Authors note: BTW. In the last chapter, the ending was in bold to show that part that wasn't real.
I need to wake up. It's like sleep but I can't escape. My whole body feels like it's shut down, but my brain is still working. I try to pretend it's like a simulation.
Picturing a blue door, I walk forward. It starts to fade and I sprint towards it. The door fades too quickly. Repeating 'it's not real' makes it reappear long enough to open it.
I'm in a grey hospital room full of bleeping machines with red lights flickering on and off. My arms are held down with some rope loosely tied around my metal bed. Where's Tobias?
I slip my wrists through the loop of the rope and tear the tubes from my arms. When I leap off the bed I see Tobias running into my room.
"Get back to bed!" He shouts.
"I'm fine. I just felt a little dizzy." I lie.
"We both know that's not true." He argues.
"I want to go home. I'm no use here, there's more important thing going on, do even you remember about the war?" I plead.
"There's nothing more important then you."
"We both know that's not true." I reply.
"Go to bed" he commands
"Where's Evelyn?" I question.
"Dining hall. Why'd you ask?"
"I need to speak to her." I mumble.
Tobias sighs but let's me go past.
Entering the dining room, I notice that I am still in my white gown. I must look crazy. Still, I march forward and stop and the end of Evelyn's table.
"I was expecting you to come to me, I'm sure you want to know what is going on," I nod in agreement and she continues, "as you can probably tell, the Erudite have joined us to fight what we like to call 'The Smokers. We are not the only ones in this fight."
"Since most of the experiments are in danger, about three quarters have formed the alliance with us, the others with 'The Smokers' because now they know they are experiments they want to punish the Government and everyone else." Evelyn states.
"What about the bureau?" I ask.
"Nobody knows what side they are on. Some of the rescued fringe people live there, so it's risky to be partners with them and also we are not a big fan of theirs either." Christina says behind me.
"When can I fight?" I ask sternly.
The leaders, a few other Dauntless members and an Erudite an exchange a thoughtful stare with sad expressions.
Christina grabs my arms and tries to move me away from the table, "I think you should get some rest."
"No!" I shout.
"Do you think you can handle it, especially in your condition?" Johanna asks.
"I'm perfectly capable." I say.
"If you are sure about this, you will start training tomorrow with the Erudites and learn the basics again. If we see―"
"I don't need to learn the basics, I know how to fight." I interrupt.
"You are weak. The gas has made you like this, ill and unpredictable. You are lucky I have allowed you to have a chance. If we see that you are indeed capable, you will fight with us. No arguments. You should get some rest, training starts at six." Evelyn demands.
"How do you know we can trust them?" I look over at the analysing Erudite.
"We are not as monstrous as you think, we were forced to work for Jeanine. We all feel genuinely sorry about the whole thing, but right now we are allies; we have to trust each other." He says.
"I understand." I say.
Even though it's all most eleven, I don't feel tired at all, more alive than I have in days. I decide to wander the halls. The Erudites have their own rooms now but still there is abandoned houses. I go to Tobias' old room and have a look inside. He is sat on the edge of his bed, positioned to face the door, asleep. He must have waited for me but became fatigued. In his hand he clutches a necklace with our faces painted on it. I call his name and he sleepily open his eyes. I help him to stand up and climb under the sheets. He is still half asleep but he manages to mumbles some words. "I'm sorry. Come to bed?"
"I've just got to go somewhere." I say softly.
He carries on snoring. The necklace drops on the floor and I walk over and pick it up. I close the door and start walking.
Suddenly, I become unable to breathe properly. I start feel claustrophobic and I can't stand being underground. I run to the exit and run towards the train tracks. As soon as I get outside, my breathing goes back to normal. I sit down by the rocks with the necklace still in my hand, I start fiddling with it.
I close my eyes and try to rest. Voices start shouting in my head. First it starts with Caleb asking why I didn't help him. He keeps calling me selfish, over and over again. Then my mom, with a shaky voice telling me that he was the one I should have saved. Eric takes over and taunts me about Tobias and how he's glad I can't remember him. Thrilled to bits. I try to open my eye but they are glued shut. I start screaming but that doesn't stop out the screeching inside my head.
I feel like I'm drowning. My eyes snap open and I can see and brown haired Erudite in front of my face. My face is drenched with his water. I reach into my trouser pocket frantically looking for a weapon. She doesn't look concerned at my obvious plan to attack, so I stop. She doesn't want to kill me.
"Night terrors?" she asks.
"Yeah." I reply.
Authors note: let me know what you want to happen to Tris next in the reviews. Any ideas?