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"What do we do now?" I ask.
"Carry on with our lives. Since I'm technically in charge now, I need to start figuring out a plan of attack and you need to look after people, make sure they are ready for war." He says.
"Just like that?"
"Yes, just like that." He confirms
"What about the funeral?"
"What?" He ask, completely taken aback.
"Evelyn's."
He mumbles, "We don't have time."
"Tobias…"
"Now, we will have it now. Let's get it over with right now." He looks disgusted at what he just said.
"That not what I meant." He asserts me.
"You said we." He looks at me confused, "When you talked about the funeral, you said we but I can't go in there. I… I murdered her."
"Sorry, force of habit. I don't expect you to go. I'm not going to force you too either. So I guess, I'll see you later, okay?"
"I'll go make the announcement." He says
"Be brave, Tobias."
He walks out of the door and I can't help feeling guilty.
I hope he will be able to cope. He's quite strong but I'm not certain that he handle this. Having your mom die from your girlfriends hand is so devastating. I know it's going to take a while for him to forgive me completely and I know that I should keep my distance. The last thing I want is to push him away. It's going to be tough for both of us.
Most of my friends will probably be at the funeral comforting Tobias and paying their respects. Alaska probably won't be. As an Erudite, she probably didn't even know her last name. When I reach her room, it's unlocked and nobody is inside. There's dust on the table and her bed is still made. It's like she's never even stayed here.
I wonder where she is. She could be looking for me, had another gas related simulation or maybe she has gone to the funeral to comfort Dale. Would Dale even want to go? I'm not sure. I decide to search around Dauntless to try and find her. Cautious of staying away from the pit where I'm sure the funeral must be happening, I go to Tobias' apartment. She's not there either. Alter twenty minutes of checking rooms, I find Alaska lying down at the side of the hallway. The same hallway that I used to go to during initiation. Hardly anyone walks down here, so it's a good place to hide and get away from it all.
I get closer to her, trying to be as quiet as I can because she looks like she's asleep and she probably won't want me to wake her up. I take another step toward her and her eyes dart open and she tilts her head until she can see me.
"I'm not asleep. Haven't crashed in about a week." She says irritably.
She looks ill, her eyes have darkened and her skin is paler. She tried to cover it up with subtle makeup but I can tell it's not she same. Her large black coat conceals her torso and her thighs but I can see her most of trousers are starting to get worn out and her shoes are muddy. Alaska always likes to keep up appearances to others and act like the gas didn't affect her that much. If she knew I was coming to see her today, she'd probably change clothes and make herself look like she was heathier.
"How many simulations you been having?" I ask, knowing that she tells the truth to me.
"Enough to know I'm not well and probably going to die soon."
"I wish were more resistant to it. I hate being the healthy one when you are sick. You must hate me sometimes." I feel more and more guilty now.
"Hardly ever."
"So where have you been sleeping? I checked your apartment first before I came here, doesn't look very lived in." I ask.
"Don't tell Dale but the nights that I'm not with him, I go on the train to somewhere."
"Why don't you just sleep in your own apartment?"
"I like to be outside, it's so mysterious at night. It's became a habit, I used to do it all the time in Erudite. I made up a lot of lies to be able to do it but I got away with it. It actually amazing, I can go anywhere I want." Alaska admits.
"Sounds pretty good. It has to be more exciting than sleeping underground."
"Funeral, today right?"
"Right. I feel pretty awful. There is so many other things I could've done and she would still be alive. I shouldn't have pulled the trigger, I could have knocked it out of her hands but I didn't. I could've reminded her that if she killed me, Tobias wouldn't have forgiven her."
"It's not like you killed an innocent child though is it? She killed Johanna, tried to kill you and would've probably ended up in jail at some point anyway."
"I know. You're right."
"Alaska!" Dale shouts at the other side of the hallway.
"Yeah?"
"Gemma's out of surgery and she wants to speak with both of you." He yells.
We get up and walk to him. Alaska and Dale stay a little distance away from each other and don't hug or anything. I'm guessing they are just good friends and are not dating.
"What's it about?" I question.
"I'm not sure, she said it was urgent."
"Great!" She says sarcastically.
"Maybe it's good news." I say trying to remain positive.
"I could do with some of that right now." Alaska says.