Chapter XII: Nothing will harm you.

Happy birthday to my soul sis :D *sending huge yummy chocolate cake*

I wish all the best for you and hope you have a wonderful day!

Thank you for your friendship! :D

And I hope someday we can meet!

Love you lots and lots old lady!

You can have our boyfriend for the day :P

(I got your present on time, yay)

I know this is short… and it's not good. But please let me know what you think.

xxxx

"Help?" Donna hissed, yanking her hand free from his grip.

Sam just sighed, running his hand through his hair.

"I… Donna, I…. I love you so much baby… I´m sorry…"

Hiding her face in her hands, she turned around and started crying.

"I… can´t… believe it. Why did you let her do it? Why did you let them put her heart on me? Why? I just can´t forgive that…"

"Donna that is not true, it was an accident"

"But she wrote that letter, it can´t be true…"

"I would never do something like that Donna. Nothing will harm you, not whilst I´m around"

"I think, I… There´s not much anyone can do to harm me anymore"

"I love you my sweet baby" he repeated softly, wrapping his arms around her from behind.

Placing a gentle kiss on her neck, he turned her around in his arms and slowly wiped away her tears. Donna opened her mouth to say something but he stopped her, placing his lips on hers in a sweet gentle kiss that held her captive in his arms.

And she had only one thing to say.

"I love you" Donna mumbled softly against his lips.

"And I´m the happiest man on earth because you do"

"I´m sorry, I know is not your fault… It´s mine…"

"Shut up" he whispered, kissing her again. Not gentle. Not sweet. But deep and passionate as he held her tight and close, desperate keep her away from her pain.

And Donna´s mind went blank. She forgot the hurt. She forgot her rage. She forgot the void and the lost. There was nothing but the man she so deeply loved and the fact he happened to love her back. Because, oh yes, she never held a doubt he was head over heels in love with her. And right against his chest and beneath his arms were the rightest place on earth to be.

She didn´t let him break apart, wrapping her arms around his neck and holding him close as her last breath, mesmerized by the ocean of peace he just washed over the black despair of her soul.

Until they heard Athos crying in the next room.

And before Donna realized it and asked him not to leave her, he ran away and picked up the baby.

The toddler calmed down as soon as his father picked him up, and Sam cradled his son against his chest.

"Don´t take him away" Donna pleaded through her wet eyes as she hurried in behind her husband.

"Hey, Donna, he´s not going anywhere, and neither am I"

"Ma-ma" Athos then smiled, pointing to her.

"Aww, yes, my darling. I´m your mummy" Donna smiled sweetly, picking him up, as the boy clapped celebrating his shrewdness.

Donna held him close and kissed his head tenderly.

"And mummy loves you very much sweetie"

Sam wrapped an arm around her shoulders and pulled her closer, so his lips brushed her forehead.

"Come on Donna bear, you need a good night sleep"

"I guess I do. Thank you"

"You have nothing to thank me for"

"Oh yes I do because you have saved me when I needed it the most, and not just once"

"And I will do so a thousand times again if you need me to"

"Don´t leave me… Don´t leave me please"

"Baby, I´ll never in my life make that mistake twice"

"I´m so scared"

"You are not alone sweetheart, I´m here. I´m here"

Stroking his cheek gently she smiled to him.

"Do I get a kiss?"

"Your wish is my command darling"

Pulling her close lightly, Sam slowly brushed his lips against her in a tender caress and unspoken promise of eternal adoration and everlasting love.

He gently ushered her to the bed and helped her to lay down, taking Athos in his arms again.

"You rest, I´ll put him to sleep"

She nodded slowly as the baby cooed, protesting to his father´s plans of putting him back to sleep.

And she was lost in an exhausted dream before her head ever reached the pillow.

"Ouch!" Donna exclaimed a few hours later, when she was woken by someone pulling at her hair.

She opened her eyes to meet her giggling baby boy.

"What are you doing little monkey?" she smiled, pulling him close for a hug, then noticing Sam sound asleep right beside her.

He responded giggling more and kicking his legs.

"Are you hungry?" she asked, hearing his stomach grunt. He cooed vehemently.

Standing up, she grabbed the bottle and milk from the bag and placed it on the heater, as Athos cooed more and tried to grab it.

"Not yet darling, let it heat" she said softly, pulling him away and giggling as he pouted in response "Do you think we should wake daddy?"

"Daddy is very much awake" Sam whispered and turned to face them.

"Hello" Donna smiled shyly.

"Hello gorgeous" he smiled back, leaning closer to kiss her softy.

Donna responded to his kiss briefly and looked down, tick heavy tears sliding down her cheeks. All of a sudden and with no reason at all, Sophie was again filling her head completely. Her daughter was a part of her that she would never be able to put behind. She wasn´t and she never would be ready to bury her, without burying herself too. Noticing it, Athos cooed and looked at her dad, pointing to her.

She lifted the baby and placed him on her husband's arms.

"I… just… I" she started, barely breathing.

Sam tried to reach her hand, but his wife ran away and locked herself in the bathroom before he could do so, leaning against the door and sliding to the floor. He could clearly hear her sobbing on the other side. Sighing, he knocked on the door knowing already she wouldn´t answer. Those outbursts of her were maddening to him because he felt completely powerless and he hated seeing her so terribly sad. He would have given everything just to see her smile. To make her happy.

"Open up Donna. I won't stop until you do"

She started crying louder, but didn´t reply. Sam ran his hands through his hair and whispered "I just want to hold you"

"Ma-ma" Athos called, noticing he could hear but not see her "Ma-ma"

"You want your mummy baby boy? I want her too.

"Ma-ma" he repeated and pouted. There wasn´t a reply and the child burst down crying.

"I can´t do this Sam" Donna cried with a shallow voice, unaware of her child´s tears "I can´t live with my dead daughter´s heart. I can´t. She should be living with mine. I want to die. I just want to die"

"Donna, we all love Sophie, but we can´t change the accident that killed her. It is not your fault" he replied, rocking Athos to sooth him.

"She was my baby and I wasn´t there for her… She was my baby" Donna slowly uttered, the angst in her voice soul-shattering "She should be alive, not me"

"Please open up Donna, please, Athos needs to see you. Don´t do this to him… he is your baby too"

Sam held the baby close, hoping his wife would come out for their kid.

He gave a sigh of relief when he heard the door slowly unlocking.

"I love you Donna bear, you are everything for me… Don´t…"

When she appeared on the threshold, Athos smiled and extended his arms to her.

"I love…" she started, raising her hand to her chest "I love… I…"

No other word left her lips and everything turned black. Her chest hurt. There wasn´t enough air.

She fainted.

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