BELLA POV
How could I be so stupid to think Tanya wouldn't hear what me Melanie and me were talking about?
When I spotted her in the door way I could see the pain, anger, and the jealousy burning in her eyes as she glared at us. I knew this was gonna be bad so I tried to go after her to talk to her maybe get her to listen to me but when I tried to talk she just pushed me up the wall. I wasn't scared of her, I knew she wouldn't hurt me but I was caught between a wall and a raging vampire, trying to control her beast. It's safe to say that things weren't really turning out all that well.
Tanya stared at me with obsidian eyes growling low enough for only me to hear as she pressed herself into me. I thought she might bite me but she surprised me by kissing me. when the shock faded I couldn't help thinking it was the best thing I ever felt in my life. I could feel every emotion from that kiss: love, longing, that burning possessiveness that all vampires seemed to have, all of it.
Why have I been this stupid? I need to make this right, I needed to take a preverbal step back and talk to her.
when Tanya finally pulled away I gasped for breath trying to get my mouth to work when she stepped away completely and ran. shaking my head I tried to call out to her, try and make her come back but she was already gone. There wasn't really all that much a human could do I couldn't stop her even if I wanted to. letting my head fall back against the wall I groaned this whole thing was getting out of hand I needed help but from where? then it struck me: Kate! Tanya' sister worked at Tala's school she could help me right?
I pulled out my phone and called Tala's school hoping that Kate would pick up.
"Hello?"
"Hi this I Isabella Swan, Tala´s mom, can I please speak with Kate Denali?" I tried to sound not so out of breath but it was hard. My Tanya was in pain and I couldn't reach her but her pain could reach me.
"This is Kate, what can I help you with Bella?" she sounded worried.
"Tanya overheard something and now she's mad, she ran away and I can't get a hold of her Can you please help me? I need to talk to her and make this right, Please Kate, I will do anything I just need to talk to her" I was so upset that I started crying on the phone. My chest was tight as the pain and anger came crashing through our bond it was too much I was going to have a panic attack if I didn't get this straightened out.
"I will call Irina and she will get Tanya to your place. It will be okay, Bella just try to stay calm ok?"
"Thank you Kate seriously you have no idea how grateful I am"
"No problem Bella just get home safely ok? we'll take care of the rest"
Kate hung up and I couldn't help sighing in relief. A huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders but there was still a lot of things I needed to do. I started running to my car wanting to reach Tanya as soon as possible to relive our pain because at this point it wasn't just her pain, it was ours because we both needed each other to fix it. I would do anything to make this pain stop and to do that I needed to talk to Tanya.
When I finally manage to get home I collapsed on the couch too emotionally exhausted and crippled by the pain in my chest to do anything else. I was scared of losing Tanya, I was scared of telling her the truth, what if she thought I wasn't worth it anymore? I know that I need to make her understand my reasons even though there is no good reason for this but I couldn't lose her, no matter what I couldn't lose her. Out of everything in my life, moving to Denali, choosing to keep Tala, out of everything in my life I knew I needed Tanya and I could only hope she would come to me now because I wouldn't make it if she didn't.
I started dozing after a while and I don't know how long its been since I got home but suddenly I was in Tanya´s lap. It felt so good when she wrapped her arms around me and started burying her face in my hair letting a deep purr rumble in her chest. I felt so safe, like nothing could hurt me ad I knew this was how things were supposed to be. No matter what happened from here on out I knew I was meant to be in Tanya's arms and I couldn't deny that it felt amazing.
Eventually we had to talk about what happened so I decided to start the conversation and asked her what the Cullen´s had told them about what happened between us and I was shocked, I couldn't belive them. Why would they lie about something like this? I was so upset at their lies and their betrayal I wouldn't be called a liar I would tell them what really happened so I did I told them everything:
I couldn't control my emotions and cried through most of it but I was so glad that Tanya was there to help me through them, even Irina was welcoming. I could feel how angry Tanya was about the rape, but I couldn't let her go and kill some stranger. I needed her here with me, if she left me there now I don't think I could take it.
I started to panic. I couldn't let Tala see me like this, she doesn't need to know anything about this when she is so young. I need to get my baby girl.
Tanya started worrying and growl till I finally spoke.
"Tala! I need to pick up Tala, I can't let her see me like this"
"Calm down Bella, we can have Kate bring her here. Just call the school and tell them that Kate is taking her home and it will be alright my love"
"ok" I nodded dug out my phone to make the call I had hoped to speak to Kate but all I got was the machine so I left a short message asking Kate to bring Tala home for me.
I put my phone away and just lay there in Tanya's arms I was so exhausted from the drama I couldn't help closing my eyes. Tanya must have sensed my fatigue because she shifted us till we were laying down on the couch and her hands were running through my hair lightly massaging my scalp. Before I knew it I fell asleep on the couch in Tanya´s arms. I feel so safe there that I couldn't help but snuggle into her side sighing before I let myself relax completely filling myself to sleep in her arms.
I woke up from Tanya kissing my forehead her cold lips jolted me awake.
"Oh t's dinner time, Love"
"oh.."
Rubbing my tired eyes I looked up slightly taken aback when I saw the love in her eyes. I couldn't help myself I pulled her into a kiss. the waves of love and warmth coming through the bond were too much I couldn't help deepening the kiss till air became a problem and we slowly pulled away. I looked in her eyes and saw that the love hadn't turned to lust it was still genuine love and it made me smile.
"thank you"
She just gave me a nod and a smile "Always"
My daughter came running to me with Kate and Irina after her. She was laughing so much from being chased by those two. I picked her up and hugged her close to me and felt the love coming from her laughter and joy.
"Mommy please don't let them take me, they are tickling me!" she said through her laughter.
"They are huh? What should we do about that?"
"Let's run from them together mommy, lets run to the kitchen and eat, my stomach is hungry" she said with a sheepish grin.
"okay, on three then baby. One-Two-Three!" we started to run to the kitchen laughing the whole way. I could hear the three sisters running after us at a human pace laughing at the little princess.
When we finally "escaped" the threats of tickles we sat down and started to eat. I had to admit it was really good it had been a while since I'd had a meal that I hadn't made myself. So this was a bit of a luxury for me and I took full advantage.
"This is really good Irina, where did you learn to cook?" I gave her a smile.
"I saw some cooking shows on tv and wanted to try it for you guys for when you would come over to the house and meet the family." I just nodded to her not really wanting to think about meeting the rest of their coven just yet. I was making major steps with the bond between Tanya and I but I wanted to meet the family a little later on in our uh relationship.
As the night went on we told little stories here and there till Tala started to tell the denali sisters from when she broke her arm from climbing a tree. I could see Kate started to growl at the thought of my little baby getting hurt. It was heart warming to see her get so protective over something that is normal for a child. They all listened to her attentively as the 5year old told her story and asked questions from the incident like what she was doing climbing the tree? and what color cast she got after words? the answers to said questions were " because I wanted to see the birds" and "a purple cast of course, because she liked purple".
After dinner I started to do the dishes since Irina made the food. I was scrubbing one when Tanya helped me, grabbing a dish rag and drying them for me.
"Can I ask you a question Bella?"
"yes" I wonder what it was there were any number of things she could ask me at this point.
"Why did you sleep with her?" I looked in her eyes and I could see them turning black.
"I can't give you a good enough reason, but I just wanted to let myself go, I needed to just be me" I could see it didn't make any sense to her but she was trying to.
"Didn't you think that I would be pissed because of it? You are my mate Bella and someone else touching you is not okay, I really want to kill her for touching you, tasting you, and seeing you naked, You are only for me and not anyone else." I could hear the anger and the pain in her words. I set down the dish I was cleaning and wiped my hands on my pants before taking her face in my hands.
"I know sweetie and I will do anything to make it up for you, anything you want... Just please don't kill her Tanya, this is my fault so punish me."
"I can't have you sitting next to her anymore, I don't know if I can control myself if she even looks at you with lust. You are mine." Tanya looked away but leaned into my palm.
"If the position for a teachers assistant is still open I can be yours, I will do anything to make this okay again, Please belive me." I tried to show her how much I mean it.
"You can have that position, that way I can have you around more, keep an eye on you" She gave me hug and it felt so good to have her arms wrapped around me.
After we all talked some more I managed to put the little princess to bed with two stories I finally got her to sleep. I went downstairs to talk with the sisters because there was a lot we needed to discuss. I could feel the questions in the air so I picked a seat and took a deep breath bracing myself for whatever they might want to know.
"Ask"
"Is Tala here because of the rape?" Tanya asked me straight.
"Yes she is… but she is mine, all mine. She is mine to care for and love, my angel, my daughter. I will not see her as a outcome of a heinous crime" I said with determination in my voice. I would always stand by my little girl, Tala may not have come from the best of circumstances but she was still mine and I would defend her till my last breath.
"We know Bella, I didn't mean anything bad about it, I just wanted to know We will never see Tala as anything but the little princess with the big smile and laughter. She is a loving child and we will love and protect her for the rest of our lives." Tanya said looking me straight in the eyes. I could see the sincerity in them so I know she spoke the truth.
"Do you know who did this to you?" Irina asked.
"N-no but I did see him again after the rape" I looked down on the floor, I couldn't to meet their eyes I was to ashamed of it. I thought I had made a lot of progress and in many ways I had but admitting this to them was... well it made me feel ashamed and weak.
"What happened when you met him again?" Tanya said with a growl.
Taking a deep breath I stood up and lifted up my shirt to show them the scar across my back. It was jagged but the skin around it wasn't raised as much as it used to be. The scar went from my right shoulder blade across my spine down to my left hip stopping just before my waist line. They all gasped their eyes wide with shock and horror.
"He tried to rape me again but I kicked and screamed with all my might, so he cut my back so I would forever have a memory of him" I felt tears threatening to fall and tried to fight them taking deep breaths to calm myself. Tanya stood slowly walking up behind me she kissed my shoulder while pulling my shirt down. She took me in her arms turning me slowly till we faced each other.
"My Bella listen to me, scar or no scar you will always be beautiful to me"
I felt so safe with her at that moment and I realised I would never let her go. She was the final puzzle piece to our life, yes our life because we were a package deal, Tala and I, and some how I knew Tanya wouldn't mind one bit.
Kate and Irina said their goodbyes and left us alone. I could see in Tanya´s eyes what she wanted, but right now I couldn't go through with it. Sighing Tanya pressed our foreheads together trying to hold on to what little self control she had being so close to her unclaimed mate.
"Bella, my beast is demanding that I take you now and make you mine, but I won't do it, I want to take you out on a proper date and show you how much you are loved But I will punish you for having sex with that woman, I will take you, I have to" I felt myself becoming aroused of the thought of Tanya being all possessive and jealous. I knew that I would be punished for what I did, but I didn't know how. I am really glad that she doesn't want to take me now. I don't think I could handle it right now its been too hard of a day for that.
"I understand Tanya, You will get to go through with your punishment and I will take it, Just promise me that you will not kill Melanie"
"Do not say her name, I will not kill her but you will not have anything to do with her anymore, She will know that you are spoken for and are not interested in any kind of relationship with her, Is that understood?" she growled her eyes turned obsidian once more her beats demanded submission and I wouldn't fight it I had been the one at fault so I would take the punishment.
"Yes Tanya"
after a moment she pulled me closer breathing in my scent and relaxing now that that was over with. I loved the feeling of her arms around me and couldn't bear to be with out them when it struck me that I might have to sleep with out them I couldn't help asking something that made me blush a little.
"Do you think you could stay the night? I just want to fall asleep in your arms…" I asked shyly.
She scooped me up in her arms and carried me up to my bedroom. I started laughing from at her antics.
"you can put me down now Tanya, I needed to brush my teeth"
"fine but I don't expect these arms to be empty long"
Rolling eyes I did my nightly routine but when I got back she was already in my bed in just her underwear. I couldn't stop myself from checking her out she was so sexy. Her flat stomach, her big breast, and long legs. I felt my mouth go dry and started to lick my lips her eyes got black and she started to growl. It was a dangerous game that kept going on between us even unintentionally but neither of us could help it.
"Take off your clothes Bella. I want to see you change" she growled out.
"I only sleep in shorts" I looked her right in the eye watching them grow darker if possible.
In the blink of an eye she was right in front of me her hand rested on my shoulder slowly going lower and lower till she reached the hem of my shirt and pulled it up. Little by little started undressing me. My body wanted her to take me now, but my head told me to stop her touches were like cold fire across my skin and each one was more addictive then the last.
"Please Tanya, I promise you can take me whenever you want, but tonight can you just hold me?"
Tanya lifted me up and laid me down on the bed pulling the covers up around us. She got in behind me and put her strong arms around me my waist and started to purr while stroking my back. I feel asleep right away, with no nightmares just the sound of Tanya purring with her scent filling my senses. This was going to be the best night of sleep in my life and it was all thanks to Tanya.