hug.

"She won't say a word other than to refuse us going in there. She has said that she doesn't want to see you either Callie. I'm sorry."

"Please, none of this is your fault." She reassured.

"Maybe I could try?" Arizona offered.

That took the Latina by surprise. "Really?"

"Yeah." She shrugged in response. "Maybe she'll talk to me; I do have access to the pain meds."

The other three agreed and Arizona entered the room. Sarah was just lying there; staring into nothing. That was something she'd grown used to. Being with Callie for almost six months now had taught her a few things.

"Hey." The surgeon started as she took a seat. "How are you feeling?"

"How'd you think I'm feeling?" The teenager turned head towards her but just looked straight through Arizona.

"Like crap?"

"I said that I didn't want to see anyone. Did they send you in here?"

"No. I offered. Why did you get so drunk?"

"Because I wanted to."

"You know by all accounts Calliope was pretty wild when she was your age?"

"So?"

"So, she hid a lot of it from her family because she was ashamed. Ashamed that after what they went through when she was ill, even though it was in no way her fault, she was then putting them through more. Is that why your parents are outside?"

"Oh I get it. You've been screwing Callie for long enough that now you're an expert."

"I never said that! I'm not..."

"No!" Sarah yelled. "You don't have a clue. You can never understand! It's just me and I'm alone in this!"

Suddenly Arizona's mind went back to that night.

"You'll never get it! You won't understand what this is like. It's me! It's just me and I'm alone in this! Just me and my stupid head. You get to be normal. It's not fair! You don't know!"

She got up and left the room in a daze. She pushed past the concerned faces of Sarah's parents and her girlfriend. She found herself in an on call room, trying to control her breathing.

Callie had followed her. She knocked on the door.

"I'm fine." Arizona's voice confirmed that she was anything but fine. The brunette opened the door and stepped inside. She locked the door behind her and kept a safe distance away.

"You're not fine. That's the same voice you use when you have a nightmare and try to convince me that you're alright. You do that so that I won't ask you what it's about and the only nightmare you won't tell me about is the one about me." Callie knew. She always knew.

Arizona let out a breath and closed her eyes. "I'm sorry." She said, her throat obviously dry from trying not to cry.

"Don't be stupid."

"No, I'm sorry for yelling at you last night."

"It's okay."

The blonde shook her head and closed the distance between them. She wrapped her arms around her partner's neck and put her head on her shoulder. She inhaled Callie's perfume.

"It's really not okay Calliope."

The Latina simply held the woman a little closer. "Do you remember what I said to you after the first time we slept together?"

"You didn't say anything."

"Well not technically the first time but I count it as the first time. In my apartment. You know the one I was actually there for?"

"Oh well then you said a lot then."

"About how I suck with emotions so you can't try and ignore yours."

"You told me that I would get angry."

"And that you should yell at me"

"But I said that I wouldn't."

"But I knew that you would. You're human Arizona. Don't ever stop being human. That's all I'll ever need from you, especially when I'm a shell."

"Okay." She reached up and rested her forehead against the Latina's.

"What did Sarah say to you?"

"Nothing."

"Darling?"

"She just said some stuff that... that took me back to when... when you lost your temper. It's not her fault. Just like it's not yours."

"Right well, why don't you go and take Amanda and Mike to get a coffee? And you can go get those files too whilst I talk to her."

"You think she'll see you?"

"Trust me, she isn't getting a choice."

"Thank you." Arizona whispered before kissing her girlfriend.

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When Callie sat down by Sarah's bed, she noticed that the girl had been crying. The older of the two said nothing.

"I'm sorry I upset Arizona."

"It wasn't your fault. You just said some stuff that hit a nerve."

"I'm sick of people saying that they "get it"."

"I know."

"Even you."

Callie smiled. "I know. What use is somebody understanding? It's not like they can fix it."

"Oh crap! You get that too?"

"Yeah, I get it."

"Shut up." Sarah laughed.

"Hangovers are a lot worse for those with brain injuries."

"Yeah, I'm beginning to realise just how bad they are."

"At least you're hooked up to an IV. I hardly ever got that luxury."

There was a knock at the door and a blonde head pocked round.

"Hey baby, I got you a coffee." Arizona said as she offered it to Callie who took it happily.

"Thanks."

"Arizona I'm sorry." Sarah yelled before the surgeon could shut the door.

"It's okay." She reassured and came back into the room fully.

All of a sudden a phone went off. The Latina took it from her pocket and answered.

"Hello? One sec." She apologised but explained to Arizona and Sarah that she had to take it and left.

"You were right."

"About what?" Arizona asked.

"I'm ashamed of what I did."

"Your parents will get through this. They just want you to be safe and happy. I'm sure you'll fool them into believing you are soon enough."

When their eyes met Sarah knew that there was no use in arguing. "Maybe you are an expert."

"No. I just know you a bit better than you think I do."

"Do you really love Callie?" The question came out of nowhere.

"With everything I am. We're not just "Screwing"."

"Do you ever wish you didn't? That you didn't love her."

Arizona pursed her lips and thought for a moment. "Yes. There was one moment."

"Was it because of her injury?"

"No. It was before we were actually together. I was with another woman. I wasn't all that happy but we had history. At the time I was terrified at the thought of leaving what felt safe, even if it was based on lies, for this woman that I had fallen head over heels for in about a week. That had nothing to do with her situation. I mean it's tough sometimes. It's pretty random when her bad days are gonna be. I don't always deal with them very well either. It's horrible when she looks at me like you are now. Just looks right through me. She's a million miles away and I want her to be just there. I wouldn't give her up for the world though. I just have to suck it up. Every day that I wake up with her is a good day and every night I fall asleep with her is even better."

"I don't think I'll ever find that."

"You will. If you deserve it you'll find it."

"Well I can't wait another fifteen years or whatever. I'm sick of being lonely. I hate it. I was never lonely before any of this happened."

"Is that why you drank so much?"

"Partly. I've felt so empty for so long that I tried to fill myself up with something. And I wanted to feel numb. Booze did that. I thought I could handle it because being drunk is just like being brain injured only without the headache. I just couldn't stop myself though."

Arizona reached for the girl's hand. They sat there for a while and talked. All the surgeon could think about was how similar Callie's teenage years probably were. How alone she must have been.