Nii-sama, why are they here with me?
Why are they smiling at me? Singing to me?
Why is Papa wiping my face? When did I start to cry.
Why is Mommy rocking me?
Do I deserve to have their love? Their attention? Their warmth and their voices?
Why are they so nice?
Didn't I kill them?
Mommy died having me, Papa killed himself because I took Mommy away from him.
You always said Papa's death was an accident, that I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. That was a lie, Nii-sama.
He got drunk with me in the car.
He crashed because he wanted us to die and you to live.