a/n: I own no rights to the Evanescence song quoted within this fic.

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

50 thousand tears I've cried

Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you

And you still won't hear me

Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once

Not tormented daily defeated by you

Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under

Going Under – Evanescence – Fallen

"Don't you see it Light?" Soichiro asked in that steady, reassuring voice the young man had always aspired to emulate someday. Others may have seen it as a small thing, to be able to provide such a thing with only your words, but Light knew it was so much more. That's why his father was the chief, why men and women within the NPA followed, admired and believed in him. His father was the perfect example of an Alpha male and he had never treated Light as anything lesser or incapable of great things simply because he was an Omega. He had been there to support and have confidence in his son every step of the way until…

They were sitting across from each other at the front, center table near the stage inside of Black Book. Light knew on some level that it was a dream, but had no desire to break the illusion as he smiled ruefully at his father and shook his head, apologetically. They stood, picking up their drinks and walking towards the bar.

"Let me put this a different way…don't you hear it Light? Think about it son, you're so smart. The similarities in their voices? He was-…." His father's mouth kept moving, but he couldn't hear him over the music that suddenly swelled up around them.

The room had changed, a crowd of people moving and swaying around them. He gazed upward and saw himself performing atop the bar, wearing the costume from his most recent circus routine. He watched himself pour water on Mikami, then travel down the bar to where Light and his father stood behind the blue-eyed Alpha who he'd teased because he'd been ignoring him…

"Who am I to deny Kira?"

"Dad…I can't…I don't understand." His father smiled and patted his shoulder encouragingly as he always had, before Light's vision became blurry. The brunette shook his head, hoping to clear his sight.

"Light…do you want some tea?" He heard Sachiko ask.

"Sure Mom, but isn't it a little…" He smiled, and then looked around at the dark, unlit interior of their home from the kitchen where they both stood. "…late for tea?"

"Of course not…we still have a guest after all, it can't be that late." His mother gestured to Beyond Birthday, who was making his way through the living room as if they weren't there. A confusing mix of fear and anger shot though the young Omega as he stood there frozen.

"Mom, we have to hide." He whispered.

"He's not after you and me…he's after what's upstairs." Light's mother calmly replied as she handed her son a cup of tea. Beyond looked straight at the young man and winked, blowing him a kiss before continuing on to the second floor.

"No! Mom…we can't let him do this." Light argued.

"But sweetie, it's already happening. By the way, did your dad ask if you'd heard it? How they sounded-" Light's eyes widened in fear at what was going on upstairs and he dropped the teacup. Somehow it made no noise as it shattered on the ground. What a strange thing. Light considered as he ran up the stairs, determined to stop Beyond.

No, I won't let him do this to me again…not again… The Omega threw open the door to his room, ready to fight, ready to…

"L…" He smiled in relief. The Alpha chuckled, smiling softly from where he sat on Light's bed waiting for him.

"Exactly who were you expecting?" He inquired curiously, raising an eyebrow and cocking his head to the side jokingly. "Should I be jealous?"

"Yeah, right." Light laughed at the ridiculous statement and in the next instant he was somehow in the man's lap, holding him close, feeling L's arms wrapping around his waist. He nuzzled the Alpha's neck.

"Never let me go…ok?" Light murmured, a smile on his face. He felt L nod and then the raven haired man's lips were kissing along his neck. The detective's teeth scraped teasingly the skin until they eventually bit down on his scent gland. It became painful as he suddenly dug in deeper. It's ok, because he's my Alpha…he cares about me…

The young Omega felt warmth spread out across his neck and moaned. "Ahh…ngh." Light gasped as the feelings intensified. The pleasurable sensation that danced along the edge of pain spreading to his chest and shoulder, before slowly dripping-

Wait…dripping? Light's eye's shot open with startled concern as he tried to push L off him. Shoving the other man's chest frantically in a panic until he pulled away and the brunette could see him.

Light was met with a pair of murderous red eyes and lips covered with blood. Beyond grinned at him and licked his lips salaciously. "Mmm…baby, you taste so good, I could eat you all up." B snapped his teeth at him playfully.

"Where's L…what did you do with him?" Light replied angrily, punching the other man in the face as best he could in such close proximity, before scrambling off him and rolling to the ground with a thud. The young man rose to his hands and knees, beginning to dart away towards the door.

"Doesn't matter baby boy…" Light felt Beyond grab one of his ankles, causing him to fall down on the floor again, flailing as the Alpha dragged him back screaming toward him.

"You don't have to worry about him anymore." B cooed at him. "All you have to do is spread those pretty legs and let me fuck you. We'll make a proper video this time, eh? Don't worry, I'll make you look real good sweetheart…get all the best angles."

"Where is L?" Light yelled at Beyond as the man held him down flat on his stomach against the floor, a hand at his back as he splayed the Omega's legs wide open using his knees to hold the younger man still. Light panicked further when he realized that he didn't know how or when he'd lost his clothes in the fight, they were just suddenly gone.

"He was here…I saw him, he was-" The young man whimpered, hating that his voice was so shaky and weak sounding. He was cut off mid-sentence and sent into a panicked frenzy as he heard the ominous sound of the other man's zipper lowering. He thrashed about under B's hold, straining to free himself as his heart tried to beat its way out of his chest.

"Where is…" The Omega struggled to gasp out against the floorboards.

"Oh, alright, I'll show you…" Beyond giggled as he dug his fingers in the brunette's hair. He pulled the silky locks tight, tearing painfully at the roots, as he turned the young man's head to the side.

"After all, who am I to deny Kira?" He murmured in his ear.

Then he could see him… The detective was tied to Light's desk chair, his eyes unseeing in death, covered in blood that had flowed down from a nearly decapitating gash at his neck.

Light screamed. He felt B's hands on his arms trying to hold him down, shaking him…

"Light! Light! Wake up!" Light's eyes snapped open. Black hair, pale skin filled his vision as he scanned his surroundings in a daze, reality and his dream blurring together.

"No!" His jumpy body's flight or fight instinct propelled him out of bed. Stumbling forward deliriously as the blankets tangled around his legs.

"Light! Stop!"

He walked several feet until he reached the middle of the bedroom and collapsed to his knees, breathless. Have to get away…

"Light…it's just me." L… The young man shivered as he looked at the Alpha male. "I'm going to put this blanket over you." He said, eyeing the Omega warily as he moved closer and leaned in to wrap it around him.

The brunette's eyes filled with tears until they finally started to pour out. Light reached forward to grasp the other man's shirt, pulling him close with a strangled cry as he fell into his arms. His hand ran along L's neck to reassure himself that the other man was whole, unmarred by violence. When he was finally content that L was safe, he laid his head against the man's chest and listened to his heartbeat while remnants of the dream replayed in his head.

"Who am I to deny Kira…"

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After a long while, Light felt himself being gathered up and carried, L's arms tight around him as they returned to the bed. The raven haired Alpha laid the exhausted brunette down, and was visibly surprised upon seeing Light's gold flecked gaze staring up at him, clearly the older man had thought him asleep. Like I could after that…

"You should try to get some rest." He murmured, climbing into the bed next to Light. The young man tangled his limbs with L's as the Alpha pulled him closer, the touch and contact was particularly reassuring after the terror of his nightmare. Once Light was nestled in, L began to soothingly run his fingers through errant strands of the Omega's hair, brushing them out of the young man's face.

L's safe…I won't let Beyond hurt him… Light thought, sighing contentedly before finally replying to the other man's suggestion.

"I can't right now…It's too fresh in my mind."

"Do you want to talk about it?" L inquired, a hopeful lilt to his tone.

"Not really…" Light muttered, rubbing his eyes sleepily. "But I think I realized something that might actually be relevant to the case. I'll let you determine if it's useful…"

L pulled the young man unbelievably tighter in his arms and kissed the top of his head. "Light, I care about you being ok, we can discuss the case in the mor-

"He was there L…Beyond was at Black Book watching me perform the other night…" The young man interrupted, silencing L, whose arms tensed around him. Light turned his head to peer at him, taking in the odd mix of anger and curiosity expressed on the Alpha's face.

"Why? Why would B take the chance? There are so many other ways he could've…" L said quietly, his brow furrowing, deep in thought.

"The voice was so similar…I'm sure of it now…" Light murmured off-handedly to himself.

L sat up in bed at his statement, clearly agitated as his eyes narrowed. "What do you mean? How did…How did he get close enough for you to hear him speak?" The detective's voice had an air of barely restrained violence and anger in it.

"Wavy auburn hair, dark blue eyes…black eyeglasses? Yes, and wearing a suit…" Light had put a hand over his weary eyes as he lie there, remembering. Ignoring the seething Alpha sitting in the bed next to him as he thought through everything with fresh eyes, now that he had this piece of information.

Beyond probably timed that poor Omega's death just so L wouldn't be there, so he'd be off investigating it and he could get near me to…wait… Light was confused. He didn't do anything. Why would B get that close to me and not try something? What was the purpose? The young man knew that they'd been surrounded by a crowd of people, but he had a feeling that it wouldn't be enough to stop B if he was determined to hurt him.

I mean, c'mon, it's not like he came for the show. He thought jokingly to himself. The young man paused at that thought, quickly recalling the dark look in the man's eyes at the club, the excited breathing of the killer as he held him down in his room later, his obvious arousal pressed hot and hard against Light's backside.

B was so…eager, riled up. The Alpha had been enjoying every minute of what he'd done to Light and not just because it was torturing L to potentially watch it…

No fucking way… Light was glad his face was partially hidden from L's view as his eyes widened. He'd always been good at reading people, but in the last year, he grown particularly talented in the area of gauging attraction and sexual response in others. It was necessary in his current job after all. All the signs are there…

B desires me, lusts for me, wants me…we can use this. Light realized as he let his mind travel to the dark vengeful place inside that he'd kept locked away since the attack. I can take advantage of this and-

"Well that settles it. You're definitely not going to work tonight." L stated authoritatively, his tone clearly implying the matter was not up for discussion. Light's hand flew off his face as he gave him an incredulous look.

Oh no you didn't… Light snorted derisively at the other man, who raised an eyebrow at the brunette's response. Overprotective Alpha male bullshit. He's not going to allow anything that lets me out of his sight or puts me in the slightest bit of danger. He narrowed his eyes as he looked at the raven haired male. And there's no way he'll let me attempt to draw B out or have the team use me as bait…

"I have to go L. I promised Rem and Gigi…they've been promoting it and everything apparently. You're being ridiculous. I'll be fine while I'm at- ahhh!" Light yelped as the Alpha rolled on top of him, pinning him down to the mattress and growling possessively.

"Dammit Light! He's bitten and bled you, almost raped you, killed other Omegas…what is it going to take for you to listen?!" L's words were ones of reason, but his eyes were full of fear for the younger man, his voice betraying him as it cracked.

"L…" He said softly, wriggling one arm free to reach up and run his fingers along the side of his face. "It's ok…I'm ok….I'm right here, safe. He's not going to take me away from you." Light ran his thumb softly across L's lower lip.

B will use this…how much you care about me, against you. He'll use it to torture you emotionally or to trap and kill you…he has to be stopped. Light determined resolutely. I'll do whatever it takes to keep you safe L. The raven's gaze softened with Light's touch and his hold loosened, allowing the brunette to draw close enough to brush their lips together with a sigh.

"Light…" The man's half-lidded eyes were filled with desire, delighting the Omega and igniting a slow burning fire in his gut that had him spreading his legs wordlessly, inviting the other man to take what he so clearly wanted…what they both needed.

The man took first Light's, then his own scant clothing off before nuzzling the younger man's neck. He slid himself between the toned thighs and the brunette's breath hitched at just how right it felt for L to be there. Skin against skin. Nothing between them. Light wrapped his arms around the other man's back, running his hands up and down along the pale skin. I can't lose this…I can't let anything happen to him.

"You're so goddamn beautiful." He murmured almost reverently against Light's jaw as his fingers traveled slowly downward along the brunette's body, mapping out every inch with his hands.

His thumb stroked gently along a swath of the softest skin, at the place where the Omega's inner thigh met his groin. It was a place that experience had taught both of them was highly sensitive for the young man. Light let out a needy whine at the expert caress of his fingers, already hard and dripping from just a few simple touches. Want him…so bad…

"I love the sounds you make for me…like you're just going to fall apart at any moment." The raven remarked as his hand wrapped around Light's weeping erection and began to pump steadily.

"L, please…" The younger man groaned, his hips bucking into the Alpha's hand. The other man shushed him soothingly, kissing and nibbling gently against Light's collarbone as his hand once more continued its descent, delving between the brunette's cheeks to finger his entrance. He spread the moist arousal of his slick around the rim before sliding one long digit in knuckle deep.

God, his hands… Light moaned lowly, arching with pleasure. His nails dug into L's back as he opened him up, soon adding second finger. The brunette panted as a wonderful jolt ran through him when L found his prostate, tightening up involuntarily around the thrusting fingers and letting out a whine.

"Damn Light…when you get all tight around my fingers like that…" He muttered, sliding a third inside. "Makes me so fucking hard."

"L…I need you." Light said shakily in the detective's ear, tugging on the man's lobe with his teeth. "Now…now…" He practically chanted under his breath in a whispered plea, writhing beneath the other man.

The Alpha's drenched fingers slid out of him, leaving an emptiness that Light abhorred, but knew would be swiftly remedied. L quickly ran his slick covered hand along the length of his own cock, getting it ready before positioning himself at the other man's opening.

The head of L's length was nestled between the globes of his ass, the tip rubbing against his eager hole, begging entrance. It was the most exquisite torture Light could imagine, those moments of waiting for L to slide himself inside. "Slowly…" The younger man whispered. "I want to feel every inch of you filling me up."

"Fuck Light…" L's voice was strangled with need as he began to press in, his thick cock breaching the tight ring of muscle and causing Light to gasp at the delicious overwhelming sense of the other man. L's body, his scent…it felt like he was all around him, inside him, enveloping him…everywhere.

Light wriggled and groaned as L shifted the younger man's hips, finally pressing in the last inch that was always the most challenging for him to take in the beginning. He sighed softly, growing accustomed to the stretch. Light captured the Alpha's mouth in a kiss as he enjoyed the feeling of the man's hips against his skin while he was bottomed out so deep inside of him.

"I think it might be a sin to pull out even an inch from this amazing ass." L said breathily as he pulled away from their kiss and circled his hips, grinding up impossibly deeper into Light. The detective smiled as the brunette's head fell back, mouth dropping open as he let out a guttural moan.

"Ngnhh…move L…fucking move…" Light whimpered. L complied, setting an agonizingly leisurely pace. Pulling out nearly all the way, so only the tip of him remained inside the young man before sliding smoothly back in to the hilt, brushing against the Omega's prostate on nearly every pass.

L whispered words of praise in his ears, told the brunette just how crazy he was driving him with every thrust. It wasn't long before the heat from the slowly stoked flames caught Light unprepared, becoming a bonfire in his gut that consumed him completely.

"Oh god…ahh-hnhh…" Light buried his head against the other man's shoulder as he lost all coherent thought, shuddering violently as he came hard against their stomachs.

L waited until Light's orgasm had subsided and then began to thrust in hard and fast, taking the young man's breath away with the need and affection in his eyes. It wasn't long before he had buried himself in Light, his hot release spilling inside the young man. It was beautiful…to see the dreamy quality pass over the Alpha's face as he reached completion. I love him so much…

I do…I love him…

I'd do anything to keep him safe. Light thought to himself, smiling softly, tiredly at L as he ran fingers across the man's neck to remind himself that he was safe and undamaged.

I just hope he'll forgive me when this is all over.

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