Disclaimer: I don't own Austin & Ally or anything of it's characters.

Warning: Homosexual content near the end of this chapter. Don't read of you're homophobic.

And ps. You suck.

P.P.S. Don't read the rest of this story.

Kay that's all. Enjoy!

Accepting Chapter 6

Coming Out?

Ally's POV

"Ally. How long until whole thing is over?" Gavin had asked once we got out of Austin's sight.

"Until he admits it." I said.

"Admits what?" He asked confused.

I searched the hallways and said, "I'll tell you. But we have to be somewhere more private."

"Um... Okay?" He answered unsurely.

I grabbed his arm and found an empty hallway. Once I made sure it was empty, I turned to him.

"Okay. So until he admits what?" He asked once we stopped.

"Until he admits he's gay." I said.

"Gay? Last time I checked the guy isn't gay." He scoff. "I think he's probably bi. But no one knows for sure. We shouldn't be making assumptions."

"I know." I sighed.

"Plus how would you know anyway?" He said pointing an accusing finger at me.

"Because when we met and by met I mean I had an actual conversation with the guy. There was something in his eyes. Something about him. That made him different. And you know that talk about a "Gay-dar"." I said putting finger air quotes around the word "Gay-dar".

"Yeah?"

"I don't know why. But it was just going off." I said looking down, ashamed that I made such a assumption.

"Hey," He started. "I know you were thinking he was. But it's not that bad. Just ask him. I bet he'll open up." He smiled.

"You're right. Thanks Gav, you're the best." I said hugging.

"I know." He chuckled. "Now go get 'em."

"Haha." I chuckled before going off to find Austin. While I searched the hallways, I heard a quiet sob. I stopped and looked for the source of the sobbing. I didn't have luck. As I kept walking, the sobbing got louder. Before I knew it, it felt like I was right next to the sobs.

I turned around and I couldn't believe my eyes. There he was. Austin Moon. All curled up in a corner sobbing. Something I'd never thought I'd see. I took a step forward and Austin looked up.

My heart nearly broke at the sigh. His face was pale and his eyes were blood shut.

"W-What do y-you want?" His voice cracked as he spoke. "To rub your new b-boyfriend in m-my face!?"

I sighed. "He's not my boyfriend."

"What?"

"He's not my boyfriend. He's not even into girls." I said.

"Oh." Was all he said.

"Yeah." I said as I sat down next to him.

"So why are you here?" He whispered.

"I wanna ask you something." I said.

He didn't say anything. He looked at me as if it was a signal to go on.

"A-Are..." I stuttered. I paused for a second before blurting out, "Are you going to come out?"

"What?" He asked bewildered.

"Well are you going to come out?" I asked again.

"I'm not gay." He mumbled.

"But you're bi?" I said.

"I'm not gay nor am I bi! Now stop asking or assuming all this shit! I don't like gay people so I'm not gay!" He yelled. I widen my eyes as scooted away from him.

He paused for a second before relaxing. "I'm sorry. It's just. A really touchy subject and I kinda hate it."

"Austin. No one is going to accept you if you don't say who you are."

"I'm perfectly fine without being accepted." He grumbled.

"Because you aren't even trying!" I exclaimed.

"Don't you think I tried that before?! I got rejected it. My dad hated me for being like that and he thought he raised me better. So. He left. My mom stayed with me for two years before my dad took her from me. Before high school, I dated my best friend for a month. It was the only time I felt like I was me. I felt like I was able to love a guy just like how a girl loves a guy. He was the best. Sure he was straight but he said he was willing to be my boyfriend. But then we came to high school and we thought it was for the best. Because high school is shit anyways. At the time, I thought I was gay. I thought I was never gonna love a girl in that way again. Then I met her. She changed it for me without knowing it. Then I realized I was bi."

"But why do you bully all the gay, lesbian, bi and trans kids at school?" I asked.

"I thought maybe if I forget about it, I'll stop being bi. I thought I could magically become straight again. I later realized that you can't just stop being that. You can't magically stop being gay or bi. It doesn't work that way. It never works that way. You are who you are." He sighed.

"Was he the only guy crush you had?" I asked a bit stupidly.

"No. There were a lot of guys I liked. But obviously they were straight." He said.

"That must stink." I said.

"Yeah. My dad banned me from seeing Dez for a week because he didn't want him to become my boyfriend."

"So... Only your mom let you see guys?"

"Yeah. My dad was extremely religious. Gay was a sin." He said.

"Being gay isn't a sin. If being gay was a sin I bet we wouldn't be the way we are. We're equal." I whispered.

"Not to my dad." He sighed.

"Well. You can't just hide it. One day, you'll be able to admit to the world." I encouraged.

"I don't want to admit to the whole god damn world. I'd like to keep it small." He grumbled.

"So what are you gonna do when you want to settle down?" I asked.

"Pretend. That's how most people like me get through life."

"So you're going to be someone you're not? What's going to happen when your wife or wife to be finds out you lied about yourself?"

"She'll never know. Ever." He mumbled.

"So just because one person-"

"It was my dad! My fucking dad! The man I thought I'd trust and love forever. But he turned into this guy I didn't know anymore. He hated me. He said he can't love me anymore. Let alone even look at me. Worst day of my life." Austin sighed.

Before I had a chance to say anything, I heard a voice. It was a familiar voice.

"Austin?" The voice echoed through the empty halls. I turned to Austin and he stood up. I looked at him confused before he started running towards the voice.

I scooted to get a better look. At first I saw a mop of red hair. Then I realized that was his best friend. I thought for a second to remember his name. Dez. Dez Wade. Of course. This is him. Otherwise Austin wouldn't have ran towards him.

"Austin I've-" Before he got a chance to speak, Austin did the unspeakable.

He grabbed his collar and kissed him. I sat there in shock before I smiled. He's finally learning.

As the boys kissed, I had to keep my mouth shut. It was the most adorable thing I have ever seen. What made me almost squeal was that Dez kissed back.

I thought to myself that maybe Austin will finally accept it. Scream it at the world. He'll be able to be him. Finally. But even though I was happy, I couldn't help but feel my heart hurt. But I pushed it aside.

Then it was all too soon when the kiss broke. Dez had started screaming at him and I couldn't quite pick it up. Shortly after, Austin came back with bright red lips. And eyes. He sat down and said nothing.

After a few moments he chokes out, "He doesn't like me."

After that he breaks down and starts crying. I awkwardly out my hand on his back and tried to sooth him.

"It happened. Again." He choked out.

"What?" I asked.

"I kiss someone and it ends badly. It always ends bad." He whispered.

I sat confused for a moment before it hit me. And it hit me hard. I felt tears blurring my vision as I remembered what had happened just a few days earlier. It was my fault. I ran from him after what I had to admit, the best kiss I ever had. I remember how he seemed upset and I didn't care. I didn't care for him...

"I-I'm so sorry..." I choked out.

"What?" He asked.

"For... Ruining everything..." I choked out.

"You didn't ruin everything..." He whispered.

"Yes I did! I ran from you after you kissed me, I forced to you to spill for your freaking sexuality, I made you go up and kiss your best friend only to have you run back here in tears! I'm an awful person..." I sobbed.

"You're not an awful person. You may have ran but you gave me the best kiss I ever had. You didn't force me. You let me come out. You made me free. And you didn't make me go up to him. I did it on my own. I kissed him on my own. You're not awful. You're amazing." He whispered.

"Lies." I whispered.

"Truth." He said softly as he scooted closer to me.

"No. Get away from me. I don't want my awfulness to rub off on you." I said scooting only to hit the wall.

He scooted closer. "Well. I guess I'll just have to be awful. You did an awful thing to let me become who I wanted to be. Pretty awful." He chuckles.

"Yeah." I whispered.

"Well. I gotta go. I don't want to miss seventh block." Austin said getting up. "You coming?"

"No... I'll stay here." I said.

"Okay?" He questioned before he walked away.

As he did, I felt more tears leak out as I pulled out the small device from my bag. I can't believe I'm doing this to him. All he's ever done is be nice to me. And here I am.

Recording his every word.

A/N: Well folks. Now you know Austin's secret. Well. Like half of it. And part of what Ally's hiding. Like. What even. RECORDING?! Something's gonna go so wrong. So... so wrong. But that won't come for a long time lol. So. now this like a mini af (jk it's a big one) triangle with Auslly vs. Deztin even though Dez doesn't really feel the same way. Or does he? Lmao. Nah. Or yah. Or nah. or something. And also I'm f'ed up in the head so I can't decide between them. Dammit. And please remember to vote for Ross, Laura and A&A for a KCA! :D

~BNYC