The snow laid thick on the ground as the last week of November melted away. Dean looked out of his office window with a tired sigh. Two more weeks went past since his and Roman's ice skating date and absolutely nothing has changed between them since then. Dean tried texting but would always get an "I'm busy." from Roman. It was like Roman was actively trying to avoid him. Dean bunched up his slacks and cleared his throat, as he watched little kids excitedly play in the snow at the park across the street. His mind went a mile a minute now, as he began to think about snow, the holidays, and loneliness.

Dean never had a good home life growing up. So when he met Roman he didn't expect the holidays to actually mean something. But for two years of his life, the holidays became the best of times. He'd wake up to Roman's kisses. The sweet warmness of Roman's mouth as he was on top of Dean was an image Dean wouldn't ever forget. Then they would fuck for about an hour. Roman always liked it when Dean rode him on Christmas day and Dean liked being the first thing Roman wanted for the holidays. Just thinking about it made him blush. After they were done, they would exchange gifts, then get ready to go to Roman's parents' house all weekend. Dean still remembered how Roman's mom welcomed him with open arms the first time she met him. And just before they left, she gave him a big hug and told him how much she loved him. The whole family told Dean that. He was loved by everyone in the Reigns family, it became his new home.

Then he fucked it all up.

He still remembered the angry voicemail Roman's cousin, Jimmy left on his phone two weeks after Dean broke Roman's heart. Dean and Jimmy grew very close throughout the span of his and Roman's relationship. He was devastated when Dean left. He called him up one night and Dean was so afraid to answer he just let it go to voicemail. The "How could you Uce?" Still played over and over again in the back of Dean's head. "Roman is mess, Dean dog, please come home." Those words are what ate Dean alive. Jimmy had said "come home" and Dean wanted too, he really did. But he was too scared of commitment. So he ended it the only way he knew how.

Even though he did apologize to Roman for leaving, Dean knew Roman still wasn't over it. Who could be over a heartbreak like that? Answer? Absolutely no one.

Dean turned away from the window and sat down at his desk. His calendar that Lana put in his phone beeped with a reminder that he and his ex, Renee were supposed to go home to see her relatives for the holiday. Dean went last year, but it didn't feel like home the way Roman's parents' house did.

Renee didn't feel like home the way Roman did.

"Mr. Ambrose?" Lana beeped through the speaker on his desk. Dean was actually happy for the distraction because his current thoughts were eating him alive.

"Yeah Lana what happened?"

"Umm... Sir Miss Young is here to see you." After Lana said the words, Dean was almost frozen in shock. He hasn't seen or heard from Renee since they ended it and Dean honestly didn't know if he was ready to see her now.

"Uhh send her in." Dean told Lana with reluctance. He couldn't just tell her no anyway, Renee's father did own the firm after all.

"Hey Dean." Renee came in wearing a red dress along with stockings and knee length boots. Dean had to admit, she was looking more beautiful than ever. "H-how have you been?" Dean could tell she was nervous, probably as nervous as he was right now. When Dean didn't automatically answer her question, Renee came over to his desk and at in the chair adjacent to his own. "Look. I know it's probably not a good time to be seeing each other but-"

"You're right. It's not a good time Ren." Dean said back, cutting her off.

"I figured. I just thought, since I got the notification on my phone, you would've gotten it too." She lifted up her IPhone to show Dean the same reminder he just got a few minutes ago. "Crazy how time files huh?" Renee laughed nervously. "D-do you happen to have any plans for the holidays?"

Dean didn't want to answer her question. Before he met Roman, his plans for the holidays consisted of drinking egg nog with whiskey with Seth. Now, that Seth had Randy, Dean didn't know what to do anymore. "I don't know." Dean finally shrugged while looking down.

"Well if you have nothing to do, you should come home with me and daddy." Renee offered him. "Daddy still loves you despite the breakup, and we'd love to have you come Dean."

Dean looked up into hazel eyes that were looking back into his blues empathetically. He wanted to say yes, but he couldn't. He still needed space from Renee. She did a lot of things to hurt him and Dean wasn't ready to get over it yet.

"I don't think so. I'm sorry Ren, I just… can't go away with you right now."

Renee felt her heart sink as Dean told her no. She had hoped this olive branch would've at least put them on a track to becoming friends. But she also knew there was a slim chance of Dean forgiving her right now. She nodded, and then got up out of the seat. "That's okay, I get it. I just hope you have a good holiday Dean. I mean it."

"Thanks Ren." Dean found himself smiling at her, "I hope you have a good one too."

When she left, Dean's phone went off, signifying that he had a message. He looked at his home screen and saw that it was from Seth. He sighed because it wasn't from Roman, but that didn't stop him from reading the message.

Hey dude, we still doing our traditional holiday egg nog and whiskey this year?" – Seth

Dean smiled at the message, at least some things never changed.

Definitely. Can we do it tonight and on Christmas eve though? I could use a drink… or five. - Dean

Of course his best friend's answer was "Yes."

That same night Roman got home late from the bakery. He was tired after making a total of 17 cakes today by himself since his head baker flew home for the holidays. Roman came into his house, shrugging off his boots and heavy coat, putting them on the rack. "Cody?" He called for his boyfriend but there was no answer. Roman sighed heavily, deciding to just go upstairs to shower than sleep. Roman got a surprise when he opened his room door and saw rose petals on the floor, leading towards his bathroom. He smiled softly as he walked to the bathroom door, opening it and seeing his boyfriend sitting in a bath full of bubbles.

"Hey. I got your message that you were exhausted from work. So I decided to do something special for you." Cody smiled at his boyfriend, moving slightly in the tub, splashing some water on the floor.

"Cody, this is so perfect." Roman couldn't stop smiling. He left the door open and came closer to the tub, sitting on the edge of it so he could admire Cody's naked form better. "You look so hot with bubbles surrounding you."

"I look even hotter with you surrounding me." Cody smirked, then bit his lip. "Take off your clothes and get in here… now."

Roman definitely didn't have a problem with that sentence. He pulled on his work shirt, tugging it off his shoulders, then tossed it towards the front of the room. His socks and pants came after, and then his boxers which were all then tossed in the same direction. Roman smiled at how Cody eyed his body once he was naked. Those deep blue eyes scanning him up and down while licking his lips. "You like what you see?" was the taunt from Roman as he cupped his dick and bit his lip at his boyfriend. Cody nodded, then moved forward, splashing around in the tub so Roman could sit behind him. When his boyfriend was completely inside, Cody moved back settling against Roman's chest comfortably.

Roman's hand went around Cody's middle and the two boyfriends just stayed like that, snuggling close in the tub. The scent of fresh oranges filled the air as they both closed their eyes. Cody gently caressed Roman's hand with his own, tracing each fingertip like he was doodling on a sheet a paper. Roman 'mmmed' from behind him, a small smile growing on his face from the touches.

"This is so relaxing." Roman mumbled, as he held Cody even tighter to him.

"You know what's even more relaxing?" Cody said mischievously. "A blowjob."

"You want one?" Roman asked as his eyes opened slowly. "I can try and give you one, although I have absolutely no energy right now."

Cody shook his head no, and twisted around in the tub so that his front was laying on Roman's. "You can give me one later… right now, it's my turn to make you feel good." Roman smiled at his boyfriend then nodded gently. Cody laid a perfect kiss to the middle of his chest, and Roman licked his lips as he helplessly watched him. Cody kept his eyes on Roman as he started to kiss down his abs, towards his beautiful belly button. He licked around it, his head half drenched in water and bubbles as he got lower. Roman hissed when he saw Cody grabbed at his cock and started to stroke slowly. His head fell back in pleasure, as Cody teased him mercilessly.

"Codes…" Roman whimpered out. "I need-"

Roman didn't get a chance to finish his sentence as he and Cody both heard Roman's phone go off, signaling that he just got a barrage of messages. Roman looked at Cody silently begging him to answer it. Cody looked back at him and sighed, lifting his naked body up and out of the tub.

"Tell me if it's Sasha. I sent her on a few errands and she came back 2 hours later. So she knows she's in trouble." Cody laughed at Roman's comment. He bent down and took Roman's phone out of his work pants. He saw it said that he had three new messages. Cody unlocked the phone then scrolled to find all the messages Roman hasn't answered. There were so many from his mom, brothers, cousins… and Dean.

Cody tried to remain stoic as he saw Dean's name. He ignored the rest of the message and went straight Dean's. Hid heart pounded as he started to read them.

Hey, I hope you're having a good day. – Dean

Can we talk soon? – Dean

Ro, I miss you. – Dean

Do I need to apologize for what happened between us? Cause I will. – Dean

All the messages went unanswered by Roman. But it still gave Cody an uneasy feeling. What was Dean apologizing for? What happened between them? Cody locked Roman's phone again and looked back at Roman, faking a smile. "Your family is really blowing up your phone." He managed to say as he heart sunk even lower.

"Is that who just texted? Ugh. I told them, I'm not coming to Florida this year. They just don't seem to get it."

"Ha. I guess when you have a deeply rooted family. They expect you to keep up with traditions." Cody put Roman's phone away and then came back to the tub. Roman's smile was so bright as Cody sat back down on top of him.

"I wanna start new traditions with you." Roman whispered it as he held Cody at the back. Cody's heart thumped in his chest with guilt and regret as he nodded and gave Roman a kiss. In the back of his mind though, Cody couldn't stop thinking about Dean and what he meant by all those text messages. It was eating at him, but he also didn't want to press Roman on a dead issue. They were happy. That's all that mattered…

Right?

"I love you Roman. You know that right?" Cody asked him, his blue eyes begging Roman to say I love you back. Begging Roman to give him some kind of peace of mind.

"Of course I know that Cody," Roman said obviously. "Come on, let's get out and head to bed."

He didn't say the three words Cody desperately needed to hear, but for now Roman's "Of course I know that." would have to be enough.

There was a knock on Seth's door later that night. Seth had been grading final papers and was on his very last one when Dean knocked on the door. Seth smiled as he looked out the peephole, then opened it seeing his best friend standing there with egg nog and a bottle of jack in his hands.

"Merry Christmas, asshole." Dean joked as he came into Seth's apartment on his own merit. Seth closed the door behind Dean and followed his best friend to the living room. "Where's Randall? I figured that cream puff would be somewhere in here, drinking all your beer and telling you what to do by now."

Seth frowned at his friend's comment, "He's with his friends tonight. Actually it's kind of a relief because that means I get to see you." Seth smiled at Dean then quickly jogged to his kitchen to get two cups and some ice. He came back and handed one to Dean then sat next to him on the couch.

"So are you two doing any better? The last time we talked you kind of sounded turned off by his jealousy. Have you guys worked it out?" Dean asked at he tore the cap off the Jack, and ripped open the container of egg nog.

"I don't know." Seth shrugged, holding his cup out so Dean could pour him some. "He's still very jealous when I talk to guys and when I confronted him on it, he told me he's just really afraid of losing me." He looked down at his feet as Dean covered the whiskey in his cup with egg nog. "I don't know what to do about it D. Randy is a sweet guy, I just don't want to be looked at as someone's possession."

Dean nodded after Seth was finished speaking. He finished pouring their drinks then sat back against the soft cushions of Seth's couch. "You see, that shit to me was such a turn off too. Until I started dating Roman." Dean smiled against his cup as memories started to bombarded his brain, "He wouldn't go far like Randy would but, when he was jealous, fuck he made It known. It was hot, seeing his jaw clench sometimes. And the sex… god, it was so good."

Seth watched his friend smile and sip slowly on his glass. He could tell Dean was having one of his moments where Roman would enter his brain and never leave until he either went to sleep or got drunk enough to pass out.

"You know what I hate?" Seth said as he leaned back too, now eye to eye with Dean. "I hate that you always mention Roman whenever we talk about our relationship issues. It's like you forget I dated him too. I fucked him too. Is that not weird enough for us?"

Dean shrugged, the last remnants of eggnog and whiskey drowned in his glass. "I mean when I think about it, yeah it still fucking pisses me off that you dated the guy I'm in love with, but you can't compare your relationship with Roman to mine. It's not the same."

Seth's scoffed dramatically, he was actually offended by that. "Why not?"

"Because he never loved you the way he loved me." Dean poured him and Seth another glass and then sat back again. "You can lie and say he did, but you know the truth. Roman loved me more than he ever loved you and that won't ever change."

Seth looked at Dean now, he wanted to defend that statement. He wanted to tell him that it was untrue. But he couldn't. He knew Roman loved Dean, hell he knew Roman was still in love with Dean. There was no use in fighting it anymore.

"So, what are you gonna do about Randy?" Dean asked as he looked at Seth.

"What are you gonna do about Roman?" Seth asked back, looking at Dean.

"I don't know." Dean whispered truthfully.

"I don't know either." Seth said back sadly. He sighed and then sat up quickly, pouring himself another drink. "Wanna watch Spiderman?" Seth asked Dean.

"Sure." Dean nodded, "But first… pour me another glass."

After Roman and Cody made love, Cody was sleeping soundly next to him. Roman smiled at his boyfriend's sleeping form and then rolled over to his desk to pick up his phone. Cody said he had tons of messages so Roman decided that now would be a perfect time to go answer them. He unlocked his phone then scrolled until he saw the 20 unread messages he had waiting to be read. His cousin Jimmy had been texting Roman all day, asking him if he was coming back to Florida to see them for the holidays.

The truth was, Roman wasn't coming. Actually he hasn't been home for the holidays in years. Two to be exact. Every single time he went home, his mom would ask him if he had spoken to Dean. She had grown fond of him as did the rest of the family. They treated him like one of their own and it was honestly too much for Roman to handle. He's never brought someone home that his family automatically liked…

Until he brought Dean home.

His dad would make comments on how they were made for each other and everyone would make comments whenever they kissed. It was an experience that made Roman believe that Dean was the one. And to this day, he still kind of believed it.

Roman scrolled through his family texts until he found Dean's messages. Roman had read them earlier in the day, but reading them now, it was giving him this weird sense a nostalgia, a sense of home he hasn't felt in a very long time. Roman smiled at each text, and figured maybe he should write Dean back. Just to see how he was doing. He breathed out softly, looking at Cody to make sure he was still sleeping while he typed on his phone.

Hey, sorry I haven't been answering your texts. Work got really busy and I got tied up. I umm… I miss you too Dean. You don't have to apologize for anything but I do think we should talk. Away from here. Far away. This might sound crazy but… will you come home with me for the holidays? – Roman.

Roman didn't know why he texted that. This all could be a terrible idea, but he needed this. He and Dean needed to get away and just really talk about their issues. Maybe going to the one place where Roman felt like he found the one would help him finally clear his head. At least, he hoped so.

"Rome?" Cody called to him in his sleep. Roman put his phone away and rolled back over, snuggling his boyfriend into him once again.

"I'm here Cody." Roman answered softly. "I'm here."

"Oh my god that kiss looks so unrealistic!" Dean giggled as he and Seth watched Spiderman together on his couch. The drained the entire bottle of jack, and once they ran out of egg nog, Seth opened a bottle of merlot. They made popcorn together and then started giggling hysterically at the kiss in the original Spiderman movie. "You're upside down, in the rain, kissing a girl you have a huge crush on? That looks and sounds so completely fake it's ridiculous."

"I dunno it looks kind of hot, once you get the tongue thing under control." Seth laughed as he sipped on his glass on wine.

"Anything looks hot to you right now, you're drunk." Dean laughed while pushing Seth playfully.

"Am not!" Seth slurred as he tried to defend his words. "I'm just a little lit. That's all."

"Lit? What the fuck is lit?" Dean tried to ask, although it came out like he had a bunch of cotton balls stuck in his mouth.

"It's a term my kids at school use. I don't really understand what it means." Seth started laughing for no reason, then suddenly he had a terrible idea. "Hey. Why don't we try the kiss? See how plausible it really is?"

Dean's eyes widened as he looked at Seth. It was like he was in a haze, but not yet drunk enough to no know what he was doing. "You want me to hang upside down while you kiss me?"

'No…" Seth said, moving closer to Dean now. "I can be the one upside down; I just want you to try it with me." His half lidded hazel eyes sparkled for Dean. It was something Dean hasn't seen from Seth since college. "Come on Dean… Wouldn't it be so much fun?" Seth was looking at Dean's lips, at the same time licking his own. He softly bit on his bottom one, tugging it slowly into his mouth. Dean gulped, unable to look away from Seth's heavy gaze. He wanted to say no… he should be saying no. But words were escaping him as Seth moved even closer, so close Dean could smell the sweet taste of alcohol on his breath.

"Seth?" Dean whispered as he looked at him. He didn't know what had come over his best friend but he knew that look. That look that Seth used to give him when he wanted to fuck. Dean's started to breathe heavier, as Seth took his thumb, slowly tracing over Dean's plump bottom lip.

"Seth we…"

"Shut up Dean." Seth said back, lust filled hazel eyes staring at him intensely. "Just kiss me already. Or are you afraid too?" Seth's little taunt is what caused Dean to go into overdrive. He grabbed at the back of Seth's brown locks, and pulled Seth in closer. The two men breathed out heavily, drunk eyes glued to each other as Dean tilted his head to the right, then smashed his lips on Seth's. His grip on Seth's hair tightened when their lips met for the first time in years. This was a kiss of pure lust as tongues and teeth bared sloppily against each other's. Seth moaned in Dean's mouth, as his own hands fell around Dean's shoulders. Seth manage to pull away, just to tease Dean, softly he nipped at his lips, before Dean picked him up off his feet, and secured them around his waist. Their lips devoured each other again, this time with Dean's hands going to his ass so he could squeeze those perfect mounds in his hands.

A very drunk Seth pushed the horny Dean back against the cushions, biting his lip. Dean watched Seth grind his needy hips against his own and he was ready to unbuckle Seth's belt when his phone bleeped to life. Dean recognized the unique message tone, which could only mean one thing… Roman finally texted him back. He moved Seth off of him quick then reached in his back pocket for the phone. Dean unlocked it and as he started to read his whole body lit up with a smile.

"Who is it?" Seth asked, as he watched Dean smile from ear to ear.

"It's a text from Ro." Dean said happily, "He wants to talk Seth. He wants me to come home with him for the holidays."

Seth couldn't stop the feeling of drunken jealousy right now even if he wanted too. "Oh. What are you gonna say?" He asked, trying to keep a monotone.

"I'm gonna say yes." Dean smiled again. "This is a chance for us to talk things out, without Cody or Renee or anything else in our way. I need this. We both need this."

"Oh." Seth said again, this time he didn't even try to mask his hurt.

"Seth..." Dean said, picking up on his tone. "I don't want you to think that I was leading you on just now… I don't know what came over me. I think I was just sexually frustrated. I'm sorry…" Dean tried to apologize. It was stupid of him to try and use his best friend as a vent for his Roman filled sexual frustrations. Dean felt like such an asshole.

"It's fine. Dean calm down. I had a part in this too ya know?" Seth admitted, "I just wished you could've at least gave me a blow job before Roman had texted you."

Dean laughed at that, "I think we both gave each other enough blow jobs in the past to last lifetimes. But I'm still sorry alright?" Dean held his hand out for his friend to take and Seth smiled, grabbing it before falling into Dean's arms. They looked at each other and laughed, then gave each other one last kiss.

"Roman is a better kisser than you." Seth told Dean with a laugh.

Dean rolled his eyes, wrapping Seth in his arms before he said,

"Yeah, he's a better kisser than you too."

A/N: OMG so much happened in this chapter! And I almost explored how lowkey ambrollins I am. Predictions time! What will happen when Roman takes Dean home? Let me know! - Melle

BTW, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. :)