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We have been driving for hours, I don't know here Chloe took us but it was miles away from Chicago. Ages ago, Zeke and Shauna swapped seats with Christina and Colin again, he decided he would drive and let Christina sleep. So now it's me and Colin still awake, but I'm sat the back and we couldn't speak without waking anyone up. I don't even know if he knows that I'm not sleeping.
I can't sleep; I'm tired but so awake at the same time. I can't stop fidgeting and I can't tell if I'm worried or the my messed up brain is making me do it. Every so often I think I'm going to sleep because my eyes close for several seconds but then they dart open again. Tobias is lay next to me his head slightly touching my hip, snoring loudly in chorus with everyone else.
It must be around 8 o'clock now; I feel like its suitable time now to wake up Tobias. I whisper his name a few times and his blue eyes snap open.
"Good morning." Tobias says.
He holds my hand and leans closer to kiss me on my exposed collarbone. I get freaked out and push him away. It's all happening way too fast, I barely know the guy. He looks at me confused and I deserve to give him an explanation.
"I know we dated for ages but can we please slow down a bit? I don't even know you." He moves back to his seat and lets out a sigh.
"I'm sorry, I forgot about your memory wipe. I thought you were normal again and everything was like it used to be." He says frustrated.
"Normal?!" I shout.
"Tris-" He begins.
We are interrupted by Colin shouting to everyone, especially Christina, to wake up because we are just going past Erudite now. Most of them yawn and stretch. I turn around from Tobias and look outside the window, the Erudite compound looks empty, I wonder what side they are on ours or The Fringe. Tobias tries to talk to me again but I don't listen.
We park just outside of Dauntless and start walking towards a tunnel at the side the main building and it leads us to the heart of it all, the Pit. The whole room is filled full of people, all looking forward the front, intensely. We try to make our way through the end of the crowd by bushing but that doesn't wake, we don't make a dent.
"Were back! Not that any of you seem to care. Where's the welcoming party, guys?" Zeke screams sarcastically.
A few turn around and look some looks annoyed but they see Tobias and I and they look genuinely respectful or happy that we have come back. They part through the middle making a pathway for us all to walk through. We start walking, me at the back, Tobias at the front. My head hurts, my brain keeps trying to break the barrier to the memories with Tobias, but it can't. My Hands still shake. Before I put them into my pockets I realise how bony they are, I shudder and hide them in my trouser pocket. As I pass each one, I realise they are staring t me, I try to look normal and try to keep in line with everyone else. I also realise that not all of them are dressed in black, some blue are dotted around the pack. My leg starts twitching and it makes my leg give way every step. Luckily, we are near the front and I walk up to the elevated platform. Johanna Reyes and Evelyn Johnson-Eaton are standing their waiting for us.
"Welcome back to Dauntless." Johanna smiles. "I am sure everyone is wondering why we are year and most importantly why is Erudite here and amidst our crowd."
I look at the front of the crowd and the whole first half is packed full of blue. I try to look at Johnanna but her voice keeps multiplying and I can hear it right behind me, in the crowd, down below and like someone is directly above me.
This all happens all at once and I can't decipher that she is saying because they all overlap each other. I lift my hands to put them over my ears to block the sound out, but I see just the skeleton, just the bones of my hands and I stare at it and wonder how it isn't bleeding and how am I even alive. My ears start ringing. I can't see the crowd any more, just Tobias in front of me. He pulls out a vial of a blue liquid. "
I'm going to erase my memory. It's not fair that you don't remember me. It should be equal. I want it to be equal." Tobias declares. "Don't, I love you and I like that you can remember things about me. It's special y'know." I plead
" I love you and that's why I'm doing this. I have to." He argues.
"If you loved me you wouldn't do it!" I shout
"I'm sorry." He whispers.
He screws the lid off and I shake my head, he just smiles and swallows every last drop.
"Who are you?" He demands.
"It's me, Tris but you can't remember me."
"What did you do to my memory? Are you going to kill me?" He shrieks.
"No. Of course not. Come on, let's go." I say.
He doesn't move I come closer and try to explain what happens and I accidently graze his hand. He picks me up and throw me to the ground but it that's ages to fall. I hit the cold concrete.
This can't be real, this can't happen. This wouldn't happen.
It's not real.