Arizona's POV

I'm currently at Seattle Grace Hospital. I was performing a surgery on a new born that I was requested for. Sometimes they call me and since the Chief left me and the others doctors of the center the privileges. I scrub out and make my way to Mark's office. I feel the need to talk to someone and I know that even if he's Callie's best friend he can separates both friendships. Mark is Maximo's Godfather and also has been a great support as friend to me.

I knock the door and Mark answer: "Come in"

I enter. "Hello Mark"

"Blondie, this is a surprise. Is good to see you. Is there something I can help you with?"

"I need to talk to you."

"Now?" He asks.

"Yup. Do you have something to do right now?"

"No, no. It's okay." He smiles. "Sit." He says pointing to his couch. I sit and he do the same turning around one of the chair in front of me. "So? Is something wrong?"

"I need an advice." I tell him.

"Of course."

"Do you think that is fair for my son to know the truth now?"

"What do you mean?"

"The truth Mark! That Callie was in jail for eight years. That his mother is a murder."

"Arizona, you need to be fair with Callie and with your conscience. You can't stop her from see her son."

"But for Max she's dead." I say.

"That's the point. You don't want her to see his soon because of your fear if your lie is known. That is selfish, Arizona.." He says seriously. "If you came here asking for an advice from me, then listen, you need to tell Max the truth."

"No, no.. I can't.." I say looking at the grown.

"Look, you are going to feel like your heart is about to break but immediately you are going to experience the peace of telling the truth."

Okay. I have to say that Mark has become an admirable man. He has change a lot in the pasts years and I'm so grateful for him to be part of my life. But at the same time I don't think I can do this. At least not right now. "Mark, I can't do what you're asking me to. Eight years ago I lied because I didn't want to destroy my son's life. I'm not going to tell him the truth now. That's not selfish." I say and then I stand up. "I'm sorry Mark but I can't do that."

"Then I'm done with this conversation, Arizona." He says and I can see his disappointment. He stand up too and is about to exit his office.

"Mark, please, please.." I plead before he can left me talking alone. "Don't leave me like this."

"I was with Callie at the Center. I was going to let her see Max at least from distance."

What the? .. "And? She saw him?"

"No. She saw Tim's memorial and that shocked too much."

"And what happened? What did you tell her." I ask.

"She felt bad and wanted me to drop her at the hotel." He says. "And I told her that he died but I didn't say much. I think that she need to find out by you." He says.

"I'm sorry that she had to find out like that" I really am.

"Arizona, Callie is not going to stop until she has Max in her arms calling her mami... She's a mom and she has suffered a lot." Mark says changing the subject. "Eight years of jail are not a paradise.."

"I know. I can only imagine, Mark. And I don't want to excuse myself by saying this, but I have suffered a lot too. I loved Callie with all I had. I was the happier women in the world! And in one moment, that tragedy, that crime." I say somehow... "Callie convicted and I alone with a baby not knowing what to do. My life, my world, my love was destroyed, my future!" At this time my voice was raising.

"I know, Arizona" Mark says offering me his hand. "It's not new that your telling me. I know that you haven't been happy since then. You have pretended, yes, but you haven't feel it for real. But you did that to yourself.

Mark is right somehow. But I... "I did it thinking in everyone else and not in myself. I did it thinking that it was best for Max."

"Tell me something Arizona, do you still love Callie?" I soft myself instantly. "Answer me, Arizona. Do you still love her?" Mark ask again.

"I loved her all life. And now, I don't know my feelings towards her."

"But are you still going to make things formal with Colleen?"

"We are going to do it this weekend." I say removing my hand from Mark's.

"Think it, Arizona. Think about it. You once decided without thinking. I ask you to think about it this time because you are going to suffer that for a long, long time.."

I need to clear my head a bit. I make my way to Colleen's to try. I knock the door and seconds later Colleen open the door.

When she sees me she smiles. "Baby! I wasn't expecting you!" She hugs me and kiss me in the lips. "Come in, sit down!"

In the moment she kissed me I don't know why my mind was thinking so much instead of clearing my mind. So I knew..

"Do you want to drink something? I'm going for a cof.." She offers me.

"No, no, Colleen.. Come on, sit with me." I point next to me in the couch.

She sits. "I want to tell you what I'm thinking." Her expression changes. "Colleen, I'm sorry. But I can't formalize with you." I say.

"What? What are you saying?" She says getting upset. "Why!? Why are you doing this to me, Arizona? I have give you everything! You only have gave me the word of formalize with you with you friends and family and you have to do it for us to have a future as a family, Arizona!" She says raising her voice.

"Please, don't be like this, Colleen." I say trying to keep the calm. "I have enough problems."

"Is that the reason why you can't formalize?" She lows her voice. "Because you have problems?"

"Yes."

"If you resolve them that means that we are going to formalize?" She ask.

"Colleen.."

"Answer me!" She snap.

"I think so.."

"Then we only have to postpone, baby." She says more calm. "We are not going to formalize this weekend. I swear that I'll wait until your problems are solve. And since your parents are moving to Seattle we can do it another time." She says smiling and kiss me while she rubs my neck. "You don't know you scared me, sweetheart."

I stand up and stand in front of the window and Colleen put her arms around me. "Don't worry about nothing. I will handle everything and I will make sure of call our friends to let them know that we postpone the dinner."

"Thank you for taking the notice like this." I say.

"I'm going to be your wife someday, Arizona. How you think that I'm not going to understand you?" That caught me out of ward. But we have talk about this because I don't want to show Max that I'm not serious about this. Also al the talk about me not being alone when Max is in College Colleen thinks that I'm referring to marry her. And maybe, but is soon. "I just want to love you and to be here for you. You are always going to find support in me." She says kissing my neck. I turn around and look at her. She put her arm around my neck and we kiss.

After my talk with Colleen I went to the Center and had surgery. I picked up Max from school and left him home with Leah and now I'm making my way to Callie's hotel. I need to talk to her. I called her while I was on my way and told her that I need to talk. I'm already waiting for her in the lobby of the hotel and I see her getting out of the elevator.

"What do you want? I have things to do." She says cold, like always.

"What things?" I ask while we walk to the door of the hotel.

"It's none of your business. But I'm not going to be rude." She says. "I want to rent an apartment for me to have my own space."

"Well, if you want I can.."

She cut me off. "Give me money?" She stops and look at me. "No way. I appreciate it, but it's not necessary." She says. "Now, tell me, why are you here?"

"Come on, let's walk a little." She sigh. "Yes, it's going to do us good." I say and she start to walk.

We make out way to the park. "Callie, I want to make a deal with you."

"What type of deal?" She ask while we are still walking in the park near the hotel.

"I have been thinking, and I think that you have the right of see you son." I say. She stops surprise. I stop as well and turn around. "But not talk to him. If you accept this term, I will let you see him. Otherwise I'm going to take him out of the country and you are never going to know about him."

"You ask me to not talk to him? To not tell him anything?" She asks confused. "You think is better your lie than my truth?" She provoke me.

"You need to give me time for me to destroy my lie." I say

"I accept! Do it now, what are you waiting for?" She snaps.

"It's not that easy, Callie." I say to her. "I need to find the moment. I'm thinking in our son! Not in me."

"Those touching words. Do you want me to applause you?" She says sarcastically.

"You need to understand that things have changed this past eight years." I say ignoring that. "Out son sees the image of other women as her mami. You are not my wife and I'm not yours. Everything have change. And excuse my rudeness."

"No, you are not being rude. You are being realistic." She says. "But let me clear this to you, if you thing that I'm here to fight for your love you are very wrong. We can talk anytime and even laugh together if the moment deserve it. But we both know that we don't feel anything about each other." I see something I can't read in her eyes besides the anger, of course. "But to be honest, in those eight years I piled up resentment towards you."

"I wasn't waiting anything else." I say. "Are you finish?"

"I just wanted to make things clear."

"For me everything is very clear." Clear as the water, I think to myself. "As you know, I have a girlfriend. And we are going to formalize things in front of my family and friends."

"Yes, this weekend." Callie says looking around.

"I postponed it." I say.

"You postponed it? Why?" She says like she's surprise but she's being sarcastic.

"You really want to know?" I say suspicious at her.

"Of course!" Sarcasm again. God, I hate that hypocrite tone.

"You."

A/N: I WANT TO HEAR YOU!