Roman sat on the couch with Seth later that night. He was wrapped up in his arms as they watched the very first Night of the Living Dead. Seth hated horror movies but he and Roman alternated nights and since it was Roman's night to pick a movie, they were stuck with horror.

"Oh my god!" Seth screamed as the little girl started eating her mother and father. "Roman this shit is messed up!" He started hiding his face in Roman's neck, and Roman released a deep chuckle, pulling the younger man more into his embrace.

"It's fucking awesome babe. Look at her eating brains!" Roman laughed again, and kissed Seth's forehead.

"Babe turn it off, oh my god!" Seth yelled as he heard the pained screams of the innocent on film. Roman could see he really wasn't enjoying it so he turned it off. Seth was shaking against him, and that's when Roman knew he might of took it a little too far.

"Hey.." Roman pulled Seth into his lap, lifting his head so he could look into his eyes. They were fearful. "I'm sorry. No more horror movie nights." Roman felt so guilty for putting Seth through that. He and Dean used to love watching horror movies together. He sorta forgot that not everyone was his ex boyfriend.

"I'm a whimp." Seth's lip quivered, and he laid his head on Roman's chest. "I'm sorry i couldn't get through it, Ro." Roman could hear the regret in Seth's voice. Kinda like he wished he could've done better.

"It doesn't matter baby. It's just a movie." He lifted Seth's head and left a soft peck on his lips, quieting all of Seth's quivering. Seth kissed him back softly, letting Roman's warm lips press against his own in a protective kiss. Roman breathed deep through his nose as he held onto Seth's face, letting their kiss overtake him. Seth moaned against his mouth, wrapping his arms around Roman's neck. Roman's lips teased his own, licking on his bottom one so his silk tongue could slither in to play with Seth's. Seth opened his mouth slightly, letting their tongues dance inside of his mouth.

His hands cascade down Roman's front and before he knows it, he was tugging on Roman's shirt. Roman takes the hint and pulls it off, revealing his thick, musclar upper body and resting abs that Seth feels underneath his fingertips. He grabs Roman's pecs and takes a good squeeze, hearing Roman groan at the contact. He palms Seth's ass through his jeans and squeezes, slowly grinding against Seth's growing erection.

"We've been dating for six months." Seth said breathlessly, between kisses. "I need you, Ro. I don't think we should wait any longer." He breathed softly cupping the side of Roman's face gently, "I want you to make love to me."

Roman looked at Seth as he pulled away from his mouth. He watched Seth take off his shirt, revealing tight abs with a little bit of hair in between. He got off Roman's lap and started walking towards Roman's bedroom.

"Don't you want that too, Ro?" Seth asked as he started unzipping his own jeans and biting his lip.

Roman thought about it for a second, he was about to see Dean on Saturday. In a moment of weakness he let Dean hold him. He let Dean touch him and slowly his defenses came crashing down. The feelings he felt for Dean in that moment came to him like a tidal wave. He didn't want it to happen, but his body reacted to Dean like no other. He needed to erase that want, and desire for him. He needed to replace it with a need for Seth. A guy who was good to him. Someone he was falling for.

Roman didn't think about it anymore as he walked up to Seth and scooped him up in his arms. Seth smiled as Roman kissed him. He giggled when Roman lifted the young teacher up slightly, letting Seth's legs wrap around him.

"I want it too, baby." Roman said kissing him softly, "I'm ready to make love to you."

Dean was walking through Roman's mom's house, coming straight from the bathroom. Pineapple fried rice and Dean did not agree, apparently. They were there for Roman's parents anniversary and almost all of his family was there. Jimmy and Jey, Roman's first cousins (even though Roman considered them more like brothers) had cranked open the xbox and they all started playing mortal kombat. After being brutally defeated by both twins Dean had gone off to the bathroom and Roman went to talk to his mother. Dean came back to try and find his boyfriend when he overheard Roman and his mom talking in the kitchen.

"... I'm in love with him ma." Roman said as he followed his mom around the counter. "I want to do this."

"I know you're in love with him, but has he ever told you that he loves you back?" His mom asked as she started cutting up fruit for dessert.

Roman's jaw tightened, "He's weird about love, ma. I told you already."

"Roman." His mom stopped cutting up strawberries to look at her son. "How can you be so sure about a man who won't say he loves you? How do you know that now is the right time?"

Before Dean could figure out exactly what they were talking about, he saw Roman take something out of his pocket. It was a small velvet box. He opened it and it looked like a ring. Oh my god, Dean thought. Was that... an engagement ring?

"I just know. Okay? I'm gonna ask Dean to marry me. And he'll say yes. Because i know ma, i know he loves me too."

Roman's words were like icicles in his chest. He wanted to marry him... Marry. Him. Dean's heart felt like it was beating out of his body. He couldn't handle this. He started breathing heavily then turned towards the living room. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. This couldn't be happening. Dean thought to himself.

Roman came out not soon after and saw Dean in the hallway, staring off into the distance, looking pale. He ran over to him, and put his arms around his boyfriend. Dean jumped when he felt Roman's arms around him. He breathed softly then slowly moved out of his embrace and pulled back.

"Dean?" Roman asked curiously as he watched Dean pull back, "Babe you look like you just saw a ghost. Are you okay?"

"I'm fine." Dean lied. What was he supposed to say? He couldn't tell Roman that he heard everything, that he was scared and didn't think this was the right time for them to get married. He couldn't just break his heart.

Could he?

"Are you sure?" Roman asked, slowly trying to put his arms around him again. He was glad that this time, Dean didn't try to pull away.

"Yeah." Dean faked a smile, cupping his hands around the back of Roman's head.

Dean brought him in for kisses. The last couple of kisses he'd ever give him. Roman moaned against his mouth, gripping that small waist and bringing him in for a deeper closer connection. They made out against the wall for a good minute before Roman pulled back. He gripped Dean's shirt in his hands and breathed heavily with his eyes closed.

"Damn, baby. You haven't kissed me like that since we first started dating." Roman smiled.

"I know." Dean looked down for a second then looked back up into his eyes. "I just want you to know Ro.. I do.. I mean... I..." Dean couldn't say it. He couldn't say that he loved him. Even after two years and a proposal on his horizon. He couldn't say it.

"It's okay, Dean. You don't have to say it. I know you love me. And I love you too." Roman kissed his palm then took his hand. They were laced together tightly as they walked back to the living room.

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That was the last time Dean kissed Roman. The very last time he saw him too. He sat up thinking about how he left and the reasons he left and after three years and lot of time to think about it, he still couldn't think of a good enough reason for hurting him.

He almost said it that day. He almost told Roman he loved him. But the words never came. He wanted him to know that he did love him, truly did, but the fear he felt back then was all too real. Roman wanted to marry him. He wanted a life with Dean. But all Dean could feel was the fear. The fear of being with someone for the rest of your life. He was only 21 at the time. He didn't know if he was ready for that yet. He didn't even know what he wanted for breakfast back then, how could he have gotten married?

But he also didn't think about how hurt Roman must've felt. The sheer pain of coming home from work, and seeing Dean gone. The blond winced at the thought of Roman crying. The thought of him tearing up their old apartment because he knew Dean would never be back.

It was cowardice to do then and Dean still felt like a coward now. He should've called. Or something. But no, he just ran away. Leaving him all alone. The years went by and he started to wonder how he was often. Their last meeting left him wondering.. Was he seeing someone? He did let Dean embrace him. But he was quick to pull away. What if he was seeing someone and letting them enjoy exactly what Dean was missing? Dean shuttered at that. The image of someone even touching Roman the way he used to made him absolutely rage. No one deserved him. Honestly he is a beautiful cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure.

But still, what if Roman was single? What if just one more time they could... fuck? Or would it be love making? Dean asked himself as he looked out the window.

"It would definitely be love making." Dean said blushing to himself.

"Dean?" Renee said coming from the bedroom. Dean turned around when he heard her voice.

"Yeah babe I'm here." Dean got up and walked over to her.

"I woke up in bed and you weren't there. Now i find you looking out the window at the stars?" She pursed her lips, "I'm worried about you, Dean. You never stargaze." She came over to him and hugged his waist, looking at him fully.

"Sorry babe. My stargazing is over with. I promise."

"Are you sure?" Renee's hazel eyes shined against the moonlight creeping out of the window. Dean held her face then nodded.

"Yeah I'm sure. Come on. Let's go to bed." He grabbed her hand and they walked back to bed together.

Seth knelt on the bed, looking at Roman who was standing at the foot of it. He brought his hands up Roman's body and then leaned down to kiss the middle of his abs. Hazel eyes looked up and saw Roman bite down on his lip and moan out at the contact. He wanted this, and obviously Roman wanted it too. Seth kissed up his body, inhaling that familiar Roman scent before he took a nipple in his mouth, sucking softly. Roman grabbed the back of his head and kept him in place, watching Seth through hooded eyes.

Seth took off Roman's slacks, then brought Roman to the bed, cupping his ass from behind. Roman fell on top of Seth and their lips found each other's as they slowly made out in bed. Seth let Roman dominate the kiss, but soon Roman's lips were moving slowly down his body. He kissed Seth's belly button then ripped down his underwear, tossing them across the room.

Seth laughed at Roman's forcefulness but all his laughter subsided when Roman put him in his mouth. He moaned out quick as he looked down, seeing Roman suck in the head of his cock. It wasn't soon before Roman was deep throating him, making Seth scream his name out in pleasure. "Yes... Roman.. ugh... fuck!"

Roman smiled around how easily he got Seth worked up. And he wasn't even half way done with his boyfriend. His lips retched off Seth's cock, then he pulled Seth up by his hair and forcefully claimed his lips. Seth could taste himself in Roman's mouth, and it tasted glorious. Roman pulled them into a sitting position in the middle of the bed. He let go of Seth's hair then looked into his beautiful chocolate eyes. "I like it when you say my name. Are you gonna do that while I'm inside of you?" Roman whispered against his neck, leaving light kisses in his wake against Seth's golden skin. "Are you gonna scream my name so loud the neighborhood can hear baby?"

"Only if you want." Seth smiled at him. His lips teased across Roman's as his smaller hand moved down Roman's front to cup his erection. Seth stroked, pumping his thickness up and down and watching Roman close his eyes and lob his back at the feeling.

Roman didn't want it to happen but he started thinking about Dean in that moment, that it was Dean's hand stroking him, Dean that he was gonna fuck. He growled, trying to get him off his mind.

Roman pushed Seth back down on the bed then opened his drawer to get some lube and a condom. He took off his underwear then tried popping on the condom. Roman was so nervous that he was having a hard time getting the condom on correctly.

"Rome? Are you okay?" Seth sat up then noticed Roman having trouble. "Here let me." Seth moved Roman's hands and replaced it with his own. He fit the condom on perfectly then smiled at Roman. "It's okay, Rome. I'm nervous too." He promised as his hands ran up Roman's beautiful tan skin.

Roman couldn't stop smiling. Seth was so good to him and patient. Forget about Dean and his issues. He had a great guy right now, ready and waiting for him to make love. Roman owed it to Seth to give him his all. He lubbed up his cock then slowly lifted Seth back up. "My dick's kinda big.." Roman started to say.

"Yeah. I've noticed." Seth laughed, running his hands through Roman's silky locks.

"I meant do you want me to prep you? I don't know if you can take all of me at once and i don't wanna hurt you."

Seth could see the legitimate love and care Roman held for him in hid eyes. He could tell that Roman wasn't used to being with multiple partners. He wanted as much prep as possible but he wanted Roman now. He was done waiting. Seth laughed off his nervousness then kissed Roman softly. "I'll be fine baby. Just... make love to me?"

Their kisses were light as Roman nodded against his mouth. He held his dick upright then Seth slowly sunk down on his erection. They both moaned out at the feel, then slowly Seth started to move up and down.

"Fuck you're so tight." Roman as as he pumps his hips up, meeting Seth's thrusts. At the angle he could feel just how tight Seth was, despite Seth admitting to him that he was kind of a slut back in his college days. But fuck, that wasn't important, what was important now was how good it felt to finally fuck Seth. It was so damn good.

"Ro... mm...fuck.. don't stop!" Roman heard Seth call him 'Ro' and fuck now his mind was back on Dean. That was his nickname for him. Sure, other people called him that all the time, but when Dean said it, god he was on top of the world.

Roman thrusted deep inside of Seth, closing his eyes. He needed to stop thinking of Dean. Fucking Dean who was a wild thing in bed. He used to bite Roman when Roman went deeper, scratched his back up once after they had a fight which turned into very rough sex. His little mischievous giggle when it was his turn to have his way with Roman, he would bring him to the brink so many times then stop and start all over again.

"Fuck!" Roman cried out, he couldn't stop thinking about Dean. He pushed Seth onto the bed then went behind him. Before Seth knew what exactly was happening Roman lifted his leg slightly then reentered him, thrusting deep into Seth's ass. Seth's head fell to Roman's chest and he let out a huge moan, panting softly at the new position.

"Ro fuck yes, don't stop... I'm so close!" Seth gasped and held onto Roman's hair. He gripped it and Roman reached around to stroke Seth's dick slowly.

Dean would've loved this position. Roman thought as he pounded into Seth from behind. He was stroking his cock, fucking him hard and leaving bite marks all over his neck. He could hear his balls slapping heavily against Seth ass and he was on the brink. He went even deeper and that's when Seth screamed that he was coming. It didn't take no more than two seconds for Seth to come all over Roman's hand and Roman followed a minute or two later, spilling into the condom inside of Seth. They both panted, and Roman held Seth for a bit before he pulled out slowly.

After he came from the bathroom and they cleaned up, Seth just wanted to lie in his arms. Roman wanted the same thing. Seth rested his wet head on Roman's chest then closed his eyes. Roman held him tight, rubbing his shoulders softly. It was he and Seth's first time and Roman couldn't stop thinking about Dean. He felt so guilty for thinking about his ex while making love to Dean's former best friend.

He felt even more gulity that Seth didn't know he was planning on meeting him this Saturday too. And he was scared of what it might lead too. Roman didn't want to hurt Seth so he made a promise to himself then and there. He wouldn't ever let Dean get to him again. He was gonna hear him out then let the past go and finally move on with Seth.

He was finally gonna let Dean go.

"Rome." Seth said in his sleep. He reached out for him and Roman pulled the blanket up, holding him even tighter.

"I'm here baby. I'm here."

Friday afternoon 8pm

"Alright Randy I'll see you later!" Seth said as he pushed Randy away from his desk. He locked up his classroom then walked down the corridor ahead of Randy.

"You sure you don't want an escort to the bus? I'd be happy to wait with you." Randy told Seth walking out of the school with him.

"Nah, Roman's gonna meet me at my stop. I'll be fine. Don't worry about me so much okay?"

"It's my job to worry." Randy replied with a smile.

"You're so sweet. Bye Randy." Seth smiled back and waved Randy off as he started walking to the bus. He was almost at the bus stop when he noticed a Porsche riding along side of him. Seth started to speed up and when he speeded up so did the car. He was about to call Roman and ask him where he was when..

"In need of a ride?" Dean said as he rolled down his car window.

"Dean!" Seth jumped and stopped mid-walk. "I thought you were some weird rapist trying to kidnap me. God. You shouldn't sneak up on people like that!

"Oh come on you wuss. I barely scared you. Get in the car, Potter! We're going to the zoo!" Dean smirked and Seth narrowed his eyes at the reference.

"Shut up." Without thinking, Seth gets in the car and puts on his seatbelt. Dean speeded off then smiled once Seth started changing radio stations.

"Ew. I don't want to listen to heavy fucking metal. Turn that shit dude." Dean scrunched his nose up at Seth's music choices. He hit Seth's hand and turned back to the country channel.

"Fucker!" Seth laughed, "Hit my hand again and i swear I'll ruin your nice car!"

Dean laughed as well, "Whatcha gonna do? Twink all over it?" Dean pushed him against the car window, "Try it Twink!"

"I'm not a twink you bitch, call me that again and i'll pee all over this fucking vehicle!" Seth said as he punched Dean in the side playfully.

"I come pick you up from elementary school mayhem and this is the thanks i get?" Dean pulls Seth by his collar shirt and as Seth was laughing he noticed a hickey and bite marks up and down Seth's neck.

"Dean i told you, i work at a high school-" Seth said laughing still.

"Oh my god!" Dean cut Seth off mid sentence and pushed him back into his seat then stopped the car in front of what looked like a diner.

"What? What's wrong?" Seth was worried.

"You had sex!" Dean's mouth opened wide with joy and excitement as he said it. "You and your celibate boy toy finally did the nasty!" He raised his arms and did a little dance. Seth laughed and put his face in his hands embarrassed.

"Dean stop come on, it's not a big deal!" Except it was. Roman hasn't had sex with anyone in two years and he chose Seth to start over with. It was a huge fucking deal. "And i never said he was celibate."

"Yes it is!" Dean smiled over excitedly, "Spill it Rollins.. how was he?" Seth looked at Dean, he was all too giddy to hear about his sexual encounter. He wondered if he would be as enthusiastic if he knew who Seth's mystery guy really was.

"It was great. So romantic. He was so nervous. It was so cute. He made it worth the wait. Honestly." Seth pushed some hair behind his ear. "We didn't last long because it's been a long time since we both had sex but... last night, Dean.. while we were in the middle of doing it, when he pulled me into his lap and as we were fucking i thought i felt something. No- I know i did. I think.. he might love me, Dean."

"Ew. Gross. I wanted the nasty details. Like positions and how deep he went, was he good at taking your twink cock, not some sappy rom com bullshit." Seth laughed then pushed Dean playfully.

"You're just mad cause i finally got the dick while you're blue balling it until the fall." Seth stuck his tongue out at his friend.

All of a sudden Dean got quiet. He looked down and Seth felt guilty for gloating. "Dean.. I'm sorry you know i didn't mean to say that..."

Seth was cut off by Dean shaking his head, "It's not that actually.. umm.. I may have picked you up not only because you looked lost as fuck walking to the bus but uhh... I'm having an issue internally. And as my best friend, Seth you're the only one who can help me."

"Okay what is it?" Seth put his hand on dean's thigh.

"I'm considering cheating on Renee."

Once Dean said it, it was like all the rest of the air in the car evaporated. Nothing left but carbon dioxide and a bad taste in Seth's mouth. The teacher pulled his hand away in shock. He honestly thought Dean was happy with Renee. He was wondering what changed all of a sudden?

"Dean honestly i don't know what to say. What brought this on?"

This was the hard part. "Roman." Dean gulped. "I went to his and Renee's meeting yesterday because she couldn't make it and we got to talking about us, and one thing led to another.."

Seth's heart was pounding. He couldn't believe what he was hearing. Roman didn't mention Dean at all last night when they were... Oh god.

"Have you two.. done stuff already?" Seth almost felt like crying.

"No. I just sorta held him. We didn't kiss or anything." Dean missed Seth releasing a breath he was holding in. "But as i was holding him.. It just felt great. Like it used too, ya know? He always felt better than anyone else. I just felt at home in his arms. We kinda... agreed to meet on Saturday to talk and i just.. I'm contemplating on sleeping with him. Just to get it out of my system-"

"NO!" Seth screamed. He was no longer able to hold back. "You can't okay you fucking can't sleep with him!" Seth wasn't going to let that happen. After months of waiting and repairing Roman's broken heart. He wasn't about to lose him to Dean.

"What? Why?" Dean asked curiously. "Renee won't know. It could be a one time thing-"

"This isn't about Renee, Dean." Seth looked down, he had to tell him. Dean would be mad but there was no way Seth was gonna let this go on any longer.

"You can't sleep with Roman because, he's mine Dean." Seth blew out a breath.

"I'm seeing Roman."

A/N: What do you think Dean's reaction is gonna be? I took it off hiatus yass! Hopefully i don't regret that decision. -Melle