Chapter 10
Spoilers for Season 1 Episode 13 and 14
May's POV
No no no no she can't be gone no. I collapsed on the ground in my bunk in a sobbing mess. Suddenly feeling a hand on my shoulder I look up and see Simmons she has tears running down her face too. "We can't give up yet Agent May, Agent Coulson thinks their is still a way save her. Skye's med pod has been loaded on to the Bus and we are on our way to get people that can help her" Simmons says and I can hear the hope in her voice.
"I was ignoring her" I whisper "it was so stupid".
"She was trying to apologize before we left. I'm sorry, Fitz and I stopped her" She sighed.
"None, of that matters now. What matters is saving her" I say getting up to find Phil and wiping my face "thank you Simmons" I say to her before leaving my bunk. I knew what Phil's plan was to find the drug that saved him but I was not sure how I felt about it, knowing there might be side effects. I found Phil next to Skye's pod. Looking in the window I couldn't decide if she looked better or worse. She had a breathing tub down her throat with other wires and tubes connecting her to different machines that were keeping her alive. She looked pale, too pale. I quickly wiped away the tear that had escaped before Phil could see. I had never felt this helpless even when she was taken I was able to do something to try and help her, but now, there was nothing I could to help my daughter.
"We can still save her" he says.
"Can we? I read your file, you begged to die Phil" I tell him. Not wanting Skye to go through something like that, but not wanting her to die either.
"Skye's not dead yet. It might not effect her the same way" he says walking away on his phone not knowing how his words had affected me.
I was to busy looking at Skye to notice Fitz come up beside me. His cheeks wet with tears. "I am sorry" he says quietly. I look over at him not sure what he was talking about. "This is my fault I shouldn't have let her go in alone"
"It's not your fault Fitz" I say putting my hand on his shoulder not really sure how to comfort the younger agent "no one can stop Skye from doing something she wants to do" I tell him knowing how stubborn she can be.
"You can go in there, you know" he tells me.
"I can't Coulson is probably watching the security feed" I sigh "And he definitely can't know she's my daughter now, if he did he wouldn't let me help her. Even if my helping her is only flying the plane" I say frustrated really wishing I could do more to help her.
"I could loop the security feed" Fitz tells me. I nod and he starts poking at his tablet. "Ten minutes then Coulson might be able to tell that something up" He says before leaving. Slowly I walk in to the room and take her hand in mine. Letting the tears fall freely down my face. "I am so sorry Skye I promised you before you were born that I would protect you but I haven't" I sit down on the seat next to the bed not letting go of her hand. "We are going to help you, but I don't know if thats what you would want" I admit "but, I can't lose you not again not when I just got you back. Maybe thats selfish of me but I need you Skye, this team needs you. So please just…just hang on" I finish and sit holding her hand till Fitz knock on the glass telling me the times up.
She's alive I repeat to myself over and over still not believing it completely, I probably wouldn't till she wakes up. Simmons and I had managed to get the others to go get some sleep. She had tried to get me to go to sleep but, soon realized that it was pointless knowing I wouldn't sleep till I saw Skye awake. Soon after the others went to bed Simmons went to get some rest telling me to wake her if Skye wakes up. Leaving only me and an unconscious Skye, it was only because I had been closely watching her that I instantly noticed her moving and beginning to wake up. Her hand tightened around mine as her eyes burst open. "It's okay, Skye you're alright" I say standing up and moving as close as possible to her without climbing on the bed. She begins to sit up but winced in pain before lying down again eyes widening like she just remembered what happened. She opens her mouth to say something but no words come out only a frog like noise. Quickly turning I grab the water from beside me and put the straw near her mouth, she quickly takes a sip.
"Why does my throat hurt?" she asks her voice sounding weak and harsh and is missing the cheerful underlying tone she normally has.
"You had a breathing tube down you throat" I tell her giving her hand a squeeze attempting to comfort her. She looked childlike, small and so unlike her self. "What do you remember?" I ask because she still looked confused.
"The train, coms going down, Quinn shooting me then shooting me again" she said struggling to get the words out, I held out the glass of water again and she hesitated before taking another sip. "I'm forgetting something" she muttered shaking her head and, I have to restrain myself from pulling her in to a hug, not wanting to hurt her. "Is everyone alright?" She asks and I give a breathless laugh.
"You were shot and are sitting in a hospital bed and you are worried about everyone else" I say and she nods. "Everyone is fine" I say realizing she really is concerned. "Simmons and I sent everyone to bed then I sent Simmons to bed you've been…out of it for a while and no one has slept" I tell her explaining why the rest of the team was missing.
"Am I okay?" she whispers and I almost don't hear her. My heart breaks hearing her say that and I begin to cry again.
"You're okay Skye, I promise" I say carefully giving her a hug not wanting to hurt her and she drops her head in to my shoulder.
"I"m sorry for what I said" she mumbles against my shoulder. I tense, upset that she was apologizing to me after what she had been through.
"Doesn't matter" I whisper I can tell she is about to say some thing but I beat her to it "We will talk about it after you are out of here. Okay?" I tell her carefully pulling her closer as she nods. We sit like that for a long time before Simmons appears at the door.
"SKYE" she yells surprised to see her friend awake. She runs over to the bed and pulls Skye into a hug temporarily forgetting about her injury but, quickly steps back when she hears Skye's painful intake of breath. "oh no I'm sorry" Simmons said panicked.
"I'm fine Simmons" Skye told her smiling, with a weaker version of her cheerful voice back again.
"Good but, now that you are awake we need to do some tests" Simmons told her instantly going in to doctor mode.
"That sound's fun" Skye says sarcastically "you should get some sleep" she says to me looking concerned. "I'm okay. I'll probably go back to sleep after Simmons does her tests you should get some sleep" she says weakly and I hold out the water for her again.
"Fine, but not for long and if anything happens come get me" I say to Simmons more then Skye as I give her another brief hug.
Knock Knock I quickly got up and opened my door panicking that something was wrong with Skye. "She's okay" Fitz said as soon as I opened the door quickly reassuring me "but, she won't go to sleep"
"What?" I ask.
"She is refusing to sleep and when Simmons tried to give her something to help her sleep she started freaking out" He explains "Simmons says she needs to rest and that if you can't convince her to sleep she will be forced to give her something" He says as he follows me towards the med pod.
"Simmons I'm fine" I hear Skye yell before I could see her.
"Simmons can you give us a minute?" I ask her and Skye rolls her eyes.
"Really you got my Mum" she says clearly annoyed.
"Get her to go to sleep" Simmons said before pulling Fitz out of the room.
"What's going on?" I ask her sitting at the bottom of her bed.
"Nothing, I'm not tired" She says as her eyelids look like they are getting to heavy for her to hold open.
"Really, because you look like you can barely keep your eyes open" I say then begin to panic as her breathing becomes short. "Hey, shh it's okay what's wrong?" I say taking her hands as she does the breathing exercises I showed her. She looked up at me and she looked terrified.
"I'm scared" she says.
"You have nothing to be afraid of. Quinn is gone and i'm not going to let him hurt you again" I tell her angry that he has scared her.
"Yeah Simmons told me what happened" she smirks "but i'm not scared of him" she tells me.
"Then what are you scared of?" I ask hating that I am not able to comfort her.
"I heard you" She says quietly holding my hand again. "When you were in here talking to me. I tried to wake up or even squeeze you hand but…..I couldn't" she says getting upset.
"and now you are afraid if you go to sleep that you wont be able to wake up" I say putting the pieces together. She just nods and starts to cry. "Move over a little" I tell her and she carefully moves over to the side of the bed and I move up to lie beside her. I pull her closer and wrap my arms around her while she continues to cry. "You need to rest Skye, you are still hurt" I tell her.
"I can't. What if I don't wake up" she whispers her voice still weak from the breathing tube.
"Skye your okay now, not one hundred percent but still a lot better then you were you can sleep now" I tell her trying not to get to upset and scare her any more then she already is. "I'll stay with you and shake you awake if I have to" I say trying to lighten the mode a little.
"What if that doesn't work?" She says.
"Skye, Simmons wouldn't have left you if anything was wrong she's still in doctor mode" I say not really knowing what to say to her to get her to believe me that it was safe for her to sleep.
"Will you um…stay?" She asks me but looks away like she's embarrassed to ask.
"I already said I would" I tell her and she slowly nods before carefully moving her self into a more comfortable position.
"Goodnight, Mum" she says and I feel her body tense.
"Goodnight, Daisy" I say kissing her forehead. She sighs before moving a little closer to me and falling a sleep.