Hello everybody.

I just got a beta so the first chapters i put out there is much better now.

Sorry for the confusion and i hope that you think that this story is better now :)

BELLA POV

The way she said "oh Bella, come here" made me so wet. I cant help picturing her taking me against the wall or on her desk. I never would have thought that with those 4 words she throw me such a curve ball. I cant think straight. My mind is in the gutter and I don't know what I am going to do.

I can see that she knows… she can smell my arousal. I can see that she is fighting herself so she wouldn't just take me here and now.

"w-what do you want to talk to me about miss Denali?" I know I sound pathetic, but I need to clear my head.

"I want to talk about us Bella, I want you to know that no matter what happens I will always be there for you and Tala, I will never hurt you or her. You are my reason for existing and I will do whatever I can to make you happy. What ever you need I will give it to you, I just want to prove for you that my family and I will not abandon you in any kind of way" I knew she was talking about the Cullen's it seemed they gossiped about me probably gloating to their cousins about the pathetic human they'd tricked

"You are my mate, You are mine and I will not give up on you. One day you will give yourself to me." I knew she wasn't lying but I couldn't trust her or any vampire for that matter no matter how much love I saw in her eyes, I just couldn't.

"I don't know Tanya, I am sorry... I need to go, please just.. I don't know."

Why cant I just let myself be happy? I can see it in her eyes, how much she care and is telling the truth but the voice in the back of my head, always says that I am not good enough for her or anybody else. I am dirty, tainted, ruined and unworthy of such love.

I need to stop thinking about Tanya for now. I have to get ready for tonight.

Flash back from class...

I got to my seat and I could feel Tanya undressing me with her eyes. I don't know why I put on this shirt today, maybe it was for her.. but I don't want to go there. Ignoring Tanya as best I could, I took out my things when Melanie sat down. I hoped this wouldn't be a repeat of the first day but I wasn't going to let Tanya dictate my life that's how things had been with Edward and I wasn't going back to that life. I was independent now and I could do as I pleased.

Melanie leaned forward eyeing Tanya.

"Hey Bella me and my friends are going out tonight want to come?"

I couldn't think of a reason to say no, Tala was going to a friends house and I would be free until tomorrow.

"yes"

It will be good for me to get out of the house and try to focus on other things than Tanya especially with the glare she was giving me. I expected another talk after class but Tanya was silent seething and probably jealous but silent. This worried me but I wasn't about to talk to her she would draw me in with her charm or her intoxicating scent and I couldn't risk that.

I got to the school a little after one and I found my daughter with Kate. She seems to like Kate very much. I know it must be hard for the vampires to not be able to get kids them self, and since Tanya thinks we are mates Kate probably wants to take good care of her "niece". I have no problem with it, I know she is not in any kind of danger she is protected by a vampire for god sakes how could she possibly get hurt with Kate watching her?

Tala saw me and started to run to me.

"Mommy, Mommy!"

I picked her up and kissed my little girl loving familiar warmth of her little arms around my neck as she hugged me.

"Hi Baby girl"

Kate came over to us and was smirking at me. I didn't put on my jacket because I was so hot from Tanya staring at me. I saw Kate zooming in on my breast and lick her lips. Do all the vampires I meet have to check me out?

I know I have a great body, my stomach is fit and my breast is a good D-cup. If I am Tanya´s mate, shouldn't Kate keep her eyes to her self? I don't think Tanya would like it really much if she knew that Kate was checking me out.

"So Bella, how was class with Tanya? I bet she couldn't keep her hands to herself if that is what you are wearing" she winked at me. I started to blush and was unable to resist picturing Tanya fucking me. I shook me head to get rid of those thoughts I couldn't think about that now not with my daughter in my arms or with a vampire so close. Kate didn't seem like the type to not point out my arousal, in fact she would probably never let me live it down.

"Funny Kate, maybe for payback I should tell Tanya that you are staring at my B-R-E-A-S-T and see what she would do to you then" I said smirking at her. I needed to spell out breast so Tala didn't catch what we where talking about there was no way I was going to explain this to her and not blush like crazy. I could see myself becoming good friends with Kate but she needs to learn that I give as good as I get.

"No, no, no! do not tell Tanya, she will torch my ass if she knew that, I can't help it if I like what I see dearie" She got all nervous so I decided to play a little more with her, just for fun.

"Hm I bet it would be funny to see, I'll have to think about telling Tanya then" I said winking to her.

we said our goodbyes and Kate promised Tala that she would finish her story next time she saw her. Tala was sad to leave Kate but at the mentioning of her sleep over all thoughts of leaving Kate were forgotten and she was bouncing in her car seat.

"Are you ready for your sleepover at Julie's place baby girl?"

"Yes mommy, I cant wait it will be so fun, We are going to stay up all night!"

"You are huh? Do you think you can stay awake all night?" I laughed at her enthusiasm she was a little ball of energy I almost felt bad for Julie's parents but that was the price of having a kids sleepover.

"I'll try" she said smiling and started to run to her rom to get her backpack.

I drove her to her friends house and we said goodbye.

End flash back...

I needed to get needed to get ready for a night of worry free partying but here I was thinking about my daughter and the vampire who claimed to be my mate. I needed to get out more. shaking my head I went to my closet and . I cant wait to just let go of everything and have a great evening.

I got out of the shower and started putting on body lotions. Since I was alone I just walked around naked there was no one there to tell me not to and I enjoy my freedom, when I can.

I started getting dressed when I thought I saw a flash of blond hair passing by my window. I checked it though and found that neither Tanya nor Kate were hanging around my house so I pushed my worries aside and got back to my party preparation. I slipped on my dress and checked myself out in the full length mirror it was a short black dress, with an open back and it was about thigh length but barely. I started to put my make up on and fixing my hair wanting to doll myself up for once.

I was just finishing up my hair when my phone went off. Setting down the brush I grabbed it.

"Hello?"

" Hey Bella its Melanie I'm about 5 minutes away so be ready for me"

"ok see you outside"

After doing one last make up check I grabbed my purse and locked up before I went outside to wait for her.

When she got there I got in the car and we started driving to the bar. We talked about the class all the way though I tried to keep anything too personal to myself. I didn't really know Melanie all that well but maybe later on we could get to know each other just not at a club or bar that wasn't the time or the place for that kind of thing. We met up with the other classmates once we got inside and I couldn't help my self I got lost in the pounding music and sea of bodies on the dance floor. I was having fun and really getting into it but then I started drinking. You see once I start thinking "logical Bella" gets pushed to the back and "wild Bella" comes to play making me very laid back and say yes to all the wrong things.

After ordering several tequila shots we went to the dance floor. I was in my own little drunk world when I felt a body against mine. I could tell by the breasts in my back and hands on my hips that it was a woman and when they whispered in my ear I knew it was Melanie.

"You're so sexy Bella, I want you" she whispered in my ear. I was drunk and aroused, I wanted to just let go and "Wild Bella" was happy for some action.

I turned around and started grinding up and down her leg groaning and gasping as her thigh pressed harder into my heated core. I couldn't stop moaning till she kissed me. I knew I was doing something wrong, I felt like I was cheating on Tanya. "Logical Bella" was hitting me with waves of guilt till "Wild Bella" pushed her aside and ground down harder on Melanie's leg loving the friction. I pushed those thoughts away and left for the bar to order more shots I couldn't deal with thoughts of Tanya now that was the whole reason I came to the club to drink and dance away my worries.

I was heading back to the dance floor when Melanie grabbed me again pressing my back to her front grinding our hips together. If the friction wasn't enough to drive me crazy she started whispering what she wanted to do to me in my ear licking and kissing my neck as she ground into me. I felt myself becoming more and more wet of the images in my head. The problem was in my head it was Tanya doing all of that to me. she couldn't leave my thoughts not even when I was drunk she was always there.

Growling to myself I kissed Melanie again, I wouldn't let Tanya control me, at least that's what my drunken mind thought. After a few more shots I threw all caution to the wind and took Melanie home with me. We were kissing in backseat of the cab ride home giving the driver quite a show. When we got home we stumbled inside and she pushed me up against the front door kissing and grinding against each other desperate for friction. we were having a heated make out session when she started touch my stomach, stroke my sides, and grope my breasts.

She found the knot on my dress and took it up, letting it fall to the floor. She was staring at me hungry and she moaned at the sight of my body. The feeling that I was cheating came back but I was too aroused and drunk to think about it. I wouldn't let Tanya put a damper on my fun not now when I was so close. I took her hand and led her to my bedroom she didn't waste any time and pushed me down on the bed. She crawled on top of me kissing every inch of skin she could reach before crawling lower. She fucked me hard and good. Our pace was fast and hard neither of us really caring I just wanted to relieve the built up frustration that Tanya had caused and I guess Melanie wanted sex but either way we were both satisfied by the end of the night.

The next morning I opened my eyes and felt a wave of dread wash over me. I was sore and had the makings of a killer hang over but that wasn't what worried me no it was the fact that a very warm body was in my bed and I started to panic. Everything came back from heading to the bar and getting smashed to the moment I brought Melanie home. Fuck. The only thoughts going through my head was "what have I done?, this should never happened, why did I drink so much?". I was starting to panic over everything so I told her to go home because Tala was coming home soon.

I know I lied but I didn't want that awkward talk with her. I wanted to have enough time to get over most my hang over and just think before Tala came home. After Melanie left I went down to the kitchen to get something to drink before I started to jog to clear my thoughts.

I could only think about Tanya. Do I want to give her a chance? My gut feeling tells me to give her a chance and let her prove to me that she is not like Edward. But my heart has been shattered so hard that I don't think I can ever get over it if she left me. After sleeping with Melanie though I couldn't help feeling like I had cheated and it was eating me up inside but I shouldn't be feeling this way we weren't a couple and no matter how much I wanted to believe it we weren't mates we couldn't be not after what happened with the Cullen's. Shaking my head I focused on my jog I wanted to clear my mind and prepare for Tala to come home not think about Tanya.

It was Sunday and my baby girl just came home after her sleepover at her friends place. She was so tired I didn't even get to ask her how her weekend went the poor girl had tuckered herself out from all the fun she'd had. So I just lifted her up and put her to bed after changing her clothes.

I got myself in bed and started to think about maybe talking to Tanya. Maybe asking her if she wants to come over to my place to talk. I think I need to do that but I didn't know when, today was out of the question with me still trapped in my emotional turmoil.

When we left for school on Monday, Tala was talking about what they did that weekend. They had watched movies, went for a long walk in the park, went out to eat and had a slumber party with 3 other girls from her class. I could see the happiness in her eyes and hear all the good memories she have from it. It's a good feeling to see and hear your daughter is happy. I never though being a parent would be so rewarding but my baby girl was more than enough to make me happy.

Kate met us at the front of the building and she was smiling at Tala when the girl ran up to her and smirking at me. I gave my daughter a kiss and left for my own school not wanting to be late and give Tanya a reason to keep me after. I just pray that Tanya will sit down and talk to me and hear my out. I owe her that. I feel the need to let her prove everything that she has said to me. But I will be careful.

I took my seat and started taking out my things when I saw Melanie come in. She smiled at me and tried to kiss me, I just turned my head so she kissed my cheek in stead. She didn't seem to mind.

"I had a great time on Friday Bella, I like you and hope you'll go out with me again" I frowned I could see the hope in her eyes and felt bad for turning her down but this wasn't what I wanted.

"I am sorry but I can't, I don't want to date anybody right now, My focus is my daughter at the moment" I felt bad for her but I couldn't tell her that I was kind of interested in our teacher.

"I understand that, but when you are ready let me know, and in the mean time we can just have sex. I think where really good together in bed babe" she said in a low voice.

I looked up when I was going to answer and saw Tanya standing in the door way. the vampire didn't have her usual hungry stare oh no she had murderess look in her darkening eyes.

This is not going to end well for me or Melanie.