"I'm sorry.. what was that?" Dean's voice was eerily calm even though Cody was screaming. He sat back in his chair and dared Cody to repeat what he just said.

"I asked you.." Cody lowered his voice to a dangerous level. He stared at the ice cold blue eyes that were looking right back at him and he stood his ground. "To stop fucking my boyfriend." Cody drawled out the last sentence, keeping direct eye contact with Dean now.

"Oh." Dean actually laughed like something was funny. "You asked me stop fucking your boyfriend. Your boyfriend. Except... he doesn't seem to think so." Dean faked a pout, mocking Cody's feelings for Roman. "Poor little Code's. You have always the bridesmaid, never the bride written all over you, don't ya?"

"I know you have some weird hold on him. You always did." Cody exhaled and looked down, reminiscing for a second, "But this isn't three years ago Dean. You can't have him. Roman wants to be with me, he wants to be happy with me! And if you loved him.. at all anymore.. you'd let him go."

"Why?" Dean looked up at him from his desk. "So he could be with you? The cockslut? You know, i remember Roman telling me tons of things about you Codester. You're probably the only person I know who's slept with more men than my best friend. And you think that i'm gonna what? Sit back and let you destroy him the way you destroyed your relationship with that Swiss guy? How many times did he cheat on you by the way? I imagine it was a lot." Dean started laughing again, right in Cody's face. "Me and Roman will make love whether you're in the picture or not. As many times as we want." Dean toyed with him, "As hard as we want, as often as he wants. Anytime he wants." He teased Cody. " Now. Get the fuck out of my office."

Dean chuckled and took out a pen, ready to start up his next assignment. He thought he'd won, he thought Cody was just going to leave when..

BAM!

Dean fell flat on his ass, as Cody knocked him out of the chair. "FUCK YOU AMBROSE!" Cody screamed, jumping over the desk to get to Dean. He got on top of Dean and without hesitation Cody's fist met Dean's face. Over.. and over and over again. Dean tried to block the hits but fuck! Cody hit hard. "STOP FUCKING HIM! YOU HEAR ME!" Cody was irate, he punched him right in his jaw, causing Dean's lip to bust open, making him spit up blood. That's when Dean had enough. He elbowed Cody in his stomach and then switched their positions, getting in a few punches of his own. Cody yelped out when Dean caught him good near his eye and that's when he kneed him in the dick. Dean let out an audible groan, falling down to the carpet. Cody crawled to his feet then started kicking Dean harshly in the stomach with his shoe. "STOP FUCKING MY MAN YOU HEAR ME!" another harsh kick, "HE'S MINE!"

"OH MY GOD!" Dean's assistant Lana, screamed as she came in to see what all the noise was about. "SECURITY!" She yelled for them, running back out of Dean's office to go get them. She came back in under five minutes with two big men who came and snatched Cody right off his feet.

"STAY AWAY FROM HIM AMBROSE! I MEAN IT!" Cody yelled as he got carried away.

Lana ran over to Dean's side, kneeling down to make sure Dean was okay. "I'll call the police sir-" Lana suggested.

"No!" Dean warned, wiping the blood off of his face with his suit jacket. He coughed out some blood then got to his feet with Lana's help. "He was only disgruntled costumer. That's all. And that's what you'll tell Renee or her father if either of them ask. Got it Lana?" Lana nodded silently. "Good. Now can you run to Armani and pick me up another suit please? This one got blood all fucking over it." His assistant nodded a final time and then hurried away.

Dean mumbled something to himself then stalked into his personal bathroom and slammed the door. Angrily, he tore off his bloodied tie and placed it on the sink. Dean released a sharp breath and then looked in the mirror. That bitch Cody only busted his lip. He mused. Dean made sure he got him in the eye though. As he was looking for something to clean himself off with in the bathroom, his phone vibrated in his pocket. It was a text from Roman.

Roman: Hey handsome, I miss you already. Thinking about you in a suit drives me crazy. Call me? xoxo.

Roman held his jacket close to him as he walked home from his car - late from the bakery. Even though having sex with Dean was fun, it set him back a couple of hours so he and Sasha had to stay late. Even though Sasha didn't want too, Roman more than made it up to her by telling her she gets a wedding cake for free when she gets married.

Roman thought about Dean all day after he came over, he couldn't stop thinking about him, actually. Giving himself to Dean at first wasn't easy for Roman. Three years ago he was a man in complete love.. now? Now he was a man confused. He loved Dean, they had crazy chemistry and no one else understood Roman the way Dean did. Seth used to say they were peanut butter and jelly. Good alone, but great together.

That always stuck with Roman.

But if Dean was his jelly.. Cody was Roman's banana. Just as sweet but only good to a few people. Roman wanted it to work with Cody. But he didn't know if he could ever get over Dean. Roman sighed as he finally made it to his block. He was close to his house and when he finally got there he saw Cody sitting on his porch waiting for him.. with a black eye.

"Cody?" Roman drops his bag and hurries over to Cody. His porch light reflects off Cody's shiner and Roman instantly sees that Cody has been crying. His feet take a slow step before he sits down next to Cody. Roman puts his hand on Cody's thigh, and in turn Cody just looks at him sadly. "Codes.." Roman said, slowly cupping his boyfriend's face. "What happened to you?" His thumb grazed over the shiner and Cody winced. Instantly Roman pulled back, holding Cody's jaw now. "Talk to me?" Roman pleaded.

There was a long pause before Cody said anything. Nothing but the silent wisp of the night air whisked around them as they looked at each other. Roman caressed Cody's soft face as long as the younger man let him, before he pushed him away.

"Are you sleeping with Dean?" Cody asked all too calmly. His tone of voice matched the amount of anger he felt inside, but he kept it leveled and calm.. like a dormant volcano just waiting for that moment to erupt at any second.

Roman's mouth opened immediately. He tried to think of things to tell Cody. He even tried to ask him how he found out but no words ever came. What could he tell him? Could he tell Cody a lie? Could he tell him the truth? Either way it was going to end badly. Almost as badly as the silence was right now.

"Your silence speaks volumes." Cody admits. He sounded devastated, but also like he was trying his best to not cry. Roman's eyes darted from Cody to his lap now. He kept his head low. He didn't know what to say in return. Cody was gonna leave him and Roman was going to be all alone again. Pining for a man with a baby and a future wife. The thought of losing Cody was scaring him just as bad as the thought of losing Dean.

"Are you still in love with him?" Cody cried, looking at Roman now. He could no longer hold back his tears. Cody buried his face in his hands and let it all out.

"Codes." Roman said his name so apologetic. He pulled Cody's hands away from his lap and forced their eyes to connect. "I'm sorry." Roman offered. "I.."

He didn't get a chance to finish his sentence because Cody was kissing him. Although surprised by the kiss, Roman starts kissing Cody back. It was slow, and passionate. Filled with heat.. but no fire. There wasn't even a spark but Roman lied to himself and said there was. He wanted to be happy and Cody made him happy. Cody was the first to pull away, his wet lashes flickered under the light when he opened his eyes. Roman licked his own lips while keeping Cody's gaze, his heavy, intense gaze that Roman was starting to remember too well.

"I never stopped loving you Rome." Cody said as a tear fell down his cheek, "Even when i was with Antonio, i would always compare him to you. He cheated on me because I was too busy using him to get over the one guy i let go. The one guy i loved who fell in love with someone else." He held onto Roman's face, and then looked down, "Dean gave me a black eye out of jealousy." Cody lies, leaving out the fact that he initiated the fight. "I told him we were together and he just.. got so angry.. I was scared Ro."

"Cody baby I'm so sorry." Roman said in return, mentally fuming at Dean. This is the second guy he's dated that Dean has hurt now. It was beginning to piss Roman off. "I'm gonna set Dean straight, once and for all."

"No!" Cody responded quickly, shaking his head. "Roman please don't talk to him please.." Cody laid his head on Roman's shoulder and snuggled into him.

"You don't want me to talk to him?" Roman was confused, "You're just gonna let Dean get away with hurting you?"

"He'll just lie about what happened and then you'll believe him because he's got this weird hold on you." Cody sighed into Roman's neck, "I don't blame you for still wanting him Rome, I don't. But, I won't be the other man. I won't wait around for you to love me back " He sniffled, lifting his head so he and Roman's eyes connected. "Am I what you want?" Cody asked him seriously.

Roman thought about it for a second before answering, "You are." He said quietly.

"Then you gotta choose Roman. You can be happy with me or.. pine after Dean. But you can't have both."

"I can't just.." Roman stuttered softly, "I don't know how to-"

"Stop." Cody cut him off. "Let me make it easy for you." He kissed Roman's lips gently, smiling as he felt the samoan man kiss him back.

Cody pulled away with a soft caress to Roman's lips before he said, "Come away with me for the weekend."

"Dean oh my god, stalk your fridge." Seth laughs as he slammed the fridge shut and walked back into the living room. "There's nothing in there but wine, beer and ice cream. Do you people even eat?" Seth slumped down into Dean's lazy boi, popping open a can of coke.

"I order take out most days. Renee cooks but- It's a lot of vegan shit that doesn't taste as good as she thinks. Anyway aren't you supposed to be helping me with my bachelor party? That's why I called you here- not to raid my fridge and drink up my soda." Dean slunk down on his couch and took a slow swig of beer. Seth had come over about an hour ago with ideas for Dean's bachelor party, but Dean had vetoed almost all of them. Taking his friends to a gay strip club sounded fun on paper but trying to convince his heterosexual law friends to watch dudes take off their clothes was a whole other ball game.

"You told me all my ideas were trashy!" Seth shrugged, turning his nose up in judgment.

"Seth I can't take my straight colleagues to an all male strip club called THE REAR END!" Dean pushed him while laughing.

"The funniest thing about that sentence is that you think all your coworkers are straight. If i wasn't dating Randy it would take me less than 5 minutes to bag and tag any closet case in your office and make him suck my beautiful dick." Seth smiled smugly, laying his head back against the head rest. "Okay no all guy day then.." He sighed, "What about girls?" A light bulb went off in Seth's head. "It's not my cup of tea but I'd do it for you."

"Nope." Dean blew out a sigh, "Renee says no girls." He noted sadly.

"Haha." Seth snorted, looking up at the ceiling. "It's really not girls she needs to be worried about." He looked at Dean with a smile, "By the way, Roman texted me when he got off work. He let me know why he hung up on me." Dean looked back at his best friend with a blush, and then looked down again. "I can't believe you went to his office for a quickie. You're kind of a slut Dean."

"First of all.. I'm no slut." Dean replied quickly, "And secondly there was nothing quick about what we did." Dean got up and took his finished beer into the kitchen. He came back with two more and handed one to Seth. "I never told you this.." Dean started to say, "Mostly because you can't keep your mouth shut but.. when we first started dating.. after we finally had sex we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. And well.. one time Roman was so horny when I came to see him at work and he ended up fucking me in his mom's supply closet." Dean blushed at the memory. He laughed to himself as he looked at Seth, "She caught us mid-fuck and Roman was so embarrassed. I could never look at mom the same again."

"Huh." Seth smirked, "You still call Roman's mom.. mom?"

"Yeah why?" Dean asked in an accusatory tone.

"Oh my god Dean, you are such a sap for him." Seth laughed. "Even after all these years.. you still love him?"

"I do." Dean said without a second thought. "I love him with everything in me." Dean touches his own lip, thinking about earlier today and his fight with Cody that he didn't tell Seth about. "But he's with that little cockslut, Rhodes." Dean shook his head, "I just wish there was a way out of all this. I wish that I never left. Roman would still be mine, and I would be his. But now.. I'm in my personal hell."

"Renee?" Seth questions him. "Dean, you don't have to stay with her."

"She's pregnant with my kid, Seth. I saw the sonogram the other day. There's something inside of her, that we created. What am I supposed to do? Tell her that I'll be there for her while I'm at Roman's? Have my kid grow up with a mom and two daddies?" He shakes his head no. "No, I came from a broken home. Drunk dad who like to use me for a punching bag and a mother who was only there to feed her own addiction to abusive men and prescription pills. That's not happening to my kid. I love Roman. I love him more than i love myself. I just don't see a way out. There is no way out of this."

Seth felt sorry for his best friend. Dean was in a no win situation. And in the end, he was gonna lose Roman. Seth didn't want to tell him that, but that's where it was headed. Roman wasn't going to wait forever for Dean to choose him. He was eventually going to choose Cody, leaving Dean in a dead marriage all for a baby. Seth didn't want that for his best friend.

"Let me ask you one question okay." Seth said, sitting up in his chair now. "Honestly if you had to choose between Roman and Renee.. who would you choose?"

"Roman." Dean said without hesitation. "I'd choose Roman." He looked down at the blank paper left on the coffee table and then sat back down and put all thoughts of Roman behind him. "Now. How about we just get drunk at some dive bar with the boys. Like we used to do in college?" Dean says with a smile. "That solves our stripper problem!"

"Sounds perfect." Seth gets up and goes to sit next to Dean, laying his head on Dean's shoulder. He held onto Dean's hand and exhaled softly, "You're gonna be okay. You know that, right Deano?" Seth whispered to him.

"No i wont." Dean admits, kissing Seth's forehead.

Saturday night 12 am.

Roman was lying in bed, looking up at the ceiling. His thoughts were practically eating him alive. He couldn't stop thinking about Dean or Cody. And the choice had to make or the ultimatum Cody laid down. His mind fluttered back to Dean again. His smile. Roman always told him that his smile is what drew him in. It was the truth. Dean had the sweetest smile. The best blue eyes too. He actually hated his eyes. Roman laughed at that. Dean used to say he hated being gawked at because of his perfect baby blues. The only person he liked looking at him was Roman. At least, that's what Dean used to tell him. And now.. he was stuck. Stuck in thinking that they still had a chance. Stuck with thinking that they could rekindle this flame. Fuck- he didn't know what to do.

Roman sighed, turning his head to his desk. He picked up his iPhone and unlocked it. He went straight to his contacts and pressed Dean's number. He needed to call him. He had questions and honestly...

he missed his voice.

"Hey gorgeous." By the slur in Dean's voice Roman could already tell he was drunk... or getting drunk.

"Why are you drinking?" Roman asks, a little peeved. He hated when Dean drank. Alcohol and Dean never mixed well.

"Oh it's my bachelor party and please. I'm barely drunk.. why? Want me to come over later or something?" Dean voice was dripping with alcohol and sex. But Roman had to focus.

"Actually i was hoping we could talk. In a more formal setting. Like the diner over on 3rd?"

"You want me to leave my bachelor party.. to talk?" Dean asked with a drunken laugh.

"Yeah i guess that's asking a bit much" Roman sighed, "Nevermind. I'm sorry i called. Have a good night Dean."

"Wait!" Dean said, stopping him from hanging up. "I'll be there. Just.. give me thirty minutes."

"Dean you don't have too-" Roman tries to say.

"Shut up. I'm coming. Okay?"

"Okay." Roman smiled, "I'll see you soon."

xxx

Dean waited at Georgia's diner for about ten minutes before Roman came. He was sipping on some black coffee with two sugars to sober himself up when Roman walked in. Dean automatically smiled, waving Roman down. The samoan chef smiled back at him as he walked over to Dean. He sat down across from him and shrugged off his coat, putting it on his chair. "Gotta love Georgia's diner." Roman commented, picking up a menu. He goes through the list of food items and decided to just get the grilled cheese. "I'm sorry you had to leave your bachelor party for me." Roman told him after he put the menu down. "If i would've known I would've left you alone. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I wasn't having fun anyway." Dean shrugged, "Seth left after a few drinks and the rest of the guys wanted to go to a strip club. I was glad you called actually. You saved me from tits and ass being rubbed against my face." Dean laughed, then drank the rest of his coffee down.

"You used to like tits and ass in your face." Roman said back with a smirk.

"Still do. But lately the only thing I'm craving is.." He leaned forward to whisper, "Your fat cock in my mouth." He bit his lip and then sat back with a smug smile.

Roman just looked down in return. He fiddled with his fingertips, and cleared his dry throat as he tried to think of ways to tell Dean what he had to tell him. "Umm.. Cody wants me to go away with him." Roman breathed out softly, unable to look Dean in the face. "Three days in Cali. Just me and him."

"Ro-" Dean puts his hand on top of Roman's, holding it until Roman looked him in the eye. "Don't go away with him."

"I know you hurt him, Dean." Roman replied, pulling his hand away from him. "He came over to my place with a black eye. Cody said you sought him out and out of jealousy you attacked him. Blacking his eye."

"Ro oh my god." Dean laughed, "Do you honestly believe that bullshit?" He couldn't believe Cody lied like this. Actually no.. he could believe it. Cody would say anything to get Dean out of the picture permanently. "Cody came to my office, he warned me to stop sleeping with you. I told him that we'd do whatever we wanted and then he jumped over my desk and attacked me like the crazy person he is! I only punched him in self defense Ro, tell me you believe me?"

Roman said nothing back. The waitress came and refilled their coffees before skirting away again without taking their order. The silence filled the table as Dean watched Roman still himself, and remain quiet. "So you're not gonna say anything huh?" Dean asked with his voice rising. Roman again has no words, which only makes Dean that much more angry. "You believe him. You actually believe that i'm some jealous prick who goes around beating my exes boyfriend's up?"

"You did it to Seth-" Roman said, voice barely above a whisper.

"BECAUSE YOU WERE FUCKING MY BEST FRIEND!" Dean shouts at him. His voice caused all three patrons in the diner, including Roman to visibly jump at his tone of voice. "I can't believe this shit." Dean gets up angrily and grabs his coat. "I'm leaving." He tells Roman, making a beeline for the door.

"Dean! wait!" Roman drops a twenty on the table, grabs his coat and then runs after Dean. He meets him halfway to his car and pulls on Dean's coat, forcing him to turn around.

"What do you want from me Roman?" Dean asked frustratedly. "What do you want huh? Do you want to make me feel bad for being an insecure college kid who fell in love for the first time so he had to run away? Or do you want to tell me more about how you're going away with your fucking boyfriend to fuck him all over Cali? Do you want to make me feel bad about trying to move on from you? How about crushing my heart as you explain to me how you can kiss him, or believe him when he tells you lies? HUH?" Dean screamed, "What can I possibly do for you tonight?"

Roman immediately started crying. His hands shook as he put it over his mouth and the tears began to fall. Dean notices and automatically he feels terrible for putting his problems and faults on Roman. He tries to wrap Roman in his arms but Roman pushes him away, and shakes his head.

"I have waited five whole years for you to love me. Three for you to even say it. Meanwhile I've been in love with you. I lose myself in love with you. I go against my morals, because of how much I love you. And you sit there and say it's my fault you left? That it's my fault you have a kid on the way with someone you don't love?" Roman gasped out a cry, then wiped a falling tear, "I can't do this anymore Dean. This push and pull between us is exhausting. I love you. I love you more than you'll ever probably realize; but I'm never gonna be the one you choose am i? (he paused) Don't answer that. We both know it's true." Roman cried more as he continued, "You're a great guy Dean. And I admire you for wanting to do what's best for your family. Which is why I'm ending this right now. Me and you, us, our relationship, our history.. it's done. Gone. I'm done. For good."

"What?" Dean's heart flips in his chest as he listened to Roman's speech. "Roman no-" Dean was beside himself. he pulled Roman into him and held his arms tight. "You're not leaving me you understand? You can't go.. Roman i fucking love you."

"I'm sorry Dean. Goodbye." Roman pulls away from him and turns away, walking off.

"NO!" Dean screamed. "ROMAN GET BACK HERE!" He cried to his retreating figure.

But it was too late, the night faded Roman's shadow away and just like that.. he was gone.

A/N: 😔 poor babies.

Guess who's back? - Melle