Story: "Just Alec, now."

Chapter: 05 – What feels natural, is natural.

Rating Story: NC-17

Rating Chapter: R (hard R, nearly NC-17)

Warning(s): AU/AH, mature content, swearing, language

Pairings: Malec, Will/Jem (TID)

Disclaimer: Cassandra Clare thought of the wonderful world of the mortal instruments and infernal devices. I just play with the characters and change a bit of their life.

AN: Dear readers, reviewers, followers and favers: Thank you!

Alec woke up in the middle of the night. He had gone to bed very early. After eating two slices of pizza he was sated and the warmth made him feel sleepy. Taking Jem's advice he soon changed into his new pyjamas – brought by Will while Alec was unconscious at the hospital – and snuggled into the sheets. He had been so tired that he hadn't heard Magnus while the older teen was rummaging around in his room and kept on swearing as he couldn't find the essay that was due the next day. Now the older teen was snoring softly in his bed and going by the lump, he was sleeping in an uncomfortable position – at least for Alec.

The younger teen stood up and made his way to the door, careful not to wake the other boy by tripping over some clothes lying on the floor. He opened the door slowly and walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water for his dry throat. He was about to take a sip from his glass when he heard a noise. He couldn't place it and was about to chalk it up to his imagination and the darkness around the loft. The teen took a long sip from his glass putting it into the sink as it was empty. Alec made his way back towards his and Magnus' room as he heard the noise again – this time a bit louder. He bit his lip and stood still. He hadn't imagined it. The young man stood still listening into the silent night. There it was again. It sounded like panting or really loud breathing – he just couldn't place it. Waiting for the noise to come again and placing it coming from the other end of the loft, he turned around and made his way in that direction. He just knew that there were Jem and Will's bedroom and bathroom, their home office and a small linen cabinet. Swallowing the teen walked along the floor trying to make as little noise as possible.

As he walked on, the noise got louder and more frequent. Light was spilling from Jem and Will's bedroom as the door stood ajar. He leaned forward trying to look through the small crack. He gasped, tumbled over his own feet as he wanted to make his way back to his bed and landed on the floor. He closed his eyes trying to forget what he had just seen. Jem sitting on Will. Moving slowly up and down, his back glistening in the light. His head was thrown back showing of his neck adored with purple love bites. He was moaning softly while Will held him by his hips leaving marks with his fingers. The dark-haired man had his eyes half-opened and fixed on his partner. Alec shook his head and stood up. Not caring if he made enough noise to wake up the whole house or if Jem and Will heard him, he ran back to his room.

He made his way to the bathroom closing and locking the door behind himself. He felt so stupid. He knew that Jem and Will were partner, that they were sleeping together and somewhere in the back of his mind it was clear to him that they – like every couple – would be intimate and sleep with each other. He sighed and slid to the floor until his back was pressed against the door with his legs drawn to his chest. Moments later he heard a commotion in Magnus' bedroom.

"What the hell? Will! Put that out! It can't be time to wake up." He heard the rustling of sheets imagining the older teen turning around to face his guardian. "Holly shit! Put some damn clothes on! You will scare Alec!"

"I think we already managed that.", the older man roared shutting the younger male up.

A soft knock came from somewhere above his head.

"Alec? Alexander? Please open the door."

Taking a deep breath the teen turned around. Sooner or later he would have to face the older men as he wanted to stay living with them. He unlocked the door and moved over to the bathtub sitting on its edge, waiting. As soon as he sat down, the door opened. Jem walked inside closing the bathroom door behind himself leaning against it. His face was flushed – Alec didn't know if he was embarrassed or if it was from the "exercise". Blushing at his own thought the dark-haired teen looked down at his feet.

"I'm sorry for looking?", he mumbled to his feet.

"Oh Alec." Jem was laughing, looking fondly at the teen. He walked over and sat beside the teen careful that nothing was revealed through his bathrobe.

"What did you see?" Alec looked up at the older man noting that he was still flushed, nibbling at his bottom lip.

"I... Well you and Will... were doing... it."

"That is one way to put it."

The gray-haired man cleared his throat. "William and I have been together for many years. We have known each other longer than that. We are partners. Some would they we are lovers. But for me – what we have – is so much deeper than love. We trust each other fully. We would never hurt the other because we know exactly what would hurt the other the most." He laid his hand on Alec's that was resting between them. "One day, I hope you will be lucky enough to feel something similar with your partner."

"I... I'm gay."

"I know." The older man slung his arm around the teen's waist and pulled him close. "That clearly doesn't worsen your chances." He pecked the teen on the crown of his head and let him go.

"Do you think you can go to sleep now?"

"No."

"How about some hot chocolate or a cuppa?"

"Cuppa?"

"Oh sometimes I forget that you had seldom contact to British citizens – former or not. A cuppa is simply a cup of tea."

"A cuppa, please."

Jem opened the door to Magnus' bedroom finding it empty. They made their way to the living room where Magnus was siting on the couch with a cup of tea in hands trying very hard not to look at Jem or Will – the later who had pyjama pants on and was busy pouring more tea in two cups. The older teen's face was flushed and it was definitely not from the hot tea. Alec sat beside Magnus on the couch and thanked Will for the offered tea.

"Magnus? Is everything alright? Should I fetch the thermometer?" Reaching over to feel the teen's forehead, all Jem got was a 'squee' and an obviously embarrassed Magnus who was skirting back on the couch. "Magnus?"

"Oh let him be." Will sat on the arm rest of Jem's armchair sipping his tea smirking into his cup.

"What did you do, William?" Setting his cup on the saucer the dark-haired man turned a bit to his partner.

"He was asking what "all the fuss was about" and "why the hell was I walking around naked". As I'm always honest to my lovely charge I told him that Alec had seen us having sex." Said teen blushed to the roots of his hair hiding behind his own cup of tea.

"William!"

"What? It's not like he hasn't done it himself. You and I know that Magnus is no virgin." Silence descended upon the room. The older teen pressed his lips together until they turned white. He put his cup of tea on the coffee table and walked into his room closing the door forcefully.

"William was that really necessary?" The dark-haired man rubbed his hand over his face.

"No, of course not." He sighed and followed the path of the older teen.

"William has a fiery temper, so does Magnus. I try to mediate but mostly I let their argument run its course. In the end one or the other has to apology." Alec nodded at the gray-haired man's words having seen an argument for himself on his very first day in the loft.

"How... May I asked how Will became Magnus' guardian? I know it is rather personal."

"Will and Magnus are related through Magnus' biological father."

"So it's family business?"

"Not really. Will was fighting to take custody of Magnus and not let him live any longer with Magnus' father. It wasn't good for him. He was never safe there." Taking the last sip of his tea, Jem took the cups from the table and put them into the sink. "Do you think you can sleep now?"

"I think so."

"Good. Then you should go to bed. We will wake you in the morning." The gray-haired man was still looking contemplative at the dishes in the sink. Sighing the teen walked to his room.

Will was sitting on Magnus' bed murmuring to the other teen who had his back to his guardian. Looking up at Alec who was watching them from the door way, the dark-haired man rubbed Magnus' back and stood up. He walked by Alec ruffling the teen's hair and wished them a 'Good Night'.

The younger teen slipped between the covers snuggling into the sheets. Magnus stretched up and put the light out. It was nearing 3 am in the morning. Sighing Alec turned on his back looking at the ceiling.

"You really saw them doing the deed?" The younger teen blushed heavily. He was just about to forget this nights' events.

"Yes." The sheets on Magnus' bed rustled as the older teen turned around to Alec.

"How much did you see?"

"Just a glimpse. It was really embarrassing." He bit his bottom lip.

"I bet it was. No one imagines his parents to be sexually active."

"I rather prefer to think they are asexual."

"Even asexuals have sex. Just not as often as others."

"You're speaking from experience?"

"Maybe I am." It was meant as a joke but hearing Magnus being so earnest made Alec think. "I'm not asexual if you're thinking about that."

The late night traffic could be heard through the titled window that was letting some fresh air into the room.

"I was 13 and is was with my best friend." Blinking his heavy eyes Alec sat up and looked over at Magnus.

"I had still been living with my father – my biological father – at that time. He wasn't the best influence. My friend – Ragnor – was out of the closet but I still wasn't sure about myself. One evening we were alone at my father's flat. We found a stash of porn behind some books – gay porn of all things. Being 13 we thought that it was a good idea to watch some of it. Well soon we reacted to what we were seeing and we wanted to try it. We started to kiss and touch and soon we wanted more. I knew where my father kept his condoms and one thing let to the other."

Magnus sighed heavily. "Do you regret it?"

Contemplating Alec's question, the older teen took his time to answer.

"Do I regret having done it with my best friend? No. Do I regret it having done it at 13? Yes, sometimes."

The younger teen lay down again. "Will always says that one should do what feels good and natural. Because what feels natural, is natural. And between all the stuff he is saying on a normal basis, that is some of the better advice given by him." Mulling over the words, Alec fell asleep.

reneblond : There may be someone in the future looking for Alec ;)