"If you leave me and I die, it'll be your fault."

"Its war. It's kill or be killed."

I run away, with the cure tucked tightly in my pocket, before I can change my mind.

I hear his sobs and I hear a thump. He must have fell to the floor.

"Christina?"

I open the door.

"Tris!"

Christina stands up from kneeling by Alaska's side to join me at the door. I move forward to allow space for the door to close. She looks down and her bloody hands and back at me, as if considering whether to hug me or not. She looks up at my jumper and sees the blood on my camouflaged shirt. Her eyes brows raise but I can't take it anymore. I hug her tightly, the warmth of her body numbing my sadness slightly. A gurgle makes me snap out of this embrace.

I look over to see Gemma holding Alaska. Her face is pale and her eyes are closed but her chest is still moving. My eyes slowly move down her body towards her stomach.

"So did you get the cure?"

I'm snapped out of my gaze and I fumble for the flask out of my pocket.

"Yeah. Yes of course."

I open the secret compartment, and refill the syringe.

"How do you know this works?"

"I came back to life using this, is that proof enough for you?

"Wait. You died?" Christina asks hugging me sideways.

"Yes, but that doesn't matter right now."

I take her wrist and almost place the needle inside of her but before I do I look at her stomach.

I can feel them two staring at me in confusion.

"What are you waiting for?" Christina asks impatiently.

Is she pregnant? I see a small bump on her stomach. Oh, no. I look back at the dosage. What if this is dosage kill her baby? I can feel her pulse getting slower. If I don't do this now, they'll both die.

"Nothing."

I insert the needle in a vein on her wrist and push the plunger down.

Her shoulder twitches and he rolls over onto her side facing me.

"Alaska?"

Alaska coughs loudly and manages to raise her arm just before she finishes.

I, along with Christina, let out a sigh.

"Alaska, do you want to sit up?" I ask.

She nods tiredly.

"What the hell? What the hell happened to me?" She says staring down at his bloody clothes.

"I got the cure. You just received it."

"I thought you died, I thought you all were dead." Alaska stares at me wildly.

"No, we're alive. That was a simulation. They were all simulations."

"You're all alive?" She asks slowly.

I nod. "Yes."

"This isn't heaven?"

"No", I laugh.

"I'm alive?"

"Yes."

She lets out a squeal.

"Where's Dale?" She says with huge smile.

"I want to see Dale." She says like a little child.

It reminds me of Lucas.

"I need to rescue Tobias."

"Tris. What's wrong?" Christina asks worry evident in her voice.

"I've spent too long here."

"What happened to Dale?" Alaska says anxiously while grabbing my hand.

I have to lie. I can't tell her, her eyes are too expectant for good news.

"I don't know."

Christina knows I'm lying, a Candor can almost always tell.

"Has he left with the others?" Gemma asks.

"He said he'd find me again." Alaska says sadly.

I want to tell her the truth, I really do but I can't not now, not ever.