Accepting Chapter 19

Confused

A/N: it's Sunday so yay update. okay after this the next couple chapters will just be very... Uhhh sad. Not a good description but give me a break. imayormaynotbeholdingmypeetoposttothischpaterokaytmitmitmi. But I hope you enjoy this chapter! Oh and there's a little something if you ship Deztin :D if you hate Deztin (okay how dare you) there's an X right there. Click it. It's wonderful.

I own nothing. Enojy!

No One's POV (Austin)

He couldn't believe it! How could she just stand there and listen? And she probably heard his confession too. He sighed. What hurts more then her hearing the confession and the song is that she still wouldn't wanna be with him. He unintentionally poured his heart out to her and she probably still believes he's a lying cheating pig.

She's happy without him. She doesn't want him. She doesn't care about him. She doesn't want anything to do with him. She hates him.

He's not happy without her. He wants her. He cares a lot about her. He wants everything to with her. He loves her.

All he wants is just for her to love him back. He held it in for the past seven fucking years only to ruin it all.

Austin sighs. There's really nothing he can do. She hates him.

All he can do is continue with his plan of just being his old nasty self.

He rather be that then be heartbroken over someone who doesn't even care.

He also knows he sounds desperate and pathetic right now but he really doesn't care.

"Moon! Heard that girl finally left you! Aha!" He hears someone calls from a distance. He bites his lip to keep himself from yelling at the guy.

"Awww. He's too shy to say something." The voice snickered.

Calm down. He told himself.

"C'mon Moon! Not so tough now?"

He growled. This guy was really getting on his nerves.

"Oh right! He can't stand up for himself because he's gay!"

THAT'S IT! He thought angrily.

He charged through the crowd to find a guy smirking at him. His face was probably an angry red and the guy was just standing there satisfied.

"Awww the gay boy finally came through! C'mon on. Kiss me." And then he made a kissing face in mock.

He brought the guy against the lockers hard. The guy winced in pain but tried not to show any signs of mercy.

"What did you say?!" He spat.

The guy stayed quiet. Obviously refusing to say anything. Austin looked around, everyone was standing in fear of what would happen.

"WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT!?" He screamed.

Then almost instantly, everyone scrambled to where ever they had to go. Leaving him and the guy alone.

Scanning the halls, he found no one. Except one. He couldn't see who they were since they were hiding behind a plant. Letting go of the guy, he marched straight towards the plant.

Moving it out of the way, he looks down at the person behind it. All he saw a head of brown hair. Crouching down, he got a better look at the person. But before he saw their face, they moved. Making it harder for him to see their face.

"Please don't hurt me." A very distinct voice said. He froze. Oh shit. He thought.

"A-" Before he said a word, she stopped him.

"Please leave. Please don't hurt me. Just leave me alone." She whispered.

His face went blank. He didn't move. He kind of just sat there. His mind went blank too. He moved his gaze at the guy he was probably about to beat the crap out of.

He was gone.

Dammit. I'll get him one day. He thought bitterly.

He returned his gaze back to her. She was probably scared out of her mind. Seemed all she wanted to do was hide. He was about to reach and comfort her before he stopped.

He remembered; She's dating someone else. She doesn't need his comfort. Hell. She doesn't need him.

So he got up from the floor and stood up. He looked back down at her. She looked back as if she was asking; Where are you going?

He took his gaze off her and walked away. Just turned around and walked away.

Leaving her in his wake.

He didn't know where he was going. He went to his car and started driving. School was not close to being over but he didn't really care. He didn't want to deal with people now. He just wanted to be on his own.

He stopped when his car had almost run out of gas. Sighing, he trudged out of his car and made his way to an abandoned beach. It seemed so peaceful and quiet. Just what he needs right now.

He climbed on a rock and sat there. Looking out over the ocean. The waves crashed and the birds flew just above it. He smiled. He really liked this place. It was nice and calm and beautiful.

Then he remember why he was here to begin with. And the calm look on his face dropped. All he wanted was to be happy. But looks like being bi and a jerk doesn't cut it. He doesn't blame them, people like him are hard to accept in this damn world.

He wished it was easier for him to be attracted to both guys and girls. But obviously that's not the case.

Sure it's a bit easier in some cases, but still just as hard.

He hates that fact that he is bi. He hates that he can sometimes feel something toward a guy. He hates the fact that it was the reason his father practically disowned him.

He hates the fact it was (partially) the reason he's not with Ally anymore.

He sighs. He looks up at the cloudy skies and the blue ocean below. They can be whatever they desire. If a cloud wants to break away, it breaks away. If a wave wants to go some other way, it will. No one's gonna judge it because it's beautiful.

If he tries to change, someone will stop him, before he even starts. And if he does, everyone will judge. Everyone.

He can't be accepted.

Then his thoughts are cut when he hears footsteps. Turning around, he finds Dez standing before him.

"What are you doing here?" Austin mutters confused.

"I came to ask you the same question." He answers.

Dez walks to the top of the rock and sits next to him. They sit in complete silence before he breaks it.

"How did you find me?"

"I saw you storm out of school and I had to follow." He shrugs.

"Well thanks for coming, you can leave."

"I'm not."

"Can you? Because you already fucked up my life why must you stick around?!" He shouts in frustration.

"I want to apologize."

"No need to. Ally already hates me and she'll never comeback because of you!" Austin spats.

"I-I know. I'm really sorry man. I just got jealous and wanted to break you guys up so much I forgot how happy you were. I wanted to be with you. I had the biggest crush on you for so long. Every time you talk about Ally, I get pissed. Like it should be me you're fawning over. Not her. But I never realized how genuinely happy you were. I never realized how happy she makes you. I was so focused on making you guys unhappy. I-"

Then Dez was cut off with a pair of lips on his own. His eyes widen in surprised. But after that, he gladly returned the kiss.

It was only a few seconds before they broke away. Austin lazily stared into his eyes. For a mere second, he felt like he can really move on from Ally. Then he remembered what he just did was why he's not with her.

Then he frowned again and look away. Dez must have noticed and his hand was rubbing his back.

"If Ally really cared about you, she would have let you explain."

"I-I know. But my heart just wants A-Ally. A-And it can't have her." He choked out. "I love her, Dez. But she doesn't love me."

He sighed. "I'm sorry buddy, it's all my fault."

Austin didn't say anything. After a moment, a tear slipped out as he whispered, "Maybe we're not meant to be."

"Hey don't say that! Fate has weird ways to bring you two together!" He cheered in an attempt to pull him out of his misery.

"If that means I'm in a state of being heartbroken then I'm out." Austin hissed.

"Well..."

"Just forget it Dez. We're not meant to be. We're complete polar opposites."

Later

"Are you sure about this?" Austin asked worryingly as Dez brought him to Ally's house.

"Yes. After all, I am, The Love Whisper." He answered whispering the last part.

"Nobody calls you that." Austin whispered back.

Dez pouted at the so called insult his friend had said. Despite the fact that it was true. Nevertheless, he was still willing to help his best friend get the love of his life.

"C'mon buddy. She can't hate you THAT much." He smiled.

"What if she does?" He argued.

"Stop being so negative!"

"Can't. My whole life is the definition of negative." He replied as sarcasm filled his tone.

"Austin. Please. Just try."

"I did try! She doesn't care! She! Has! Someone! Else! SHE DOESN'T FUCKING LIKE ME!" Austin hissed.

Before Dez had the chance to reply, the front door opened. Both boys froze as the door creaked opened. Turning their heads, they stared at who interrupted them.

"Austin?! Dez?!" The tiny brunette shrieked as she stared at her surprising visitors.

"Hey Ally..." They said in unison.

"What are you doing here?!"

"Uhhh..."

"Well?"

Finally, Austin sighed. "No reason. We were just leaving." With that, he turned on them and walking away he shoved his hands in his pockets. He honestly doesn't wanna bother anymore. Too much has happened and it's probably just best to leave Ally alone.

He won't see her again after graduation anyways.

A/N: ahhh austin my poor cinnamon roll why does this have to happen to you. wHY I AM DOING THIS TO MY SON IM A HORRIBLE PERSON. so yah. I hoped you enjoyed that and remember to review cause they motivate me.

Later!

~BNYC