Ch 4 Getting Anxious.

The clock read 6:00 am when a loud knocking on his door woke him up. He groaned angrily and moaned into his pillow.

"WHAT!" Raph yelled at the closed door.

"Geez dude." Mikey opened the door and poked his head in. "Why do you always have to be so angry in the morning?"

"I didn't get much sleep last night Mikey." Raph snapped as he rolled over onto his shell and glared up at him. "What do you want anyway?" He snarled.

"Master Splinter wants you up and joining us in the dojo for morning practice." He told him as he left his room, shutting the door behind him before he could hear his brother's angry protest he was sure would follow.

Raph laid back down and huffed. He had another night of very little sleep. He felt like his emotions were running wild and he didn't understand why he couldn't control them. He thought about what he had done last night. Sneaking into his brother's room, he thought about the feelings that had run through him. Touching him, feeling a need and want to force himsefl on his brother. He sat up and shook his head.

"No." He told himself, "I am not feeling like this." He let out a small sigh and got out of bed. "There has to be something else going on here." He thought. As he walked out of his room and toward the dojo, he decided he'd let it go for now, do what he could to focus on getting through the day and maybe speak with Donnie later about the strange emotions that were running through him.

He walked into the dojo and stopped just inside as he saw Leo and Donnie sparring, and once again that strange feeling of jealousy came over him. He wanted to desperately step in between his two brothers and force Donnie away from Leo. He suddenly had a need to protect Leo and take him away from their other brothers.

Raph gritted his teeth, clenched his fist and took a calming breath, he turned his head away and closed his eyes tightly trying to will away the emotions that were running through him. He had to stay focus and not let the weird feelings that were going through him take control. As he turned his head back to Leo and Donnie, he saw Leo flip Donnie over his shoulder, thus ending the sparring.

Leo helped Donnie up and they bowed to each other. Leo then turned toward his other brothers and Raph saw a strange look of emotions cross his brother's face as his gaze set on him. Leo then quickly turned his head toward his Sensei and gave him his full attention. But Raph had seen Leo's face and he knew, much to his shame and regret, Leo knew he had been in his room.

Raph looked down at the floor, feeling embarrassed for what he had done. When Leo looked at him, Raph was sure he saw a mix of fear, anger and uncertainty cross his brother's features, and it pained him to have seen it. Raph swallowed as he made his way over to where his brothers knelt in front of their Sensei, he knelt next to Mikey, who was next Donnie, thus making Raph furthest away from Leo. But as he bowed in respect to his Sensei, his eye glanced over to Leo and he decided he would do what he could to make things right.

"My Sons." Splinter began. "Today we will work on your katas. I want you to start with the basic kata and work your way to the current one."

"Hai Sensei." The four turtles chorused. They went to work, getting up and staying in line doing kata after kata. The hour went by fast and eventually they were dismissed and allowed to get breakfast and go do their own thing.

While they sat and ate, Donnie looked at Leo. "So Leo," He started, "Are we going on patrol tonight?" He asked. Both Mikey and Raph looked toward the leader.

Leo looked over toward Raph quickly and then back to Donnie. "Not tonight Don," He told them. "Let's have one more night of rest." Donnie quickly took the hint and after finishing his breakfast, went to his lab. Mikey went over to the living room to play video games, Leo went to the dojo to do extra practice and Raph decided he would go to his room and try to catch up on some much needed sleep.

But his sleep was filled with strange dreams. Erotic dreams that had him moaning and groaning in need. When he awoke, he was covered in sweat and his cock was hard and aching. He quickly jerked himself off and then ran to the bathroom for a much needed shower. As he stood in the shower, letting the warm water run over him, he thought back to the dreams that were now beginning to plague him.

*Lemon*

Both dreams had started out the same way, with him walking into Leo's room as he had done the night before, but in one dream, as he began to touch his brother, Leo awoke and brought Raph down on top of him. Their mouths pressed firmly against each other and Raph eventually got in between his brother's legs and began to thrust into him, and Leo enjoyed every minute of it, begging for more. But in the next dream, Leo had fought Raph, demanding he get out of his room. Raph ended up forcing himself on Leo even though Leo had tried to push him off. It disgusted Raph that in this dream, the more Leo fought him, the more excited he got and the sex only became more enjoyable the more Leo kicked and thrashed his legs. His dream had him hitting Leo, holding him down, biting and forcing him to submit as he came inside him time and time again, and his dream self had loved it.

*End of Lemon*

As Raph stood in the shower, replaying the dreams over and over in his mind, the thought of him forcing himself on his brother began to make his body ache again, only this time there was a growing inferno inside of him, and slowly, a thousand emotions seem to swell with in him, rising from the depths of his soul and making its way out of every part of him.

Raph grabbed his head and the next thing he knew, his mouth opened and he let out a loud roar. He fell to his knees and smashed his fist against the tiled wall. As the throbbing pain in his hand brought him back to reality, the bathroom door opened and his brothers and Sensei came rushing in, questions flying from their mouths.

"Raph?" Donnie voice cut through the haze he was feeling. "Are you okay?"

"Dude!" Mikey yelled out. "What did you do to yourself?"

"My son?" Splinter walked over to him and placed a calming hand on his shoulder. "What has happened?"

Only Leo stood back and watched, his eyes filled with fear and concern. He watched as the others gathered around Raph and tried to help.

"I...I"m okay." Raph insisted while his whole body trembled. "I...I just fell."

Mikey got Raph a towel and, after turning off the water, helped him out of the tub, Donnie took his trembling hand and began to inspect it.

"Why don't you come with me to the lab and I'll check your hand to make sure it's not broken." He told him as they walked out of the bathroom, Mikey followed leaving Leo and Splinter in the bathroom.

Splinter noticed Leo had walked over to the bathtub and was inspecting the side wall. "He didn't fall Sensei." Leo told him as his hand rubbed the spot where a hole now was. "He smashed the wall with his hand...in anger." He looked up at Splinter, the look of fear and concern in his eyes showing clearly.