"Well i had a great time tonight." Dean said as he looked up at Roman, his blue eyes shining under the flickering hall lights in his apartment complex. It was their 10th date, and the chemistry between them right now was crackling, like fireworks just lit, waiting to explode and release the wonder and amazement... Of them.

After about a month or so of flirty texts and calls, Roman had finally got the courage to ask Dean out. Not only did Dean say yes but they went out the very next day. Their first date ended in a kiss that had Dean begging for Roman to come into his apartment and fuck him until the morning if he really wanted too. But Roman expressed to Dean that he wanted to take things slow. And by slow he meant... really slow. They talked every day, went on casual dates, and sometimes Roman would just come over randomly, and they would cuddle up and watch tv. In those small moments, Dean could feel himself falling for him, but he needed more. He needed that connection, skin on skin, lips on lips. The friction, the excitement. He needed all of Roman.

And Roman was finally ready to give it to him.

"I did too. Who knew karaoke was so much fun?" Roman laughed and Dean could feel him inching closer, closing the space between their bodies. "So..." Roman said looking down into tempting blue eyes.

"So..?" Dean said back, connecting his fingers in Roman's. He felt the soft squeeze of Roman's fingers against his own and it only made the moment that much hotter. He started to imagine Roman doing that to him in his bedroom, squeezing his hands as he pounded into him, having Dean cry out in overwhelming pleasure. Fuck. "Did you want to you know.. come in?" Dean was so nervous, the temptation in his voice was something he knew Roman didn't miss. But did Roman want to take that next step with him? "I mean you don't have too i just thought that maybe we could.."

The answer was lost in the way Roman kissed him. His hands were locked with the big samoan's above his head. He pressed Dean softly against the door, placing his own body against Dean's leaner frame. They looked at each other the second their lips disconnected. "Ro.." Dean whispered breathlessly, the needy call of his name letting Roman know just how much he wanted this to happen between them. Roman nipped at his lips, teasing them, getting another drink of Dean's perfect pink clouds once more. He sucked in Dean's bottom lip, hearing Dean moan against him, only to gasp when he felt Roman's thick member press against his own. Dean let himself be completely dominated by Roman, loving the feeling of giving all of himself to his boyfriend.

They only stopped kissing when they both felt the need to breathe, and even then Dean didn't want it to end. He felt Roman let go of his hand so Dean could unlock the door and as soon as he did, Roman was picking him up, capturing his lips again as he took him inside.

xxx

"Roman hello?" Seth snapped his fingers in front of his boyfriend's face. He saw Roman seem to snap out of whatever trance he was in and then he smiled at Seth.

"Yeah, sorry babe. What were we talking about?" Roman asked as he pushed a chocolate chip pancake in his mouth.

"I was telling you why i couldn't meet you for lunch and then you spaced out on me?" Seth opened his fridge to take out some orange juice. He poured it into two cups and then handed one to Roman. "Are you okay? You sorta spaced out on me back there."

"I'm fine." Roman replied all too quickly, gulping down the orange juice. He couldn't just go tell Seth he was having a flashback of his and Dean's first time. Somehow he didn't think Seth would understand that. Roman ate another pancake and started wondering if he should tell Seth about seeing Dean again for the first time in three years. That old memories of them kept bubbling to the surface. Especially their first time. God, Roman couldn't get it out of his mind. The moans, the needy Dean begging for more. The way Dean's cock used to taste..

"Rome?" Seth asked as he looked at him oddly. "You sure you're ok?"

Roman just nodded. "Yes, mom. I said i was fine." Seth scoffed at the mom comment, finishing his own orange juice. "Actually, I was just thinking about work." Roman lied, "I have this new account and they chose chocolate for their wedding cake." Roman scrunched up his nose. "The bride obviously doesn't have good taste."

Seth laughed, he knew Roman hated when people chose chocolate cake for their wedding. Roman thought it was "tacky." Seth didn't have the heart to tell him that he wouldn't mind having a chocolate cake at his wedding. Although if Roman was his groom, his chocolate cake fantasy would be null and void.

"So what did the groom have to say about it?" Seth asked, sipping the rest of Roman's orange juice. He saw Roman's lips tighten as he mentioned the groom. It almost looked like he didn't want to talk about him or something.

"He actually liked the raspberry tart with the buttercream frosting. It's classic and tasteful. But one purse of her lips and he conceded just like that." Roman was laughing to himself. "Guess he's changed." He said under his breath. That guy he saw in his cake shop was nothing like the Dean he once knew.

"He's what?" Seth heard him say something under his breath.

"Huh? Um nothing." Roman reached over the breakfast bar and gave Seth a meaningful kiss. "I gotta go open the store babe. Have fun with whoever it is you're blowing me off for." Roman laughed and went to get his jacket.

"That's not fair!" Seth smiled as Roman grabbed his keys, waved to his boyfriend and left. Once he was gone, Seth started chewing on his bottom lip, sighing to himself. He hated having to lie to Roman about Dean but Roman didn't know that Dean and Seth still talked. Seth never mentioned Dean while they were together so Roman just assumed they never spoke. Seth groaned at his predicament. Looking down at his watch he grumbled, he had to get to work too. He grabbed his satchel and then left his apartment.

xxx

Dean was getting ready for work when Renee came in, still in her nighty from last night. He looked at her through the mirror and smiled when she came up behind him and started fixing his loose tie. "You look handsome." She said as her tiny hands cascade down his front.

He didn't really know why, but Dean started thinking about Roman in that moment, and how he used to give him compliments every single day. He would turned Dean around after fixing his tie and give him a soft kiss that always lead to more kisses and Dean almost being late to job interviews. He did it almost every day, whether they fought or not, happy or not. Even when they struggled, Roman was always there for him.

"Dean? Hey... You sure you're okay?" Renee puts her arms around his neck from behind and kisses his cheek. "Everytime we talk your mind goes off to another place." Renee worried about him. He hasn't been himself for the past two days. She still couldn't piece together why Dean wasn't acting like... Dean. Her Dean.

"Yeah I'm okay. I was just thinking that i cannot wait to be your husband." Dean told a small white lie with a smile. Renee didn't need to know all of his business. So what if he was thinking about Roman? As long as he wasn't saying it out loud and those thoughts stayed in his head only, he didn't see what the problem was. People thought about their exes all the time right? Dean leans in and gives her a soft peck on the lips. Renee kisses him back softly then tries to pull away, but he holds her in place tries his best to deepen their kiss. He wasn't successful for very long, because Renee just pushes him away again.

"Dean you gotta get to work." She says, trying to keep her distance from her tempting fiance.

"Come on, let's just.. fool around a bit?" He bites his lip and pulls her back in for more kisses. "You got me all riled up babe. Let's just make out a little bit more before i gotta go." Renee kisses him back for just a second, giggling against his lips before she pushes him away for a final time.

"There will be plenty of time for kisses on our wedding night. Right now i need you to get to work, and be on time." Dean frowned as she checked him over again, making sure that he looked his best. "Perfect. Daddy's gonna love this suit on you. Don't i know how to pick em?" She smiled to herself then continued. "I'll be in the office after lunch. I have a meeting with Charles Windham." Renee kisses his cheek. "Bye honey."

"Bye babe." As she walked away Dean's mind floated back to Roman. He couldn't help but think about him again and how he was doing. If he could see Dean now, suited up and blue balled like a jackass, he would probably laugh at how pathetically whipped he was. Ironically, Dean started smiling at the thought of Roman's laugh. His cute scrunched face, his perfect teeth, and big beautiful mouth. Dean couldn't ever get enough.

He grabbed his leather suitcase, keeping the memory of Roman laughing in his mind to get him through the day.

xxx

Lunch 12:30pm.

Seth ran up to the restaurant, finding Dean sitting at one of the outside tables. Dean waved his hands at him and Seth runs over to sit across from his bestie. "Sorry i know, i'm late. School was running a little late so i didn't get to take a lunch break until now." Seth put a napkin on his lap then Dean signaled for a waiter.

"Lemme guess you only have 40 or so minutes to get back?" Dean asked his busy friend, looking around for that useless waiter. "Perks of being a history teacher, huh?" Dean quipped sarcastically.

"Yeah something like that. But at least I'm here and i made it right?" Seth smiled at Dean then the waiter came and took their drink order. Dean told him to make it quick since Seth had to leave soon.

Much to Seth's disappointment.

"You shouldn't talk to waiters like that, Dean, they're just doing their jobs." Seth defended the poor waiter.

"And his job is to get me my food in an orderly and timely manner." Dean looked at him like he didn't understand what the big deal was. "Me telling him to do his job isn't being mean, Seth." Dean shrugged.

Seth pursed his lips then decided to give in and look at the menu instead. "I think I'll just get a club sandwich, I've been eating kinda heavy lately and having to work it off is so taxing sometimes."

Dean looked up from his own menu curiously, "You eating heavy? That's unlike you... I swear some days you barely eat a salad. What are you like... dating a chef or something?"

Seth almost choked on the water he was drinking. He coughed and Dean put his menu down, trying to make sure that he was alright. "You okay?" He asked, looking at his friend up and down.

"I'm fine sorry it just umm.. went down the wrong pipe." Seth put his menu down and then started to fill his mouth with bread, obviously avoiding the question. Was he dating a chef? Oh yeah, he was. Oh and it just happens to be your ex boyfriend, Dean. Seth shook his thoughts from his head, trying to focus. "So how's Renee? I ran out so quickly yesterday i didn't get a chance to ask you how are things with you guys."

Dean acted like he didn't notice Seth not answering his question, "She's good... Got my cock around her little finger though. God i wake up so hard bro, like she's just laying there sleeping and i try to touch her and boom i get popped." Dean frowned, "She's serious about us waiting until we're married."

"Ha." Seth laughed dryly. "Dean Ambrose on a no sex ban, i could only imagine how badly you're suffering considering how much of a slut you are." Seth teased.

"Me?" Dean's mouth hung open as he laughed, "Seth you had more boyfriend's than Taylor Swift back in college. Now because some guy is giving you good dick on the regular, suddenly I'm the slut?" Dean was offended, "Yeah I'm calling bullshit." He said playfully.

"We don't have sex." Seth said a little too quickly. Fuck. He cursed under his breath. Seth didn't mean to blurt that out.

Dean looked at him like he couldn't believe what he was saying, "What do you mean you don't have sex?"

Seth was caught. He couldn't take it back and say he lied. Dean would see right through that. He might as well tell Dean the truth. "He wants to wait." Seth answered honestly, "He wants it to be special for us and he wants it to mean something. It's tough waiting, trust me.. But he's worth it." Seth looked down with a smile. His cheeks wearing a deep red blush. Dean could see how infatuated he was with this guy just by talking about him.

"Heh. That kinda reminds me of Roman." Dean said his name so nonchalantly, like it meant nothing. Seth on the other hand felt all the breath leave his lungs at the mere mention of Roman's name. Please don't bring him up, Seth said to himself. "He made me wait so long, but when we finally did it, the orgasm.. Oh my god it was the best orgasm of my life."

Dean was talking about fucking his current boyfriend while Seth was sitting there completely uncomfortable. "I thought we were over talking about him?" Seth tried to change the topic, "You haven't seen or spoken to him in years, and told me specifically that the subject of Roman was permanently off limits."

Dean sipped his water and nodded, Seth was right. He did tell him that they couldn't ever discuss Roman. Discussing Roman meant talking about things that Dean didn't want to think about. But he couldn't help it. Roman's been on his mind for the past two days and he just needed to vent. Maybe after all this time, it was okay to discuss him?

"Well i change my mind." The waiter came over and finally took their order. Dean narrowed his eyes at his incompetence as the waiter walked away. "I mean like you said it's been a very long time so... I think it's okay if i said he's the best fuck i ever had." Dean shrugged as he picked up some bread from the basket.

Seth didn't really know how to respond. On one hand he felt jealously knowing that Dean has had Roman in ways he hasn't. But on the other he was happy knowing that Dean couldn't ever have him in that way, or anyway, again. He was happy now and with Seth. Not that Dean still wanted him anyway. He hasn't been with any guys since Roman. And plus he was getting married to a great woman.

"Did i mention i saw him yesterday?" Seth's heart dropped at Dean's sentence. What the fuck did he just say?

"You saw who?" Seth gulped, and his heart began to sink. Please don't say Roman. Please. He said to himself.

"Roman." Dean replied with a mouth full of bread. "I don't know why i didn't mention it to you before. He's doing my wedding cake for our wedding. Dark chocolate buttercream. It's tacky but i didn't pick it. Renee did."

Suddenly his and Roman's morning conversation made sense. He said that the groom wanted the raspberry wedding cake. Raspberry. Dean's favorite flavor. All of sudden, Seth's breath seem to float out of his body as he had this outter body experience. Roman and Dean in the same room. Roman and Dean seeing each other for the first time in three years. Roman and Dean together again.

No. Seth couldn't handle this.

"Seth?" Dean said, waving his arms in front of Seth to get his attention. "Are you okay?"

Play it cool, Seth. He told himself. Snap out of it, don't panic. Just because they saw each other doesn't mean they had an actual conversation or brought up Seth... Did they?

"Sorry, i was just thinking about something." Seth forced a smile, "Did you two... you know.. Talk... Or was it just simply formal?"

"Well.. Things got heated quickly. You know, Ro still hasn't forgiven me for what I've done and i tried to tell him why i did it but Renee walked back in." Dean blew out a breath, "Fuck. He looked so good too. He's got a full sleeve now, Seth. His hair was longer, and i was looking down and tried to get a good look at his-"

"NO!" Seth suddenly screamed.

"What?" Dean said, looking at Seth like he was crazy. "Why the fuck are you screaming?"

"Actually... I umm.. I have to go. Sorry Dean. I'm gonna be late for class." Seth put a twenty down on the table then bolted up, knocking the chair over in the process. He didn't even pick it up, he just kept going walking faster and faster until he was far away from Dean and the image of his past relationship with his current boyfriend.

"SETH?" Dean sat there confused, trying to figure out why Seth had to leave in such a hurry. He called out to his retreating frame but didn't get an answer. He shook his head and called for the check, when his phone rang. He looked at the call waiting and it was Renee. He answered it, trying to find a smile in the midst of all the crazy. "Hey babe, i hope you're calling to tell me you wanna meet for lunch? Cause i just got ditched." Dean said, still waiting for that goddamn waiter.

"Love too, but can't. My meeting is running late. Mr. Windham is making the firm sweat. So unfortunately that means that i can't make it to the cake planner to finalize the deal and sign papers. Can you run over to the cake shop and do it for me? If not we lose our reservation. You'll be meeting with a... Roman Reigns."

Dean gulped at Roman's name. It also sent a tiny shiver up his spine. A chance to see him again is exactly what Dean needed. Maybe he could talk to him and finally explain himself. Maybe Roman will finally listen. The reason he couldn't stop thinking about him had to be because they both needed closure. Yeah that had to be it. "Yeah.. I umm can do that. Don't worry babe, you're getting the cake you want. See you later tonight. I love you."

"I love you too."

xxx

Cake Shop 1:30pm

Dean didn't know why being there was making his heart beat so fast in his chest. Or why he felt like a 13 year old girl about to run into her crush for the first time. It wasn't like he still had feelings for Roman or anything, he tried to tell himself. Were you even allowed to have feelings for someone you broken up with? Was that even possible? Dean coughed dryly as he looked around. Feelings or not, he was nervous. How would Roman react to seeing him, again, twice in two days after not seeing him for over three years?

Somewhere in the back of Dean's mind came an ironic laugh, all of a sudden he was back in college. The nervousness he felt everytime he'd see Roman was unmatched by anyone he had ever been with previously. His heart would do small jumps in his chest. His hands got clammy and he had jitters. Their first date was a mess. Dean never told anyone, but he was actually so nervous that their first kiss wasn't really that good. He thought Roman wouldn't ever want to talk to him again after he fucked up, but Roman surprised him by just kissing him once more. And in his kiss, all the nerves seem to fade way.

Now here he was, back in the same predicament again, waiting in the waiting area to see his former lover, his ex boyfriend, the guy he actually used to live with. The guy who's heart he broke without ever telling him how he really felt. Dean never really forgave himself for how he treated Roman.

And he knew Roman never forgave him either.

Damn nerves.

He saw a pretty African-American girl walking towards him in a red blouse and a black pencil skirt. Her name was Sasha, as it read on her name tag. "Mr. Reigns will see you now." She said it with a smile. Dean got up and followed her, starting to wonder if Roman was fucking the redhead, but he remembered that even though Roman was bi, he had a preference for guys. So he probably never slept with the tempting young secretary.

Dean thought about being playful and knocking on the door before he walked in but he decided against it. Their last meeting didn't go too well, so maybe he should just enter and keep things strictly professional. Dean walked in the door and looked to his left. There he was, in this tight fit black shirt that hugged his muscles and his damn apron. He watched him for a second. Roman was sitting down, going over what looked like inventory when he finally noticed Dean watching him.

Roman just looked at him for a second, gray eyes bore into blue as they had somewhat of an intense stare down. There were no words said, but the air was thick with an underlying anger and hidden regret and you could cut the tension with a knife.

But what type of tension was it?

"Dean."

"Roman."

A/N: Obviously people don't look at the ships on my page so i shall explain that this is an ambreigns fic. That indeed has a love triangle. If you cannot handle that or think it's too much i suggest you don't read it. I don't want you guys to think this is gonna be sunshine and rainbows because frankly it's not. It's angst-city, bitch. And if you definitely can't handle that you shouldn't read ANYTHING i write. Just a warning. Sorry to have to cut it off when the going got good but you know this is only the beginning! Sethie again keeping secrets. Should he tell Dean about Roman? - Melle.

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