a/n: *sighs...puts down the non-con bomb, lights the fuse and walks away...*

I do not own rights to the Seether song quoted below.

I can fake it with the best of anyone

I can fake it with the best of em all

I can fake it with the best of anyone

I can fake it all

Fake It - Seether - Finding Beauty In Negative Spaces

"Thanks Josef. I'll see you tomorrow." Light forced a smile on his face as he unlocked the door to his home and stepped inside. As he turned to close it, he noticed the surveillance van across the street.

Unfortunately, the men hired to safeguard the brunette, couldn't protect him from his own thoughts as he closed the door and slid off his shoes, placing them in the front entry...the only pair that would sit there until Sayu returned. He took a deep breath and sighed as he found himself in the dark empty quiet of his family home.

Light clenched his fists in silent frustration before throwing down his bag, not caring for the moment whether L or the surveillance team were watching. I've done so well, for so long...been strong for myself and Sayu, now all of a sudden these emotions keep creeping up on me. It's like I can't let in one feeling without letting in all of them.

He wouldn't trade the connection he'd made with L or his ever growing feelings towards the man for anything, but he couldn't help wondering if they were a gateway to all of these other emotions threatening to pour out and overwhelm him after so long being locked away safely. He was no more willing to deal with them than he had been when his parents died. The young man glanced at his watch.

"Twelve-thirty…" He muttered aloud. I need to go to bed. He looked around the room, eyes landing on one of their family pictures. His father with a slight smile on his face, ever the composed Alpha male, his Beta mother smiling widely at the camera...

"Fuck it..." He strode across the room to a large oak cabinet that he rarely felt the need to open. He flipped on the overhead lights as he went, so he could find what he was looking for.

Light was not one who often went out to drink or party in high school, despite his popularity. However, on the few occasions like this when he came home and the deafening silence of the house felt like a screaming in his ears, he found that a glass from one of the couple of good bottles of wine or liquor, that sat largely untouched in the cabinet since his father had passed, was an excellent way to counteract the effects and at least let him get to sleep.

He pulled out a cut glass tumbler and scanned the shelf until his eyes fell upon a bottle of 20 year old whiskey, eyeing it with amusement. Ha, this bottle of whiskey is older than I am... The young man laughed softly as he opened the bottle and poured a generous amount into the glass. He put the liquor away and strode over to sit down at the living room couch to wait for the call he knew was coming...

Light felt his phone buzzing and realized he had left it on vibrate from when he'd been at the club. The brunette pointedly took a long sip before answering, ignoring the initial burn of the strong liquor racing down his throat.

"L."

"Light...How was work tonight?" The detective's voice held an edge of concern, instantly confirming the young man's suspicions that L was indeed observing him and likely wondering what had brought on his mood. You don't really know that much about what I've gone through, do you L? How hard being in this house is for me...

"Light? Are you ok?"

The young man realized he'd yet to answer, having been so lost in thought. "I'm sorry, my mind was somewhere else." He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm just tired."

"It's ok, I understand." The Alpha's voice caressed him like dark silk. "So...work? Everything go well?" He prompted again.

The Omega took another sip, trying not to think about how fucking sexy the other man's voice was. Really? Even through the goddamn phone I can't control my reaction to him...I am so weak... Light snorted slightly and chuckled before answering.

"Fucking fantastic. Mikami Teru decided to stop by for my performance and-"

"What the...I swear I'm going to-" L growled, interrupting him in a rage.

"Oh shhhh! Let me finish!" Light reprimanded the Alpha, torn between wanting to roll his eyes at the protectiveness and smile at the concern being shown. In the end he did both.

"I gave him what the dancers at the club like to call the '86 Special'...essentially I dumped an entire pitcher of water on his head during my performance and had the bouncers haul him out in front of everyone. He's been blacklisted from the club now." Light ran the rim of the cool glass tumbler along his lips absentmindedly. "I honestly don't know what he was thinking...idiot." The young man said dismissively as he took another drink enjoying the slight fuzzy warmth that was beginning to set in.

"I'm still pissed at him." L grumbled. "But if you're happy with how things turned out, that's what matters."

"I'm glad we've clarified that my happiness is the top priority around here." Light remarked playfully.

The Alpha chuckled. "I wish I could have been there to see you do that. I'm sure it was quite the sight." Light heard the other man sigh heavily. "I can't wait to see you again, I am truly sorry I had to leave so suddenly tonight."

"Me too..." Light tried to hide the neediness in his voice and failed. He wanted L's hands all over him, limbs tangled together, bodies pressed against one another. The brunette bit back a groan. "I wish you were here."

This is another reason why I don't go so long between heat cycles. I get too damn horny. He thought to himself as his cheeks flushed pink at the memory of their last intimate encounter.

"God Light, you're going to drive me crazy…" He heard L groan and loved how affected the other man sounded. "I promise I'll make it up to you tomorrow."

"I better go to bed...class in the morning." Light mumbled, suddenly worried he was about to make a fool of himself and start begging the man to come over to see him.

"Alright, sleep well."

Light hung up and threw back the last of his drink before heading upstairs. He brushed his teeth and went to his room, a wave of sleepiness hitting him upon seeing his comfortable bed. The brunette took off his clothes, and slid into bed in his boxers, unmotivated to seek out pajamas in his tired state when the bed looked so inviting. He was asleep within minutes of his head hitting the pillow.

xxx

It's been far too long since I've done this. B thought with a grin as he took one last look at his disguise in the mirror of the sedan. He'd stolen the vehicle that evening after ditching the van in an industrial area of Tokyo.

He opened his eyes wide as he inserted the first, then second dark contact lens and blinked as he adjusted. When he looked in the mirror again, his eyes were no longer reddish-brown, the imitation was complete.

"Hello L." The dark haired man said to his reflection and giggled. He had only needed a short amount of time to get changed into the jeans and white shirt he'd stolen from the laundry service at the hotel L was staying at. The other Alpha's scent coated the clothes, further adding to the illusion that he was in fact the raven haired detective.

You really shouldn't make it so easy to figure out where you stay during cases, Lawli...your little stripper's home address was harder to track down than yours was. Beyond knew he had L to thank for that too, he had tried to tail the young Omega home several times with no luck, losing him every time. It was easy to find him once he had your drivers taking him everywhere.

He's definitely a tricky little minx. B thought back to the turns and twists that the young man had performed that evening...how Kira's body had bowed back, creating a long elegant line from head to toe as he circled the pole near the end of his performance. Beautiful...

Beyond shook his head to free himself of the compelling imagery. He's just a tool to use against L... This Omega means nothing to me...he's not special...

B's eyes narrowed as he steadied his resolve, picking up the tranquilizer gun on the passenger seat. He frowned slightly at having to use the silly tool rather than one of his knives, but he knew that it was the cleanest method he could employ to ensure that no attention was drawn to his actions.

He took a moment to remind himself that the goal tonight was not to kill...as much as he might want to take it all the way to that dark place. There's no time for being sidetracked right now.

The dark haired man stepped out of the vehicle and moved quickly, stealthily to the back of a van parked on the quiet neighborhood street. After listening for a moment and hearing two voices laughing and chatting. He grinned and wordlessly threw open one of the doors.

The doppelganger aimed with a deadly accuracy that he had acquired during his years of training at Wammy's, pulling the trigger and putting tranquilizers in the necks of both startled surveillance team members before climbing inside and closing the door.

"Where do you get these people, L?" B murmured as he shoved one of the bodies out of the way, so he could sit in front of the bank of security monitors that provided images of the inside of the house he was preparing to enter. There you are... He smiled gleefully as he found Kira in one of the bedrooms, fast asleep.

Beyond took a quick survey of the inside of the vehicle. He discovered a folder containing a brief profile on the subject. Light Yagami...18 years old...sister, Sayu 15 years old...parents both deceased... His eyes snapped up to look at the sleeping figure on the screen.

"Just like us..." Beyond mumbled as he thought about the loss of his own parents, all the other Wammy's orphans. He gritted his teeth. Focus on the end game, B.

He quickly scanned the cameras again. Guess little sister isn't home. Fantastic, I don't have to worry about her for now it seems...

Beyond pulled out the papers, folding and shoving the documents in his jeans. This information could prove useful...at least I know your real name now Kira...Light...

He reached into the pockets of the knocked out surveillance team and found a cell phone. Scrolling through it, he found a number for 'W'.

"Watari...Wammy...whatever..." Beyond snickered and put it on silent, sliding it in his pocket before stepping out of the van and closing the doors. He hummed quietly to himself, looking across the street at the house before approaching it cautiously.

B knew he wouldn't get a lot of time in there, as he was sure that L had a direct feed to the inside of the house on his end as well. I don't know when or how often he might be checking the cameras, but it's at least 10 minutes from his hotel to the house.

The Alpha strode up to the front door, whistling a little tune as he quickly picked the lock. Child's play... He let himself in and re-locked the door.

As he walked through the house, a cell phone sitting in the living room caught his eye. He made sure the switch on that one was flipped to silent as well before continuing through the house, leaving it there on the table. On his way up the stairs, he pulled out a pre-paid phone he'd purchased earlier that day and entered the phone number for 'W' from the surveillance team member's phone. This won't be the same without the right audience...

xxx

L was intently focused on the case materials in front of him. Images of a charred corpse and the crime scene surrounding it. He pored over the details of each picture, typing up his notes and hoping to find something that would lead to Beyond's exposure and eventual capture.

Even after all L had seen during his time as a detective, this was a uniquely grotesque sight to behold. What are you trying to accomplish B? Why these Omegas...is it just fun and games to you? These are people's lives... The detective sighed and continued his work, his mind occasionally wandering to Light and their conversation earlier.

It's been a busy week, he just needs a break...I'll give him all of my attention tomorrow. We need to talk about increasing his security measures now anyways. L's face was grim as he considered the idea that one of the I or J Omegas they were monitoring could also be taken by Beyond.

I just need to know that Light is safe and secure as well...

"L" Watari strode quickly into the room holding a phone. "It's Beyond...he wants to talk to you. I don't know how he got this specific number. I only gave it to the surveillance teams." L's eyes grew wide, a chill running through him as he motioned for the older gentleman to hand him the phone.

"Use a different phone and begin calling the teams, see if anyone is not answering." He unmuted the phone. "Hello Beyond."

"Hi Lawli...it's been awhile..." The other voice purred dangerously, sending a shudder of disgust through the detective's body.

"What do you want B?" L remained calm, not wanting the other man to know he was getting a reaction from him.

"Oh, I just thought you might want to enjoy the private show that your boyfriend and I are going to put on for you..." L's breath caught as he ran across the room to the surveillance cameras and pulled up Light's house. Sure enough, there was Beyond...looking from head to toe like a carbon copy of L. The doppelganger blew a kiss at the camera and waved.

"If I really wanted to, I bet he wouldn't be able to tell the difference...I'm just that good L." B licked his lips lewdly at the camera. "But what would be the fun in that...I'm sure you're waaaay too gentle in bed." The dark haired serial killer grinned.

"I wonder if pretty boy likes it a little rough...guess there's only one way to find out." He hung up, leaving a stunned L staring at the cameras as the man left the phone in the hall and entered Light's bedroom.

"Watari, call all available security we have in the area that is not currently assigned to surveillance of the I and J Omegas. Have them armed and in route to meet us at Light's home immediately." L's voice held a barely contained rage as he directed the older man to his task.

The Alpha moved swiftly to his bedroom with a cold determination on his face and opened a small safe, pulling out a gun. After checking to make sure it was fully loaded, he closed the safe and returned to the main room. He slid on a pair of shoes and grabbed his jacket from Watari as they both walked out the door.

"I'm going to fucking kill him in the most painful way possible..." L growled angrily as they quickly made their way to the garage.

"That works for me." Watari remarked as he finished checking the clip of his own gun and glanced over at the Alpha with an icy, resolute expression on his visage.

xxx

"Mmhh..." Light was having the most wonderful dream of L. His eyes slowly opened to the dark shadows of his bedroom. He blinked sleepily before letting them flutter closed again. The brunette heard a shuffling noise and realized it was what must have woken him in the first place. He lifted his head slightly from where he lay on his stomach to look around and was startled, then pleased when he saw L standing at the foot of his bed.

He grinned lazily over his shoulder at the Alpha. "Couldn't stay away, huh?" Light stretched, his back bowing as he did. The Omega noted the sharp intake of breath from the raven haired detective and smirked as his head fell back on the pillow. "You know, I was having a dream about you...it was very rudely interrupted just now." He mumbled, still half-asleep.

"Hmmm...I guess I'll have to make it up to you." Light heard L mutter as he crawled onto the bed and straddled his body, hovering above him on all fours. The scent of the Alpha surrounded him and the brunette turned his neck to the side invitingly. The dark eyed older male growled lowly and Light couldn't help the needy whine that escaped him in response.

"L...please..." The Omega had been waiting all week and couldn't take any teasing right now. He just wanted the other man so bad...needed his touch.

Light was suddenly wide awake as the blankets were ripped off his body with a snarl from above him, alarming the young man. Strong hands roughly grabbed the waistband of his boxers yanking them down, causing Light to yelp in surprise. L chuckled lowly in response.

What's gotten into him tonight? His eyes widened, gasping as L's hands gripped his hips harshly and hitched them into the air to place his ass on display. "Oh god..." Light moaned lowly as the other man's fingers kneaded his taut round cheeks.

Light turned his head to look at L over his shoulder, only catching a glimpse of his lover's wild raven hair and dark eyes before the man's fingers laced through his brunette locks and tugged hard, causing him to cry out as the action sent a sharp pain racing across his scalp. L maintained his grip, roughly shoving Light's face down against the sheets. His knees pinning down the young man's calves to the bed as he tried to squirm.

"L, what are you...ah-hngh!" He gasped as two fingers plunged deep inside him with no warning and began to stroke in and out mercilessly. The young Omega whimpered in pain at the sudden intrusion, which only seemed to excite and encourage the Alpha, as he further increased the pace of the fingers thrusting inside him.

"Your tight little ass is just swallowing up my fingers isn't it? Such a slut for it aren't' you?" L shoved in a third finger moments later, eliciting a shocked cry from the young man at the burning stretch and then an involuntary moan as his prostate was grazed. No...I'm not a...this isn't ok...

"S-stop...I don't like this L!" Tears pricked at the corners of the brunette's eyes. Light pushed against the mattress with one arm, reaching back with the other to try and shove L away, but his wrist was quickly captured as the hand that had been holding his head down released his hair and grabbed it, pinning it behind his back.

"Mmm, I don't think that's true...you're getting so slick and ready for me baby, practically dripping." The raven haired male laughed lightly. "That's it, relax and open up that nice wet boy pussy for me." The Alpha's voice was dark and low as his fingers slowed down and began to lazily stroke deep inside, sliding across Light's prostate over and over, causing the young man to groan with pleasure before he could stop himself. Why does this feel good? He felt like his body was betraying him.

"See? You like that, don't you? Look at you, moaning like a whore...gonna be begging for me to fuck you soon. All Omega's are such cock hungry sluts...why am I surprised?" Light's entire being ran red hot with such anger that he felt his eyes must be glowing crimson. The sudden rage overrode the shock and distress that had been threatening to overwhelm him. He felt a fierce desire to fight back in any way he could against the Alpha's disrespectful words and actions.

"Go fuck yourself L! Get your hands off me now!" Light yelled at the other man as he began to struggle violently under his hold. The raven haired man cursed upon losing his grip on the young man's wrist. The Omega continued to fight against him, pushing his hands against the bed in an attempt to raise his upper body, so he could get away.

"L, let go! I told you, I don't-" The brunette felt a sudden blinding pain as a blunt force connected with the back of his head. He slumped forward, sprawled out flat across the mattress in a daze. The only comfort he thought briefly was that the Alpha was not touching him for the moment...a small victory.

All fight having left him and barely able to stay conscious as pain throbbed in his head, Light heard L speaking to him. However, the Alpha's voice sounded different now...rougher, darker.

"Looks like our time's about up...we'll have to continue this soon little one." The Alpha mused, denim brushing against bare skin as he lowered himself to sit on the back of the brunette's upper thighs, pinning his legs down as his hands ran along Light's back. His fingers alternated between sensual caresses and bruising pressure, as if the man couldn't decide which he liked more.

"I can't wait to tear you apart in every way possible. Make you bleed...hear you beg for me to stop..." His hands traveled further down as he cupped the Omega's ass and squeezed. Light let out a distressed whine, his fear evident in the pheromones that instinctively released in the air around him.

He felt the soft cotton of L's white shirt pressed against his back as the voice drew close to whisper in his ear. "...but I won't stop, I'll violate you in ways you never even dreamed of..."

Light whimpered and tried to turn his head away. I don't understand...what...why? Tears filled his eyes as he struggled to clear his head. He tried to make sense of things, but was having a hard time due to the rattled and disoriented state of his mind. Why is L saying...

"Maybe if you're lucky, I'll keep you around...a pretty thing to fuck whenever I want. To the victor goes the spoils they say…and you are a delicious little prize." The man sighed, running his fingers through the brunette's hair as his hot breath ghosted along his ear. "L always did have excellent taste and you're certainly proving to be no exception Light Yagami...Kira..."

A tongue licked up his neck and the young man cringed. It's not L...

"B..." The Omega mumbled accusingly. He heard a giggle right before teeth bit down viciously on his scent gland. The other man tore in deeply enough to instantly draw blood, causing Light to scream as red ran down his neck and stained the bed. He struggled weakly against the hold the Alpha had on him before he finally passed out.

Feedback, comments, questions? Do I dare ask? *Gulp*

So...this was an intense chapter to write. I must have revised and edited it about 50 times over the last week. Probably more.

We will see the ramifications from all of this continue to play out as the story progresses. Rest assured, it will not be all angst or sadness going forward, but this needed to happen for the characters and the story...it was always in the plans.

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