Accepting Chapter 3

The Best Choice?

Austin's POV

After Ally left I quickly pulled out my phone and called Dez. As I waited for him to answer, I thought about our almost kiss. I couldn't believe it. I almost kissed her. If it wasn't for that stupid phone, we would be making out right now. Not that I wouldn't mind it...

"Yellow?" I hear Dez's voice boom through the speakers.

"Dez! Come quick. I have something to tell you. It's huge!" I whisper shouted.

"I'm already at your house." He spoke flatly.

"How are you-Nevermind. I'm coming inside." With that I hung the up the phone and went to my house.

The door was unlocked. Typical Dez. Always leaving it open.

After shutting and locking it, I ran to my room to Dez eating week old yogurt. I twisted my face in disgust as I heard the yogurt crunch.

"Hey buddy!" He smiled with yogurt oozing out of his teeth.

"Um here's a napkin." I said handing a paper towel to him.

He wiped his mouth of the yogurt ooze and turned to me. "Thanks."

"No probs. Now. I have something big to tell you!" I said starting to get excited.

"What?!" He said standing up.

"I almost kissed her!" I shouted.

"What?!" He screamed as his eyes widen.

"I know! Isn't it great?!" I cheered, expecting Dez to join me in the cheering.

But he didn't move a muscle.

"What?" I asked.

"Why did you do that?! She could expose you!" Dez said as he pinched the bridge of his nose.

"No she won't! She promised she won't say anything." I lied.

"Did she? Did she really?" He asked.

I sighed. "No."

"Exactly! Now. How on earth did this happen?!"

"I drove her home..." I smiled sheepishly.

"Go on." He said.

"So it started raining really hard and I offered to drive her home. Then she started asking how I knew where she lived and stuff. And then she said something about rumors. Rumors being about what I do on weekends. One of them being I stalk the girl I love. And... And I panicked. Because it's one of the few things I keep to myself. You know, her." I paused before starting again.

"So anways, she told me that everyone knows everything about her expect for her name and what she looks like. And they even know the picture dude! They know about the picture! And after that, it was a silent ride. But I kept thinking how everyone is this close to finding out. So when we got home, we both stayed in the car. And I started saying how if she meaning the girl I love found out I loved her she wouldn't dare go near me because she would fear I would hurt her."

Then I paused again for a moment and took a deep breath.

"Then she told me that if she was the girl, she would give me a chance. Get to know who I am and all. Find something under this jerky exterior. Then the next thing I knew, I was closing my eyes and leaning in. Ans she was doing the same. And we were so close. Then her phone rang. And after it she left."

"You're an idiot." He said after I finished.

"I know." I sighed.

"How could you walk yourself into that!" He shouted.

"I didn't think about what was gonna happen! I thought it was gonna be a silent ride but she brought up all this stuff I never knew about!"

"Why didn't you stop her from saying more? Why did you reply?" He asked.

"Because I was curious. I realized she wanted to get some answers! And she's a nice person so I was being nice to her because you know full well that I really love her and I don't wanna blow it too early!" I replied.

"Austin. You may think she's a nice girl and all but one day she's going to turn her back on you and expose you to the entire school!" He exclaimed.

"Well! At least I know she might like me!" I shouted.

Dez quickly became confused and asked, "How would you know?"

"Because she wouldn't have leaned in to kiss me. And spared my feelings." I whispered.

And then there was a brief moment of silence.

"When will she know that she's the girl you love?" Dez asked timidly, breaking the silence.

"When she accepts me."

That night

I sat in bed for an hour thinking about the almost kiss. If her phone didn't ring, I would have kissed her. And I really wanted to kiss her. So bad.

But everything will be ruined if we started dating. People would start making her regret even knowing me. And before I know it, we'll be broken up and I'll go back to one sided love.

But on the other side we could keep it hidden for a while until we're ready to confess. But again I just can't let her date me until she knows who I really am. Which will take a while. Because she might accuse me for being a hypocrite.

And then she'll expose me. And that's the end of me.

Maybe Dez was right. Almost kissing her was a mistake. But... I just love her so much. But as the old saying goes, if you love someone set them free. If they come back, then they're yours. If not, it was never meant to be.

Ugh. I'm so confused. I want her. But at the same time, I want to let her go. Be free. Love someone who isn't two faced. Someone who isn't a jerk 75% of the time. Someone who can't figure out who he is. Someone who's hiding their real selves.

Both are good choices... But which is the best choice?

A/N: Aye Chapter 3! So. Austin can't decide and Dez is telling him to stop before it's too late. Who's right? Austin or Dez? Because Austin really trusts her and Dez believes that she's going to turn on him and shit can go down. So. Who do you think is right? Or Austin just blinded by love? Idk. Maybe. Yes. Ha. But what happens in upcoming chapters is really gonna do some questioning. Lots of them. Hahahah. Until next time you guys!

~BNYC