Dean's heart was almost beating out of his chest.

He had to have heard him right... right? Cody fucking Rhodes? Roman's ex from college? They were together for a year and a half before Cody moved to California to study business. Roman had said Cody was the very first guy he ever truly loved. Dean's mind ran wild, his heart swelled even more and he was barely breathing. Cody was the only guy Roman ever dated that he was jealous of.

And now he was back in his life?

"Cody. As in.. Cody Rhodes?" Dean just wanted to be sure. He could've heard him wrong. He wanted to hear him wrong. Not him! Dean's mind screamed. Please not Cody Rhodes.

"Yeah. Him." Roman replied like it wasn't that big of a deal. But... it kinda was. At least to Dean. Cody was.. Roman's dean before he met Dean. He loved him once and the only person Roman loved more than Cody, was the guy he was currently on the phone with.

The guy who broke his heart.

"So.. umm like why is he there?" Dean tried to level his voice and take the anger and jealousy out of it.

"Oh, we were about to go to the movies together. But you called right when i was trying to decide what to wear." Roman laughed his sexy laugh and all Dean could think about were the times he was laying in their bed as Roman tried to figure out what to wear for the day. Half naked, smiling at Dean as he frustratedly picked out clothes. The image would always stay in Dean's brain.

"Movies huh?" Dean couldn't hide his disappointment anymore. "With.. him."

"Dean.." Roman could hear the depressed sound of Dean's voice. He sighed, not really knowing what to say in return. He knew he couldn't keep mentioning Cody because Dean was always super jealous of him. Even while they were together. So Roman decided to redirect the conversation, "You said you wanted to talk right? So.. let's talk." He hoped changing the subject would be better.

"I..." Dean mumbled. Honestly, he was scared to tell Roman the truth. He was scared to tell him he was calling because he missed him so much. That he longed to be in his arms once again, all curled up inbetween their bedsheets, naked like they used too. Instead, he wanted to take the cowardly route, ask Roman about his day and see if he was okay. His brain was telling him that was the best thing to do.. But his heart though..

Wouldn't allow it.

"I miss you, Ro." Fuck. Dean shouldn't of said that. He just opened the floodgates of emotional hell and now there was no turning back. In a matter of seconds Roman was gonna crucify him. And fuck if he didn't deserve it.

"You miss me?" Roman half-laughed at how ridiculous that sounded, "I thought you were madly in love with Renee?" Roman kissed his teeth in disbelief. Dean really had some fucking nerve. He put him through so much pain and now he had the balls to say he missed him over the phone? "Last time we spoke that's what you were telling me. How is Cruella anyway? Keeping your dick wet?" That was harsh but it didn't matter. Roman was angry and he had every right to be.

"I don't want to talk about her." Dean said it stern, like he had any right to demand a different topic or something.

"No. You don't want to talk about her." Roman rolled his eyes as he looked in the mirror at his abs. "You just want to have your pie and eat cake too." Roman sighed, this conversation was going exactly like he thought it would go before he answered the phone. "Look, you made your choice, Dean. You chose her over us. You chose her over me." Roman paused to level his straining voice, "Why can't that just be it for us?"

"Fuck. I don't know Ro. Because i fucking love you, maybe?" Dean said it almost desperately.

"You can't keep saying that!" Roman was now screaming at him.

"Why not?" Dean honestly didn't understand why he couldn't tell him how he felt.

"Because you know how it makes me feel Dean! You can't tell me you love me when i know it's a lie. If you loved me you'd fucking be HERE." Roman was beyond pissed off. Dean was ruining his night. "But you're not here are you? You're with her. You LOVE her. That's what you told me right? So just stop it. Stop please." He begged him.

"I love you Roman." Dean ignored everything he just said, he couldn't just not tell Roman the truth. He did love him, always and forever. "I think about you everyday. Everynight. I can't stop thinking about you. I love you so much."

"Dean stop it, please." Roman's walls were coming down. Those three damn words were making him weak. I love yous making him weak..

Dean made him weak.

"I don't want you to go out Cody." Dean had the nerve to say it like a command. "I don't want him anywhere near you."

"YOU DON'T WANT ME WITH ANYONE!" Roman shouted. "But you don't want to love me either." He heard that sharp, exhausted exhale from Roman. The one where he signaling that he was tired of this conversation. "Dean I'm trying to fucking be happy here. Don't you want me to be happy?"

"Yes." Dean said back defeatedly. Roman was making him feel like such a jackass. "I do."

"Then just let me go! Please." Dean could hear the pain in Roman's voice as he spoke softer. "I can't do this anymore. I've been in pain for three whole years without you. I can't be your doormat, i can't be the one you go to when things get rough between you and your.. Jackie." Roman was crying now, but Dean could tell he was trying to fight it. "Fucking let me go, Dean! Just... let me go."

Dean didn't know why he started crying. Maybe because he felt guilty, maybe it's because Roman was right. Either way, he had to do what Roman wanted. He couldn't leave Renee and Roman couldn't wait any longer. He hurt him too much to fix things. It was over. For good.

He had to set him free.

There was a long pause where both men listened to the other cry before Dean spoke again. "I need you to know that i love you, Roman. There's no one else. And hopefully one day you can forgive me when i tell you the truth about why i hurt you. I'm sorry. Goodbye." Roman heard Dean sniffling over the phone as he said something about the truth?

"The truth? What truth? Dean wait-" He tried to keep him on the line but it was too late.

Dean had already hung up.

Cody knocked on the door and slowly entered the room after he heard shouting. Roman was looking in his mirror, sniffling. Cody came up behind him and held onto his shoulder gently. "Hey Rome.. I heard shouting, are you alright?"

Roman reluctantly nodded his head, and faked a smile. "Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry about that." He wiped his the tears from his face, pulled on his shirt then got his wallet and keys. He wasn't gonna let Dean ruin his night. He couldn't do that to Cody.

"Let's go have some fun."

xxx

Cody and Roman decided to do dinner and a movie but at dinner Roman couldn't focus. He kept thinking about Dean and what he said over the phone. Apart of Roman wanted to just call back and ask Dean what he meant by 'the truth' but their last conversation sounded more like.. a goodbye. Even though he asked for it, it still hurt. Apart of him knew, that he'd never be over Dean. Apart of him didn't want to be.

Roman pushed his turkey meatball around in his plate, sighing as his mind wandered about Dean and what truth he could possibly be talking about. His hands moved tiredly through his black locks as he tried to personally decode Dean's cryptic message in his mind.

Cody had sensed his mood and he wondered what was wrong. Roman was acting weird all throughout dinner and now he wasn't even bothering to make eye contact. The shorter man figured that something was on his mind, "Rome? I know i asked this back at yours, but are you sure you're okay? You haven't even touched your food."

"Yeah." Roman shook his head and forced a smile, finally looking at Cody. "I was just thinking about the past and stuff." He looked back down at his uneaten pasta and exhaled. "How things used to be."

"I do that a lot. Think about things in my past... people in my past." Cody tried to comfort him. He knew he was thinking about Dean. Roman was single but Cody had this strange feeling that Roman wasn't over him. He overheard Roman screaming at someone over the phone and Cody knew it had to be Dean. Roman refused to tell him exactly how he and Dean ended it, but Cody put two and two together and figured it was all about Dean playing games with Roman's heart. And that pissed Cody off to no end. ".."But sometimes, people become your past for a reason. This might be hard to understand right now Rome... but.. some people just aren't meant to be in your life forever." Cody put his hand on Roman's and caressed it softly. He wished so bad for that to be true. He wanted Dean to be apart of his past. He wanted to move on and be happy.

But he didn't know how to let him go.

"You're right." Roman nodded, smiling at Cody. "I'm sorry Cody. For being a shit date. I let past things get to me and i ruined our what could've been a great time. I apologize." Roman shook his head in embarrassment.

"Of course I'm right. And don't apologize. I've been there. Trust me." Cody offered him a sympathetic smile, "Now come on. Let's get the check and I'll take you home."

"No movie?" Roman asked somberly.

"You have Netflix don't you?" Cody smiled and put money on the table. He held out his hand for Roman to take and Roman smiled, putting his hand in Cody's. He got pulled up and they met face to face, with huge smiles from either man.

"I definitely have Netflix." Roman answered, biting softly on his lip.

"Good, because i have yet to see the new season Orange is the New Black. C'mon." Cody pulled on the bottom of Roman's shirt and Roman happily followed, forgetting all about Dean, his silly messages and the pain he felt knowing he was gone.

Cody was right. It was time to put Dean in the past and finally let himself be happy.

Randy waited for Seth after school and as Seth opened the big green double doors he smiled softly seeing Randy. "Can i take you home?" Randy asked and Seth nodded, walking with him to his car. There was an awkward silence between them as they walked side by side and Randy tried to figure out how to apologize without sounding like a total jackass.

"So.." Randy said, breaking the silence formed between them.

"So?" Seth said back, mentally preparing himself for this conversation.

"Seth.. first and foremost i wanna apologize for the things i said to you. It was out of line and i shouldn't of said them at all or try to hurt you the way i did. I had some time to think about it and honestly i was just jealous. You and Roman have this great relationship and i'm just the friend who keeps pushing you for something more and that's not fair to you." They both stopped at Randy's car and Seth leaned against it, waiting for Randy to finish. "I'm sorry about everything. I regret everything i said and everything i did to hurt or confuse you."

"Randy.. It's okay." Randy eyebrows popped up in confusion. Did Seth really just say it was... okay? "We were both angry, and said things we didn't mean... like me for instance, what i said about Roman isn't true. We're not even together anymore. I just wanted to make you jealous." Seth bit his lip softly, "I'm sorry too."

Randy cracked a small smile when he heard that Roman was out of the picture. And Seth apologized too. It was like he was living in the twilight zone or something. "It's really done between you and Reigns? Why?" Randy asked, stepping into Seth's personal space.

"Because... he happens to love my best friend and i happen to have feelings for... someone else." Seth smiled as he looked up into beautiful ice blue eyes, staring back at him intensely.

"Mm yeah? Who is he?" Randy asked, palm pressing into the car door as he hovered over Seth.

"You might know him. He's smart, sexy.. has tempting blue eyes and makes me hard just by looking at him." Randy released a throaty groan and then he smiled, "Oh and he happens to be you-"

Seth didn't get a chance to finish his sentence as Randy's lips captured his in a searing kiss. He pressed Seth hard against his car and held onto his face as th eyes slowly made out. Seth moaned against his mouth and pulled on Randy's dress to keep their bodies impossibly close. When Randy pulled away, he did it after squeezing Seth's ass which caused the teacher to giggle. "So should I ask you on a date before or after i get too hard to not think and make love to you against this car?" Randy asked as they pressed their foreheads together. Seth bit his lip and then laughed lightly.

"If you want me again Orton... this time you're gonna have to work for it." He then winked at him and got in Randy's car.

Randy watched his ass as he got in then released a sharp breath. "Damn right I'll work for it." He said to himself with a smile, right before he got in the drivers seat and drove Seth home.

*Three weeks later*

"Mm, i think I'll get the chicken salad." Renee said as she looked over her menu. She and Dean were out to lunch together. They barely talked anymore except for when he asked about the baby so she thought it would be good to go to lunch and hash things out.

Dean reluctantly agreed.

"I'm not eating. You dragged me here because you wanted to talk so just spit it out so we can go back to work. I don't know why you're putting on this front like you're the 'doting girlfriend.' We didn't have to do this in public." Dean shook his head and sipped his scotch on the rocks.

Renee sighed, as she listened to Dean ramble and then she looked down at her ring with a smile. "You know i still remember the night you gave me this." She flashed the beautiful princess cut diamond at him, "The sky was lit up with fireworks and we were on our balcony and you got down on one knee and asked me to be your wife. That feels like so long ago but i remember it like it was yesterday. We made love all night after that, remember?"

Dean looked down and nodded, he did remember. He remembers a lot of things. He remembered trying to love Renee. Trying to move on from Roman. It worked for awhile but he was kidding himself. There's only one person he really loved and he couldn't change that now. And he didn't want too.

"I remember it Renee. What's your point?" Dean seemed overly annoyed with her.

"The point is that ever since we've met Dean, we've been partners, me and you. You claim to not love me but i know deep down inside you do. I had to do what i had to do to keep you around but the circumstances shouldn't matter. I'm pregnant with your baby now and even though you much rather have a dick in your ass then a doting wife who loves you, doesn't give you the right to treat me like garbage. You don't want me? You claim this.." She pointed to her ring, "Isn't real, that WE weren't real, then fine. But you will not.." Renee started choking up, "... keep treating me like the trash you forgot to take out. Not anymore. You understand me?"

It's been a long time since Dean saw Renee cry. He always thought she had a heart of stone to match her cunning personality, a great trait in a lawyer, not so good trait in a person, but.. there she was, crying that Dean was treating her like shit and for some crazy reason, Dean agreed. They weren't good for each other and she ruined everything they once were but it didn't give him the right to treat her like a second class citizen. She was human after all. With feelings and Dean had to rectify his wrongdoings.

"I'm sorry Ren." Dean took her hand in his and held them close. "You're right. It's not good for you or the baby. Our baby. I'm sorry and from now on, I'll try to treat you better okay?" Dean held her hands close to his heart and that's when Renee smiled through her tears. Dean had seen the light. She was slowly getting him back, this is exactly what she was hoping for. He leaned forward to kiss her cheek and as he did, his eyes glanced towards the window only to see Roman crossing the street with someone..

Cody.

Dean's forgot how to breathe as he saw them holding hands, and coming towards their restaurant. His whole body went stiff as Cody laughed at whatever Roman was saying, and they gave each other longing looks as they entered. Renee looked towards Dean's line of vision and saw him too. The bane of her existence; and the man who held Dean's heart. He looked happy and was smiling with another man as they both sat down at a table.

"I need to get out of here now." Dean whispered under his breath. He really needed to go, but he.. couldn't. He couldn't look away. Cody was caressing his Roman's hand and then kissed his palm. Roman was blushing something fierce, that blush he did when he knew what was coming next. Dean's breathing started to become uneven and Renee tried to help by putting her hand on Dean's.

"Dean... maybe it's time to let him go?" Renee said softly. "I mean he looks pretty happy with whoever that guy is.." Apparently Dean didn't like that answer because he drank down the scotch he ordered in one gulp and then got up. "Dean! Do not go over there." Renee said through her teeth, trying not to make a scene.

Dean wasn't listening. He was starting to walk towards them to confront Roman when he saw Cody kiss Roman on the lips softly. Dean stopped dead in his tracks as he watched Roman kiss him back. His heart dropped and he immediately closed his eyes, looking away. Renee noticed everything and before she could go get Dean he was bolting out of the restaurant.

"FUCK." Renee exclaimed. Everyone in the restaurant looked up besides Roman and Cody. Renee was thanking her lucky stars and she exited quietly and then ran after Dean but it was too late.

He had already ran off.

xxx

"Yeah i did have fun today." Roman said to Cody over the phone. He was making some ice cream from scratch as he and Cody laughed, talking over their day. "Yeah we can totally do it again. Tomorrow night? Sounds.." Roman was cut off by call waiting. He looked down at his iPhone and saw that it was Dean calling. Apart of him wanted to just press ignore but he couldn't..

His heart told him not too.

"Hey Cody? Can i call you back?" Roman said to him. Cody said yes and that's when Roman told him goodbye and he clicked over to Dean. They haven't spoken in weeks so Roman thought something was wrong.

"Dean?" Roman said his name so soft. "Are you okay?"

"I'm outside of your house." Dean said back, with a soft slur of his words.

"You're where?"

"I'm drunk, standing outside of your house. Let me in."

Roman walked over to his front porch window and pulled the curtain back. And.. there he was. In his leather jacket, and regular clothes, standing outside his house. Roman turned away from the window and leaned against it, closing his eyes.

"Dean, i'm not gonna let you in." Roman's heart was beating a mile a minute as he tried to hide. "Go home to your fiancee."

"I can't go home. You wanna know why I'm like this Ro? You wanna know what caused me to drink my fucking feelings?" Dean's head thumped against his door as he spoke drunkenly, "I fucking saw you with him today. At Lily's restaurant. Cody. You were all over him. He kissed your beautiful lips. And you.. you fucking kissed him back." Dean laughed for no reason, "Does he kiss like i do Ro? Does he.. fuck like i do?" Dean's drunken words sent a shiver down Roman's spine. Fuck. He couldn't let Dean get to him like this.

"Dean, don't do this. Go home." Roman pleaded with him again.

"You are my home. Let me in." Dean begged him one more time.

"We both know what happens if i let you in here. I'm not your play thing. I'm not your sex toy to use whenever you're jealous or horny. I have feelings and a heart you broke too many damn times. You can't have me. You don't deserve me." Roman could feel himself on the verge of tears. Dean promised to let him go. He promised to leave him alone and now all Roman wanted to do was open that door, let him in again just to break his heart one more time.

"Roman please. I need you."

"You need Renee." Roman fired back.

"No. You. I need you. Please." Dean sounded piss drunk, and Roman's defenses were dropping fast. Fuck he just wanted him to leave him alone.

"Go home Dean. Rest it off. Talk to me in the morning." It was Roman's last plea.

"I.. drove here. All the way from the bar. Do you really want me to go?"

When Roman heard he drove there he started to worry. Dean sounded piss drunk. He couldn't let him get back in his porche and get in an accident. But he couldn't let him in... could he? When he didn't answer, Dean sighed and started to walk back to his porsche. Roman watched out the window and immediately he got scared for what might happen if he just let him go. Reluctant shaky hands reached for the door and Roman slowly opened it, watching Dean get ready to get back in his car.

"I'll let you sleep on the couch." Roman screamed to him, getting his attention. Dean turned around and for a moment everything else in the world faded away as they stared at each other. Roman was breathing heavily as Dean closed his car door back and stalked over to him. His breath caught in his throat as Dean automatically grabbed him by the back of his head and crashed his drunken lips to Roman's in a dominating and very sloppy kiss.

Roman felt suffocated by the kiss but still kissed him back. Dean possessively grabbed at Roman's ass and picked him up, walking them both inside. He wasted no time in slamming him against the wall. One of Roman's paintings fell as he pulled on Dean's blond locks, letting him control most of their kiss. Dean smiled against Roman's mouth then placed himself between Roman's legs. His erection pressed into Roman's boxers and all he could think about was getting into that tight heat and pounding Roman's ass until morning.

Breathless moans against each other's lips were released as they kissed and soon Dean's jacket was ripped down his shoulders. His shirt was tossed roughly across the room and then he slipped his tongue in Roman's mouth, being sure to grind against the chef's growing erection.

"Fuck. I hate you." Roman breathed against his lips, gray eyes staring angrily into baby blues. "I hate you so much Dean."

"I know. " Dean sighed against his lips, "I hate me too."

No other words were said as Dean lifted Roman up again and carried him to the bedroom.

A/N: I gave y'all some heavy ambreigns just in case you were missing them! Renee laid down the law with Dean and gave him so truth tea. Cody is totes a sweetheart and Rollton are cute (new otp?) So what y'all think, will they get it on, or will something happen.. hmm. Review! -Melle