So the next chapter is probably going to be Magnus POV at first, then switch to Alec's. The action is more with Alec right now. I don't want to just keep rehashing torture scenes between Magnus and the Seelie Queen because tha's boring and it tears my heart up to hurt him that way.

I'm sooooooooo tired, but I hope this chapter makes sense. I can't really promise much, though '-'

I don't own TMI

The first thing I did once Kaelie told me that Elijah was working with our enemies was panic. Pablo had said that Magnus was supposed to meet with Elijah. I came to the only conclusion that made sense to me: Magnus had been kidnapped (or worse, but I could not think like that).

I followed everyone back out to the sanctuary since Pablo was there anyway and I needed to talk to him. When we got there, a group of shadowhunters were leading David away. I saw my father talking to the counselor.

"Jia, Dad. What just happened? Where are you taking him?" I had interrupted what looked like a very intense discussion, but I couldn't be bothered to wait around.

Robert gave me a strange look. Jia answered.

"He will spend some time in the Bone City. It will give us more time to deliberate, although this meeting is over until tomorrow."

Luke came over and did some interrupting himself. "Counselor Jia. I have someone- a faerie- who has very helpful information for us."

Jia looked like she was trying hard not to looked too shock, but no one could really mistake the exasperation in her voice. "A faerie? Are you kidding me?" She pinched the bridge of her nose. "So, you mean to tell me we have a vampire and a faerie- both, in one night- who want to negotiate with us?"

"This faerie is not loyal to the Seelie court, or the queen any longer." Luke responded.

"Well, who is it?" Robert spoke up, gruffly.

Luke hesitated for just a moment. "It's the rep for the faeries, Kaelie. She came to me for help, actually."

Jia and Robert both looked like they wanted to either throttle Luke, or spit on him. Jia spoke first.

"Another faerie that can lie? She is half-faerie, right?"

"Yes, but the vampire can lie, too, you know. So can everyone here. Why is everyone always so hung up on that? Even for the faeries who can't lie, you know that they are still more than capable of being deceptive, anyway." Luke sighed. "She came to me for help because she has a group of faeries rebelling against the Seelie queen. I asked her to talk to the Clave, to help us."

"Ok. I will see her, but alone. I don't think she will get a fair shake in front of this crowd tonight."

After Jia, Luke, my father, and my mother left for the Institute's office (my mother was listening to the conversation and she and my dad had inserted themselves into the meeting that Jia was having with Kaelie), I went to find Pablo.

I was pretty pissed at myself because I had actually forgotten about Magnus while I got distracted with the business with David and Kaelie.

Pablo was on the steps outside, talking to that pink, shimmering warlock when I finally caught up to him.

"What did Elijah say he wanted with Magnus, earlier?" Somehow, I managed to ask that question without freaking out.

Pablo rolled his eyes as he turned to face me. "Look, I told you everything I know. Maybe Magnus just wants to be alone. He's been like that a lot lately, since somebody broke his heart."

I chose to ignore the obvious dig.

"No you look, damnit. Elijah is working with the faeries. Magnus has been kidnapped."

Pablo's eyes got big and he gasped, but he couldn't seem to find anything to say. The pink warlock grabbed his arm and spoke. "Track him, Pablo! What are you waiting for?"

At that, Pablo looked even more apprehensive. "I did that earlier, actually. It was after you called me, Alec. It didn't work, though."

"What the hell?" I exploded. "You couldn't track him and you just chose to go pretend everything was alright?"

"I didn't know. I thought maybe he just didn't want to be tracked, or something."

I was running very short on patience, but I didn't want to take it all out on the stupid warlock. Not yet, at least. I took a deep breath in an attempt to get my frustration under control.

"I didn't even know you could make yourself untraceable." I said.

"Only warlocks. Well, faeries do it too, I guess." He looked like it was a real challenge to think that hard.

I threw my hands up, turned, and walked a couple steps back towards the Institute. I really needed to hit something and I didn't want it to be Magnus' best friend.

Luckily, at that moment Luke came out of the front doors and walked up to me.

"Jia wants Kaelie to address the Conclave in the morning. They are not going to lock her up like they did with David, but they have her under guard. She can't leave here until after she speaks."

"Does Jia believe her?" I asked. I wanted to get back to discussing Magnus' whereabouts, but I was curious about everything else that was going on.

"I think she does. But her story goes against some of the things the vamp was saying."

"Well, ok. We've got another problem. Magnus was kidnapped. Elijah called Pablo earlier for a job that he only wanted Magnus to do. Now no one can find him."

"Shit!" Luke glanced at me briefly and shook his head, the glint in his eyes resembling something that could almost be amusement. "It is always you and your little group that everything happens to, isn't it?"

I barely registered his comment. "What do I do? Apparently he can't be tracked. I just don't know what to do." Even I could hear the panic in my voice, but I couldn't do anything to stop it.

"First, go talk to the guy in charge of the downworlders. After that, get some rest. Everyone will regroup here very early tomorrow. If you went out searching now, you'd probably be more of a liability than anything else."

I tried, in vain, to calm myself down. I needed a clear head if I was going to be any help in finding Magnus. "Ok." I said. "Thanks."

Pablo took a step towards me to, but I just walked away before he could say anything.

An hour later I was back in my old bedroom, lying on the too small bed and trying to will myself to fall asleep. I had talked to the other shadowhunter about Magnus. He confirmed what Luke had said. We would decide what course of action to take in the morning after hearing from Kaelie and again from David. We would probably end up letting David lead us to where the missing downworlders were.

After I talked to him I found Jace and Izzy and informed them on all the new updates. They tried to comfort me, but I, of course, just wanted to be alone.

That was how I found myself in my lonely, dull room. The room that I had grown up in. It really hadn't changed in all the time since we moved here from Idris. Maybe that was because I never really felt attached to it the way other people seem to be with their rooms. I didn't really decorate or personalize the space at all.

If you didn't count the time that I had slept there, I'd spent more time in the library growing up than in my bedroom. And even though I lived alone in my current apartment, it didn't feel this isolated, and I just couldn't shake the loneliness that this room emitted.

This was probably very bad for me, because all I could do was think about Magnus. The night that I had been fanaticizing about ever since we had agreed to work together on our relationship turned out so ridiculously different than what had actually unfolded.

I decided to do what I usually did when I couldn't sleep; I started making to do lists for the next few days.

I got up and went to the little desk in the corner. I had thrown my things there earlier.

That's when I noticed at purple notebook under all of my papers. It had glitter on it.

There was no words or anything on the front so I opened the cover. In writing that was unmistakably Magnus' was a dedication to me that read:

To my Alexander,

I hope you read this and find me

The parts of me that you have been looking for

The pieces of me that I have been hiding

The elements of me that you may not like or agree with

The fragments of me that I have wanted to shield you from

Yet, I give this to you

In the hope that you read this and find me

All of me

Yours forever,

Magnus

Well, I was beyond intrigued and my heart began to pound with excitement. Was this what he meant when he said he wanted to work on something earlier?

I flipped through the pages quickly to see how much was there. The little notebook had most of its pages written on. I have no idea how Magnus wrote that much in such a short amount of time, but I was definitely excited to read it.

I could tell that it was not done. The last sentence on the last page was interrupted right in the middle. In the margins were a lot of scribbled notes where Magnus reminded himself to go back and rewrite or to elaborate.

Maybe excited weren't the only words that described how I felt. I also felt apprehensive and sad. I wished I was reading it under circumstances that did not involve me not knowing where Magnus was and if he was ok.

I also felt bad for reading it since it was obvious that he wasn't done fixing up on it, but I couldn't put the book down.

When we got out of this mess, he was just going to have to forgive me for being so curious.

The next day I found myself arguing with almost every member of the Conclave.

The meeting was scheduled for 7am. I had only gotten about 3 hours of sleep because I was up reading the notebook that Magnus had written for me.

Maybe staying up had made me cranky. I was already pissed at Pablo, but there he was, invited, along with his friends into the meeting again and all because I had insisted upon it yesterday.

Pablo was actually agreeing with everything I was saying. Like, aggressively so.

Like, for instance, there was a near consensus that we should allow David to take us to the Hotel Dumont at nightfall. I still didn't trust him. No one, besides my siblings and the downworlders there, would listen when I said that going to the hotel was probably a trap. Pablo insisted that everyone should listen to me. He actually stood up, walked over to stand near me and repeated himself a few times just to be sure, I guess, that everyone could hear him clearly. I just glared at him.

Everyone else just seemed to be ready for some action. They were ready to run headlong into a situation that they were rather arrogantly sure that they would come out on top of.

Even hearing what Kaelie had to say did nothing to change peoples' minds. I think that was mostly because she didn't offer a solution or an immediate course of action that they could follow.

Before the meeting could end, I found myself standing up in front of the whole congregation, telling them exactly how shortsighted, unintelligent, and cocksure they were all being.

Pablo had the audacity to stand up and say I was 'totally right, bro.'

Ignoring Pablo, Jia said that she thought that I was just being overemotional and strongly suggested that I sat the mission out.

The meeting adjourned around me, with people going off in different directions. Some went home to rest, but most went patrolling or went off to try to gather any more intelligence on either the vampires or the faeries.

I just stood there, feeling like I'd been slapped. I didn't think it was intentional, but I couldn't help but feel like the term 'overemotional' was being used in place of 'gay'. I didn't feel like I was acting differently than any other person in my position would.

After what felt like only a couple minutes of reflection, Jace hit me on my shoulder.

"Are you alright? You've been standing here for almost 10 minutes." Jace said quietly.

"I just got dismissed in front of everybody for being too damn gay."

"I don't recall anyone saying that, Alec."

"Jia might as well have said it. I'm gay, so my opinion must count for less than everyone else's."

"I don't know about that. Maybe she just thinks that you aren't thinking straight because you're so stressed about Magnus. I mean, come on, you just bitched out the entire Conclave. You've never done anything remotely close to that before." Jace smiled a bit hesitantly as he finished speaking.

I stared at him for a couple seconds before smiling a little, as well. "Ok." I conceded. "It felt good, though."

Jace slapped me on the back. "Of course it did. Now come on, princess. We need to make a plan."

Since the Institute was crawling with shadowhunters that did not expect to include us in their plans to go to the Hotel Dumont that night, we decided to go to my apartment.

I had convinced Luke and Pablo to join us all there.

Once we were seated, I spoke.

"David is probably going to lead them into a trap. I think we need to go there, too."

"I totally agree with you, Alec. You're so right not to trust David."

I looked at Pablo with a mixture of exasperation and a little bit of incredulity. "Will you please stop agreeing with me so much?" I asked as I dragged my palm slowly down my face.

He frowned a bit, but didn't say anything. His eyes looked sad.

Damn.

"I am probably more mad at you than I should be, ok. You were easy to put the blame on. I should apologize for not considering that Magnus is your best friend and that you are just as worried about him." I said, thinking that maybe I had been acting overemotional lately.

Pablo nodded. He looked up at me suddenly and smile widely. "It's cool, bro. I do feel guilty about sending him to Elijah, though."

"Maybe we should put the blame and the guilt aside, for now. We need to figure out what to do tonight." Luke said.

Simon spoke up. "I say we just go in after they go with David. That way they can't stop us."

Jace nodded. "Then we can come in a save their ass, yet again."

"That has become a thing with you guys." Luke said.

"What about Kaelie? Did they let her leave after she spoke?" I asked since I had not paid attention after the meeting.

"They sent her with some shadowhunters to get some of the other 'faerie rebels', as they called them, to go to the hotel, although Kaelie refuses to go inside." Izzy said.

Luke spoke again. "Kaelie says the hotel is not the place to find answers and that going there will be for nothing."

"Yeah, the real place to go is probably that foresight building that we saw David coming out of." Clary said.

I turned to Pablo. "Can you help us tonight? Can you get us into the hotel and then maybe into the foresight building?"

Pablo nodded and said that he could. He would be bringing his three warlock friends.

Luke also promised to come with some other werewolves.

We were all determined to come away with our missing friends and loved ones that night.

Thanks for reading!