Chapter 21

"Cullen clan managed to survive. They joined forces with the Wolfpack and some of them acquired more strength by feeding on humans." Heimdall must be speaking of Jasper. "The woman, your foe has escaped yet again, leaving newborns and her new lover to slaughter. Riley B-…"

I held my hand up to make Heimdall stop talking. I heard what I asked, I didn't need to hear details of battle or how many people lives in Forks after kidnapping and I certainly didn't need to know that Jacob wears boxers with hearts. Once he stopped talking, Heimdall was bearable and that made my stay at edge of Bifros a lot more pleasurable. This was the only place I could have peace from guards or Loki so I spent as much time here as possible. I even slept here, not that I could sleep for too long. I became paranoid, but on Bifrost I got at least a few hours.

Usually, there was no peace for me around Loki. I tried not to show, but he is always around and all I can think of is how he wants to kill me. He touches me and I can't help but flinch. My mind freezes when I should allow him to talk to me. I never forgot in how vulnerable position I am and now for the first time I thought of its benefits. I wasn't against an agile vampire with bare strength or werewolves, I was against God. And he is a cunning bastard, which meant I needed to be cunning as well.

If he wants to kill me, I need to do everything in my power to survive. Everything I did by this point was to survive and I plan to fight till my last breath. If by any means he kills me and I become ghosts, he will see no peace, but that is plan F… I thought of revealing his secret and bringing Odin back to the throne, but that included bringing Thor who I couldn't stomach. Or Heimdall, Sif, even finding Odin myself if that bastard is still alive, but this is personal. Loki vs. me.

Way back when I was already marked as dead, I killed Jessica before she could kill me. Lying in bed next to sleeping Loki, I thought of doing the same. Striking before he strikes me. I had means to do it, he carried weapons with him. It would be the greatest irony if he was killed by his own dagger, his weapon of choice. But that wasn't my style, I wanted to see the look in his eyes while taking the life of a big bad immortal. I needed him to know I outsmarted him. That one mortal outsmarted him.

"Why are you still awake?" Loki asked already reaching for my skin. "Another nightmare?"

Yes. I lied smoothly. I no longer needed to fall asleep to have bad dreams.

"Come here." He pulled me to his chest before I could agree. I felt exposed like this. I couldn't shake away the feeling that he will see what is happening in my head. "What was it about?"

Usually, it is reliving of Caius drinking from my neck… Loki's fingers found the scars on it. I normally flinched.

"Usually, but now?" His breath was on my neck.

It is nothing.

"Liar."

I smiled at his accusation. Loki knew I lied, but only because I allowed him to know. Up until now he played games with me, it seems fair for me to reply. So I lied to him about my dreams being about death. How I keep dying in my dreams in one of most horrible ways. Later on I elaborated how to define a horrible way to die. I told him that in my nightmares I am killed by the person I trust the most and when he asked who that person is, I simply responded.

You.

"Then you have nothing to worry about." His reply seemed natural.

Liar. I held back that thought. There was a slight hesitation, it lasted less than second, but it was there. I was able to see it because I waited for it. Deep down I wished his words were the truth, but I couldn't forget what is going in his head... As he fell asleep with me on his chest, I realized how badly I wanted to trust him. Granted, I wanted so much more of him. He wanted to kill me as much as he wanted to fuck me. I wanted same. If it comes to it, I don't know if I am ready to kill Loki. But I will have to.

The next day I spent in the library among useless books about Frost Giants. There is no literature how to kill one. I was just putting the last book away when two guards and the Lady Sif came looking for me. It was evening already and I was needed in the throne room to dine with Allfather. Loki was raging during the whole meal, but I only asked what is going on when he made all guards exit. Of course he yelled how incompetent they are before the doors closed.

Speak.

"We have a traitor among us..."

Indeed. You.

"This is not a time for jokes!"

Says the trickster.

"Will you stop-..."

Will you stop with drama, Loki?

"Don't talk to me like I am a child."

Don't yell at me and I won't.

"Fine."

Fine.

"Someone killed Lorelei.''

I don't see a problem with that.

Do you see problem with that?