Arizona's POV

"As the same way I loved you once, now I hate you with all my heart! I hat.." And with that Callie falls in my arms.

I grabbed her before she falls. "Callie, Cal.." And I end up in my knees with her in my arms. I unconsciously kiss her forehead. I stand up with her in my arms and carried her towards her room and put her in bed. I kneeled in front of her staring her. I know that she's suffering but It's not my fault. I did what I had to even if she doesn't understand. Does she really think that it was easy for me? Of course it wasn't. I lost my wife. I lost the love of my life, my best friend, lover and the mother of my child. I suffered too. Although I wasn't in a prision. I was alone with my son and I woke up everyday even when I thought that my world was breaking. And it did.

When Callie stayed in Spain my world was nothing because she was my world. Since Callie I haven't made love with any other women, because I haven't love since her. And to be honest, I don't think that I will able to love like I loved her. I have had sex this years but it empty sex even with Colleen.

I loved everything with Callie. Work, watch movies, drink some wine, play cards, cook... God, she cocked like a the Goddess she is. And the talks, we could talk for hour about everything. And I don't even know what to talk with Colleen. It's not that I'm comparing, but in that case, the difference between them, it's too much.

At this point, I'm stroking Callie's hair and I'm looking at her. God, she's so, so, beautiful. Perfectly stunning. Eight years in jail and she looks even more hotter and beautiful if it's possible. I didn't marry her because of her body but her curves and her ass had a lot to do with that. And that face and hair. I love her hair, it's silky and very soft. I would love to go through those curls. And her style, she didn't left it behind. She renewed it and she looks gorgeous with her make up done. I was going to continue but I feel her stir...

"What happened to me?" She ask sitting up.

"You passed out. I'm going to call Meredith to see you in Seattle grace." I grab my phone but Callie stops me.

"That's not necessary"

"I think you should go see a doctor." I said to her.

"A doctor it's not going to cure me from my suffering, Arizona." She says looking at me with a look that made want to hold her. "My pain is in my soul. And it's your fault." I sigh. "I resisted eight years in jail thinking that one day I was going to see my son and you want to kill that dream. If you don't let me see him I don't have any reason to live, Arizona." She says crying. God, she's breaking my heart. "You can't take away from me the only thing that keeps me living. Don't see me as the woman who loved you and that was you wife but see me as the mother of you son. I beg you to think about my pain and say something for me to have faith and for continue to live this bitter life." She's sobbing.

At this point, my eyes are shinning. I'm seeing her at her eyes and I can see her pain for a minute but I can't feel it. I don't have that right because I don't know how it feels to be without my son and to be in jail. So I just say the only thing that I could.

"Sorry." And with that, I made my way out of her suit.

I'm in my car and I compose myself and drive to Max's school. In my way I keep thinking about Callie.

"A little, but we are going to do it all together at Aun Bailey's. We all agree to that."

"Yeah, well, I'm going to see that when you get home tonight. So, you better do it." I laugh.

"Of course, mom." He smiled. He's such a good kid. God, if he only knew.

"Are you going to the Center? Do you have a surgery?" He asks.

"Yep. I have two, one with Aunt T."

"Cool. And are you going to Aunt Bailey's after work?" I knew it. But I'm not going to lie. He needs to adjust to Colleen.

"I'm going to have dinner with Colleen, son." He doesn't say anything and I see her change of humor through the mirror. "Is that a problem?"

"It is, but since you don't care about what I think about it.." He says with an attitude.

I sigh, he is Callie's son. "Maximo Robbins, stop your attitude young boy. We talked about this and I really want you to like her, you just have to try."

"I don't want to. I don't want anyone trying to be my other mom. I just have two parents, you and mami. Anyone else." He said getting upset.

"Max, she is not trying to replace you mother, she just want you to like her but you keep making it hard." At this moment, we arrived at Bailey's. "Buddy, I don't want to feel alone, that's all."

"Okay, then." He says and got put of the car. And I do the same.

We are at the door and Miranda opens immediately. "Hi Aunt B."

"Hello kiddo!" Bailey hug him and he just enter the house.

"Well, goodbye to you too, Maximo." I yell.

"Did something happened?" She asks.

"Same as always with the Colleen thing." I rub my face.

"Your problems seems to never stop." She laughs. "Do you want to come in?"

"You don't want to know." I sigh. "No, thank you. I have surgery in a few."

"Did you talk to her?"

"I did."

"How did it go?"

"It went... I don't know, one second we were talking and in the other she was sobbing."

"She is in a lot of pain."

"I know. But I didn't put her in jail, Bailey. I lived in pain too. I still do. It's like she doesn't thing that leaving her hard for me."

"I know. But think that the lie even if it was to protect Max it what most pain her." She says.

"Yeah.." I just want to drop it. "Well, i gotta go. Mark or one of the other are going to drop Max at home. Thank you for having them."

"It's not problem. I love those kids."

"I know. Take care"

I'm in the OR with Teddy.

"A bird told that you were going to have lunch with someone." She breaks the silence.

"Who?"

"Addison."

I love my scrub team, but I know what happens in the hospitals, I don't want any of this to be gossip. "Can we talk about this in my office?"

"Yeah, of course." Se says. "Are you doing something tonight? I thought since the kids are at Bailey's that we could grab a cup."

"I'm going to have dinner at Colleen's."

"So you are that serious" She looks at me.

"I'm trying. I like her and she's good."

"And Max?"

"I talked to him for the last time about this subject. I'm hoping for him to comes to terms with this."

We finish the surgery, scrub out and make our way to my office.

Teddy sits down in my couch and she sees the paper from the necklace I gave to Colleen. "Two thousand dollars for a necklace!?" Here we go.

"First, it's a fancy and elegant necklace and it has her initials with diamonds. So it's expensive and I wanted to have a special detail towards her." I look at her with a pointed look. "Second, since when I have to tell how and for who I spend my money?"

"Well, you don't have, but I just think that you crossed a line."

"I didn't. And if it was the case, it's my problem."

"Well, well, someone's grumpy." She laugh. "What happened with Callie?"

"Long story. Short, we started talking and we argued, of course to end up with Callie passing out." I say looking up.

"What? Is she okay?"

"I don't know. I mean, she woke up a little while ago, but she didn't want to see Meredith or any other doctor in that case."

"So didn't you two came with any term?"

"No, and I don't know what to do." I look at Teddy. "I told her I can't accept the fact she wants to tell Max the truth. Max it's going to hate me."

"Why is Max going to hate you?" Nicole ask while she and Addison enter my office. Nicole wasn't in the moment that all happened but she was part of Seattle Grace and since I wanted to make the Fetal surgery specialty so I asked to join us. And she has been one of my rocks. She knows everything and even when she doesn't know Callie, she has always believed her.

"Because my ex wife is back"

"What the..? When?"

"She's here since past week but we find out last saturday. She was the lady of the party." Addison says.

"You have to be kidding. Why I'm knowing this today?"

"Because I needed to think this weekend and I didn't want to talk about it."

"How did the talk went today?" Addison said.

"You talked? Alone?" Nicole interjects.

"You must know Addison, since you are Callie's best friend." Teddy says.

"It's not like that and you know it. I wanted to talk to her, yes. But she went to my house anyways. And you know that I have always think that she is innocent." Addison said.

"You talked to her too?" Nicole asks. "Why do I have to be last to know everything. That's not fair." She sometimes act like a kid.

"I wanted to think that too but there's a difference between thinking and knowing.." Teddy said.

"Okay, but that's the point, we DON'T know exactly, Teddy. We at least needed to give her the benefit of the doubt" Addison point out.

"We did, Addison. But guess what? She was found guilty." I say. "But what I did was to protect Max. And if you need to say something to me, this is the moment. Or if you want to be on Callie's side, tha..."

Addison cut me off.. "This is not about taking sides, Arizona. Callie's free now and she has suffered enough." Addison said.

"Yes, tell that to Lauren's family and April..." I said.

"Arizona.." Addison tried.

"You know what? You are saying all this.. But I have suffered a lot too, maybe not in a jail but I did. And seems like you and Mark have forgotten that. So if you want to be with Callie, then go.." I said.

"I'm just thinking about what's the best for Max, Arizona."

I don't want to fight with Addison. I get her. But I'm upset and it's not the moment. "I have to go. See you tomorrow."

Later in the evening, I'm at Colleen's. She's in the kitchen making dinner and like usually these I found myself thinking about Callie, Max and all that happened.

Minutes later Colleen, comes into the living room, and sit in my lap. "You seem tense." She says.

"A lot of work." I put my hand in her back.

"Are you sure that's it?" She begins to kiss my neck and reach the back of my ear. I can't tell her that my ex-wife is back and that Max's mother is alive and blabla... I just can't. Not right now.

"Yeah, I just have a lot on my plate right know." I can't stop thinking about Callie.

"You know that you can talk to me about everything? Right?" God, is she going to continue with this shit. I don't want to talk or think. So for her to shut up I lift her and drop her in the couch and I put myself on top.

"Yes. Now shut up." I kissed and I lift her shit up and started to kiss her chest and collarbone.

"We only have 15 minutes. The lasagna is in the oven" She says.

"It's enough" I said and with that I continue my work.