Chapter 5:

"Robin," Regina stutters. "We can't do this."

He shakes his head and whispers, "I know, but for just a single moment I wanted to feel like the universe wasn't about to crush me and my heart wasn't about to explode." He takes a deep breath and steps away from her and looks at her with tears in his eyes as he says, "I need a minute to clear my head. If Roland comes down and asks where I am, just tell him I went to pick something up."

"Robin, I-"

He cuts her off and says, "this isn't your fault Regina. I just need a moment." Regina watches him as he walks out the door with a look of despair on his face.

Regina sighs deeply as she sits on the couch and begins to sob. How did everything turn to shit? Why does he need all this time when he's the one that caused this pain? How the hell could he do this? Regina's thoughts trail off to all of the wonderful times they had together as she begins to cry even louder. She places her hand over her mouth to quiet her sobs so the boys won't hear her.

Regina's moms words flash in her mind love is weakness. She pushes that thought away quickly. She is not the person she used to be. Love is not her weakness, it is her strength no matter how much pain it causes her.

Robin sits at the bar with Little John by his side. He buries his face in his hands as he lets out a frustrated sigh. "All I wanted to do was make her happy. She deserves the world and I kissed another woman. I just don't understand this. I guess I'm better off alone. I've caused her so much pain. She doesn't deserve this. I don't deserve someone as wonderful as her." Robin takes a deep breath as he continues, "I love her so much. I don't know if I would ever be able to live without her. I never thought I would fall so deeply in love with her so fast. She wasn't even what I was looking for, but as soon as I laid eyes on her I knew that she was the one that I wanted to be with. I know that sounds cheesy and cliché, but it's the honest to god truth. She is amazing with Roland and I know that he sees her as his mum. I just don't know what I'm going to do at this point. All I want is for her to be happy."

Robin breaks down as he lets his heart out to John. Little John puts his hand on Robins shoulder to comfort him as he says, "I believe that you are what makes her happy. You just need to give her time."

Robin sighs, "I don't see how giving her time is going to fix the pain I've caused her."

John furrows his brows and says, "I know that time can't fix all of the pain you've endured on her, but it can give her the space she needs to think about what she's going to do next. I know she loves you and I know that she would never leave you no matter what you do, because her love for you is so strong."

Robin looks down and replies, "that's what scares me. I don't want her to stay with me if she hurt. I want the best for her even if it's not with me. I just want her to be happy."

Little John states, "Robin how many fucking times do I have to tell you that you are her happiness. I've seen the way she looks at you, she looks at you like you are her whole world. I know that you don't believe you deserve her after what you have done, but you do. You guys have been through so much and you are still together. Most people would have split up after all of that. You guys are Soulmates and I truly believe that you can get through anything. You don't even know what really happened at Camelot. I know that I'm going to sound a lot like Snow when I say this, but stay hopeful."

Robin looks at his friend with so much gratitude as he replies, "thank you."

John smiles at him and says, "if you ever need to talk again, you know where to find me." Robins stands up and walks out of the bar with more hope than he has ever had.

Regina hears Roland running down the stairs and she quickly wipes away her tears and forces a smile on her face. Roland frowns when he sees her and asks, "where's daddy?"

She pulls him onto her lap and says, "he went to go get something. Do you want me to call him?"

Roland shakes his head no and replies, "I'm sleepy, can you tuck me in?"

She kisses his forehead and replies, "of course."

Regina covers him up and places a kiss on his forehead and tells him Goodnight. She turns to leave, but Roland calls out her name and she turns around. Roland looks down and blushes. Regina brings his face up and asks him what's wrong.

Roland whispers, "nothings wrong. I was just wondering... If I can call you mommy?"

Regina's face lights up as she replies, "of course you can. As long as I can call you my little outlaw." Roland giggles as he shakes his head up and down quickly.

She pulls him into a hug and says, "goodnight my little outlaw. I love you."

He grins as he replies, "goodnight mommy. I love you too." Regina walks out of his room with a huge smile on her face.

She walks downstairs and notices Robin on the couch and her smile fades. "You've been gone for hours. I'm just glad Roland didn't come down here earlier," Regina hisses.

He lifts his head up and replies, "I know. I'm sorry. I was just trying to figure out how to work all of this shit out."

Regina retorts, "and you couldn't of just tried to talk to me about working this out?"

Robin frowns as he says, "I have been trying to work this out with you. We -"

"All that has really been said is some bullshit about how you want me to be happy without you, even though I've told you a dozen times that you are my happiness -"

Robin interrupts Regina and retorts, "I know that I am what makes you happy, but has it ever occurred to you that I can also be what ruins you and causes you pain."

"I know how much pain love can cause Robin and I never would've imagined you causing any amount of that. We are going to ruin each other, but we are also going to be the ones to pick up the pieces," Regina shouts.

Tears begin to form in Robins eyes as he says, "I don't want to hurt you so much that we have to pick up the pieces."

Regina whispers, "neither do I, but I would rather pick up pieces than not be with you."

Robin presses his forehead against hers and presses a kiss to her brow and says, "I'm sorry for yelling."

She backs away from him and give him a smile that doesn't quite reach her eyes as she replies, "it's fine."

He shakes his head, "no its not. I've already endured so much pain and I know that fighting with you isn't going to help anything. I'm just so frustrated with myself that I'm taking it out on the wrong people."

Regina nods and give him a sad smile as she replies, "I know how that feels and I've done a lot worse. Now if we are going to try and piece this back together we should talk, but after today I need my space. You can bring Roland out anytime he wants to see me, but I can't see you for a while. I hope that you can understand that. I'm trying my best not to get Roland mixed up in this mess that I call my life, but there is only so much I can do. So what do you think we should tell him so he doesn't assume that we are breaking up? Because that's the last thing that I want him to think."

Robins eyes brim with tears as he replies, "I will give you all the space you need. As for Roland I can just tell him the same thing that I told him the last time. I will tell him that you need some space from me to sort some things out and that it doesn't mean that we are breaking up it just means that you need some time to think about our relationship. I will make it clear to him that he can see you as much as he wants as long as you aren't busy."

"Thank you for being so understanding. The first thing that I will do tomorrow is talk to Emma to see if she had a hand in this," Regina replies.

"And what are we going to do if she didn't have a hand in any of this," Robin says as he holds back a sob.

A tear slides down Reginas cheek as she replies, "honestly Robin I don't know what will happen. I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive you if it wasn't a manipulation caused by Emma. I don't believe that you would cause me this much pain on purpose. It would tear me apart if you ended up falling in love with someone else in Camelot. I love you with my whole soul, but honestly the only thing that's keeping me from not completely breaking down is that all of this could be a manipulation. It scares me to death that if we get our memories back from Camelot that you will want to be with this woman and you'll leave me. If what you may have had with this woman is just a fling, then it would hurt me deeply that you would cheat on me for something that isn't even love. It is driving me crazy thinking about all the possible scenarios . So, if this isn't a manipulation I will probably break down, because I can't see my life without you in it. You are my everything, I would have never thought that I would fall so deeply in love with you so fast. The sad thing is, no matter how much this could hurt me, I would still want to be with you. If you really did cheat on me, I would still love you and care for you. And I think that is what scares me the most."

Robin weeps. It takes him a few minutes to recover before he beings to speak. "If this turns out to be real I want you to leave me and never forgive me. I would not deserve to have your love. I never imagined that I would hurt you as much as I am. I can never imagine kissing another woman or being in love with someone that isn't you." Robin wraps his arms around Regina and hugs her as he whispers, "I'm so sorry."

Regina hugs him back as she sobs. She pulls back to look at him as she says, "I don't want to lose you"

Robin replies, "nor do I."

There is a knock at the door that startles both Regina and Robin. Regina looks at the clock and says, "who would come over at this hour." Robin shrugs as he wipes away his tears.

Regina opens the door and her face goes pale as the woman that is at the door asks, "is Robin here?"

Note: I am sorry that this took me so long to update. December is always such a busy time for me. From here on out I will be updating a lot quicker than I have been. I hope you like this chapter. Please review and feel free to leave suggestions. Thank you!