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I walk back to Tobias' room to find him awake and lay on the floor next to the right side of the bed.
"Why are you on the floor?"
"I woke up and thought about things for a while. Thought about us." He says sadly.
Oh no. He's going to dump me, if we are still in a relationship. He must be angry that I left and doesn't want to see me anymore.
"Tris, don't look so worried. I was just thinking about changing a few things. Firstly, I know this aren't the same anymore and you shouldn't be under this much pressure to love me. Can we, I was just hoping that, we could be friends? I can't lose you." Tobias asks desperately.
"Yes of course, you'll never lose me. So why are you on the floor?" I say quickly.
"I couldn't expect you to share a bed with a stranger." Tobias mumbles.
I feel guilty, it's obvious that this is breaking his heart and I keep pushing him away. It's not fair.
"Tobias, this is your bed. If anything, I should be sleeping on the floor. Why don't we share it?" I say the last bit nervously.
"You sure?" He asks hopefully. I nod back.
We get under the covers of the black blanket, both fully clothed, he turns on side to face me.
"We will get a cure and your memory back. I promise." He assures.
We both lie on the edge of both sides of the wooden bed. I want to be closer and I know his waiting for me to close the space. I try to work out a way to do it subtly.
"You thinking about something?" He asks.
Impulsively, I shuffle towards him and lie my head on his chest. He's shocked but not tense. Even though my cheeks are hot, I feel more relaxed than I have been in a while.
He chuckles and says, "that was not what I saw expecting."
"Did I disappoint you?" I ask cheekily, feeling more confident by the minute.
"Of course not." He wraps his hands around the middle of my back, I feel electric.
I think about telling him about everything that's happened to me, all the messed up imaginary things but I can't remember if he's trustworthy or not. My gut feeling tells me my secrets are safe with him so I tell him everything including Alaska.
After I explain the story he says again, now more determined, "we have to find a cure."
"I know."
"Don't panic, but I went to amity earlier and I got you some medicine, it sleeping tablets. I know you might not want to take them but I think you should, I've noticed that you haven't been sleeping at all." He gets out a plastic tub filled with small tablets.
"I'll take them."
Strangely, I'm not tired but I'm getting exhausted, I need to sleep soon.
He gets me a glass of water and I already miss his touch. I swallow them and we get back under the blanket, same position as before.
"We'll just wait until they work.
It's been four hours and I don't feel any more fatigued, my body is weak and tired but I'm fully awake.
"I think that the gas won't let any medicine reverse the damage it's caused to my brain. Somehow it's immune to it. I don't think there can be a cure for it." I say depressingly.
"There has to be a cure. The people who made this are geniuses and they wouldn't risk making gas this powerful if they didn't have a way to stop it." Tobias says stubbornly
"You're probably right." I try to remain hopeful.
I try to convince him to sleep because he'll be tired without sleep unlike me, but he adamantly persists to stay awake the whole night. It's now time for my training while Tobias is on patrol with Zeke to inspect one of The Smokers bases. He told me that they might not even enter the camp, not if they are outnumbered and they aren't there to start the war. I'm worried that something is going happen to him, I'm sure there is going to be hundreds of guards waiting to shoot them as soon as they arrive. It's time for us both to depart.
"I don't want you to go, it's too dangerous and I can't be there to help you." I say standing in front of the door.
"Tris, I need you to trust me. If you had your memory, you'd know that we are the best soldiers out there, I can do this. I promise I'll come back tonight in one piece." He says honestly.
I know I have to let him go, he should be fine but I don't want to risk losing him.
He walks closer to me, so close I can feel his warm breath.
"I will be fine." Tobias swears.
I suddenly have the urge to kiss his lips, I can't wait any longer. I move my hand to his neck and I can feel his on mine. I reach up and we share a kiss that instantly fills me with excitement and affection.
"You better be."