I've just starting walking when Christina runs towards me from behind.
"Hey Tris. You on your way to training?" She asks.
"Yeah."
"I heard about the patrol. We're all worried to be honest but we have our best people out there including your Tobias and my Colin. They are basically invincible, nothing can kill them." She smiles.
"I know."
I'm trying to forget about it so I'll be able to function instead of fretting about the impossible.
"So, tell me the gossip. How are you and Tobias?"
I'm glad she's moved onto a different topic. "Were good. I'm just taking it slow for now and his okay about it." I stop outside the initiates training room where the training is taking place.
"That's great, I knew you would stick together. I'm so sorry about everything that's happened to you, you don't deserve it." Her smile not quite reaching to her eyes.
"Thank you. I've got to go now, don't want to be late." I say.
"I thought I should mention that I'm one of your teachers and your left hand is shaking." She hold it to stop it moving. I put it in my trousers pockets.
Without another word, we walk in. She stands next to Zoe at the front. I scan the crowd and see Alaska standing near the back of the room and join her. After a brief introduction we are assigned our own guns to assemble and then fire. We go to our individual tables and start slotting pieces together.
My hand is still trembling and I'm finding it hard to the gun. Alaska, who is stood next to me, has completed hers. She's not allowed to help, there we strict instructions about giving others assistance in this section. I watch her as she looks at the person to the right of her. Making it look like an accident, she slips and swipes her arm across the edge of his table sending a small black part flying across the floor. He sighs and slowly walks over to pick it up. Christina shouts at him to hurry up and all eyes are on him while Alaska finishes my gun quickly.
"Thank you." I say quietly to Alaska.
She smirks as the Erudite man returns to his spot. "You need to stop being so clumsy Alaska, it might get you in trouble."
"I'll bear that in mind Charlie."
I'm surprised that they know each other but then I realise they came from the same faction, I forget that she came from Erudite sometimes, she fits in here really well. We walk to our targets, thankfully my hand is fine now.
I look around and watch other people shoot. Most of them are terrible and almost fall over when it recoils. Some are doing all right for a first try. The instructors are helping with the other side of the room, they try hard to help as many people as possible but there is about two hundred people here and not everyone can receive guidance. I take my first shot and get in right in the middle. Other stare and clap their hands. After about 50 minutes they tell us to take a break.
Everybody is talking except me. I keep hearing my name in hushed whispers. I'm really confused, could they be talking about my illness? They turn and look at me.
"We've been talking and you could really use you as an instructor." Zoe says.
Of course I will help, I'd be stupid not too. The stakes are high, they either become successful soldiers or die in the battle.
"All of us know we're pretty bad at this but we can learn, if you help us." An Erudite women says.
"We found out that you lost a part your memory. We are pretty sure that we can restore it, we are very smart combined." Alaska says kindly.
The thought of getting my memory back fills me with hope. I can finally remember all the memories with Tobias and me.
"You would do that?" I ask.
"We would be happy too." Alaska says.
"Thank you. Let's get back to work, no time to waste. Right?"
Everybody gets back into position turns around and looks at the middle. I set up a target in the centre, so everybody can see.
"I want you all to copy my stance, strongest leg in front. Hold the gun tightly in both hands. Aim for the centre, breathe in and shoot." I repeat again and again giving them time between each step to copy.
I stop demonstrating and go around help the other people, luckily nothing strange happens to me while I'm doing this.
Alaska calls me over. I watch her shoot straight in the middle.
"Well done." I look at her arms they are full with goose bumps and her lips are a little blue.
"Wear this. You are shivering and everyone else is sweating. Wear this." I take off my black jumper and give it her.
"Cheers."
"They're back!" Christina shouts.
We both sprint down the corridors to the pit and join the crowd of mainly dauntless dashing to the net, they will be jumping down any second. This must mean that nobody is injured or they would have gone down the ground entrance. When we arrive, a gun falls first into the net and I quickly pull it out. A moment later Colin drops into the net. Christina squeals and puts her hand out to grab him. He hugs her tightly.
Another gun falls and someone grabs it. A bundle of black falls from the sky. As soon as he hits it, he bursts out laughing. Zeke pulls himself out and dives to Shauna. Tobias lands and I help him off.
He lands right in front of me, he leans in. I lift my chin up and kiss him slowly. I cuddle him, my head on his fast beating heart.
"I need to tell you something." I say.