BELLA POV

Did that just happen? What in the world was that? Why can't I just be done with vampires, I have put everything about the Cullen´s behind me and a new vampire steps in. She´s just going to leave me behind like the Cullen´s did. I can't have it, I can't take it! and the worst part of it all, is that I feel drawn to her. Is this the draw I felt towards this place? Her? No it cant be. I just have to avoid her for the rest of this semester. I am not putting my self through this again no matter how impossible it sounds because she's my teacher.

Wait she and her coven is the Cullen´s cousin. Why didn't I remember that? They will come here and I will do everything in my power to not run in to any of them ever again. I don't think I could take a run in with any of them, not after what happened. Edward left me on the forest floor, saying he didn't love me, didn't want me, and that I was just a toy for all of them, even Rosalie.

I thought Alice was my best friend, Emmet was my big brother, Esme was my Mother who I thought really loved me. I can understand Rosalie, she never wanted anything to do with me. Jasper always kept his distance so he didn't hurt me and Carlile was a father figure. My family had left me and that abandonment hurt so much I couldn't function, I wasn't human, I was a husk, an empty shell of Bella swan that drank herself to sleep every weekend. I was the pet they left behind without a care in the world that I was slowly drinking myself to sleep or that I got raped and had a daughter.

Oh god Tala I had to protect her. NO! I will not let them know that I am here. I will not let them near my daughter! Its all of thems fault.

Why didn't Alice see it?

This storm of thoughts was crashing through my mind as I was walking to pick up my daughter.

When I got to the school Tala ran straight to me. I picked her up and kissed her forehead before I asked her how her day went. She started talking about all that happened and how many new friends she got today. I was happy that she was happy. She is my every thing. I pushed all thoughts of Tanya and the Cullen's aside wanting to focus on my princess and her happiness.

I started making dinner and once again I was lost in thought. I looked outside to see my daughter in the garden playing with her teddy bear her grandpa gave to her. She was smiling and playing just any other child would and I couldn't help but smile. My little girl was so precious.

"Tala, its dinner time! Come inside and wash your hands before you eat, love". She ran straight to the bathroom Teddy bear in hand before coming down.

"Today I meet a nice lady in my group mommy, She had long blond hair and caramel eyes and was so funny she said her name was Kate and I really really like her. Can you please meet her tomorrow mommy?" I was shocked. A vampire in kindergarten? well Carlisle was a doctor so this Kate had to have amazing control.

"Sure honey" I said with a smile.

We ate our diner and watched a movie together laughing and cuddling, everything was as it should be Tala was happy and safe in my arms and that's all that mattered. When it was time for bed I helped her into her pajamas and I read her a story. She was out like a light halfway through the story when I tucked her in and turned out the light. I was still wide awake and decided to go outside for some fresh air. I sat on my front porch letting myself get lost in thought with nothing but the crickets as my company their clicking loud and clear so late at night. Suddenly there was movement but I could swear I saw blond hair.

"Tanya" I whisper and suddenly she was right in front of me.

"why are you here Tanya?" I was on edge having a vampire, even a vegetarian, one so close to my home where my daughter lay sleeping.

"I need to watch over you and your daughter Bella... You are my mate." Tanya said plainly.

I was shocked, so shocked that I couldn't even say anything. I am her mate? How, when, where?

This cannot happen again! I can just see it now. I can see how she´s going to leave me when she is finish playing with the human. No!

"I can't be your mate Tanya! I will not put myself or my daughter through this again!" I stood up and got inside. I started crying hard. Everything came back to me. All the hateful words Edward told me, the rape, how lost I was, how I wanted to kill myself but was to afraid to do so. This must be some sick cruel joke the world is putting me through!

After crying my eyes out I fell asleep on the couch too exhausted physically and emotionally to drag myself to bed. The troubles from my day somehow bled into her dreams because the vampire was in my dreams and I couldn't help dreaming about being in Tanya´s arms, all the sweet words she said to me, how safe I felt in her arms and when she was going to kiss me. I was in heaven in my dreams but when I hit the cold tile of the floor I realized I had fallen off the couch.

shaking my head I sat up it was light outside so it must have been early. Stumbling to my feet I headed upstairs to change and get ready because there was no way it was that bright outside and we wouldn't be late for something.

"Love, we are late and we need to get ready!" I yell to my daughter. To my surprise she was already ready and waiting for me.

"Who is Tanya mommy?" I froze mid-step what? How did she know that name?

"She's just my teacher sweety"

"Hm okay, can we go now? I want to go and see my friends"

"yeah just let me finish getting dressed"

When we got to her school we were already running late so I knew there was no way I could get to class without some trouble from Tanya but I wasn't about to just dump Tala and run. I was walking her to her class when she ran towards a blond woman, I could only guess that that is Kate. I put on a smile.

"Hi"

She looked me up and down with a smirk and I could swear that she whispered "lucky Tanya"

I am used to people checking me out. I know I look good its no secret but that doesn't mean that I like it.

She looked at me again that smirk still firmly in place.

"I'm Kate"

"Bella" I said still wary of the vampires that kept finding their way into my life.

"So you're the mother of this cute little girl? My, my is Tanya a lucky woman" she smirked at me again.

"Yes this is my daughter" I said with a smile smile. She is my every thing.

"Okey honey, I need to go now be good for Kate and have a nice day at school, I love you more than anything in this world" I got down to give my daughter a kiss before I left.

I sped through the college parking lot and scrambled to get to class but I was still 10 minutes late to class. Tanya gave me a smirk and said to see her after class. Fuck… how could I be so stupid to oversleep, I didn't want her to get anything on me to hold me back. taking my seat I made the most of it and took notes ignoring the way Tanya watched me but honestly it was impossible she was like a lioness on the hunt and she'd spotted her prey. I thought I might stand a chance if I got out of there before class ended maybe just maybe I could do it.

When class ended I was quick to throw my stuff in my bag and I was trying to run out before she could catch me, but alas I was wrong.

"Oh Bella, come here" can she have more sex in her voice?

TANYA POV

"Alice, we need to talk about Bella"

"What can I help you with Tanya?"

"What happened to Bella? She has a daughter for God sake! Why didn't you tell me about that? I don't care that she has a daughter, I just care that someone got to have MY mate before I did and that someone isn't even in the picture to help her! So please do enlighten me as to what the hell happened!" I all but yelled at her trough the phone.

"I don't know.. I really don't know. A couple of months after we left I stopped having visions of Bella. I thought she was dead, but I ran back to forks to check up on her and she was alive. Edward said she would be alright, that this is what she wanted. We all respected her wishes."

"She is not alright! She has a haunted look in her eyes, she won't let me be near her! Something is wrong and its all Edwards fault, What did he do to her?" I was so mad about everything. What happened to my mate? why was she so broken? why didn't they watch her? I needed answers so I could help her because there was no way I was letting her go through this alone.

"You need to try and talk to her, get to know her, I need to go now, I hope it works out for you guys soon."

She hung up on me, what did the Cullen´s do to my mate? I need to get to the bottom of this one way or another. I will get my answers and I will get my Bella. Bella is my mate, my reason for existence. I need to feel her. I need to make her mine. I will not stand by and se her suffering anymore. I started running around in Denali, hoping to clear my head. I thought that maybe Alice would have some answers for me but no. What are they hiding?

I lost track of where I was going and before I knew it, I heard Tanya whispered from my mates lips. oh the way she whispered my name I could imagine er saying it a million different ways and I would hear them all if it was the last thing I did.

I ran straight to her and she was the most beautiful human being I have ever laid eyes on. She wore a black tank top that showed her well endowed chest and flat stomach, a pair dark blue boy friend jeans hugged her hips and a blanket lay at her feet. Her hair was in a messy bundle on her head and she was striped of makeup. I wanted to take her then and there but I refrained from doing so. My beast wanted to mark her, to take her, to drive away the other persons that got to have sex with her, to let everybody know that she was taken and they never had a chance with her. I told my beast that we couldn't take her yet, that when we could take her we will make her forget about every person out there. That satisfied my beast a little bit.

When she asked me what I was doing there I needed to tell her the truth. I told her I needed to watch over them because Bella is my mate. She was shocked and I could see tears forming in her eyes and this sad look coming over her. I wanted to take her in my arms and keep her safe from the world and the pain that seemed to follow her every where. What happened to you me beautiful Bella? I wanted to ask, but she said she couldn't be my mate and that she didn't want to put them through this again. Then she ran inside.

I was so shocked, I couldn't move. I just stood there, feeling lost and wanted to run after her. I wanted to comfort her and tell her I will never hurt her. But I couldn't my mate had rejected me and my body couldn't function. So I stood outside listening to her crying her self to sleep. Sometime through the night Irina came to check on me and I was glad she did it because it felt like I was going to fall apart. She just sat there with me and talked to me and listened.

Irina said something to me that I will always be grateful for She said "You need to stop being so focused on what happened to her and start trying to fix her. Show her what it means to be loved and safe, be the person she needs now. Let her come to you in her own way. She has been through so much and you can see it in how she is trying to protect her self from it all. She feels the pull, maybe not at strong as you do, but she feels it. Let her come to you when she feels safe enough. In the meantime, just be there in everyway she wishes from you"

I let that sink in and just sat there watching over the love of my life and her daughter.

After the sun started to rise I ran home to take a shower and change. Today I am going to speak to my Bella and try to worm my way in her life. I will do anything to be the person she needs now. I just hope that whats-her-name doesn't try anything today. The beast in me will not let that pass again.

I got to class and there was no Bella, I felt my heart sink at that thought. I needed to se her. She has to come.

Suddenly she was standing in my classroom looking out of breath. She was even more beautiful with her skinny jeans and fuck my life she had a see trough shirt on her. I could see her stomach, her white bra and her back. Is that a scar on her back? Okay stop this now, focus on being there for her and don't demand answers from her, she will run away again. I gave her a smirk after checking her out and said to se me after class. She just nodded and went to her seat. I watched her ass all the way, my my what a pretty ass, I just want to run my hands over that ass and bite it.

Okay focus on the class, I cant, I am just staring at my love.

I told the class to get a head start writing their paper on bipolar disorder so I could sit and get lost in my mate.I saw that Melanie girl or whatever her name is looking at my mate with lust full eyes. My beast started to growl at the thought of someone else checking her out. I wanted to light that girl on fire, but I manage to drown that thought.

Finally the clock struck twelve and I dismissed the rest of the class. I saw Bella trying to sneak out, but that was not my plan.

After 2 hours of watching my mate, picturing all the ways I was going to fuck her, to make her mine, picturing our future together I was so worked up that I couldn't hide it even if I wanted to. So I said in the muskiest voice I could muster

"oh Bella, come here"

I could see how that effected her, and I am not responsible for what is going to happened if I see that look on her face one more time.. the look of arousal.